It was indignation, that last. Vanye leaned on the saddlebow and frowned—it was a change in Chei’s voice and bearing, was even daring of a Man toward a qhal who threatened him, and with corpses a-smolder in the forest to prove it. “What,” Vanye said, “‘we’? Friends of yours? And how will we fare with them?”
Chei’s mouth stayed open an instant. There was a wild flicker in his eyes, only the briefest of moments. Then his glance settled from him onto Morgaine and back again. “The same as I,” he said. “They will kill us all, you on sight, me when they recognize me for one of Ichandren’s men. Prisoners do not come back. But if we go back to the Old Road, they will take us for Gault’s and kill us just the same.”
It was wretched enough to be the truth.
“And where are they?” Morgaine asked. “Close enough to cause that band of Gault’s to ride at night? What are we going into?”
“War,” Chei said, “war, lady, beginning with that fire down there and eight men dead. If things had settled to any truce before—Gault will lay that fire to the account of human folk, and human folk will know that when they see the fire. Up there in the hills they will know it, and they will move down to strike while they can, while Gault’s men are occupied putting it out—Gault knows that too; and he will throw every man he can spare out toward the hills to prevent it. That is the way things are. We must go up, by the remote trails, we must keep moving by night, and hope we do not have to give account of ourselves—there will be ambushes laid on every road Gault’s men will take.”
It seemed like the truth. It seemed very much like the truth, after so much of deception and mistake.
“Should we believe you?” Morgaine asked. “You are twice wrong, Chei.”
“I do not want to die.” Chei’s voice trembled. He leaned forward in the saddle, shirt-clad shoulders taut in the chill wind. “Before God, lady—if we go the way you want we will run head-on into ambush. I know that I have been wrong. I have no excuse, except I hoped we could go faster, except—I lied—how well I knew the land down there. Here, truly, here is the place I know. I have lived to get here. And I will not, on my life, be wrong again. I swear it to you.”
“We dare not tire the horses,” Vanye muttered. “Liyo—whatever we meet, we cannot push them now.”
Morgaine looked at him. For a moment there was that look in her eyes he knew and dreaded—that impatience that would kill them. Then reason returned.
“I know a place,” Chei said very quietly, “not far from here, to camp.”
• • •
It was a place well-hidden among the trees, where a spring broke from the rocks of the hill—not a great deal of water, Vanye saw as they rode in, but sufficient. He climbed down from the saddle, finding suddenly that his very bones ached, and that the mail weighed far more on his shoulders than it had when he had put it on two days ago. “Let me,” he said, catching up Siptah’s reins while Morgaine dismounted: the gray stud had decided on war with the stolen bay gelding, and his ears were back and his movements full of equine cunning—not outright challenge, but going toward it, in little increments of aggression that meant all three of their horses unsettled.
“He hates that horse,” Morgaine said, and reached and jerked at the gray’s chin-strap, turned his attention and rubbed the nose the stallion offered her like a maid’s fat pony. “I will take him in hand, no mind. It is Arrhan has him disturbed.”
A heat came to his face. It was as close to reproach on that score as she had come, and it flew straight to a sore spot.
While Chei, wisely, drew his horse well off out of reach in the little clearing among the pines—for pines they were, at last a tree like trees of Andur-Kursh; and a little scraggle of grass among the rocks.
But the while he unsaddled the mare, Vanye shot glances Chei’s way, past Arrhan’s shoulder—“Heaven knows,” he said to Morgaine, “what is in that gear he has gotten along with the horse.”
“We will find out,” Morgaine said quietly, the while she took down Chei’s armor, which Siptah had carried this far. “He will have his own gear to carry when we ride on, that much I know.—Hush, hush.” She reached and smothered a nicker from the gray stud, and gave several sharp tugs at the halter-strap. “Do not thee make us trouble, thou.”
The Baien gray muttered and shook his head and Arrhan fretted beside him. “It is the fighting,” Vanye said. “Among other things.”
“It is the other things,” Morgaine said, and looked at him in a way that, vexed as she was, said that nature was what it was—the which stung twice over.
“I will be rid of her.”
“I did not ask.”
More than Chei’s horse was inconvenient. He clenched his jaw and took off the mare’s saddle and rubbed her down from head to foot, the while Morgaine did the same for the gray and put him in better humor.
Then Chei came walking over, bringing the saddlebags which belonged to the bay.
And with a harness-knife in his hand.
Chei lifted that hand and held it out hilt-foremost, letting the saddlebags to the ground. “I do not think you want me to have this,” he said; and as Vanye reached out and took it: “Search the bags if you like. Or myself.”
Vanye stood staring at him. It was a point of honor Chei put in question.
“Do that,” Morgaine said, having no compunction in such things.
Or because her liegeman hesitated.
“Come with me,” Vanye said to Chei. That much courtesy he returned, not to shame the man. He took him aside, against the rocks, and ascertained, to their mutual discomfort, that there was no second knife.
“I would like,” Chei said, staring past him while he searched, “to borrow a razor. I would like to shave. I would like to have a knife to defend myself. I would like to have the blanket that came with this gear. I lost yours in the woods. I am freezing.”
“Take the blanket,” he said; and, finding nothing: “As for the razor—” He thought more of the man’s suicide with it, and discarded the idea. It was not the choice of a man so determined to live. Nor was the choice which had brought him back to them—mere cowardice, in a man who had survived what this one had. “I will lend you mine.—I will search the rest of the gear, understand.”
“I did not doubt it,” Chei said.
• • •
Smoke drifted up in a general haze about the hills; Vanye perched low on the rocks to see what he could of the direction of the fire, and climbed down again to Morgaine’s side, where she worked. “Our cookfire will draw no notice,” he said.
“Is it burning east?”
“East and quickly east. There is a great deal of undergrowth. I do not think they will be able to stop it till it comes to open fields.” It still troubled him, about the burning; and most, the thought of the horses haunted him. “They may not get through those roads if the wind shifts. Nothing may.”
Morgaine said nothing for the moment, as she stirred a little salt into the meal. Then: “Would we could assure that.”
Vanye dropped down to his heels and rested his arms on his knees, thinking of that map Chei had drawn for them, how far they had come and how far there was yet to go, northward to a place called Tejhos, where a gate stood, and into a land utterly qhal.
And never quite did Chei leave his attention, as he was under Morgaine’s observation from where she sat working.
It was a stranger that emerged from under that blond thatch of hair and straggling beard. With one of their cooking-pans full of water from the trickle of a stream that served them, with the borrowed razor, the lump of soap, and Morgaine’s tortoise-shell comb, Chei had washed his hair and braided the sides of it and the crown of it, which the sun was drying to its straw color; and sat thereafter leaning forward and doggedly scraping the lathered beard off.
It was a lean face, sun-darkened above and a little paler where the beard had cover
ed it. It was a well-favored face, and unexpectedly young—hardly more than two score years, if that: nothing of madness about it, nothing but a young man of whom no one would expect an older man’s experience, and who showed a meticulous if oddly timed determination to present a better appearance to them. Chei was shivering the while, wrapped in his blanket as far as his waist, in the thin shirt above, and scraping his skin raw with a keen razor and cold water, his wet braids dripping water onto his shoulders and adding to his chill.
Perhaps it was his new freedom, given a horse, given the wind of his own hills blowing on his face.
A man of Andur-Kursh could understand such a feeling . . . who knew he would never come to his own highlands again; who found something familiar in the chill of the wind and the smell of pines and the manner of a young man who for some reason had recovered his pride again—and perhaps his truthfulness.
Chei came back to them, to return the razor and the pan and the comb, bringing his blanket with him and settling with a shiver at the tiny fire.
“Here,” Vanye said, and offered him his own cup of tea—receiving a look of earnest gratitude in return, so natural an expression, of a face so changed and eyes so strangely shy of them now Chei had restored what must be his proper self—
—A golden meadow . . . a parting. His cousin riding away, last friend, save his liege.
And there was something so like himself in this young man who attached himself to them, whose glances toward him were earnest and worried and wanting—perhaps nothing more than friendliness. A man could grow that desperate.
He remembered—remembered his house, and his brothers, and being the bastard son, gotten on a Chya prisoner in a Nhi house and lodged under the same roof as his father’s heirs. Generally both his brothers had tormented him. More rarely his middle brother had mitigated that. And to him, in those days, that had seemed some sign that brother secretly loved him.
Strangely—in their last meeting, there had been something of that left, small as it had always been.
Now it was that desperate gesture Chei had made, that glance directed at him, which touched that recollection: see, this is myself, this is Chei, am I not better than what you thought of me?
It ached, deep as an old wound. On so small a thing, his heart turned around and found the man no threat at all—which was foolish, perhaps; he told himself so. He was always too forgiving; he knew that of himself, that his brothers had set that habit in him—a foolish conviction that there was always the hope of a hope of something changing, a misguided faith which had kept him in misery all those years.
And helped him survive all they had done to him.
He ventured a dark and one-sided smile Chei’s direction, a gesture, a reassurance on the side Morgaine might not see; and saw that little shift of hope in Chei’s eyes—ah, it was the same pool and the same poor desperate fish come to the bait: poor boy, he thought, Heaven help you, Heaven help us both, it was Morgaine who pulled me out. Who will save you? God, is it me you look to?
He passed Chei the cake Morgaine passed him, cut a bit of cheese and passed that too, then a bit for Morgaine and for himself.
It was a small thing, the precedence of a guest, but it was not lost on Chei. His eyes lightened. He settled easier and adjusted the blanket about himself so he could lay his meal in his lap; it was a healthy appetite he had gained, too.
There had been food in the saddlebags Chei had appropriated: that went into common stores. It was rough-ground grain and a flask of oil and a bit of salt, all welcome. A sort of jerky along with it. A change of linen. And a pan and a cup, a whetstone, a rasp and blunt scraping blade, oddments of rope and leather, with a harness ring—valuable, all; a packet of doubtful herbs, the which Morgaine spread out beside her now, and asked Chei the name and properties of each.
“That is yellowroot,” he said of one twisted, dry sliver. “A purgative.” And of others: “Lady’s-cap, for the fever. Bleeding-root, for wounds.”
It had value, then. So had the blanket, since Chei had lost one of their two in the fire.
“The riders did not come from very far, or intend to stay long,” Vanye said, “reckoning what they carried with them.”
“No,” said Chei, “they were a patrol, that was all. A few days and back to Morund land.” He swallowed a mouthful of cake, and waved the back of his hand toward the hills. “There is always trouble.”
“But now more of it,” Morgaine said. “Very much more.”
The hand fell. Chei’s ebullience vanished as he looked at Morgaine. For a moment the fear was back, and what thoughts went through his head there was no knowing.
“I mean no harm to your folk,” Morgaine said. “I will tell you something, Chei: what I am I will not argue with you; but by what you have told me, there is no harm I will do you . . . unless you have some reason to love the lord in Mante.”
“No,” Chei said softly.
“Nothing I intend will harm your folk in these hills,” Morgaine said. “Perhaps it will do you a great deal of good. Qhal have reason to fear me. You do not.”
“Why—” Chei’s face had gone still and pale. “Why should they?”
“Because I will be sure there are no more Gaults—no more comings and goings through the gates. No more of what gives them their power over you. Humankind has only to draw back and wait. In time, you will outnumber them. And of that—they know the end. That is why they war against you.”
Chei surely knew that he had heard a perilous thing. For a long moment he hardly seemed to breathe; then his glance flicked desperately Vanye’s way.
“It is true,” Vanye said. But it was not, O Heaven, so simple as that, it could never be. And surely a man grown to his manhood in war—knew that much. Morgaine was lying—by halves and portions.
“What will you do?” Chei asked of Morgaine, bewildered. “What will you do, alone?”
“I shall shut the gate. I shall tell you the absolute truth: when I do that, Vanye and I shall pass it, and we will destroy it behind us, with all its power and all its harm. Serve me as you swore you would and I will give you that same choice: pass the gate or remain behind, in this land, forever. To no one else will I give it. I shall counsel you against accepting it. But at some time you may desire it, desperate as your situation is; and if you do choose it, I will not deny you that right, if you have kept your word to us.”
For a moment Chei rested still, lips parted, eyes fixed on her. Then he broke the spell with a desperate, humorless laugh. “Against Mante?”
“Against Mante and against Skarrin who rules there, if that is what opposes us. Against anything that opposes us, qhal or human. Our motives are very simple. Our solutions are very direct. We do not argue them. We pass where we will and best if we meet no one and share no hospitality of your folk, however well-meant.”
Chei caught up the blanket that had fallen from his shoulders, as if the wind were suddenly colder. His face was starkly sober.
“Now, Chei, I have given you my truth. I will listen to yours, if there is anything that presses you to tell it me, and not hold it against you, but beyond this I will hold any omission worth your life. Does anything occur to you, Chei, that you ought to tell me?”
“No.” He shook his head vehemently. “No. Everything is the truth. I told you—I told you I had lied; but I did not mean to lie—”
“A second time I ask you.”
“I have not lied!”
“Nor omitted any truth.”
“I guide you the best that I know. I tell you that we cannot go back to that road, we have no choice but go through the hills.”
“Nor claimed to know more than you do.”
“I know these hills. I know the trails—here, here I do know where I am. This is where I fought. You asked me guide you through the other and I had only been that way the once, but here I know my way—I am trying, lady, I am try
ing to bring us through to the road beyond the passes; but if we go that road, through those passes, they will catch one glimpse of your hair, my lady, and we are all three dead.”
“Human folk, you mean.”
“Human folk. They watch the road. They pick off such as they can. They ambush qhal who come into the woods—”
“In this place where you lead us.”
“But they expect qhal to come in numbers. They expect humans serving the qhal, in bands of ten and twenty. They do not expect three.”
“It must happen,” Vanye said, “that your folk fall to the qhal; and that such as Gault—know these selfsame trails; and that Gault’s folk have guides who bring them very well through these woods.”
“So my people will assume I am,” Chei said. “That is exactly what they will think. That is why we do not go on that road. That is why moving quietly and quickly is the best that we can do. I am no safety to you. And you are a death sentence for me.”
“I believe him,” Morgaine said quietly, which was perhaps not the quarter from which Chei expected affirmation. He had that look, of a man taken thoroughly off his balance.
“So you will show us how to come on these folk,” Morgaine said, “by surprise.”
“I will show you how to avoid them.”
“No. You will bring us at their backs.”
Vanye opened his mouth in shock, to protest; and then disbelief warned him.
“To prove your good faith,” Morgaine said.
Surely Chei was thinking quickly. But every hesitation passed through his eyes, every fear for himself, every hope sorted and discarded. “Aye,” he said in two more heartbeats. “Ah. Now you have lied to me,” Morgaine said.
“No.” Chei shook his head vehemently. “No. I will bring you there.”
“You are quick, I give you that; but a mortally unskilled liar, and you have scruples. Good. I wondered. Now I know the limit of what I can ask you. Rest assured I intend no such attack. Do you understand me?”
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