A cool breeze passed over her, "I haven't had a good day since you left me…you were going to show me the world…I even listen to your favorite music, drinking our favorite wine. Every night I see you in my dreams and we're flying in the air holding hands."
She closed her eyes, gritting her teeth against the scream that was at the base of her throat. "I keep telling myself every day that I'm alright and I'll be okay. But God damn it I can't. I just can't. Waking up with you gone has been hell…it's so hard to function." Mina gripped his dog tags, "How the hell am I going to love someone else when you're the only one I've ever loved? You kept me sane when I had nothing else. I trusted you, and only you." She turned her head and pressed her burning forehead against the cool stone.
"Remember the night before I went into the Scarlet Corp? We made love, and you held me so tight like you were going to lose me, you treated me like I was a flower…" She watched the flash of bright blood, and hearing Ace scream. "That night was the most magical night of my life. You gave me the push to fight with the good guys." His face flashed before her eyes with his bright blue eyes and bright smile.
Her throat tightened, and she finally let the grief consume her. Myrna dropped the dog tags on her chest and wrapped her arms around the headstone. Her tears flowed like water over her face. "No one knows how much I miss you…" She breathed hard as a hard sob came from her chest. "Why…? Why didn't you just let Agatha attack me?! You knew I wasn't like you! I could've survived! I could've…I could've…"
Myrna screamed.
"I can't do this! I can't keep living with your memory! You swore that you would always protect me, no matter what! That night, you asked me to marry you…and I couldn’t give you an answer…" She gripped the sides of the headstone.
She wailed, "My answer is yes…my answer was always yes.” As she laid her head against the cool stone, the soft rustle of wings made her look up. A cardinal sat on the limestone, tilting its head at her. It jumped from the headstone to her shoulder, rubbing its head against her face.
When she looked from the cardinal to the roadway where her car was, a tall figure stood there with robin egg blue eyes and a boyish smile. He gave her a light wave. It took a moment for her to catch her breath, he was coming down the long walkway wearing a black suit. He had a bouquet of flowers, and he locked eyes with her.
For a moment she believed she was seeing Ace.
The man came forward and the bird took flight from her shoulder, she still had tears on her face. “W... who are you? No one else knows where Ace is buried.” She was too tired to fight it, too tired to even try.
The man stopped next to her and laid the flowers on the gravesite. “I’m Doran Wilder, Ace’s younger brother.” He knelt, next to her and gave her his hand, “You must be Myrna.” Again, that boyish smile brought life to his eyes.
“It’s nice to meet you.”
For the first time in almost two years, Myrna’s heart didn’t ache. She reached out and took his hand, gently shaking it. “Yeah...nice to meet you too…”
He gave her a wink, “Come on Supergirl, let's get you some food.”
“How…?”
Doran nodded to the cardinal, “A little birdie came and found me.”
About The Author
Vivian Vandam
Vivian lives in Maryland with her husband, fellow author James Lefay Bishop. She writes whenever she can, and when the inspriation strikes.
Books By This Author
The Raven and The Shield
**WARNING THIS BOOK CONTAINS SEXUAL ASSULT AND ABUSE**
Locked in her room, trapped within the walls of Raven Stone castle, Julianna’s life has been like a prison sentence, controlled by her evil, conniving mother and cowardly father. Her mother, the mad Queen Agnes, has sold her in marriage to an awful prince, who aims to take what he wants, regardless of her wishes. Julianna longs to be freed of her mother’s twisted quest for power, and to find a purpose in life as something other than breeding chattel. If only she could be like the warrior in her dreams. Then she sees the golden warrior with eyes like a steely sea who arrives at the port of Raven Stone.. Viking Jarl Yrsa Hilde Eidottir arrives at Raven Stone requesting to purchase land for her people, but her secret mission, unknown to the Mad Queen, is to find the lost daughter of Frejya and bring her home. Frejya has shown her in dreams that she must fight to save her. Then she sees the pale beauty of Raven Stone castle, with hair as black as a raven’s wings and eyes as red as a cardinal. Yrsa is sure that is the right one. Nothing will stop her from bringing Julianna back to her rightful home… her home. Fire and Ice come together, with a romance for the ages in Vivian’s first LGBTQ+ romance.
Flowerfell
She longed for a different life, to be free from the clenches of the demon that she called father.
She got her wish.
Rosemary, a young, beautiful angel, was left for dead in the middle of Grey Hills forest where the son of the devil resides, Adrian. Little did both of them know they would be the start of something new, something...dangerous.
Their connection was instant, their love sudden. They both knew the consequences and what could happen. In the end, they had each other. That's all they wanted.
DISCLAIMER: Flowerfell is meant for readers 18+. It has sexual content and deals with abuse.
Carnival of Rust
Taking a step back, my back bumped into a solid mass. I froze; sweet cotton candy smell washed over my body. The hairs on the back of my neck stood straight up, sweat dripped down my between my breasts and my stomach turned into knots. My legs began to tremble, and my bladder turned to water. Sharp nails tickled the back of my neck, hot breath running over my flesh. The solid mass leaned in; the overpowering sweetness came from this being.
“Welcome home, toots,” he whispered.
My Marionette
That’s how it works. You wake up in absolute agony; an itch you can’t scratch, and hunger that you can’t sustain…a thirst you can’t quench. That’s what he does. He takes away all memory of what you once were and replaces it with what you truly are. A thing, a monster. That’s what they don’t tell you. Once he wipes you clean of who you once were, you become what we all are on the inside. A monster. A killer. None of us are safe.
The very words she was afraid of, Faylen forced away from her son and family, is now fighting for her life and the safety of her son. What more does the King want from her?...Her very soul. She knew the answer, she was just afraid, afraid of the very truth of what she must do.
To survive, she must sacrifice everything she once knew, to become the very thing she fought against. The Devils son's wife, and his Marionette.
Rivers' Demon
River is a Shadow Hunter with no memory of the night her twin sister and parents were murdered. She flees to Tampa from Grey Hills to start a new life. Azriel is a immortal monster, a fallen angel searching for the woman who has the answers to his missing memories.
When his search leads him to Tampa Florida, and their paths cross again, Azriel is sure he has found her again. River is Inexplicably drawn to him. Passions flair as they rediscover forbidden love that is stronger then their lost memories. Together they take down the forces trying to keep them apart, and begin a new chapter of their lives with a new family.
Disclaimer: River's Demon is an erotic thriller that contains intense sexual content and violence. If such content offends you, please don't buy this book. This is also a rewrite of “a heart of broken glass.” I gave this story a facelift and much needed extra content.
Moon Song
Before Adrian and Rosemary, before Lucian and Faylen, even before Azriel and River. There was Holly and Jack. The two that started it all. Welcome to Moon Song. Where true love will always win. No matter the situation.
Holly was on the run, she had committed the ultimate crime.
Murder.
She was forced to stay low in the worse part of London--Silverton--where the demon resides. She managed to stay hidd
en for this long, but the townspeople are growing restless and the demon are growing hungry.
Sinister Secret
Kyrah wasn't like your normal, average twenty-something. She had a secret no one else knew about. But her, and the dead. For years Kyrah saw the world in black and white, her emotions the same. Everything was bleak, empty...that was till she met him.
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It was a stupid mistake and he knew it. Grigori knew the rules, and he knew better than to go behind his father's back and break them. He fought too hard to lose his place, he was surpassing the shifters.
Even though he couldn't see colors, or feel any type of emotion outside of battle...that was till one secret was finally told. And he was forced to play his hand.
Forsaking the Crown
She was different, never the same, never normal. After being ripped away from her father, Aribella was forced to stay with her mother and step-father in a place she didn't consider home. Barnard, her familiar kept her company throughout the lonely days and nights. She was teased ever since she could remember, being harassed for what she was. An immensely powerful witch. Her father told her ever since she was young, she was made for something much bigger. Her fate was already written in the stars.
The night she played a dangerous game was the very start of her new, and dangerous life.
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Everything ripped away from him, being forced into isolation away from his throne and to live under his brother, Adrian, for however long his father wished. His life became bleak and empty ever since Seraphina left. Coren had no choice but to obey and bend to his father's will.
Till she was born. The earth moved and things were changing. He tested positive for Love Sickness. He must go back to the human witch, who summoned him. Terrified of the consequences of his actions, Coren must choose, to reign as king, or sacrifice it all for the one who was made for him.
The Violet Camellia
After the death of her beloved grandfather, Violet leaves her abusive boyfriend and returns to her hometown, Camellia. She inherits her grandfather's flower shop, and the role as the town's protective angel. Sad, broken people are drawn to the town for comfort and healing. Violet meets a man who is as damaged as she is, and they face danger and death together. The spark of instant attraction between them ignites into a steamy romance. If you love romance with a touch of intrigue, you'll fall in love with Camellia in book one of the series about an extraordinary small town, and the life and loves of its extraordinary residents.
Brielle
She was a shadow, some even say a ghost. Brielle, was the girl with no past and no present. No one knew who Brielle was, not her boyfriend or even herself.
Because Brielle, never existed.
Vivians first thriller and stand-alone novel, will take you on a ride you’d never been on, or dreamed of.
Take a step into the mind of a young girl, being forced to be used as a martyr.
Dining with the Devil
Doctor Raúl was the one to speak, his eyes just as empty and soulless as her own. “Because you have the mind of a killer.”
Doctor Noel Lancaster is the youngest agent in the BSU, graduating with a doctorate degree in criminal psyhocology at the young age of 22, and became one of their top agents and best marksmen at the age of 24. She had just caught one of the most infamous serial killer from Chicago. The Chicago Skinner. The thing about her is that she's not only a child prodigy. But she holds a deep psychological power that most humans don't have. This power aided her in her success.
What she didn't expect when she came to Tali New York, was a completely different killer. One that haunts the night and stalks young women and rips them apart. Taking their insides out and leaving them completely bloodless. The scariest thing about all of this? They all looked just like Noel.
Being forced to work with a partner she knew nothing about, or even care to know, she was stuck between living a normal life and fighting the being of the dark. Doctor Raúl was an enigma, her powers never failed on her before. But with him? He was the silence she had begged for her entire life.
Being plunged into the unknown, Noel has to fight not just for her life, but the lives of those in Tali New York. Will she live? Or become the Hunters next victim?
Champion of the Damned
I’ve never had a home before. I was always on the move. No one ever wanted me. I was a thing, shunned, and hated for what I stood for. Born under the eclipse with the eyes of death. Look at me now. Look at where I stand…
Lucia was the last and only one of her kind to remain. She was born under the lunar eclipse, deemed unlucky and a token of death by the villagers of her home. Shunned at birth, she was forced to face fate and change it. There was one thing Lucia craved more then acceptance. It was peace.
While on a suicide mission, she comes face to face with the last person she ever wanted to see.
Zeroth, the Dark Lord.
Ayas' Wonderland
All she wanted was to be normal, the only things she ever begged for.
The world around her had a different story.
Ever since Aya was a young girl, she was able to make things happen with her mind. Whether it be making something appear, disappear or, create a whole new world where she was in control. No matter how hard she tried to keep it under control; control always seemed to slip from her grasp.
She dreams of that town, the town where everyone is welcomed. A town that could give her the answers she deserves.
Grey Hills.
In her new and exciting horror novel, Vivian delves deep into the human psyche, where guilt eats this poor child up, limb from limb. Will Aya make it? Or will the dark world she created kill her before she has the chance to taste freedom?
Price of Power
I fought this hard this long to find him, my brother-all for it to crumble down around me just like this. Loyalty, treason, dishonesty and the truth come rushing to me. One by one. My brother always told me I was born to be different, I was born to be something this world has never seen. After the death of our parents my brother taught me so much.
He left me. Alone. Cold. Without a word. And with even darker secrets for me to learn about who I am.
What I am.
And it all started the first time I died.
The Adventures of Nova and Nugget: The Missing Toy
In her very first children book, Vivian brings to life her two cherished animals. Nova, her kitten. And Nugget, her guinea pig.
In their first adventure, Nova must help Nugget find his most prized possession: his chewy stick. It was the first toy his owner ever bought him. While the owner is at work, they go through a few close friends, all to help bring his favorite toy home. Will they find it before their owner comes home?
Thank you so much for Brooke Reianne Vinson, so much for the cover art.
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