by Karr, Kim
Michael’s gaze remained steady. “I think I made a mistake not going to the police. I thought I could find her and keep her out of prison for what she’d done. But now I’ve exhausted all of my available avenues and we still haven’t been able to find her. The private investigator has found nothing, her cell has no activity, and her bank accounts haven’t been touched. She’s gone, Elle. Gone.”
Knowing I couldn’t blurt out, “No, she’s not. She was seen last Saturday,” I bit my tongue instead and whispered, “She still might show up.”
He shook his head and the liquor swirled in his glass. “I can’t wait any longer. I’m going to go to the police on Monday and report her missing. I should have done it a long time ago. I can’t keep shielding her from her own destructive behaviors. It’s time I start worrying about my daughter and myself, and that means legally divorcing her so I can appoint someone as Clementine’s guardian.”
Whoa.
My shock must have shown. He’d never talked about my sister like this. Like someone he didn’t even like. Like someone he didn’t have any compassion for. I was finding it hard to take in.
“Elle, I think that person should be—” He paused to look at me. “Erin.”
What?
Hurt, I had nothing to say. He knew how much I love that little girl. How much I think of her as my own. Why would he want her to live with his sister, who already has four children and her hands full?
“Of course I’ll make provisions to make certain you have visitation, should something happen to me.”
My patience wearing thin, I fired, “Why are you telling me this? Shouldn’t you be discussing it with your sister?”
His voice as calm as an unruffled breeze, he answered, “I thought you might disagree.”
Blinking at him, I couldn’t help but wonder if he was somehow looking to blackmail me in some way. I hoped it was the liquor he was consuming that was sending the wrong vibe my way. Rising to my feet, I strode closer to him. “If you’re asking me if I want to be named Clementine’s guardian, you already know I do.”
There was a darkness in his eyes I’d never seen. “That’s what I thought, Elle. Now, there’s something I need your help with.”
Even though we were alone in the house, he turned the music up, and whispered.
I listened, nodded, and after much thought, hesitantly said, “I’ll think about it and let you know tomorrow.”
With his simple request on the table, he set his glass down and headed for the stairs. When he was halfway, he turned and said, “Good night, Elle.”
Pulse racing, once I knew he was in his room I scurried up the stairs and into the room I’d been staying in. I’d slept here many nights, but for the first time since I’d arrived in Boston more than three months ago, I locked my door.
After brushing my teeth and washing my face, I got into bed and held my phone close. When I couldn’t take it anymore, I called Logan. I had to talk to him.
It only rang once. “Elle, everything okay?”
I sunk further down onto my pillow. “I needed to hear your voice.”
There was a lot of noise in the background. He was out somewhere. “Are you sure you’re okay? You don’t sound right. Did something happen?”
In a whisper, I told him, “I need to tell you something.”
“Elle, I can’t hear you,” Logan said.
I opened my mouth to speak again.
“Sorry I’m late.” It was a female voice I didn’t recognize.
“Hey, can I call you back?” Logan asked clearly into the phone. Clearly to me.
Crushed, I answered with barely audible words. “No, you don’t have to.”
“Elle.” He said my name as if it pained him.
“I shouldn’t have called,” I said louder and hung up.
I remembered wondering that first night at Molly’s if he had a girlfriend, or a girl, or someone in his life. Was that the voice I’d just heard?
Deep.
Husky.
Sexy.
Was that the real reason he’d left me alone in his hotel room?
Tears were streaming down my face.
I felt like I’d been stabbed in the chest, right through my heart.
But really, what had I expected? That he’d tell me he loved me after knowing me for only five days?
I covered my face with my hands and relived the day my mother died, the day my kidney failed her, the day I was declared unable to ever give life, the day my father declared me useless.
Somehow, amidst my sorrow, I fell asleep.
Clementine was the only joy I had in my life now. I wouldn’t lose her.
Sometime later during the night I heard my phone ring.
I didn’t answer.
He left a message that if I needed anything, I should contact Declan at Mulligan’s Cup or Frank at Molly’s.
Obviously, that was his way of telling me to leave him alone.
Wish granted.
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
DAY 7
LOGAN
I knotted my tie and looked in the mirror.
In my black Dolce & Gabbana suit, the Martini stretch wool one that my grandfather insisted I buy five of, a crisp white shirt, and a red tie, I was the epitome of high-society class.
Just the way my grandfather liked.
Although he preferred everyone who worked for him to wear gray, it was never my nature to truly conform, and if I did that today he’d know something was up.
I had, however, gotten a haircut and given myself a close shave.
He liked the clean-cut look.
A test smile showed that I’d brushed my teeth properly. They were white and gleaming.
I looked good enough.
Good enough to charm Grandpa Ryan, I hoped.
All he would see tonight was Logan Killian Ryan McPherson—the golden boy he had high hopes for. The man he hoped to groom to take over his empire.
That was never going to happen.
Under the appearance I wore so well, I wasn’t the man he wanted me to be. I’d never be that man. I had too much of Killian, the Killer, McPherson in my blood. And I’d never felt more like him than today. I had fire in my belly and steel in my spine.
I was determined.
Tomorrow was Friday, and I had yet to figure out why Michael wasn’t shitting his pants by now. A call placed to him from my father earlier today only confirmed that he was planning on delivering.
What—he didn’t say.
And we had no idea.
The information we’d gathered on Tommy had led us nowhere so far. I needed a backup plan. The details of how I was going to get the money to Michael were sketchy, but I’d work that out tomorrow once I had the funds secured. No matter what Patrick wanted, I knew if what Michael had wasn’t enough, offering more money would at least buy time.
Not much, but it was still time.
Disappearing with Elle was my only other option, and I knew she’d never go for it. So this had to work. Either way, it had to.
Declan had been able to track down a lead on at least one drug deal that went down at the hotel. He found the buyer, but getting him to talk, getting the details, was a different story. He was working on it.
With nothing else to go on, I had to visit my maternal grandfather in New York City. Tell him everything he wanted to hear so that he’d release his hold on my trust fund. Loosen the strings attached to it. I’d have to deliver on my promises, of course. But it didn’t matter. Selling my soul to him to get the money would give Elle the reprieve I needed to bring Patrick and Tommy down.
It would be worth it.
My grandfather would never see the blood in my eyes or the hatred in my veins. He was oblivious to anything but conformation. And besides, he thought it was for my own good for me to be like him.
How could he not see that I never would be?
What he also failed to see was that what he was doing to me was just as binding as my ties to the Blue Hill Gang.
Sighing, I buttoned my designer suit jacket.
Trust fund baby.
Blue blood.
Silver spoon
Heir to a fortune.
I was more than that but today, I would pretend I wasn’t.
Shoes on.
Watch on.
One last look and I was good to go.
Game time.
On a mission, I hopped in my SUV.
I-90 was a bitch.
I waited as long as I could to leave, but I needed turnaround time. It didn’t seem to matter if it was seven A.M. or seven P.M., as was the case, because the pavement was always jam-packed.
Exhaustion had crept into my bones and it wasn’t going anywhere, so another night of only a few hours’ sleep didn’t really matter.
It took over an hour to reach the I-84 exit.
Just as I was about to take the ramp, my cell rang. My dash lit up with a number I didn’t want to see. “Yeah,” I answered.
“We have a lead,” Agent Meg Blanchet said.
“What kind of lead?” I asked, extremely curious.
“We got that warrant to tap O’Shea’s office landlines early this morning. He got a call a few hours ago from a female, we’re guessing his wife, telling him his delivery had arrived.”
Like a crazy man, I swerved all the way into the right lane and zoomed off the interstate to turn around. “What were his instructions?”
The woman I knew as the she-devil cleared her throat. “He didn’t. He hung up without a word, like he knew his phone lines were being monitored.”
“Odd.”
“Yes, I agree. I think he switched to his cell and we don’t have the go-ahead to monitor that yet. Do you think you can contact his wife’s sister and see if she knows anything about this supposed delivery? We have a unit outside his house, and either O’Shea has slipped out of the house without us knowing or he went to bed and he’s not planning on going anywhere. The place is dark and we can’t see any movement inside.”
“He’s got a young kid—he wouldn’t leave her alone. Did you notice if Lizzy’s sister was with him?” I hated referring to Elle in that way, but the less the devil herself, Agent Meg Blanchet of the Drug Enforcement Administration, knew about what had transpired between Elle and me, the better.
Her laugh was abrupt, cold even. “He dropped the kid off at his sister’s earlier. But Logan, I would have thought you’d know the answer to the whereabouts of Lizzy’s sister before me.” She stressed Lizzy’s sister.
That’s when I knew I was fucked.
“I know you’re having a relationship with the missing woman’s sister. I’m not stupid. I just hope you’re not.”
With everything in me I wanted to tell her to fuck off, but then my father would end up in jail on the trumped-up RICO charges she was ready to pounce on. It was the ball she dangled over my head. The reason I was doing this in the first place. It was the reason she had me picked up four months ago. She’d hoped my bleeding heart over my father would persuade me to help her—and she was right.
The Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organizations Act allowed the DEA to gather enough circumstantial information on my father for him to be formally charged for crimes not committed by him but linked to him through his assistance. The only way he would be spared from being charged was if I agreed to cooperate with the DEA and get them all the information they wanted.
God help me, Agent Meg Blanchet, the she-devil with her red hair, red shoes, and matching red lips, has been yanking my chain for way too long, and I’d just about had enough. But then I thought about my old man behind bars and knew I had to keep going. I’d done everything she asked of me in terms of cooperation—met with her at Molly’s every week to give her updates on my father’s “calls” for Patrick, or at any time she deemed appropriate. She wanted Killian, or more accurately the Mob-linked crime information that existed only in his head, to further her case against the Flannigan family.
With much hesitation, soon after the night she brought me in, I talked to my gramps. I told him she wanted names, dates, and facts—information he’d never want to give. “To be a rat!” he’d screamed.
I left there that night convinced he wasn’t going to do it, but in the end, he, like me, couldn’t stand to see my father go to prison. We both knew he’d never come out still breathing. He was weak and he’d be eaten alive on the inside. Because of this, and this only, Killian agreed to meet with the DEA and we both agreed to keep this task I’d been strapped with from my old man. He didn’t need any more bullshit to deal with.
The final provision of my agreement with the DEA, the one that would free my father, the one that I couldn’t wait to deliver, was the information on the next cocaine shipment. They wanted to witness the exchange between buyer and seller. With that, there would be enough solid proof that Patrick and Tommy Flannigan were running the biggest drug ring to hit the Boston streets in years.
The only reason I’d been doing this bullshit for the past four months now was because with Patrick and Tommy behind bars, both my father and I would be free. And now so would Elle and Gramps.
I couldn’t wait.
“Let me see what I can find out. I’ll call when I know anything.”
She tsk-tsked. “I’ll be waiting.”
The line disconnected and my foot slammed down on the gas. At ninety miles an hour, I was back in the limits of Boston by eight forty-five. I tried Elle’s cell but she didn’t pick up.
Taking a chance, I decided to hit up the boutique first. She was still staying with O’Shea, so if she wasn’t there, she had to be at work.
Whether or not she knew anything, I’d already decided I would have to come clean and tell her what was going on. She had to get to O’Shea and find out where the product had been delivered. The drop point was key in the investigation, and the place and people would be used as the link to O’Shea, and in turn to Patrick and Tommy.
O’Shea would be collateral damage.
I knew Elle wouldn’t want anything to happen to him, but if he were smart, he’d make a deal with Blanchet. That wasn’t my concern—my concern was my father, and now Elle.
Where Lizzy fit in, I had no idea.
The pieces were sketchy.
She was somehow involved with Tommy, but whether it was with O’Shea’s knowledge or not, I didn’t know.
My cell rang again when I was about a block from the boutique. It was my old man.
“Yeah, Pop.”
“Hey, I have Declan and Miles with me. Miles did some recon and found out that before Elizabeth Sterling O’Shea got married—less than two years ago, I might add—she had been arrested a slew of times, for drugs, disorderly conduct, and the last time, a prostitution charge. And guess where she was last employed before marrying O’Shea?”
“I don’t know, Pop. Where?” My nerves were shot and I didn’t have time for twenty questions.
“Lucy’s.”
“That’s how she knows Tommy,” I guessed.
“Yeah, and I’m going to go through payroll and see how long she worked there.”
I dragged a hand down my face. “Might help.”
“There’s something else—I pulled up the records and you’re never going to believe who was the pro bono attorney assigned to her case.”
I slammed the steering wheel. “Son of a bitch.”
“Yep. Turns out O’Shea got her off and gave her a job as his secretary. Soon after they married, and seven months after that, she gave birth.”
“Seven months?”
“Yep.”
“So she was pregnant before she got married. That’s not a crime.”
“No, but her priors show years of arrests, usually drug-related charges. Then nothing after the baby. Seems she cleaned up fast.”
Maybe a little too fast.
Or maybe not at all.
“Thanks. I have some things to take care of, but I’ll be in touch.”
“Everything okay, son? I thought
you’d be jumping at this information.”
I parked my SUV. “Yeah, it’s fine. I gotta run. I’ll call you later.”
I disconnected and walked toward the boutique. There was so much going on, I was finding it hard to focus on anyone—anyone but her.
The lights were on, but I didn’t see her. After I knocked, I figured she must be downstairs. I still had the key she’d given me on my key chain and decided to use it.
I knew I’d scare the ever-living shit out of her, but I needed to talk to her. I also needed to see her.
It had been three days.
Three days too many.
I hated what had happened when she’d called me the other night, but Blanchet had come into Molly’s and I—well, obviously I’d done a shitty job of covering us up.
Besides, I’d vowed to stay away from Elle until Friday.
But now, Friday was only one day away and if things went according to plan, we could soon be together without worry.
Together forever if we wanted.
Did I want that?
My mind was such a fucked-up mess. Still, I knew wanting her wasn’t some fleeting feeling. It was an ache getting worse with each passing moment that I didn’t have her. I felt like I could love this woman that I’d only just met. Was that even possible?
First the old butler bell chimed, which didn’t alert anyone to shit, and then the alarm started to chime, which at least she’d activated. I typed in the code B-L-O-W.
“Elle,” I called.
She didn’t answer.
Her red felt hat sat behind the counter, and seeing it made me smile.
Feeling oddly happy, I took the stairs two at a time as I descended them. Excitement stirred within me. My world had changed. Not only was it upside down but inside out. I wasn’t the same man who walked the streets of Boston alone. I never wanted to be that man again. Tommy would soon be locked away forever and then Elle would be beside me. Where she belonged.
Random, strange, somewhat foreign thoughts entered my head and unknown feelings swirled within me. She’d gotten under my skin, into my bones, and somehow had become a part of my soul. It could only mean one thing. Yes, I did love Elle and I was going to tell her so—right now.
The steps seemed like way too many. We were so close and still way too far apart. I turned the corner and—
