“What d’you reckon with Linda and this doctor?” said Debbie, as we hurried back to the vehicles. “Is she going to be shagging him or wot?”
“Search me,” I said.
“Her mouth’s as tight as a choirboy’s arse,” said Debbie.
“Sure is,” I said. “Well, um, not that I’d actually know, of course.”
The kids were running along with me again as I walked to Muhammad’s shelter. Most of them had their heads shaved with just one little tuft left in the middle. They all chose different shapes for their tuft so it looked quite funny if you were taller than them. I rounded a corner, and there was Muhammad, standing at the entrance to his shelter.
The kids melted away. Muhammad was a striking man with a shock of fuzzy black hair which was almost Kenneth Kaundaesque in its verticalness. He wore a djellaba so white as to be absurd.
“Rosie,” he said. “You have been very industrious today. Have you decided to increase your productivity?”
It was a relief to get inside his shelter where it was cool and quiet. Most of the refugees lived in huts, but Muhammad had managed to get hold of the materials and the space to build himself an exceptionally airy and elegant establishment. It was like our cabana, an oblong building with rush-matting walls, designed so that a breeze ran through. In places, harsh white points of light broke through from the outside. I settled down on a low bed, waiting for him to make tea before we could talk. He had a bookshelf leaning against one wall. The Ginsberg and Fink remaindered books were still there.
It was twenty past eleven but there was no explaining the need for haste to Muhammad. There was no hurrying the arrival of the tea; no question of abandoning ceremony and proceeding in an expedient manner. Especially if I was late for something.
Muhammad moved in stately fashion, to and fro, fetching tiny cups, two more sticks for the fire. Sugar. More water. A little more tea. Another twig. A spoon. Damn him. He was doing it on purpose now.
Eventually, finally, with a self-satisfied glint in his eye, he presented me with a tiny cup of tea, obviously too hot to drink, and settled himself down.
“So.”
“So.”
“You are very excited this morning.” Muhammad had a thin, reedy voice and a deep laugh.
“No, I’m not.”
“Yes, you are,” said Muhammad.
With extreme difficulty, I maintained a lofty silence.
“So,” said Muhammad eventually. Ha! My point. “So what is the cause of this agitation? Is it the new doctor?”
He was such a pain. “No, of course it isn’t the new doctor, for God’s sake.”
He gave his deep laugh, then looked serious. “So then perhaps it is the Teeth of the Wind,” he said dramatically.
“Oh, God, Muhammad. Call them locusts, please.”
“You have no poetry in your soul. It is tragic,” he said.
“Come on, Sylvia Plath, what have you heard?”
“I hear that there are swarms five miles across, blotting out the sun, plunging the earth into blackness,” he said.
“And what have you really heard?”
“It is not good,” he said, serious now. “There is no food in the highlands. The rains have been poor for many years now. The people are living on nothing and only trying to survive until the harvest.”
“But the harvest will be good this year?”
“Yes. For the first time in many years. Unless the locusts come. Then there will be very bad famine and the people will come here.”
“Is there a locust plague? Are they swarming?”
“They are not flying, but I have heard that they are hatching in three areas. You know that they begin as grasshoppers and then they march—in a vast, seething, living carpet?”
I looked at him levelly. “Yes. Muhammad, I know.”
“If the people had the pesticides then they could spray and destroy them, but they have nothing. Even if they had the chemicals it would not be possible to spray from the air because of the Aboutian fighter jets. Soon the winds will be blowing east–west and will carry the swarms across Kefti and into Nambula.”
“And do you believe all this?”
He shrugged and raised his hands. Then he looked down and said, “It is possible.”
It is possible. I felt a surge of panic again. Usually he dismissed these rumors as nothing. “How can we find out?” I said.
“For now we must wait, reflect and discuss.”
I wanted to stay and talk this through, but it was eleven-forty. I had to go. “Malcolm’s going to arrive any minute with the new doctor,” I said, getting up.
“I have something to show you,” Muhammad replied.
Of course he had something to show me, given that I was late. He took me out through the back of his hut. There, growing in the mud, were three spindly tomato plants bearing a handful of tiny tomatoes of the type which are particularly expensive in supermarkets at home. He knew he was not supposed to do this. The refugees were forbidden to cultivate. That would have turned a relief camp into a permanent settlement.
Muhammad picked one of his six tomatoes and gave it to me.
“Thank you,” I said, touched. “I’ll have it stuffed.”
Then he put his hand on my shoulder and gave me a look. What was it—friendship, solidarity, pity? I got all brisk and flustered. “I’d better go,” I said.
When I got back to the Land Cruiser it was locked and Henry had the key. It was twelve o’clock now and everyone else had gone back up to the camp on time as I had asked them to. I drummed my fingers on the front of the car and waited, hoping Henry had not gone up with the others and forgotten that he had the key. What I hadn’t told Muhammad was that we were already short of food in the camp. We were supposed to have had a delivery a fortnight before but the UN had sent a message over the radio to say that the food would not be coming for a few weeks because the supply ship had not arrived in Port Nambula. We were going to have to start cutting down everyone’s rations anyway, even without writhing living carpets covering the whole of Kefti, and massive swarms of giant-fanged locusts blotting out the sun.
I looked at the group of kids running round the Land Cruiser, giggling, trying to jump up into the back, and remembered the feeding centers of the last famine. We used to have one shelter for the kids who could feed themselves, one for those who were too weak to feed themselves but might live, and one for those who were definitely going to die. I suddenly wanted to burst into tears. I hadn’t toughened up as much as I’d thought.
CHAPTER Four
Idreamed of bumping into him in Safeways: walking along the aisles side by side, making jokes about the other customers, scampering about buying absurd foodstuffs to make each other laugh, tinned meat pies, blancmange, packets of dried chicken curry. Unbelievable that at one time in my life I spent hours and hours thinking about this, working out the fine detail of the fantasy.
Once an actual real meeting had been arranged with Oliver my head was completely taken over, like a nest with a cuckoo in it. I used to attempt to ban him from my mind by reading a book, and I’d read the same sentence four times without noticing. I would watch the news and not take in a single word because I was thinking of him. All I could concentrate on was my new Africa project, because it was infused by Oliver with sexual promise. On the Saturday morning before the meeting, I persuaded myself that I really did need to go to Safeways: not the one where I lived, but another, several miles away in the King’s Road (where Oliver lived), since their range of handmade pasta was more extensive.
It was tragic, really. I dressed and undressed several times in preparation for the expedition. I did not want to look too dressed up; I wanted to look stylish yet casual, as if I always looked like that on Saturday mornings, and also thin. I put full makeup on, then suspected you could see the foundation in the hard daytime light, so washed the foundation off and settled for eyeliner, mascara, lipstick and blusher, then started again without the eyeliner and lipstick. I wore
new white underwear, then changed it to black. I asked myself if it was weird to wear stockings and suspenders under jeans and was unable to see my way to a clear answer.
After I had spent over an hour in Safeways, and returned again to Safeways to purchase a bag of frozen scampi of which I had neither need nor want, and he still did not appear, I cursed the heavens for conspiring against me. “Your behavior is insane and sick,” my friend Shirley said when I confessed all this. “If I hear the word ‘Oliver’ once more this evening I shall bite your head.”
Oliver himself became sick. He lay, feverish, in his flat which was vast and airy with white pillars. I tended him. I washed the sheets, made him shepherd’s pie and brought it on a tray with flowers in a little square white vase. Then I changed the pie to grilled trout with watercress, and new potatoes steamed in their skins, because shepherd’s pie is too heavy if you are sick. His mother arrived. She was glamorous and rich and she was just popping by with some champagne. She didn’t have a clue about caring for him, none. He had never known true love and care. But she took to me like nobody’s business. “I’ve never seen him so happy with anyone, my darling,” she whispered to me, in her gravelly Sobranie smoker’s voice, with a conspiratorial wink.
The meeting was scheduled for six o’clock on Wednesday. At five-thirty on the Tuesday Hermione banged down the phone particularly huffily. “Sir William wants you to go upstairs. Oliver Marchant’s up there. He was in the area, apparently, so he wants to have the meeting now instead of tomorrow.”
It was a disaster, a complete disaster. I had set aside that whole evening to prepare for the meeting: to go to an aerobics class to clean off those extra few ounces; to have a steam bath and soak myself in scented oils; to prepare my outfits. In fact, had the meeting not been brought forward a day, I might have missed it altogether, since the toiletry preparations and outfit choices might have prevented me leaving the flat at all. As it was, I considered Oliver’s premature arrival one of the worst misfortunes which had ever befallen me. I only just had time to get my makeup on.
As I walked into the room and saw Oliver sitting there my brain emptied completely and my mouth went dry.
“Ah,” said Sir William, “Oliver. This is our representative from the publicity department, ver’ ver’ good, Rosemary ah . . .”
“Richardson,” finished Oliver, smiling in a fatherly way. He got up and shook my hand. At his touch, chemicals began to charge around crazily in my body shouting, “WARNING WARNING, sexual alert, all systems to pulse.”
“How are you?” said Oliver.
“Fine, thanks.” My voice came out unexpectedly high. We were still looking into each other’s eyes.
“Glarrrh,” said Sir William, clearing his throat, “glahum, well . . .”
“So. Still not turned into a pizza?” said Oliver, which was quite cheeky considering my boss was still standing looking at us going “Glahum.”
“What’s that?” said Sir William. “Wantin’ a pizza?”
“Maybe later,” said Oliver to me, but looking back at Sir William.
During the meeting Oliver did most of the talking and directed most of what he said to me, which went straight to my head, naturally.
“It’s a phenomenon which fascinates me,” he was saying. “Celebri-ties have been promoting causes since the First World War, but you watch: this will become huge. In five years’ time no cause will be complete without an accompanying star to promote it.”
I made an odd noise. Sir William glanced at me disconcertedly.
“Ver’, ver’ interesting,” he huffed. “Course, celebrities come from all walks of life. Not just a question of world of entertainment, all sorts of areas, prominent figures, benefactors.”
“Quite so,” said Oliver. “Business, publishing even, as with yourself.”
Sir William pulled at his beard, gratified. I was still embarrassed about the odd noise. It had been meant as a murmur of agreement.
“But what this program is actually about,” said Oliver, “is the way Third World aid is entering the mainstream of popular culture. Before Geldof it was dreary, it was a question of black and white envelopes plopping onto the doorstep. Now giving is becoming hip and synonymous with a good time.”
“Ver’ true, and as we’ve bin sayin’. Goin’ out there meself, with the books. Bit of a mercy dash,” said Sir William, then looked at me. “Glahum,” he said, nodding at me. “Glahum.”
“Oh. Do you think it’s likely you might want to feature Sir William’s trip to Nambula on your program?” I said very quickly.
Oliver smiled and winked at me. “It’s certainly an interesting angle for us, with the combination of Sir William and Nambula and the books. I take it these are the Keftian camps we’re talking about?”
“That’s right,” I said, drooling at his knowledge of world affairs.
“Well, I certainly think we should discuss it further,” said Oliver. “When things are a little more developed.”
Afterwards, as Oliver and I stood on the steps of the Ginsberg building with the golden evening light falling onto us through the trees, he said, “Do you want to come for a drink?” just like in the fantasies. I couldn’t believe it. I was wildly happy. Then a split second later I remembered I hadn’t done my legs and wondered in a panic if there was any way of shaving them in the ladies’ loo.
Even in the car it was like a dream, his hands on the wheel, his thigh in soft dark blue suit material next to my knee in its sheer black—tragically—tights. The doors of the car were cream leather and the dashboard was walnut. The instrument panel twinkled and glowed as if we were in an airplane. We didn’t go to a pub, we went to the sort of restaurant where if I had asked for a razor the waiter would have brought me one on a white octagonal china plate, without question or comment.
“Oh, Lu-ee-gi.”
As Oliver and I were being shown to our table, the actress Kate Fortune was making a noisy flappy entrance, bearing down on the maître d’hôtel, her long dark silky hair swinging everywhere.
“Luigi! Wonderful to see you again! Mwah, mwah.”
“Actually madam,” he said, “it’s Roberto.”
I’d seen Kate Fortune on television only the night before, in a miniseries about a female explorer who was unexpectedly keen on lip gloss. She was often to be seen in magazines, dressed as a fairy or crinoline lady with accompanying features called “Fortune at Forty.” The worst was when she had appeared in one of the color supplements made over as a series of famous film stars, one from each decade since the nineteen-twenties. It seemed an unfortunate self-promotional blunder, only stressing the abyss between Kate Fortune and Marlene Dietrich or Jane Fonda. Tonight she was dressed more in Dallas mode. I had long suspected her of hair-flicking and, sure enough, as she bore down on us, cooing, “Oliver! Heavenly to see you,” she took hold of the whole left-hand side of her hair and threw it back into the eyes of Roberto.
Oliver rose gallantly to his feet to receive her kisses, and now had a little circle of peach lip gloss on each cheek. I got to my feet too, but she behaved as if I was the invisible woman, so I sat down again.
“Lovely,” she was saying to Oliver, fingering his lapel. “You will try and come and see me doing the Shaw? Can I leave you tickets next week? You will try and put us on your lovely program?”
“Oh, darling, I don’t want to come and sit through some dreary play,” said Oliver. “Why don’t you take me out to lunch instead?”
Kate Fortune rolled her eyes, threw back her hair, and said, “Ter-rible man. I’ll get Yvonne to call Gwen tomorrow.” Then she disappeared off to her table, casting a gay, coy look behind her. I was surprised she didn’t flick up her skirt and show him her pants as well.
Oliver ordered champagne. We had just begun to talk about our earliest sexual experiences, as you do, when Signor Zilli burst into the restaurant. Signor Zilli was a big cult figure at the time. He was a volatile Italian buffoon, played by a huge comedian called Julian Alman. It was very s
trange seeing him in the flesh, out of costume and character.
“Oliver, hi! Blast!” said Julian Alman, lumbering towards us. “Look, can you come and have a word out here, my car’s been clamped. Blast!”
“What do you expect me to do about it?” said Oliver, staring at him incredulously. “Unclamp it with my teeth?”
“No. Look, the thing is, I want you to talk to the clamping men.”
Julian Alman seemed completely unaware that everyone in the restaurant was looking at him.
“But if you’ve parked on a double yellow line you will be clamped. Is this your new Porsche?”
“Yes, the thing is, you see, I was still in it.”
“You were still in it?”
“Yes. I was trying to get out.”
“Julian,” said Oliver. “This isn’t making a lot of sense. What was preventing your getting out?”
“Well, you see, it’s a bit small for me.”
“So why did you buy it?”
“Well, I really wanted this model. You see, they’ve just been released so there’s only three of them on the road, so, you see—”
“Oh, Jesus Christ, Julian, can’t you see I’ve got more important things to do?” he said, gesturing towards me.
“No, that’s fine. Go and help him. I don’t mind,” I said.
“Oh, great. Look, sorry, that’s really good of you,” said Julian, turning to try and peer out of the window. “Blast.”
So Oliver went out to sort out the clampers. He returned ten minutes later looking extremely smug to tell me he’d managed to talk them out of it.
Then we were straight back onto the early sexual experiences. “So the next term I turned up to my Blake tutorial and the tutor was her . . . the same woman I had given the love bite to.”
The food was tiny, which was fortunate as I had no appetite. When Oliver had finished his sexual anecdotes from Cambridge, I told him about getting caught naked with Joel in the sand dunes by a policeman, who then asked if he could join in.
“So who was Joel?”
“He was my boyfriend when I was at college.”
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