Love/Hate: The Complete Enemies to Lovers Series

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by Lilian Monroe




  Love/Hate

  The Complete Enemies to Lovers Series

  Lilian Monroe

  Previously titled The Confessions Series

  Contents

  Hate at First Sight

  1. Nicole

  2. Martin

  3. Nicole

  4. Martin

  5. Nicole

  6. Martin

  7. Nicole

  8. Martin

  9. Nicole

  10. Martin

  11. Nicole

  12. Martin

  13. Nicole

  14. Martin

  15. Nicole

  16. Martin

  17. Nicole

  18. Martin

  19. Nicole

  20. Martin

  21. Nicole

  22. Martin

  23. Nicole

  24. Martin

  25. Nicole

  26. Martin

  27. Nicole

  28. Martin

  29. Nicole

  30. Martin

  31. Nicole

  32. Martin

  33. Nicole

  34. Martin

  35. Nicole

  36. Martin

  37. Nicole

  38. Martin

  39. Nicole

  Epilogue

  Loathe at First Sight

  1. Ashley

  2. Liam

  3. Ashley

  4. Liam

  5. Ashley

  6. Liam

  7. Ashley

  8. Liam

  9. Ashley

  10. Liam

  11. Ashley

  12. Liam

  13. Ashley

  14. Liam

  15. Ashley

  16. Liam

  17. Ashley

  18. Liam

  19. Ashley

  20. Liam

  21. Ashley

  22. Liam

  23. Ashley

  24. Liam

  25. Ashley

  26. Liam

  27. Ashley

  28. Liam

  29. Ashley

  30. Liam

  31. Ashley

  32. Liam

  33. Ashley

  Epilogue

  Despise at First Sight

  Prologue

  1. Stella

  2. Adrian

  3. Stella

  4. Adrian

  5. Stella

  6. Adrian

  7. Stella

  8. Adrian

  9. Stella

  10. Adrian

  11. Stella

  12. Adrian

  13. Stella

  14. Adrian

  15. Stella

  16. Adrian

  17. Stella

  18. Adrian

  19. Stella

  20. Adrian

  21. Stella

  22. Adrian

  23. Stella

  24. Adrian

  25. Stella

  26. Adrian

  27. Stella

  28. Adrian

  29. Stella

  30. Adrian

  31. Stella

  32. Adrian

  33. Stella

  34. Adrian

  35. Stella

  Epilogue

  His Vow

  1. Zane

  2. Sadie

  Also by Lilian Monroe

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  xox

  Hate at First Sight

  Love/Hate: Book 1

  1

  Nicole

  I hang up the phone and breathe a sigh of relief. Clutching my phone to my chest, I turn to my sister and nod.

  “I got the job.”

  “Woohoo!” Jenna jumps up and down. The soapy spatula she was washing drips over the kitchen floor, but she ignores it. “Congratulations! I was sure you’d get it.”

  “I wasn’t.” I push the hair off my forehead and blow the air out of my lungs. I slump down at the kitchen table. “Thank God. I’ll have enough to pay rent for February.”

  Jenna slides her arm across my shoulders and hugs me. I wince as pain shoots through my right side, but I try to hide it.

  “I’m happy for you, Nicole.” Her eyes crinkle as she smiles. “That’ll take some pressure off.”

  “Yeah, now I can replace financial stress with work stress.”

  “Don’t be so pessimistic,” she laughs. “Come on. Things are looking up!”

  I nod and try to smile. “Yeah, they are.” At least I won’t have to worry about the debt collectors coming to knock down my door. I’ll be able to start making payments on these medical bills—maybe even more than the minimum payment. Paralegal salaries aren’t amazing, but they’re better than the zero I’ve been making so far.

  “Did she tell you what the salary will be?” Jenna asks, reading my mind. She returns the spatula to the sink and keeps washing.

  I nod. “Fifty-two grand a year to start, plus benefits.”

  Jenna smiles. “I knew this would work out. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m going to make some tea. You want some?”

  “Sure.” I force a smile. She must be further ahead of me in this tunnel, because I still don’t see any light. I shift in my seat, taking a deep breath as pain shoots through my side. I stand up and take a few steps to try to loosen it up.

  “Still sore?” Jenna frowns at me as she fills the kettle.

  “Yeah. I ran out of pain medication last week. Once I get paid at this job, I’ll get some more, but these next few weeks will be a little rough.”

  “I’ll cover the next batch of medication, Nic. I hate seeing you like this.”

  I shake my head. “You were just telling me about all the expenses with the kids. I’m not going to be your third child,” I grin. “I’ll be fine. It’s not that bad.”

  Jenna nods as I walk back and forth to try to ease the aches pulsing through the side of my body. Ever since the accident last year, my whole body has rebelled against me. My sister watches me and shakes her head.

  “If I ever find the coward that did this to you, I will kill him myself,” she says. “He didn’t even stop to see if you guys were okay! Who knows what would have happened if the ambulance had gotten there sooner? Jack might have lived! And don’t get me started on the insurance company.”

  A plate clatters in the sink as Jenna shakes her head.

  Grief carves out another piece of my heart as I take a deep breath. Jenna’s still angry—maybe I would be, too, if this had happened to her. But it happened to me, and mostly I just feel exhausted.

  When the car hit us, Jack died instantly. That’s what the doctors told us, anyway. My sister doesn’t believe them. We were told that my husband and I sat on the side of the road for fifteen to thirty minutes before we were found by another driver. It took another ten minutes for the ambulance to arrive. My injuries were severe, but I was able to keep my life. My back was broken and I had a severe concussion, but I wasn’t paralyzed.

  I was lucky, the doctors said.

  Lucky.

  For many dark months after the accident, when I was learning how to walk again, I wondered if Jack got the better bargain. Why would
I want to live in a world where he doesn’t exist? He was the love of my life, and now he’s gone.

  Things would be easier if Jack’s life insurance policy had paid out by now, but the company keeps stalling. It’s been a year, and they still haven’t accepted my claim. They keep asking me for Jack’s medical records over and over. They won’t give me a straight answer, and fear gnaws at my stomach. If they try to reject my claim, the future is going to be bleak.

  Tears smart in my eyes as I sit down again. Jenna sighs.

  “Oh, Nicole, I’m sorry. I got carried away. I just get so mad when I start thinking about it.”

  “I know.”

  She puts her hands on her hips. “Look, you’ll start working and things will get better. The hospital will stop hassling you when you start making payments. You’ll get health insurance with the job. You might even meet a sexy hot-shot lawyer!”

  I snort, shaking my head. “Not interested. I never liked the hot-shot lawyers at my last firm. Too full of themselves.”

  Plus, looking at anyone in a romantic way would feel like I was cheating on Jack.

  “Well, maybe there will be another paralegal that you can befriend. You’ll get out and start meeting people again! Even if it’s just work, it’ll be good for you.”

  “Yeah,” I reply, mostly so that she’ll stop talking about it. Jenna puts a cup of tea in front of me and sighs. I love my sister, but her eternal optimism is exhausting. I’m in a deep, dark hole that she will never understand.

  The front door flies open and the pitter-patter of little feet accompanies the giggles of small children. My niece and nephew, Gabby and Taylor, come tumbling into the kitchen like two bowling balls. Jenna scoops them up and covers them with kisses as they laugh, squirming in her arms. Taylor, the younger one, presents her with a drawing he made in school.

  My brother-in-law appears in the doorway. He kisses Jenna and asks about her day. Suddenly, I feel like an intruder in their happy life. When Christian lovingly wraps his arms around Jenna, it feels like I’m suffocating. Every time I look at my sister’s happiness, it feels like I’m staring directly at the midday sun. It’s blinding.

  That used to be me. I used to be the one with a happy marriage, a happy life, and a loving husband. We’d been talking about kids, too.

  Now all I’ve got is crushing loneliness and overwhelming medical bills.

  And a new job, I guess.

  I push myself off my chair, leaving my tea untouched. “I’m going to head to the pool.” I smooth my hands on my jeans, clearing my throat. “Good to see you guys.”

  “You don’t want to stay for dinner?” Jenna asks, surprise etched on her face.

  I smile and shake my head. If only she knew how painful that would be for me.

  “Got to do my workout. The physio says I’ve been making great progress.”

  “Okay.” She stares at me with those big, brown, motherly eyes of hers, and all I want to do is run away. She hugs me again, more gently this time. “Taylor! Gabby! Say goodbye to Auntie Nicole.”

  My niece and nephew leave big, sloppy kisses on my cheeks. Christian waves at me, and I finally escape out the front door. I get to my car and let out a sigh.

  Guilt creeps into my heart when I watch them through the window. Jenna has been so supportive, even though her life is hectic. She’s always checking up on me and making sure I have everything I need. She’s loaned me so much money that it makes my head spin.

  And yet, being at her house makes me feel like I’m drowning in my own grief. It makes me feel selfish and ungrateful.

  It makes me sad.

  I sigh and turn the key in the ignition. I wasn’t lying to her, at least. I am going to go to the pool, and the physio has been impressed with my progress. So, at least my guilt won’t be compounded with a lie. As soon as I turn the corner and put her house behind me, I let my shoulders relax in relief.

  2

  Martin

  I look up when there’s a knock on the door. Kelly, my assistant, pokes her head in.

  “These came for you,” she says, lifting a bouquet of flowers. My heart squeezes, and I nod.

  “Just put them on the table there,” I say, gesturing to the coffee table. My office has a plush seating area next to the bookshelves, and I typically like to keep it clear of clutter. Kelly nods quietly and arranges the flowers before slipping out. I say nothing, turning instead to the stack of papers in front of me.

  We have a tough case load at the firm right now, and I’m starting to feel snowed under. I glance at the bouquet of flowers and sigh. I push myself back from my large oak desk and stand up. My legs feel stiff, and I stretch my back out. I’ll need to go for a swim or a run tonight—something to loosen up.

  First, though, I walk over to the large bouquet of white lilies and pluck the card from the blooms. The scent from the flowers is nauseating. As soon as I smell a lily, my mind zips back to that day one year ago, when my whole world changed.

  My condolences, Marty.

  Mom

  I sigh, tossing the card aside. I know she’s trying to keep the memory of Brianne alive, but all I want to do is forget. Especially today.

  The year has been a blur. I went back to work right away and buried myself in case after case. It helps me forget about the lonely house and lonely life that I’ve been left with. It’s not all bad, though. Working so hard means I made partner at one of the biggest law firms in Colorado.

  Not bad for a thirty-two-year-old man. When I graduated from law school, I didn’t think it would happen so fast.

  I didn’t think I’d be a thirty-two-year-old widower either, but hey. Things change.

  I look at the lilies for a few more moments and feel the armor around my heart harden a little bit more.

  I sit down at my desk again and try to focus on the stack of papers in front of me. My eyes keep drifting to the bouquet of flowers, though, and soon I’m grabbing my jacket and heading for the door. I thought I’d made it through today unscathed, and then my mother had to go and be thoughtful. How rude of her.

  I grab the vase on the way out. I consider tossing the whole thing in the garbage, but that feels disrespectful. So instead, I put it on the firm’s front desk. Brianne would have liked that. She always brightened up a room, and she was always the first person people noticed.

  I take a deep breath and turn away from the flowers, heading for the elevator.

  I need to get out of here. I need to wash the smell of the lilies off my body and I need to exhaust myself physically so that I can get a couple hours of sleep tonight.

  That’s what happens when you lose your wife and unborn child. It tends to change a person.

  In the aftermath I’ve been so numb inside that I worked myself to the bone. I made partner at the firm, so it’s all worth it, right?

  I mash the elevator buttons and sigh. When the doors close and the nauseating stench of lilies dissipates, I breathe a sigh of relief.

  When I pull into the pool parking lot, my shoulders relax. After an hour or so here, my body will be tired enough to shut off my brain. This is my safe place. It’s the place where Brianne’s memory doesn’t invade my thoughts without warning.

  It’s busy tonight—there must be some group lessons going on. I turn down one aisle of the parking lot just as another car comes toward me. It’s an old beat-up Honda Civic, and I can hear from all the way over here that the engine isn’t in good shape.

  I can tell the Civic is vying for the one free parking space between us.

  I don’t know if it’s work stress, or the flowers, or just the fact that today is today, but anger flares in my chest. That should be my parking space. Not some shitty rust bucket in need of an oil change.

  I press on the accelerator, but I’m too late. The car slides into the spot and my rage burns hotter. I roll past slowly, waiting for the parking-space-stealer to show himself.

  Someone gets out of the car and I can’t help myself. I pull my handbrake and hop out.

>   “That was my parking space,” I call out as I take a step toward the Honda.

  The person has their head in the back seat, rummaging around for something. I take a couple steps toward the car, and finally a head pops up above the Honda’s rusty old roof.

 

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