by Marco May
I didn’t say another word and just stared at his torso. What would it be like to lift his shirt to take a peek at his athletically built chest?
“Promise me you won’t run away when I show you my face?”
“I promise.” All that time it had never dawned on me to consider it a possibility that he could’ve been ugly. I was convinced he wasn’t, though. It was just a matter of how average or hot he was. With a body like his, my bet was on hot.
He slowly lifted the screen of his laptop, and my heart lifted even higher. I hadn’t just been right all along, but his face exceeded my expectations and made me question why he was still single in the first place. He fit the tall, dark, and handsome stereotype perfectly, except hotter than handsome. He lifted one of the corners of his mouth. “You didn’t run away, I see.”
I couldn’t stop staring at Gary. The more I observed his beauty, the more inadequate I felt about my plain looks. Though, he did find me beautiful, or so he’d claimed.
“Hello…? Santiago?”
I snapped back to reality and formed a smile that was probably a bit too drunklike. “I’m here.” It was official. There was no way I could ever be just his friend and not desire him ever again. If anything, my feelings for him boosted, and my arousal grew more intense to where I couldn’t stand up again.
“You’re staring at me, aren’t you?” Gary let out a laugh.
There was that shyness again. “Beautiful,” I muttered almost inaudibly.
He arched an eyebrow. “Did you just call me ‘beautiful’?”
My eyes were glued to his, and the spell he’d said he’d felt before in general was exactly what I felt at that moment. “I mean, you could actually be a model, Gary.”
“I was, actually. And thank you.” His smile captivated my heart and influenced my erection.
“You never told me that.”
“There are lots of things I haven’t told you. But that’s why we’re getting to know each other, right?”
I nodded and smiled dreamily.
“Aw, look at you. In love with me already.” He winked at me.
“Gary…stop.” I chuckled. While I wasn’t exactly in love with him, I wouldn’t have been surprised if I could get there one day in the near future, possibly sooner.
“Why stop? I mean, you’re not the only one with romantic feelings. I feel the same way about you.” There hadn’t been an ounce of shyness in his face or expression throughout the entire video chat so far. For being discreet, he sure knew how to flirt his way into my life.
I frowned a little. “I wish we weren’t so far away from each other.”
“Oh, we’re just states away. It doesn’t have to be an issue unless you want it to be one.”
“No, you’re right. It’s just…I’d really go out on a date with you tonight if you lived closer.” Wow, I was getting bolder as my shyness melted away the more Gary and I talked. Something about him made it easy to talk to him.
“Okay, so tell me when you’d like to meet in person, and I’ll make it happen.”
My eyebrows rose. “…Really?”
“Really. Of course, silly. You know I don’t play games. When I say something, I mean it. Always.” His face told me so, too. He didn’t even blink.
“Wow…um…yeah, whenever, I mean…” But what about the pandemic? Sure, things had gotten somewhat better over time compared to the beginning of it, but there were different waves and strains and all that to be cautious about. And wouldn’t it be too risky to fly on a plane?
“Why are you nervous?” Gary didn’t seem upset or anything, though, more like serious.
I shrugged. “You make me nervous,” I muttered.
“Why is that?”
I gazed into his eyes and felt so lost in them, as if I’d run through the mysterious woods without knowing how to escape. But did I want to escape? “You’re just…perfect.”
Whoa, what? How could an oversexed horndog who reviewed trash be perfect? Yet our connection always found a way to pull me in as if it were naturally meant to happen. There was no way I could stop talking to him or being his friend. I just had to accept him for how he was.
“I have flaws, Santiago.”
I gave Gary a shrug. “So? We all do.”
“Just checking. Remember, you don’t know everything about me yet. But the more we connect, the more you’ll know. I trust you more than I did when we first started chatting, but even then, I felt like there was something about you that made me feel safe.”
My insides were molten from his words, and it was getting harder to collect myself from being so pathetically mesmerized by his beauty. “Really?”
“Yeah. And something tells me you feel the same about me.”
“I do, Gary. I really do. And I do want to meet, I swear. It’s just…the pandemic, you know?”
“We can get tested and show each other the results on cam, right?”
He did have a point there, and I wanted to meet him in person so badly. We probably had plenty of time to talk about it some more and make actual plans to meet, so I tried not to think too much about it for the moment.
He suddenly stood and shocked me by showing me the tenting of his boxer briefs. We both wore similar underwear, and both happened to be in underwear together. It was all too surreal. “There. See? We’re even now since you showed me yours.” He remained that way, though.
My eyes couldn’t let go of his big hard-on. It didn’t help that his whole beauty turned me on. I finally got to see a bit more than I was supposed to, and as sinful as it was, I couldn’t help but enjoy the view.
“Like what you see?”
“Yeah,” I said under my breath.
“Can you stand up for me?”
I’d already been bold and comfortable around Gary, and I’d already shown him my own tent, even if it’d been by accident. But something about his slightly commanding tone affected me in a way I couldn’t explain. All I knew was that I liked it, just as much as I liked hearing his voice. I got up and showed him my tent, still feeling a tiny bit shy but nothing like before.
He groped his bulge for a moment, then wrapped the cloth of his underwear around his erection to show me its phallic shape and how thick it was. It wasn’t too long, just thicker than I’d imagined, but not intimidatingly thick. It was perfect. “Do you want to play with yourself, too?”
I didn’t have to answer. I simply obeyed what I naturally sensed was a command that most people would’ve probably assumed to be a question. I slid my hand inside my boxer briefs and fondled myself. Why was I so submissive by doing what he clearly wanted me to do without barking an order? He had a usual kind and sincere tone, but there was power in it, because it got me to want to obey him, and it felt both wrong and right.
“You’re enjoying this.” There was intrigue in Gary’s tone, the sexual kind.
I focused deeply on his bulge while my hunger for him grew. “Yeah…it feels good.”
“I was actually referring to your submission.”
Oh. Wow. Had he guessed already? Submission was still a fantasy of mine, but it also made me very nervous because it required a complete loss of control. I wanted it, but I also wasn’t sure.
“Do you want to know how I know?”
“How?”
“Because out of all my reviews you checked out, you clicked ‘LIKE’ only on the Dom/sub one from the other day, the romantic one. That told me something.”
So, Gary did know after all. I’d forgotten about having liked that particular review. Somehow, I was so horny that I no longer saw the point of hiding how I really felt.
“I want the truth, Santiago. Do you like to be submissive?”
It took me a few seconds to respond, and I started stroking a bit faster. “Yes.” I’d said it with so much submission, and “yes” suddenly felt more right and natural to say than “yeah” or “yep,” at least in that case.
“Do you like to be controlled?”
Oh, Gary. He never failed to st
op me from desiring him more and more. “Yes.”
“Would you like to lose yourself in me?”
“Yes.”
“Would you like to be mine?”
I closed my eyes for a moment at the idea of submitting myself to a beautiful and sexy man who’d already held me captive in all the right ways. “Yes.”
“All mine and no one else’s?”
“Yes, Sir…” I froze and stopped masturbating. Oh, crap. Had I just called him by a Dominant title? “I mean…um…”
“No, Santiago. ‘Sir’ is correct. You don’t need to feel sorry for how you naturally feel. Let it all out and stop holding things back.” Gary’s tone had never changed after becoming intrigued. He wanted this just as much as I did. His lust was apparent, even if more controlled than mine for him. “Play with yourself again. There’s no reason to stop.”
I did as told, more like obeyed, and I closed my eyes every so often from the heaviness of the sexual hunger that had struck me like powerful lightning.
“Can you come for me, Santiago?”
I opened my eyes wide and slowed my strokes. “You mean…now?”
“Yes, now. It wouldn’t be fair to let you go without coming. You’ll have blue balls, and you’ll end up doing it on your own. So, do it with me instead.”
Wow. Gary had power over me, a power that I welcomed so easily and readily. After staring at him playing with himself for a while longer, I knew I’d be close soon.
“I can hear you breathing harder,” he said, still in an intrigued tone. “Are you getting close?”
I started panting while my gaze burned into his big bulge, and I couldn’t take it anymore. It was like a sweet ache, and I needed to release. I used my precum to stroke myself more.
“Come for me, Santiago. As your Dominant, I order you to come for me. Will you obey me like a good sub?”
“Oh, Sir…” I moaned. “I’m close.”
“Answer me, please. Will you obey me like a good sub?”
“Yes, Sir. I’m…yours…forever…”
And in just seconds of stroking faster, I cupped the leaking head, my eyes rolled back, and I repeatedly grunted while I shot my load into the palm of my hand.
“That’s my good sub.” He sat down and showed me his beautiful face again, giving me a triumphant smile. “Show me your hand.”
I caught my breath and relaxed from the afterglow, sitting down myself. I obeyed Gary and felt a little embarrassed showing him my messy hand and fingers.
“Very nice. You came a lot.”
“Yeah. Are you…going to come?”
“No, Santiago. You haven’t earned that reward just yet, but I promise that if you continue to be a good sub and obey your Dominant, I will show you everything you want to see. Okay?”
I gave him a nod, trying to mask a frown from feeling completely stupid.
“Why are you sad?”
“I’m…I mean…I just…” I shrugged.
“You wanted to watch me come, didn’t you?” That smile of Gary’s did make me melt, though. It told me that he’d won me, that I was his, and as wrong as it probably was in God’s eyes, I couldn’t fight the desire and longing for him. In fact, I wished he was there with me at that moment, holding me and letting me fall asleep in his arms. I felt like he’d never hurt me. If anything, he’d protect me under his wing.
I nodded with the tiniest smile in return.
“Well? I’ve been edging for a couple of days like I do a lot. Maybe I’ll save this next load for you sooner than you think. I just won’t tell you when. I like to surprise my good sub, after all.” He gave me a wink.
I was conflicted about our friendship, and I had to know where we stood. What would happen between us from that moment on? Would we still be friends? Would we be more? We’d just taken things to a whole new level that friends didn’t typically do, and I didn’t know what to hope for. “Gary…can I ask you a question?”
“Of course.”
“What are we? Like…are we still friends, or…more?”
He stared at me, silently, with a warm smile, just for a moment. “I think we both know we can’t be just friends anymore, given what we just did together.”
I nodded. “Yeah.”
“What I do know, though, is that I’d like to develop this new bond between us. You know, with me as your Dominant and you as my sub. But it’d be more than that. I’d appreciate it, if from now on, you don’t be intimate with anyone else. Because I can assure you, I won’t.”
My heart flipped from Gary’s words, and they put a stronger smile on my face. “I’ve never been a sub before.”
“You were just one a moment ago. You let it out naturally because you knew it was how you felt you should be with me. My sub. And you made me proud and happy. You know, as your Dominant, I’m not a mean jerk, nor am I unfair or sadistic. I’m more than capable of showing love to my sub, and when I love, I really love. As long as you agree to our new relationship, you’ll see it for yourself. I don’t play games. All I ask is that you obey me with love and respect, and I can promise you the rewards will be bigger than you can imagine. I may be above you in title and dominance, but we’re still equal as humans, and you’d be one with me if we were together.”
I felt so much sincerity coming from Gary’s eyes and voice, the way he focused on me without an ounce of reluctance. He was confident and knew exactly what he wanted, and I felt all of that. I knew he could say whatever he wanted, but I also believed he wasn’t the type to do so. I couldn’t figure out why that was except that I was able to trust him more easily than I’d thought.
Gary sighed. “Santiago, you’re a very special guy. I feel so lucky to have met you. That’s why I want you to take your time and figure out if this is the kind of relationship you’d like and would be able to handle. I don’t want to force anything on you. Yeah, we might have acted out our roles a moment ago for our pleasure, but I don’t want you to feel like you signed a contract or something. Take your time. We can continue as friends for now until you’re ready to tell me what you want.”
I wanted him so badly, yet I wondered if I should think about his offer some more.
“But do know this. I’m not and never will be vanilla. I don’t do normal relationships like most people do. I mean, I have before, but not anymore. My longest relationship lasted two years, and it wasn’t vanilla at all. All the others were vanilla and lasted much, much shorter, not even close to my longest. This is just who I am, Santiago. I can’t change my lifestyle and I won’t. It took a while for me to embrace it.” Oddly enough, he still struggled with his sexuality, but I kept that thought to myself.
“I understand.” I wasn’t really disappointed or upset about it. I was more confused as to how I’d handle it since I found Gary’s lifestyle intriguing and scary at the same time.
“We can, of course, still be friends if that’s what you prefer, and I’ll respect your decision. But if that’s the case, we can’t be intimate like we were a moment ago. What we did together wouldn’t happen again. You were an exception because of my strong feelings for you, but I never, ever do that with anyone I’m not involved with on an intimate level. So again, take your time to decide and let me know when you’re ready.”
I nodded, realizing that Gary was being fair and made a lot of sense. I wanted him with me and was so sure of it, much more sure than ever before. At the same time, I had to think long and hard about becoming his sub, if it was something I was ready for as a long-term commitment.
Chapter 9
Gary and I didn’t chat very much in the mornings, mostly just a few messages periodically. So on a Wednesday morning, it wasn’t a surprise that my workday wasn’t any different. I was giddy after having just rung up a huge order for a customer, consisting of more than twenty pairs of shoes. Of course, the downfall to that was having plenty of empty spots within the racks and not having any more of some of the purchased shoes. Still, I thanked God briefly in prayer for having sent me a generous cus
tomer to help with the store sales.
My phone buzzed in silent mode, and I grabbed it while only two customers remained, a straight couple picking out shoes for the man. It was a DM from Gary. We still messaged each other on Twitter and only used Discord for video chats, if just to keep our DM history active with fond memories to hold onto.
He’d written, Hello, Santiago! Would it be creepy if we had a little coffee date whenever you’re free? I figured we could video chat while I’m at the coffeehouse around here and you at a coffeehouse over there.
I smiled hugely because it was anything but creepy. It was actually really sweet, especially since it was something people had been doing nowadays. After all, when the Covid-19 pandemic had first become a thing, the use of video chat had soared. I regularly got tested for everything and always wore a face mask anywhere outside of my home, even just to take a walk, and I was sure Gary did the same as well. Somehow, I trusted him in that sense. I didn’t feel too worried about him having anything. I wasn’t completely sure, of course, but my gut told me so.
I replied, Not creepy at all. I think it’s actually romantic. Would you like to do it after I get off work today?
That could work. Just message me when you’re ready and I’ll be on my way. ;)
We hadn’t done any more D/s talk since I’d masturbated for him on cam, which I still couldn’t believe I’d done. Ever since I’d started connecting with him, I’d grown bolder to a more unrecognizable version of myself. I still thought about his offer to become my Dominant and I his sub. The more it crossed my mind, the more I considered it. It was a unique experience for me, and it didn’t come around very often. The thing was that it was risky to submit because it could be to the wrong person, but Gary was different. I felt more trust in him as the days went by. I was just nervous of the foreign feeling of giving up so much of my control to him, possibly even all my control. What were the terms anyway? He hadn’t specified anything, but then, we hadn’t chatted much about it either.
I still visited his review blog and couldn’t believe all the kinks that fascinated him. He was so open and honest about everything in relation to that world, and there wasn’t a whole lot that he wasn’t into. I prayed I wouldn’t have to try them all with him, if any.
