He was waking up, though he felt more as if he were dropping into grogginess.
Gradually, he became able to identify where he was. He lay in a bed with tubular protective bars on the sides. White sheets covered him to his chin. Gray curtains shut him off from the other patients in the room. A fluorescent light stared past him emptily from the ceiling. The air was faintly tinged with ether and germicide. A call button hung at the head of the bed.
All his fingers and toes were numb.
Nerves don't regenerate, of course they don't, they don't-
This was important-he knew it was importantbut for some reason it did not carry any weight with him. His heart was too hot with other emotions to feel that particular ice.
What mattered to him was that Prothall and Mhoram and the Quest had survived. He clung to that as if it were proof of sanity-a demonstration that what had happened to him, that what he had done, was not the product of madness, self-destruction. They had survived; at least his bargain with the Ranyhyn had accomplished that much. They had done exactly what Lord Foul wanted them to do-but they had survived.
At least he was not guilty of their deaths, too. His inability to use his ring, to believe in his ring, had not made Wraiths of them. That was his only consolation for what he had lost.
Then he made out two figures standing at the foot of the bed. One of them was a woman in white-a nurse. As he tried to focus on her, she said, "Doctor -he's regaining consciousness."
The doctor was a middle-aged man in a brown suit. The flesh under his eyes sagged as if he were weary of all human pain, but his lips under his graying mustache were gentle. He approached along the side of the bed, touched Covenant's forehead for a moment, then pulled up Covenant's eyelids and shined a small light at his pupils.
With an effort, Covenant focused on the light.
The doctor nodded, and put his flashlight away. "Mr. Covenant?"
Covenant swallowed at the dryness in his throat.
"Mr. Covenant." The doctor held his face close to Covenant's, and spoke quietly, calmly. "You're in the hospital. You were brought here after your run-in with that police car. You've been unconscious for about four hours."
Covenant lifted his head and nodded to show that he understood.
"Good," said the doctor. "I'm glad you're coming around. Now, let me talk to you for a moment.
"Mr. Covenant, the police officer who was driving that car says that he didn't hit you. He claims that he stopped in time-you just fell down in front of him. From my examination, I would be inclined to agree with him. Your hands are scraped up a bit, and you have a bruise on your forehead-but things like that could have happened when you fell." He hesitated momentarily, then asked, "Did he hit you?"
Dumbly, Covenant shook his head. The question did not feel important.
"Well, I suppose you could have knocked yourself out by hitting your head on the pavement. But why did you fall?"
That, too, did not feel important. He pushed the question away with a twitch of his hands. Then he tried to sit up in bed.
He succeeded before the doctor could help or hinder him; he was not as weak as he had feared he might be. The numbness of his fingers and toes still seemed to lack conviction, as if they would recover as soon as their circulation was restored.
Nerves don't-
After a moment, he regained his voice, and asked for his clothes.
The doctor studied him closely. "Mr. Covenant," he said, "I'll let you go home if you want to. I suppose I should keep you under observation for a day or two. But I really haven't been able to find anything wrong with you. And you know more about taking care of leprosy than I do." Covenant did not miss the look of nausea that flinched across the nurse's face. "And, to be perfectly honest"-the doctor's tone turned suddenly acid-"`I don't want to have to fight the staff here to be sure that you get decent care. Do you feel up to it?"
In answer, Covenant began fumbling with awkward fingers at the dull white hospital gown he wore.
Abruptly, the doctor went to a locker, and came back with Covenant's clothes.
Covenant gave them a kind of VSE. They were scuffed and dusty from his fall in the street; yet they looked exactly as they had looked when he had last worn them, during the first days of the Quest.
Exactly as if none of it had ever happened.
When he was dressed, he signed the releases. His hand was so cold that he could hardly write his name.
But the Quest had survived. At least his bargain had been good for that.
Then the doctor gave him a ride in a wheelchair down to the discharge exit. Outside the building, the doctor suddenly began to talk as if in some oblique way he were trying to apologize for not keeping Covenant in the hospital. "It must be hell to be a leper," he said rapidly. "I'm trying to understand. It's like I studied in Heidelberg, years ago, and while I was there I saw a lot of medieval art. Especially religious
art. Being a leper reminds me of statues of the Crucifixion made during the Middle Ages. There is Christ on the Cross, and his features-his body, even his face-are portrayed so blandly that the figure is unrecognizable. It could be anyone, man or woman. But the wounds-the nails in the hands and feet, the spear in the side, the crown of thorns-are carved and even painted in incredibly vivid detail. You would think the artist crucified his model to get that kind of realism.
"Being a leper must be like that."
Covenant felt the doctor's sympathy, but he could not reply to it. He did not know how.
After a few minutes, an ambulance came and took him back to Haven Farm.
He had survived.
He walked up the long driveway to his house as if that were his only hope.
Here ends
LORD FOUL'S BANE,
Book One of
The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant, the Unbeliever
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