by Naomi Porter
The three of us were practically glued at the hip for the last four years. It was like we were all pieces of the same heart. When we found each other, we fit snugly together. And now, a part of my heart was gone. Forever.
“God, I miss you.”
My chest rattled as I pulled my damp hair to the side and let it fall over my shoulder. I ran my fingers through it, touching the ends the way Leo had. I had taken an extra long shower, thinking of him.
My lips still tingled with the memory of him kissing me.
My skin heated in all the places he’d touched. Like he’d branded me when I didn’t even know it. I missed his warm body wrapped around mine, comforting and caring for me.
He was charming, cocky, and confident. Yet caring.
I’d liked his playful side and the way his lip quirked up when he was being a smartass. But I hated all the women panting over him. All the women who’d slept with him. All the women who had him before me.
I wished I hadn’t sent him away, but the truth was, we would never work no matter how much I felt drawn to him, safe and comfortable. I’d sensed the bad boy side in him. The one that broke the rules unapologetically and was proud to have had sex with dozens upon dozens of women. He was totally the opposite of me—a rules follower, acutely aware of my actions, and a virgin.
My parents wouldn’t have ever approved of Leo. I could hear them scoffing at his lifeguard job and immoral lifestyle. They weren’t awful people, but they were set in their ways and what they wanted for their five children.
As the oldest, I was the example. My brother and sisters looked up to me. Everything I did growing up was scrutinized and corrected. When I was finally free, I went as far away as I could while staying on the West Coast.
I smiled, thinking of my younger siblings and how they’d probably like Leo. Erin would have loved him.
I sniffled, blinking back tears and shaking my head. No, Leo would have broken my heart because a man like him couldn’t be with only one woman. He wasn’t marriage material. I wouldn’t be enough for him.
I snorted pathetically. Maybe I should have given Leo my V-card, then he would have run away from me.
Enough already, Scar. I lifted off the couch and padded into the kitchen for some water. Maybe a banana since I hadn’t really eaten anything since breakfast.
The doorbell rang and I froze. It was a quarter to nine, and I wasn’t expecting anyone. It rang again, then rapid knocking followed.
“Red! Red, you in there?”
Lifeguard Leo?
I tiptoed to the door to peer through the peephole. It was Leo.
“Please, Red, let me in. I know you’re in there.”
I gripped my stomach and blew out a breath, then opened the door. “What are you doing here?”
His eyes slowly lowered to my body and his blond eyebrows raised. It was then I remembered I was only in an oversized T-shirt. Since I wasn’t quite five foot three and had stumpy legs, it hit mid-thigh. I curled my toes and stepped behind the door to block his view of me.
“Jesus, you’re gorgeous.”
I ignored him. “What are you doing here?”
“Can I come in?”
The way my heart fluttered as his eyes darkened told me letting him in was a bad idea. But I was happy to see him again, so I lowered my guard… a smidge. Later, I’d blame my emotional state for this irrational decision.
“I don’t—”
“Let me in, Red. You know you want to. Just as I know I’m the one who should get you first.”
“Get me first?” I clenched down low and fisted the end of my T-shirt. He didn’t mean what I thought he meant, did he?
“Unless you’re saving yourself for your future husband. If you are, I’ll leave.”
I’d grown up thinking I had to be a virgin when I got married. That I needed to save myself for the man I loved, but no one had come along. Sure, I was still young at twenty-four, but I was tired of waiting and curious to find out what sex felt like.
“I’m not.”
Something flashed in his ocean-blue depths. He placed his hand on the door and painfully slowly pushed it open.
I backed up, feeling my mouth go dry.
“Then I want to be your first.” He locked the door behind him.
My breathing deepened as I walked backward. Every cell in my body was on alert. Aroused. Excited. I wanted Leo to be my first too… maybe even my last. But that was a pipe dream. Leo wasn’t mine and never would be. But I honestly didn’t care at this moment.
“You okay with me being your first.”
I nodded as he stepped toward me with a hungry look in his eyes. “I’m more than okay with it.”
Instantly I was lifted into his arms, and his mouth crushed mine. I opened it, welcoming his tongue. An explosion of something wonderful and sinful occurred between us. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist as he carried me down the hallway.
God, I was happy he came back. “Right here,” I said against his lips, pointing at my bedroom door.
Leo carried me to my bed, and we fell on it. His massive body pressed mine into the mattress as he kissed me breathless. The firmness in his shorts dug into the apex of my thigh. It made me crazy with need. As he ground into me, a noise I’d never made before ripped from my throat, startling me. Leo didn’t seem to mind as he continued to hump my pelvis.
“Jesus, Red, you’re fantastic.” He kissed down my neck, sucking and nibbling as his hand lifted my T-shirt. He broke away, tugging it off me.
He took in my body with a look of awe on his handsome face. I was only in black satin bikini underwear, nearly naked for the first time in front of a man, and I wasn’t embarrassed in the least.
Leo’s hand glided down my chest to my breast. I shivered and squirmed, feeling a pulse between my legs. I exhaled as my body arched on its own into his hand.
“Fucking perfect, Red.” He dipped his head down and licked my nipple. “Perfect.” He swirled his tongue around it. “So goddamned perfect.”
“Oh, Leo,” I cried out as he drew it in and suckled gently. I grabbed his shoulder, and my eyes rolled back into my head. I squeezed my legs tighter around his waist and rubbed against the bulge in his shorts. I couldn’t help myself. Knowing he was hard for me unleashed a side I didn’t know existed. I wanted him so desperately, I might combust if he didn’t relieve the pressure building inside me.
“I love your tits, Red.” He moved to the other and gave it equal attention. He vigorously sucked while kneading the other and pinching the nipple in tandem.
I struggled to get close enough to him. If I could crawl inside him, it wouldn’t be enough for me. I’d never felt this way, so unhinged and alive. I wanted more. Needed so much more.
“Please… You’re driving me insane. I feel like I’m going to explode. What’s happening?” It probably sounded like a stupid, virginal question, but my body was so on fire, I honestly didn’t know what to think of it.
He released my nipple with a pop and lifted his head. He softly kissed my lips and smiled. “Orgasm. You never had one before?”
“I… I don’t think so.” I buried my hands in my hair and gripped my head. More strange sounds eddied out of my mouth. “I just… I don’t know. Please, Leo.” I panted through my words.
“I’ve got you, Red. I’ll take care of you.” He lowered down my body to the foot of the bed and removed his tank top and shorts. He tossed a few condoms beside me. It was then I noticed his long, thick cock.
I lifted up on my elbows. “Oh shit. That won’t fit inside me.” Panic ripped through me. “We need to stop.”
“Shh, I said I’ll take care of you. Relax, Red.” He dropped to his knees and removed my panties. “Jesus fucking Christ, you’re a natural redhead.” His fingertips played with the small patch of hair on my pussy. It wasn’t untamed. I waxed a little, but I wasn’t bare like Erin and Laney were. “I need to sample you before we go any further.”
“Sample? Do you m
ean… Oh my!” I yelled, feeling his tongue brush over my opening. I fell flat on the bed and my back bowed again. “Leo,” I whimpered, closing my eyes and squeezing my head. This was happening. Leo was doing things I’d only ever dreamed of.
“Mmm, so fucking tasty, Red.” He glided his tongue between my folds and over my slit. “You smell amazing too.” He flicked my clit with his finger.
The pressure inside me grew astronomically. I found myself curling my toes and tugging on my hair. “I… I feel like I’m losing my mind. Please, do something.” No sooner did the words leave my lips that I felt his finger enter me. I clenched and jerked. “Leo,” I panted with my eyes shut, feeling another finger slip inside, making me feel fuller. His tongue rubbed my clit, then I felt teeth and exploded. I moaned his name while my whole body shook.
“That’s it, Red. Come all over my fingers. Damn, you’re gorgeous when you come.”
My lips were numb, and my body hummed. I wasn’t sure what had happened or why it wasn’t enough to make this pressure in my core go away.
“You’re spectacular, Red.” Leo removed his fingers and put them into his mouth. “Mmm… Delicious.”
My clit throbbed as I watched him delight in the taste of me. When he was finished, he grabbed a condom and ripped the package open.
The thought of his dick covered in latex as it entered me cooled my jets. This wasn’t how I imagined my first time. “Wait.”
“Something wrong?”
I dropped my gaze to his cock. “I hadn’t thought about a condom.” I shivered as I thought of being in a doctor’s office for a pap smear. The latex glove my gynecologist put on wasn’t any different than a condom. Yuck. “But then, you’ve been with a lot of women.”
“I always wear a condom. I believe in safe sex.”
I bobbed my head. “That’s good.” I bit my lip. “I do too.”
“You don’t want me to wear one, do you?”
“I don’t know what I want. It’s my first time, ya know? I always imagined it would be on my wedding night, without a barrier between my husband and me.”
“Shit, Red. Admittedly, you’re the first virgin I’ve been with, so I never really thought about what it would be like for the woman.”
“Oh… great.” I tried to curl into a ball, but he didn’t let me.
“Don’t shut down on me now.” He climbed on me, wedging himself between my legs. “I’ll do whatever you want, condom or no condom. Are you on the pill?”
“Birth control?”
“Yeah?”
I shook my head, grimacing. “We should stop.”
“No dice, baby. I’m hard as fuck. I want you more than I’ve ever wanted anyone.”
I frowned in disbelief. “Really?”
“Fuck, yes. Really. I don’t know what it is about you, but we are doing this. I’ll pull out before my release hits.”
“Don’t forget it’s just this once. After, you need to leave.”
“Shh, stop talking. You’re ruining the moment.” He winked and kissed me. Our tongues played and tangoed. The more he revved me up, the wetter I felt down there.
Leo’s warmth encircled me. His muscular chest pressed to mine, and I lifted my hips to his. I was so turned on by this man, lost in his kisses, I didn’t realize what was happening.
Suddenly he entered me partially, pulled out, and was back in faster than lightning. That was what it felt like between my legs, an electric crackling—a bolt of fire.
I yelped into his mouth, which never left mine. I dug my nails into his biceps, pricking his tan skin. Leo kissed me harder but didn’t move inside me. The initial pain seemed to subside as we frantically made out.
“Did I hurt you?” His tongue swiped over my bottom lip.
“Yeah, a little there at the end. Did you just…”
“Pop your cherry?” He waggled his eyebrows. He was such a dork.
I rolled my eyes and groaned. “So embarrassing.”
“Don’t be. I’ve never experienced this before either. I sort of feel bonded to you. Like I just imprinted on you.” He touched his nose to mine and dropped a sweet kiss on my lips.
“Sure, whatever you say. So, what, is this it? You stick your long-ass, thick cock into me, and we lie still until what?”
He snorted, nipping at my lip. “Listen to you, sassing me. I love it.” He lifted my leg. “Wrap these around my waist again. It’ll help open you up more.”
I did as he said and felt him going in deeper. The fullness of him being inside me was like nothing I could have ever imagined.
“Shit, you feel so fucking amazing and tight. Your virgin pussy has ruined me, Red.”
“Stop it. Don’t talk to me like that.” I didn’t want him pretending with me. Like this was something magical for him when I didn’t know what to do as I laid beneath him. Served me right for not reading about sex or Googling like I knew Laney and Erin had done.
He furrowed his brow. “Why not? It’s the truth.”
“Just fuck me, Leo, so we can get this over with.”
He made me feel things, emotions I hadn’t experienced before with a guy. What he was saying was true for me. I did feel bonded to him. Like we would have this special connection forever. But it was one-sided. I was sure of it. We just needed to finish so he could leave and I could get on with my life.
“I’m not fucking you. I’m making this memorable for you.” He slowly moved inside me and crushed his mouth to mine again.
Memorable? Why? He didn’t know me. “Is this not how you are with other women?” Why did I ask him that question? I didn’t want to know how he was with other women.
He froze and stared into my eyes. His blue depths were dark and almost angry looking. “No, Red. It’s not. Now shut up so I can make love to you.”
6
Leo
DID I JUST say make love to you? Fuck it. I didn’t care what words came out of my mouth. I was soaring in the clouds while buried deep inside Red. I pulled out and slowly pushed back into her warm, slick insides. Heaven. There was no other way to describe what it felt like to be inside Red without a condom between us. Heaven.
I eased into a comfortable rhythm, moving in and out of her. She was fucking phenomenal. I didn’t want to rush anything with this woman, a first for me.
Her nails pricked my skin and she clamped down around my cock. “Please, Leo. Don’t make love, just fuck me.”
This woman. She would be my undoing. “Not happening, Red. I’m in control.” I kissed her firmly, not letting her lips go so she wouldn’t talk anymore.
Being inside a woman without my dick in latex for the first time was magical, and magical wasn’t a word I ever used. I wasn’t lying when I told her I took safe sex seriously. I’d shocked the hell out of myself when I agreed to not wear a condom.
Like, what the fuck was happening to me?
It was her, Red. Her soul called to me. Was she my shining star calling me home?
I increased my speed, pumping in and out of her, swallowed up by her tight pussy and warmth. Every inch of me craved her. Every cell needed more from her, but more what, I had no clue.
“Move your hips, baby. Make love back to me, Red.” She appeared frozen under me, unsure of what to do. That was okay. It was her first time. I’d teach her everything she needed to know to make me happy—only me.
“Leo, please.” She breathed out the words, her sweet, pink lips slightly parted.
Fuck, I loved hearing her beg—but not for me to fuck her. Maybe later we could get dirty. Right now, I was binding our souls together. As much as it scared the crap out of me, I didn’t stop.
The clouds of confusion parted, and Red’s body melted into mine. Magic. Her fingers brushed across my shoulders and up to my neck, discovering and delighting in me. Fuck. A shiver shot down my spine as she played with the hair at my nape. She was doing it. Opening herself up. Making love to me.
Her lips softened, tongue probing my mouth. She signed and moaned and clenched around my
cock.
Jesus, I never heard anything hotter or felt anything as spectacular as her. We moved to the same beat, our bodies in sync. The wetter she got, the more I didn’t want to stop or lose the connection I had with her, but I was getting close. Close to erupting and had to keep my head straight.
I couldn’t come inside Red, though I was curious about how it would feel. The timing was critical; I needed to pull out just before my release hit.
“I think I’m close again. Yes, I’m close.” She moaned and mewled, moving her hips faster. I’d never seen anyone more beautiful. “Oh, Leo… Please…”
I increased my speed. “I want you to come on my cock, Red. I want you to come for me. Do you hear me?”
“Yes… oh yes.” She was tightening around me like a vice. My heart was thrumming in my chest, sweat was beading in my hairline, and my muscles were flexed as I held myself up above her. “Oh God… It’s happening, Leo. It’s happening. Leo!” She grabbed my ass, arched into me.
I froze like a stupid motherfucker and lost control. I exploded inside Red, painting her insides with my cum as I stared into her dilated green eyes. Her mouth gaped as if she realized what just happened.
My whole body tingled; I’d never come so hard. It felt like it would never stop. I gasped for air in disbelief, but oddly at peace at the same time. Instead of pulling out, I rolled to my back and took her with me. What was done was done. I couldn’t rewind time.
Red adjusted herself on top of my chest in a straddling position. “You didn’t pull out.”
“You noticed, huh?” I issued her a lopsided grin. If she lost it on me, I wouldn’t be angry. I deserved her wrath after promising to pull out. The whole moment had fucked with my head. I was lost in Red, carried away by the sheer wonderment of it all—of me bare inside her.
“What happens next?”
I eased her down into my arms and rubbed her back. “We sleep, Red. You took it all out of me.”
“I mean about no birth control.”
“We can get the morning-after pill… in the morning.”
