Sometimes it took Pea Eye an hour just to locate his horse—the animal would be nibbling leaves or small plants in some little dip or gully. Then, all day, he would plod to the west, seeing no one. All day he longed for company, any company.
On the tenth evening, when Famous Shoes rejoined him, Pea Eye could not hold back his doubts.
“Gus ain’t out here, is he?” he asked. “How would he get this far? Why would he want to cross so much of this poor country?”
Famous Shoes knew the young ranger was scared. Nothing was easier to detect in a man than fear. It showed even in the way he fumbled with his cup while drinking coffee; and it was normal that he would be afraid. He didn’t know where he was, and it must puzzle him that Captain McCrae would choose to go so far into the desert. The young ranger was not old enough to understand the things men might do when they were uncertain and unhappy.
“He is ahead of us, just one day,” Famous Shoes said. “I have not lost his track, and I won’t lose it.”
“By why would he come so far?” Pea Eye asked. “There’s nothing here.”
Famous Shoes had been wondering about the same thing. The journeys that people took had always interested him; his own life was a constant journeying, though not quite so constant as it had been before he had his wives and children. Usually he only agreed to scout for the Texans if they were going in a direction he wanted to go himself, in order to see a particular hill or stream, to visit a relative or friend, or just to search for a bird or animal he wanted to observe.
Also, he often went back to places he had been at earlier times in his life, just to see if the places would seem the same. In most cases, because he himself had changed, the places did not seem exactly as he remembered them, but there were exceptions. The simplest places, where there was only rock and sky, or water and rock, changed the least. When he felt disturbances in his life, as all men would, Famous Shoes tried to go back to one of the simple places, the places of rock and sky, to steady himself and grow calm again.
Though he had not talked with Captain McCrae about his journey, Famous Shoes had the feeling that such a thing might be happening within him because of the loss of his wife. Captain McCrae might be going back to someplace that he had been before, hoping he would find that it was the same and that it was simple. Every day Famous Shoes followed his track and noted that the Captain was not wandering aimlessly, like a man too distracted to notice where he was going. Captain McCrae knew where he was going—that much Famous Shoes did not doubt.
“I think he is going back to a place he has been before,” Famous Shoes said, in answer to Pea Eye’s question. “He is pointed toward the Rio Grande now. If he stops when he comes to the river we will find him tomorrow.”
Famous Shoes suspected that the young ranger did not believe what he had just said—he was not old enough to understand the need to go back to a place where things were simple. He had no happiness in his face, the young ranger; perhaps he had never had a place where things were simple, a place he could think about when he needed to remember happiness. Perhaps the young ranger had been unlucky—he might have no good place or good time to remember.
Famous Shoes himself had begun to feel the need to live in a simpler place. The plains were filled with white travelers now, all heading west. The Comanches were more irritable than ever, because their best hunting grounds were always being disturbed. The buffalo had moved north, where there were fewer people. The old life of the plains, the life he had known as a boy, was not there to be lived anymore. The great spaces were still there, of course, but they were not empty spaces, as they had once been; the plains did not encourage his dreams, as they once had.
Lately he had been thinking of moving his family even farther south, to a simpler, emptier place, such as could be found along the Rio Grande, in the place of the canyons. There was not much to eat along the river there; his wives would have to keep busy gathering food, and they would also have to learn to eat things that people of the desert ate: rats, mesquite beans, corn, roots of various kinds. But his wives were young and energetic—he was sure they could find enough food if he beat them a little, just enough to convince them that the lazy years were over—people who lived in the desert had to work. The food was not going to come to them.
One of the reasons he had agreed to track Captain McCrae was because once the job was finished he could go on and investigate the river country a little—he wanted a place where he would not be bothered by irritable Comanches or the continual movement of the whites. He was hoping to find a place with a high mountain nearby. He thought it might be good to sit high up once in a while. If he was high enough there would be nothing to see but the sky and, now and then, a few of the great eagles. He thought living in a place where there were eagles to watch might encourage some pretty good dreams.
11.
AUGUSTUS HAD ALWAYS enjoyed calendars and almanacs—he rarely journeyed out of Austin without an almanac in his saddlebag. If he did any reading at night around the campfire it was usually just a page or two of the current almanac. Often he would discover that, on the very day he was living, the signs of the zodiac were in disorder, causing dire things to be predicted. If the predictions were especially dire—hurricanes, earthquakes, floods—Gus would amuse himself by reading aloud about the catastrophes that were due to start happening at any moment. If he saw a heavy cloud building up he would inform the men that it was probably the harbinger of a forty-day flood that would probably drown them all. Many of the rangers were unable to sleep, after one of Gus’s readings; those who knew a few letters would borrow the almanac and peer at the prophetic passages, only to discover that Augustus had not misread. The terrible predictions were there, and, inasmuch as they were printed, must be true. When nothing happened, no flood, no earthquake, no sulphurous fire, Augustus suavely explained that they had been spared due to a sudden shifting in the stars.
“Now you see the planet Jupiter, right up there,” he would say, pointing straight up into the million-starred Milky Way; he knew that most of the men would not want to admit that they had no idea which star Jupiter might be.
“Well, Jupiter went into eclipse—I believe it was a double eclipse—you won’t see that again in your lifetime, and it’s all that saved us,” he would conclude. “Otherwise you’d see a wall of water eighty feet high coming right at us,” he would remark, to his awed listeners, some of whom thought that the mere fact that he was a captain meant that he understood such things.
Pea Eye had that belief, for a while, and worried much about the floods and earthquakes, but Call, who put little stock in almanacs, reproached Gus for scaring the men so.
“Why do you want to tell them such bosh?” Call would ask. “Now they’ll lose such little sleep as we can allow them.”
“Tactics, Woodrow—tactics,” Gus would reply. “You need to finish that book on Napoleon so you’ll understand how to use tactics, when you’re leading an army.”
“We ain’t an army, we’re just ten rangers,” Call would point out heatedly, to no avail.
Since Augustus was traveling alone this time, he didn’t try to frighten himself with dire predictions, but he did keep a close calendar as he traveled west. He wanted to know how many days from home he had come, in case he developed a strong nostalgia for the saloons and whorehouses of Austin and needed to hurry home.
On the twelfth day, with a few mountain crags visible to the north, Augustus picked his way along the banks of the Rio Grande, to the campsite where, long before, as a fledgling ranger, traveling far from the settlement for the first time, he and Call, Long Bill, and a number of rangers now dead had camped and waited out a terrible dust storm. A fat major named Chevallie had been leading them; Bigfoot Wallace and old Shadrach, the mountain man, had been their scouts. In the morning before the storm struck, Matty Roberts, naked as the air, had picked the big snapping turtle out of the river, carried it into camp, and threw it at Long Bill Coleman and One-eyed Johnny Carthage, both of whom
owed her money at the time.
Augustus recognized the little scatter of rocks by the water’s edge where Matty had found the turtle; he recognized the crags to the north and even remembered the small mesquite tree—still small—where he and Call had snubbed a mustang mare they were trying to saddle.
No trace of the rangers’ presence remained, of course, but Augustus was, nevertheless, glad that he had come. Several times in his life he had felt an intense desire to start over, to somehow turn back the clock of his life to a point where he might, if he were careful, avoid the many mistakes he had made the first time around. He knew such a thing was impossible, but it was still pleasant to dream about it, to conjure, in fantasy, a different and more successful life, and that is what he did, sitting on a large rock by the river and watching the brown water as it rippled over the rocks where Matty had caught the turtle. While he sat Gus noticed a number of snapping turtles, no smaller than the one Matty had captured; at least things were stable with the turtles.
While the river flowed through the wide, empty landscape a parade of dead rangers streamed through the river of his memory—Black Sam, Major Chevallie, One-eyed Johnny, Bigfoot Wallace, Shadrach, the Button brothers, and several more. And now, by Goodnight’s account, Matty Roberts herself was dying, which of course was not wholly surprising: whores as active as Matty had been were seldom known to live to a ripe old age. For a moment he regretted not going with Goodnight, over the dry plains to Denver. He would have liked to see Matty again, to lift a glass with her and hear her thoughts on the great game of life, now that she was about to lose it. She had always hoped to make it to California someday, and yet was dying in Denver, with California no closer than it had been when she was a girl.
“If I could, Matty, I’d buy you a ticket on the next stage,” Augustus said, aloud, overcome by the same regretful emotion he had felt when he pressed the sixty dollars into Charles Goodnight’s hand.
Later in the day Gus walked away from the camp, attempting to locate the rocky hillock where he had first come face-to-face with Buffalo Hump. It had been stormy; the two of them had seen one another in a lightning flash. Gus had run as he had never run in his life, before or since, and had only escaped because of the darkness.
Because it had been so dark, he could not determine which of the rocky rises he was looking for, though no moment of his life was so clearly imprinted on his memory as the one when he had seen, in a moment of white light, Buffalo Hump sitting on his blanket. He could even remember that the blanket had been frayed a little, and that the Comanche had a rawhide string in his hand.
When he tired of his search he caught the black mare and rode on west a few miles, to the high crag of rock where the Comanches had lured them into ambush. A few warriors had draped themselves in white mountain-goat skins, and the rangers had taken the bait. Gus himself had only survived the ambush because he stumbled in his climb and rolled down the hill, losing his rifle in the process.
Augustus tied his horse and climbed up to the boulder-strewn ridge where the Comanches had hidden. In walking around, he picked up two arrowheads; they seemed older than the arrowheads the Comanches had used that day, one of which had to be extracted from Johnny Carthage’s leg, but he could not be sure, so he put the arrowheads in his pocket, meaning to show them to someone more expert than himself. It might be that the Comanches had been fighting off that crag for centuries.
As Augustus was walking back down the hill to his horse, his eye caught a movement far to the east, from the direction of the old camp on the river. He stepped behind the same rock that had shielded him long ago and saw that two men approached, one on horseback and one on foot. He didn’t at first recognize the horse and rider, but he did recognize the quick lope of the man on foot—Famous Shoes’ lope. His first feeling was annoyance: Woodrow Call had had him tracked at a time when all he wanted was a few days to himself.
A moment later Augustus saw that the rider was young Pea Eye Parker, a choice which amused him, since he knew that Pea Eye hated expeditions, particularly lone expeditions across long stretches of Indian country. On such trips Pea Eye scarcely slept or rested, from nervousness. Now Call had sent the boy hundreds of miles from home, with no companion except a Kickapoo tracker who was known to wander away on his own errands for days at a stretch.
Augustus waited by his horse while the horseman and the walker came toward him from the river. While he was waiting he dug the two small arrowheads out of his pocket and studied them a little more, but without reaching a conclusion as to their age.
“You have gone far—I don’t know why,” Famous Shoes said, when he came to where Augustus waited.
“Why, I was just looking for arrowheads,” Augustus said lightly. “What do you make of these?”
Famous Shoes accepted the two arrowheads carefully and looked at them for a long time without speaking. Pea Eye came up and dismounted. He looked, to Gus’s eye, more gaunt than ever.
“Hello, Pea—have you slept well on your travels?” he asked.
Pea Eye was so glad to see Captain McCrae that he didn’t hear the question. He shook Gus’s hand long and firmly. It was clear from his tense face that travel had been a strain.
“I’m glad you ain’t dead, Captain,” Pea Eye said. “I’m real glad you ain’t dead.”
Augustus was a little startled by the force of the young man’s emotion. The trip must have been even more of a trial to him than he had imagined.
“No, I ain’t dead,” Augustus told him. “I just rode off to think for a few days, and one of the things I wanted to think about was the fact that I ain’t dead.”
“Why would you need to think about that, Captain?” Pea asked.
“Well, because people die,” Augustus said. “Two of my wives are dead. Long Bill Coleman is dead. Quite a few of the men I’ve rangered with are dead—three of them died right on this hill we’re standing on. Jimmy Watson is dead—you knew Jimmy yourself, and you knew Long Bill. A bunch of farmers and their families got massacred that day we found you sitting by the corncrib.”
Pea Eye mainly remembered the corn.
“I was mighty hungry that day,” Pea Eye said. “That hard corn tasted good to me.”
Now that Captain McCrae had reminded him, Pea Eye did remember that there had been three dead bodies in the cabin where he found the scattered corn. He remember that the bodies had arrows in them; but what he remembered better was walking through the woods for three days, lost, so hungry he had tried to eat the bark off trees. Finding the corn seemed like such a miracle that he did not really think about the bodies in the cabin.
“I guess people have been dying all over,” he said, not sure how to respond to the Captain’s comments.
Augustus saw that Pea Eye was exhausted, not so much from the long ride as from nervous strain. He turned back to Famous Shoes, who was still looking intently at the two arrowheads.
“I was in a fight with Buffalo Hump and some of his warriors here, years ago,” Gus said. “Do you think they dropped these arrowheads then, or are they older?”
Famous Shoes handed the two arrowheads back to Augustus.
“These were not made by the Comanche, they were made by the Old People,” he said.
Famous Shoes started up the hill Augustus had just come down.
“I want to find some of these arrowheads too,” he said. “The Old People made them.”
“You’re welcome to look,” Gus said. “I mean to keep these myself. If they’re so old they might bring me luck.”
“You already have luck,” Famous Shoes told him—but he did not pause to explain. He was too eager to look for the arrowheads that had been made by the Old People.
“I guess you’re here to bring me home, is that right, Pea?” Augustus asked.
“The Governor wants to see you—Captain Call told me that much,” Pea Eye said.
Though Augustus knew he ought to go light on the young man, something about Pea Eye’s solemn manner made teasing him hard
to resist.
“If I’m under arrest you best get out your handcuffs,” he said, sticking out his hands in surrender.
Pea Eye was startled, as he often was by Captain McCrae’s behavior.
“I ain’t got no handcuffs, Captain,” he said.
“Well, you might have to tie me, then,” Gus said. “I’m still a wild boy. I might escape before you get me back to Austin.”
Pea Eye wondered if the Captain had gone a little daft. He was holding out his hands, as if he expected to be tied.
“Captain, I wouldn’t arrest you,” he said. “I just came to tell you Captain Call asked if you’d come back. The Governor asked too, I believe.”
“Yes, and what will you tell them if I decide to slip?” Gus asked.
Pea Eye felt that he was being given a kind of examination, just when he least expected one.
“I’d just tell them you didn’t want to come,” he said. “If you don’t want to come back, you don’t have to, that’s how I see it.”
“I’m glad you feel that way, Pea,” Augustus said, letting his hand drop, finally. “I fear I’d be uncomfortable traveling with a man who had a commission to arrest me.”
“I was not given no papers,” Pea Eye said—he thought a commission must involve a document of some kind.
Augustus looked past the crag of rock toward El Paso del Norte, the Pass of the North.
“I guess I’ve traveled long enough in a westerly direction,” he said. “I believe I’ll go back with you, Pea—it’ll help your career.”
“My what?” Pea Eye asked.
“Your job, Pea—just your job,” Augustus said, annoyed that he was unable to employ his full vocabulary with the young man. “You might make sergeant yet, just for bringing me home.”
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