Chapter 66-Rejection
For Students: this is Dan Sherman checking in. All I can say is that I am sorry! I should have kept control of my senses and also Debra. I let my defenses down, and Sionn. The information is that there was nothing we could have done about the bomb. But I still feel foolish! We were now in the debriefing room. Grenwer entered the room. He looked around with his all-knowing look and said, ‘Welcome back Dan!’ Then everyone in the room started to clap!
‘But I failed, I said!’
‘No,’ shouted Grenwer. ‘You did your best, and you will learn from it. There was nothing we could have done about the explosive device. It had been there a long time, and was undetectable. It was put there by Super Robots who were programmed by Dark Agents.
How do we know this? It is because Debra told us’
‘What?’ I said, you mean Debra is back?’
‘Yes, as soon as you stabilized, we managed to access Debra; she gave us information about all the agents who were working on Altreena. They are all dead now, so we will interrogate them later.’
‘But if I hadn’t gone to see Nanny we may have been able to find the agents anyway, no?’
‘No, because as I said, the bomb was undetectable, don’t keep blaming yourself; blame the agents for putting the bomb there in the first place, also the agents could have transferred themselves off the planet, but they wanted to die for the cause.’
‘But, I am the one they wanted to kill.’
‘Yes, because you are part of the Guardian-Network.'
'What about Sionn?’
‘He will be taking a small break from things.’ said Grenwer.
‘Now, I want you to meet the man responsible for your safe return.’ Reeas looked at me with a smile as Kallo himself came into the room!
‘What’s this?’ I said. Reeas said, ‘Dan, Kallo used his expertise to find you, and save you!’
For you students out there please understand that I have only just regained my own consciousness and so I am a little behind on things, also, Debra has not, as yet, contacted me! I must admit I feel like a student again.
‘Now, Dan.’ Grenwer said. ‘You must be wondering about Debra?’
‘Yes, as a matter of fact, I am.’
‘Well, you can wonder no more. She has been totally renewed.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘She is no longer a personality in her own right. She is now just a part of the ship again.’
‘How did it happen?’ I said.
‘Excuse me.’ said Kallo; can I step in for a moment?’
Grenwer said, ‘Of course.’
‘Dan, when we knew you were going to visit your robot nanny, we thought it would be a good time for you to part company with Debra.’
‘What?’ I said.’
‘We had to be sure you would be in the right consciousness.’
‘Do you mean the whole thing was a set-up?’ I said.
‘Yes.’
I didn’t know whether to shout, swear, or fight. I walked out. It may have been my imagination, but I swear I could see a little smirk on Kallo’s face. These little idiosyncrasies which normal people can see seem to evade Kallo and his kind. Maybe over the many years that he has been out of any sort of caring system, he has lost a valuable part of himself; a part that he thinks he doesn’t need, but in reality it is a precious thing called love.
Reeas came after me.
‘Did you know about this, Reeas?’ I said.
‘No,’ I am as surprised as you!
‘I feel as though all those people died because of me.’
‘No, the bomb was undetectable.’
‘I’m not so sure.’ I said. ‘I feel Kallo knows more than he is letting on.’
‘No!’ She exclaimed. ‘Kallo did everything he could to rescue you!’
‘Why?’ I said.
It is because he is now part of the Guardian-Network!’
‘Really,’ I said. ‘Maybe it was because he wants to access Debra?’
‘Nonsense,’ Reeas said.
‘I want to be left alone for a while.’ I said.
‘OK, but please believe Kallo is working for us now.’
‘Maybe you’re right, Reeas. I hope so. I am going to take a little break.’
‘Where are you going, Dan?’
‘I think I’ll visit Mannus.’
‘I’m afraid you can’t.’
‘What?’ I said.
‘I had a talk with Kallo and Grenwer. They said you are now only partially what you once were.’
‘What do you mean?’ I said. Reeas was now looking at the floor.
‘Tell me, Reeas!’
‘Your consciousness has been depleted.’
‘Never,’ I said.
‘Dan. I am as shocked as you. All I want is for you to be here with me. I don’t care whether you are high-or-low in consciousness; all I want is for us to be together.’
I was now starting to feel angry.
‘Please, Reeas, I want to be alone for a while.’ I went to the restroom to lie down. I’ll soon find out whether I am still fully functional.’
I closed my eyes to meditate and very soon found myself in the Room-Of-Doors.’ But all I could see was just one door. The room was the same but there was only one door! I tried to open it but it was locked! I also had the overwhelming feeling that Sionn himself was behind the door. I opened my eyes and was back in the rest room.
I was now starting to become frustrated. How can this be? I thought, OK, I will access the records to find out what happened. Again, I was unable to gain access! Well, I know one place that I will be able to go to and that is to visit my past yoga masters. I sat in the lotus position and closed my eyes. It took a lot of effort but I eventually managed to get to the spot where I met the masters before.
The thing is I could not speak with them! I now noticed that all the higher beings that I knew as Dan Sherman in high consciousness where now starting to appear! Also Deria and her sister plus Thalo, Fagil, and all their brethren but not one of them could see me! Was this going to be the future for me? To be locked out of my own world? I can’t contemplate it. Please God, no!
I was now starting to realize that I was now only a normal person with no powers! Can you imagine that, my student friends? Yes, I can still relate to the thought-transfer system but I don’t know whether it will work.
If you can access these latter recordings then all well and good, but maybe you can’t, anyway, I wish you well my friends. Dan Sherman is coming to the last stage of life, or lives. I feel I have been on a giant roundabout of imagination. Maybe it was all a dream? I certainly feel different now my consciousness has been depleted. Grenwer came in and asked me to accompany him into the other room. I could now see all my friend and coworkers waiting for me. Kallo was also there.
You students are probably trying to send me messages to say that Kallo really did try to save me. But I can’t help wondering that the whole thing was a gigantic scheme! Why? You ask. I don’t know just yet, maybe it is me being angry and frustrated that is playing tricks on my mind? After all I am in a lower state of consciousness.
‘Dan, please sit down and we will begin,’ said Grenwer.
‘What is this?’ I said.
‘We have to decide what your future is,’ he said.
Oh?’ I said.
‘Yes, you know you are now, as it were, unfit to work as a Guardian.’
‘You mean you don’t want me anymore?’
‘It is not that we don’t want you, it is more a question of what could you do?'
‘What about me looking into the light book?’ I said.
Kallo said, ‘May I interrupt here?’
‘By all means,’ said Grenwer.
‘Now, Dan, You know you are now permanently affected by the events which took place on Altreena. Yes?’
‘I’m not so sure.’ I said.
‘Oh, come now. Surely you have tried to contact Mannus,
and all the other people you were familiar with? Why don’t you be a good chap and go back to your wife and son?’
‘I’m his Wife,’ shouted Reeas who had now come into the room.
‘Yes, I know,’ said Kallo, ‘but what use would he be here? You have to face facts. He is now surplus-to-requirements.’
‘What about you?’ Reeas said. ‘You were once surplus-to-requirements!’
‘I, my dear Reeas, am a fully functional Higher-Guardian who is now responsible for the wellbeing of the whole Guardian-Network!’
‘What?’ Reeas said.’
‘Yes, that is correct,’ said Grenwer. ‘Kallo is now the Higher-Coordinator.’ I was now looking on in stunned silence!
‘OK, then, that is taken care of, will you please deal with all the details, Grenwer. I have some important work to do.’ Reeas was now looking at me with bewilderment. I was ushered into the other room.
‘Well,’ I said. ‘It was good while it lasted!’
‘Don’t say that,’ said Reeas.
‘Let’s face it.’ I said. ‘If I am permanently in a lower state of consciousness then what use am I?’
‘You are my husband!’ Reeas said.
‘I know, and I love you, but what could I do here? I can’t even access the database. I know I have had all these fantastic experiences but they are just like vague memories now. I feel my mind is losing ground also. I feel less able than when I first came here!’
‘I wish Sionn was here.’ Reeas said.
‘Yes, so do I.’ I felt he was nearby in the Room-of-Doors,’
‘Maybe we could try to contact him?’ Reeas said.
‘How,’ I said. Suddenly Kallo came into the room.
‘What is this?’ he said. ‘Are you saying your goodbyes?’ Reeas looked at me as if to say don’t let him know what you are thinking.
‘We are just trying to decide where the best place for Dan to go will be.’
‘I’ll tell you were,’
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