by Anna White
“Enjoy the rest of your night Avaya,” my breathing was low. I watched as she tiptoed up towards me and ran her lips across mine. Shit, shit shit. They were swollen and I pressed mine against hers firmly. She kissed me slowly, almost as if she knew that this would be the last time I’d ever lay my hands on her again. I savoured her touch. She ran her fingers up my arms, towards my neck and through my hair, pulling on it slowly as she did. I groaned and picked her up from off the floor. Fuck it. Her dress rose around her waist as she continued to kiss me. I squeezed her toned thighs that were wrapped around me and heard her moan. Our kiss grew more intense by every passing second. I wanted her. I needed her. I pulled away from our open mouthed sloppy kiss, to kiss her elsewhere. Her skin was soft, my lips lay down feather light kisses across her shoulder and neck as I ran my hands up her sides. I placed her down in front of me. Her eyes burned through mine. Her usually bright green eyes now seemed darker in colour. I ran my hands across her shoulders and knocked down the straps of her dress. “Once Avaya,” I muttered. She didn’t react. She stood waiting for me to touch her again. I watched as her dress dropped to the floor, it pooled around her feet. “Step out of it.” She followed my instructions and I gulped. Hard. I examined her perfect body. I’d dreamed of seeing her like this since the second I met her. I ran my fingers across her already hard nipples. I bit down on my lip almost drawing blood. Her tits were soft, full and perky. I squeezed them in my hands and watched as her head tilted backwards and she let out a moan. She stepped out of her shoes slowly and shrunk down in size. It was only now I realised how tiny she really was. My breathing was erratic. She ran her lips across mine and bit down on it softly. I groaned involuntarily and felt her pull my top over my head. I leant over her on the bed. She ran her hands down either side of my face and looked me in the eye. Hers were full of hunger. “Once.” I reinforced. She nodded before she kissed me again. Her tongue invaded my mouth and we made out like ravished teenagers. Her naked body flexed underneath me as my hard cock pressed against her. I pulled away from her and mouth and ran my hand down the side of her body. I took her nippled in my mouth and nibbled it softly. She moaned again softly. My hand traced down her stomach towards her opening. Once. This could only happen once. She was already soaked when I reached her. I sucked her nippled harder in my mouth as I ran my fingers over her clit, slowly at first so slowly. I pushed a finger inside and she arched her back and grabbed the sheet between her hands. I pulsed in and out of her before I pushed another one in, grazing her clit with my thumb. She moaned louder this time. I kissed her lips slowly as I continued to dive in and out of her with my fingers.
“I want you,” her words were a whisper but I heard her loud and clear. I unbuckled the belt on my jeans and stepped out of them, my cock sprung free and my eyes ran over the site of her body. Her naked body. Just once. I ripped the foil of a condom wrapper and pulled it down my length. Her eyes wandered down it. I lay over her again and kissed her slowly. She was still soaked through.
“Once.” I whispered against her lips.
“Once.” She whispered back. My heart began to pound in my chest as I kissed her again slowly. I rested my body weight on my forearms, her head was in between them. I was surrounding her but she was the one who had me where she wanted me. Once. I closed my eyes as I thrust in her slowly. She whimpered beneath me, her hand crept up my back as I thrust into her again softly. Fuck she was tight. I kissed her again and quickened my pace, Her breathing was erratic as she grasped my shoulders in her hands. She moaned as I thrust deeper into her. I felt her muscles tighten around me whilst I was inside her. It squeezed me.
“Harry,” she moaned as her back arched and she let loose. The sound of my name coming from her sweet mouth made me follow. I pulsed with her before I slowly pulled out. Her eyelids were heavy as she lay underneath me.
“Fuck Avaya.” I whispered and planted a kiss against the corner of her mouth. I pulled the condom off my dick and knotted it before I threw it in the bin next to the bed. She sat up and rested her weight on her forearms. My eyes ran over her body and then to her face. I shook my head softly as she smiled up at me. She looked even more beautiful with just fucked hair. Now you’ve gotta leave her. A sense of guilt pulsed through me and I bit down on my lip. She stared at me for a while before she caught my arm with her hand and pulled me towards her on the bed. Haz, leave. Now. My subconscious was screaming but my feet wouldn’t move.
“I’m sorry?” She whispered in my ear. What was she sorry for? I glanced up at her and lay next to her on the bed.
“What for?” I searched for a give away in her eyes but she wasn’t giving anything away.
“I’ve never done that before,” I felt as though I’d just been punched in the chest “I’m sorry if I did anything wrong.” I couldn’t speak. She hadn’t done anything wrong. She was perfect.
“Did I hurt you?” Her eyes narrowed and grew darker.
“No.” Her voice was stronger now. “I should have told you I’m sorry.” She went to sit up but I pulled her back down to me.
“You did nothing wrong. You were perfect.” I kissed along the length of her chest and then her neck up to her lips. I wanted her again. I shook my head. “But this can’t happen again Avaya. I meant it,” she ran her hand across the stubble on my face.
“Once,” She finished my sentence and my heart swelled in my chest. She was fucking beautiful “so I’m guessing that means you can’t stay here now?” She closed her eyes softly and I grimaced.
“If anybody caught me in here I’d be dead and you’d be in more trouble than what you’re already in.” Her face twisted.
“Why?” She questioned and I smiled. She was so strong willed.
“Because he’d kill me.” She almost scoffed.
“I don’t know why, I’d never do this with him.” A smirk appeared on my lips. Hearing her say this was like music to my ears. I knew he liked her but her feelings weren’t there for him.
“He wouldn’t kill you surely?” I watched her eyes open and kissed her again. My body ached for her. If only she knew what we were capable of doing. I shrugged.
“Maybe.” She smiled sweetly and placed her leg over mine. My eyes lowered to where we were now entwined. Her gaze drifted across my chest and I ran my hand over her thigh. I kissed her lips again and she smiled again.
“Thank you,” she muttered. She shouldn’t be thanking me. She should have ran. She should be running and yet she’s laying here next to me on a Sunday night, with nothing on and her just fucked hair. I placed the duvet over us and ran my fingers over her face. Her eyes became heavy and my chest thudded. I’d wait until she was asleep and then I’d leave. Her breathing mellowed after some time, her thigh still over mine and her hand still resting on my face. I kissed it softly and moved from her grip.
“I’m sorry Avaya.” I watched her sleep for a few moments before I left. What the fuck had I just done.
Holt - Monday
My body ached. I was hungry and not just for food. He left. Just like he said he would. I shook my head and looked down at the clothes left on the floor. His t-shirt was still where I’d prized it from his body the night before. I bit my lip and placed it over my head. It fell just past my arse. I tied my hair up in a bun and decided I should go and find food. I walked past several doors and made my way to the staircase. I could hear screaming coming from one of the rooms. It was Missy. I halted for a moment to listen. What was she screaming at?
"You said her name again this morning!" She screeched.
"I was asleep! You shouldn’t have even been in here!" He boomed. It sent shivers through me. He’d been nothing but sweet last night.
"That's worse! She waltzes in our house after shit holing around Jay for weeks and now you're dreaming of the girl!" Oh god, this is 100% about me.
"She didn't shit hole around Jay, I'm pretty sure he went chasing her." I bit my lip awkwardly and remembered our conversation from the night before.
"Chloe's obsessed
with her as well. You've all got a boner over her!" He began to laugh. It was exasperating. I loved the sound of him laughing. I smiled with him and heard her growl.
“Fuck you Haz! I'm done." I heard the ensuite door slam and quickly made my way further down the stairs. The sound of the bedroom door shutting made me stop and I glanced up.
"Good morning Avaya." His eyes traced my body. His eyes burned through me and my breathing stopped. I shook my head and bit my lip.
"Good morning." I watched as he smirked and joined me on our descent down the stairs. I desperately wanted to reach for him but stopped. .
"You’re wearing my top Avaya?" He smirked as he examined me and I blushed.
“I didn’t have anything else.” I muttered in his direction.
“How are you going to explain it?” I watched as his eyes glistened and I smirked.
“Hopefully nobody will notice?” He sighed and shook his head before pausing on the stairs. I looked up at his lips and reached for them. He closed his eyes and caught my hand in his.
“Av, we can’t.” I felt my frown deepen and I nodded.
“I’m sorry.” I muttered. My chest was thudding. I knew he said once but fuck he was killing me.
“Do you have uni today?” I shook my head.
“No, not on Monday’s.” He released my hand when another door opened up the stairs and I glanced at the limited space between us. I continued to walk down the stairs and hit the kitchen. Alfie was standing in sweats and a loose white t-shirt. He smiled at me and then frowned as he looked down at my clothing. A look of confusion flashed in his eyes.
“Are you hungry?” He questioned and I couldn’t help but giggle. I was starving. I watched as Jay and Haz both joined us and looked back towards Alfie.
“Yes.” I answered him and he nodded. Jay wolf whistled and I rolled my eyes before I pulled slightly on the t-shirt to make sure it was covering my ass. “Please stop.” I felt my chest tighten. My legs ached from the night before. I ached in places I didn’t know possible. I couldn’t look at him. I’d give us away. The smell of pancakes filled the room. My stomach growled.
“Did you sleep well?” Jay questioned me as he took his seat at the island. I cleared my throat and nodded.
“Yes thank you.” I smiled weakly at him and he glanced at Haz who was still standing in the doorway. I could feel myself blushing.
“Are you coming to the gym this morning?” He was now questioning Haz and I watched as he nodded.
“Yeah there’s that boxing class we have to teach isn’t there?” He sat next to Jay on the island and I couldn’t help but look at him. His hair was the way I’d left it the night before. Messy. I looked towards the door where Chlo stood. She was smiling and was wearing her glasses.
“What’s for breakfast Alf?” She smirked at him and I watched Jay frown. I chuckled and cleared my throat.
“Pancakes.” I answered for him and watched as she sat with Haz and her brother. She examined my t-shirt and glanced at Haz. I watched her mouth twist and she pushed her bob behind her ear.
“So have you got much planned for the day Av?” She smiled at me. She was smiling but I doubt she wanted to be. From the look she was giving Haz it was almost as if she'd sussed us out. I shook my head.
“Not really, Nance and Soph usually come around mine on a Monday and we cook tea for my mum. She doesn’t get off until late.” My feet wouldn’t move from the spot I was standing in. I was still holding down the shirt so that it didn’t rise up. She gave me a comforting smile.
“That sounds so nice.” I nodded.
“It is. Monday’s are my favourite.” I admitted and I watched as Alfie presented a huge plate full of pancakes on the island with an array of sauces and fruit. I licked my lips and took one. I placed a few berries in the middle with some lemon and took a bite. I moaned as I swallowed it and looked up to see both Jay and Haz staring at me. Fuck. I flushed red and bit into it again. “Really good Alf, thanks.” I wiped the corner of my mouth and watched him nod. I turned quickly and made my way up the stairs.
I lay in my bed for the afternoon. I scrolled through my Facebook and sighed. My mind was plagued by him. I shook it and heard a knock at the door. I braced myself for him but it wasn’t him it was Chlo. She smiled and I waved her in.
“Come in.” She closed the door behind her softly and came to sit with me on the bed. I had questions that I wanted answering. “Can I ask you something?” She nodded.
“Sure?” She faced me on the bed and I closed my eyes.
“What’s their business? What do they do?” She shook her head.
“Logistics.” She was blunt and I frowned.
“Where did you all appear from? I’ve never seen you around here before?” She smiled softly and shrugged.
“We travel a lot. We always come home though. Here. Here, with Alfie is home.” Her words seemed genuine.
“Why do you all live here?” Her frown grew deeper.
“Alfie has always been a great friend. He’s an honest man and he helps people who need it most. He’d do it even if he didn’t have all this money.” She gestured around the room at all of the expensive soft furnishings and I smiled at her.
“That’s really sweet.” She nodded.
“Can I ask you a question?” She raised her eyebrows in my direction and my chest thudded. Oh shit she’s going to bring up Haz. I nodded. “Why were you wearing Haz’s t-shirt from last night this morning?” Her tone was teasing, she wasn’t angry. I hadn’t thought of an excuse. I simply opened my mouth and closed it again before I heard her chuckle. “Just know that everything isn’t as it seems. Neither of them are perfect men. They both have their downfalls. Jay has warned him away from you. Numerous times.” I rolled my eyes and watched as she lay down next to me.
“Why though? I’m not his?” She smirked.
“He wishes you were though.” I laughed slightly and shook my head.
“Never going to happen.” She tapped my shoulder and I glanced at her pretty tanned face.
“Never say never it might happen but only once.” My eyes narrowed. Did she know? I shook my head and relaxed back on the bed.
“I was thinking of my friends, they haven’t met any of you really and they love a good party well gathering. I was thinking maybe of inviting them here at your next one?” I now had verbal diarrhea. She nodded.
“That would be nice. I always liked them when I was at school. They always looked out for you.” She grinned and I nodded.
“They did.” I smiled at the memory of them throwing water at Ben when he broke it off with me. “You know they threw water at my ex from my bedroom window when he broke up with me.” I chuckled and heard her join in too. “Where is Missy I thought you’d be with her?” She smirked at me and shrugged.
“Apparently she had a huge argument with Haz this morning.” She looked at me over her glasses and I nodded.
“That doesn’t sound good.” I swallowed the lump that was growing in my throat and watched her smirk. I cringed internally and closed my eyes.
“You’re a proper shit liar Av.” I bit my lip and opened my eyes to look at the television. She knows.
I waited outside of the uni campus on our fountain for a while. I hadn’t changed the plans with them tonight would be normal. We would eat with mum and then I would take them to meet Chloe. I messed with my phone and felt it buzz.
Unknown: I can pick you up at 8?
Avaya: Who’s this?
Unknown: Who do you think it is?
Avaya: Not funny…
Unknown: It’s Haz.
Unknown: Pick you up at 8?
Avaya: Ok. I’ll send you my address
Unknown: Don’t worry I already know it. See you at 8.
He already knew my address? How? I frowned at my phone and watched as Soph and Nance came skipping towards where I was sitting. They had obviously had a great day. I waved at them and they both took their seats next to me.
“Where have you been?”
Nancy’s eyebrows danced as she questioned me.
“I’m glad you asked because I’d like you to come and meet them.” Soph clapped her hands together and I chuckled
“You’ve fucked him haven’t you!?” I threw my hands over her mouth and shook my head.
“No god no!” She laughed and I frowned. I desperately wanted to tell them that I’d finally lost the v card and now I get why they’re always going on and on about it but I couldn’t. I released my hands and watched as she stood up.
“So plan?” I laughed at her statement and began to walk with them back towards my house.
“Normal? Eat tea with mum but then my friend is picking us up at 8 and we can go there.” Nance laughed and hooked her arm in mine. God I’ve missed you both. My brain was no longer in a mess. I could think clearly around them. There were no secrets. I squeezed her arm in mine and she smiled down at me.
“You look different?” She examined my face and I blushed. Surely she can’t tell?
“Do I?”
“Mhm.” We continued to walk and I listened to them chatting about their day of doom. They both hated Monday’s. I loved them. It was my only day off.
Mum came home around half past 6. We had spent ages cooking tea. Nothing went right. Soph had burnt the pasta twice and Nance had chopped her finger when she tried to cut an onion. I laid out the table and started to dish up. My mum looked drained. I couldn’t remember ever seeing her this tired. She slumped into the dining chair and exhaled.
“Tea smells lovely.”
Soph sat next to her and nodded. “We got there in the end thanks to Av.” She flashed a smile my way and I laughed as I placed down the plates of spaghetti Bolognese. My mum smiled up at me. This was her favourite.
“So how was work today?” She sighed.
“We need another PA to be perfectly honest. I can’t keep going the way I am. I'll end up having a stroke.” She smiled to herself as she ate her tea and I pushed mine around the plate taking small bites when I could.
