Collected Poems of Muriel Rukeyser

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by Janet Kaufman


  Love, sang my sleep, the wavelight on the stone.

  I weep to go beyond this stone and the waterlight,

  To kiss their eyelids for the last time and pass

  From the delicate confidence of their sly throats,

  The conversation of their flesh of dreams.

  And though I weep in my dream,

  When I wake I will not weep.

  A BALLAD THEME

  She tells:

  Sing I chant I

  To music in new morning heard

  My need has become a bird

  And is flown and is free

  My need grew stormy and wild

  No love of mine had made a child

  No song of mine had made my love

  To plant my life

  Need grew deep about my heart.

  They came then with their steely knives

  They said Your song has many lives

  Now choose you

  They split my life while I did sleep

  The joy of chance was in my dream

  Loving and remembering

  The nature of memory

  Of the nature of time was all my dream

  The nature of love and of forgetting

  I dreamed the series of eternity

  While I lay bleeding

  The joy of choice I sing

  That out my wound did spring

  My son and my song

  Sing I chant I

  Now the child is alive and young

  And the child I among my veins

  Sings and says with every breath

  Sing I chant I

  ASLEEP AND AWAKE

  Asleep and awake, I wake.

  Never having written

  What I have to say.

  No poem offers of me

  My central meaning,

  I have danced to my naming

  And danced away.

  Now I move past my dreams:

  They yield processions of

  Changing images.

  I want to speak the clear

  The intricate meeting-place

  Of all things with all desires:

  Cut down by risk to the root

  Where everything is given.

  The finding of the child,

  The lost voices, songs of all

  Who take their meanings.

  They are beginning the songs.

  Mortal, awake, I sing and say

  All is immortal, all

  Save personality.

  Yes, your passion, yes, the time of a flower.

  Move in all your meanings,

  Go lit by many fires,

  Deep in the secret fires

  All speak to all.

  The deep life lives and dies

  Changes, sings, and sings.

  Speak before I sleep,

  Before the keepings are given,

  I find my time, and speak,

  Driven toward love and music,

  Music of forms and desires.

  OF MONEY. AND THE PAST.

  These coins and calendars stood for the moon, strong boys,

  And the resinous storerooms of a house in silence.

  Too many losses among the possible.

  But only when you hear their fearful music:

  Nothing at all and then the front door slamming,

  The cave of sound at the station after all hope has gone,

  Fifteen wire hangers jangling in emptied closets.

  When you discover the real, lying under, and still,

  Among the silences green morning reopening.

  Now your invisible path between the brambles opens

  To the hill of oyster-shells under the hills of cloud

  And the hard knuckles of a boy poverty-driven

  And the moon rising in a smell of vanilla.

  Voices of money, voices of your past,

  The swinging music in these voices telling:

  No, no, you must go. Now. Go from this bay to where

  You can bridge backward and forward and move toward form.

  For here there is nothing. Nothing for you here.

  Somewhere you may find something. But not here.

  Do not look here, not now. Not anywhere here.

  Nowhere, nowhere, nothing anywhere here.

  Beyond these coins and seasons, then look back.

  When the black voices turn brilliant and call: Here!

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  “Long enough. Long enough,”

  I heard a woman say—

  I am that woman who too long

  Under the web lay.

  Long enough in the empire

  Of his darkened eyes

  Bewildered in the greying silver

  Light of his fantasies.

  I have been lying here too long,

  From shadow-begin to shadow-began

  Where stretches over me the subtle

  Rule of the Floating Man.

  A young man and an old-young woman

  May dive in the river between

  And rise, the children of another country;

  That riverbank, that green.

  But too long, too long, too long

  Is the journey through the ice

  And too secret are the entrances

  To my stretched hidingplace.

  Walk out of the pudorweb

  And into a lifetime

  Said the woman; and I sleeper began to wake

  And to say my own name.

  THE LOAN

  You told me resurrection in images of roots,

  Taking upon your summer my defeats.

  Now I take on myself your wound's meaning

  Private self-given torment, on my mouth.

  The open grave stood in your eyes

  Past the colors of our meeting—

  Stain-moon, accepted curse of a false sun

  Your guardians rising at your head.

  A mask sang out, swinging away,

  The verdicts proven fallacies,

  “Lay you sweetly down to bed!”—

  But the mask cannot kiss this away, nor wake—

  Only you can wake, making go on to make;

  Even when all your hope

  Is buried dreaming,

  The meanings move. Though my words are a loan,

  Though your body I love vanish

  Evading through our century among

  These nightmare judgments of innocence and guilt.

  All that I know from you of resurrection

  Be passed on as branches, as one leaf.

  Even the root of need.

  The wound reaches its opposite, shines on my face, a flower

  Bright among violence, the passion that is peace.

  We have promises to make:

  We saw that in each other's eyes.

  Not to accept the curse, but wake,

  Never to act in formal innocence.

  It was not the maze of the time

  But possibility we felt

  In full gaze as we began to wake.

  Not the lock of these years of silence,

  We knew lack, we knew withholding, but there was more,

  the body of love said so—

  Deep it was buried, but it lay there, in all eyes, in the meaning

  of sex

  Waiting for more life, for it was more, and lively,

  More a child running in the fields for his joy of running,

  A running like creation, beginning now to make

  Day and idea, his acts, his dreams, his waking,

  His live ideas of innocence.

  POURING MILK AWAY

  Here, again. A smell of dying in the milk-pale carton,

  And nothing then but pour the milk away.

  More of the small and killed, the child's, wasted,

  Little white arch of the drink and taste of day.

  Spoiled, gone and forgotten; thrown away.

  Day after day I do what I condemned in countries.

  Look, the h
orror, the waste of food and bone.

  You will know why when you have lived alone.

  CHILDREN, THE SANDBAR, THAT SUMMER

  Sunlight the tall women may never have seen.

  Men, perhaps, going headfirst into the breakers,

  But certainly the children at the sandbar.

  Shallow glints in the wave suspended

  We knew at the breaker line, running that shore

  At low tide, when it was safe. The grasses whipped

  And nothing was what they said: not safety, nor the sea.

  And the sand was not what they said, but various,

  Lion-grained, beard-grey. And blue. And green.

  And each grain casting its shadow down before

  Childhood in tide-pools where all things are food.

  Behind us the shores emerged and fed on tide.

  We fed on summer, the round flowers in our hands

  From the snowball bush entered us, and prisoner wings,

  And shells in spirals, all food.

  All keys to unlock

  Some world, glinting as strong as noon on the sandbar,

  Where men and women give each other children.

  BORN IN DECEMBER

  for Nancy Marshall

  You are like me born at the end of the year;

  When in our city day closes blueness comes

  We see a beginning in the ritual end.

  Never mind: I know it is never what it seems,

  That ending: for we are born, we are born there,

  There is an entrance we may always find.

  They reckon by the wheel of the year. Our birth's before.

  From the dark birthday to the young year's first stay

  We are the ones who wait and look for ways:

  Ways of beginning, ways to be born, ways for

  Solvings, turnings, wakings; we are always

  A little younger than they think we are.

  THE SIXTH NIGHT: WAKING

  That first green night of their dreaming, asleep beneath the Tree,

  God said, “Let meanings move,” and there was poetry.

  NEVERTHELESS THE MOON

  Nevertheless the moon

  Heightens the secret

  Sleep long withheld

  Dry for a rain of dreams—

  Flies straight above me

  White, hot-hearted,

  Among the streaming

  Firmament armies.

  A monk of flames

  Stands shaking in my heart

  Where sleep might lie.

  Where you all night have lain.

  And now hang dreaming,

  Faded acute, fade full,

  Calling your cloudy fame,

  A keen high nightlong cry.

  Rises my silent, turning

  Heart. Heart where my love

  Might lie, try toward my love

  Flying, let go all need,

  Brighten and burn—

  Rain down, raging for life

  Light my love's dream tonight.

  SPEED, WE SAY

  Speed, we say of our time: racing my writing word

  The jet now, the whole sky screaming his name, Speed.

  But I know rapider, someone hauling horizons in

  Beside whom the racing of the suns seems tame.

  I know faster than the flashing of suddenly recognized love

  Or yellow spring going glimpsing his green fame,

  Love after long suffering like inward lightning,

  Assumed and lived through where now lovers lie warm,

  Wild and at peace among their colors. Speed. And now

  One quick-color mouth saying, “Now, love, now;

  I have my spirit now, newborn and given,

  The live delight;

  It now is immediately not only spirit, not only mine,

  but delight the forerunner

  Of the depth of joy, most subtle, most rapid.

  My two speeds, now, at last

  Related, now at last in the same music—

  Light running before light.”

  THE BIRTH OF VENUS

  Risen in a

  welter of waters.

  Not as he saw her

  standing upon a frayed and lovely surf

  clean-riding the graceful leafy breezes

  clean-poised and easy. Not yet.

  But born in a

  tidal wave of the father's overthrow,

  the old rule killed and its mutilated sex.

  The testicles of the father-god, father of fathers,

  sickled off by his son, the next god Time.

  Sickled off. Hurled into the ocean.

  In all that blood and foam,

  among raving and generation,

  of semen and the sea born, the

  great goddess rises.

  However, possibly,

  on the long worldward voyage flowing,

  horror gone down in birth, the curse, being changed,

  being used, is translated far at the margin into

  our rose and saving image, curling toward a shore

  early and April, with certainly shells, certainly blossoms.

  And the girl, the wellborn goddess, human love—

  young-known, new-knowing, mouth flickering, sure eyes—

  rides shoreward, from death to us as we are at this moment, on

  the crisp delightful Botticellian wave.

  THE PLACE AT ALERT BAY

  Standing high on the shoulders of all things, all things.

  Creation pole reaching over my teeming island

  That plays me at last a fountain of images.

  Away from the road, life rising from all of us,

  The grove of animals and our souls built in towers.

  A music to be resumed in God.

  Our branched belief, the power-winged tree.

  Tree of meanings where the first mothers pour

  Their totems, their images, up among the sun.

  We build our gifts: language of process offers

  Life above life moving, a ladder of lives

  Reaching to time that is resumed in God.

  Did the thunderbird give you yourself? The man mourning?

  The cedar forest between the cryings of ravens?

  Everfound mother, streaming of dolphins, whale-white moon.

  Father of salmon-clouded seas, your face.

  Water. Weatherbeaten image of us all.

  All forms to be resumed in God.

  For here, all energy is form: the dead, the unborn,

  All supported on the shoulders of us all,

  And all forever reaching from the source of all things.

  Pillars of process, the growing of the soul,

  Form that is energy from these seas risen,

  Identified. Resumed in God.

  VOICES OF WAKING

  for the eightieth birthday of Frances G. Wickes

  Whenever you wake, you will find journeying—

  Even in deep night, dreams surrounding your dreams—

  The song of waking begun, prepared in silence,

  Planted in silence as her life is planted

  Among the constellations and the days.

  Whenever you wake, you will hear entering

  The song of meanings, a melody of green;

  The image of a legendary woman

  Dancing among her mercies, in essence emerging

  Female to leap into the dragon-throning sea.

  Voices of nourishing, lifting the newborn up,

  Away,—they lift away, newborn to all,

  To the nourisher, to self born, to new life.

  Voices of waking that journey in our lives

  As renaissance and rain of images.

  All of the people of the play are here,

  In a storm of light; birthday; at any moment.

  Full in their powers, and the voice of waking

  Sings for beginnings; she sings, wherever waking is.

  Wherever the de
ep moon stands, the song arrives.

  Nevertheless the moon goes voyages.

  Nevertheless, the journeying is time:

  Makes birthdays, makes this birthday a resonance

  And the remote boundaries of imagining

  Acknowledge the voices, her daily human voice,

  Blessing this birthday moment her monument.

  Deep in the waking, her life builds in light

  The vision of the body of the soul.

  DIVINING WATER

  We stood around the raw new-planted garden

  Parables green and yellow in the ground

  The old man with his branch paced the diagonal

  The rare Negro girl accepted a forked branch

  And paced her line The corners of an ancient

  Dance-figure now we were as we stood watching

  Everything was there in the moment there

  Random and light in the dance on young grass flaming up

  While the old man held his branch and walked toward water

  Walked to that moment where the branch dives down

  We stood in the moment random funny rare

  Everything here and everything contained

  In a strong diving a diving of the swan's strong neck

  Diving of prayer leaping to find deep under

  Reason and rock the cold sweet-driven springs

  Everything being here in the moment here

  Belief and disbelief the dry light on the grass

  And the old man with lit eyes

  Calculations of willow, predictions done in peach-branch

  Dancing of the young dark over wellwater

  The way we guess where lies the buried life

  But not for days after the eyes and dance

  Did the deep fountain show Do they divine each other?

  The man drove true the moment was all water

  And time the branch drove and the hand of man

  It shines awake it glitters on the grass

  Now waters divine man we all know what he was

  2 Translations: Octavio Paz

  [UNTITLED]

  The hand of day opens

  Three clouds

  Becoming a few words

  [UNTITLED]

  At daybreak go looking for your newborn name

  Over the thrones of sleep glittering the light

  Gallops across all mountains to the sea

  The sun with his spurs on is entering the waves

  Stony attack breaking the clarities

 

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