by Ray Bradbury
"I caught everything else. You shook me up and down in other ways. I didn't know anything but what you taught me." She stopped. It was hard to explain. Their life had been like the warm blood in a person passing through tissues quietly, both ways.
"Everything but religion," she said. "I never caught that from you."
"It's not a catching thing," he said. "Someday you just relax. And there it is."
Relax, she thought. Relax what? The body. But how to relax the mind? Her fingers twitched beside her. Her eyes wandered idly about the vast interior of the powerhouse. The machines stood over her in dark silhouettes with little sparkles crawling on them. The humming-humming-humming crept along her limbs.
Sleepy. Tired. She drowsed. Her eyes lidded and opened and lidded and opened. The humming-humming filled her marrow as if small hummingbirds were suspended in her body and in her head.
She traced the half-seen tubing up and up into the ceiling, and she saw the machines and heard the invisible whirlings. She suddenly became very alert in her drowsiness. Her eyes moved swiftly up and up and then down and across, and the humming-singing of the machines grew louder and louder, and her eyes moved, and her body relaxed; and on the tall, green windows she saw the shadows of the high-tension wires rushing off into the raining night.
Now the humming was in her, her eyes jerked, she felt herself yanked violently upright. She felt seized by a whirling dynamo, around, around in a whirl, out, out, into the heart of whirling invisibilities, fed into, accepted by a thousand copper wires, and shot, in an instant, over the earth!
She was everywhere at once!
Streaking along high monster towers in instants, sizzling between high poles where small glass knobs sat like crystal-green birds holding the wires in their non-conductive beaks, branching in four directions, eight secondary directions, finding towns, hamlets, cities, racing on to farms, ranches, haciendas, she descended gently like a widely filamented spider web upon a thousand square miles of desert!
The earth was suddenly more than many separate things, more than houses, rocks, concrete roads, a horse here or there, a human in a shallow, boulder-topped grave, a prickling of cactus, a town invested with its own light surrounded by night, a million apart things. Suddenly it all had one pattern encompassed and held by the pulsing electric web.
She spilled out swiftly into rooms where life was rising from a slap on a naked child's back, into rooms where life was leaving bodies like the light fading from an electric bulb--the filament glowing, fading, finally colorless. She was in every town, every room, making light-patterns over hundreds of miles of land; seeing, hearing everything, not alone any more, but one of thousands of people, each with his ideas and his faiths.
Her body lay, a lifeless reed, pale and trembling. Her mind, in all its electric tensity, was flung about this way, that, down vast networks of powerhouse tributary.
Everything balanced. In one room she saw life wither; in another, a mile away, she saw wineglasses lifted to the newborn, cigars passed, smiles, handshakes, laughter. She saw the pale, drawn faces of people at white deathbeds, heard how they understood and accepted death, saw their gestures, felt their feelings, and saw that they, too, were lonely in themselves, with no way to get to the world to see the balance, see it as she was seeing it now.
She swallowed. Her eyelids flickered and her throat burned under her upraised fingers.
She was not alone.
The dynamo had whirled and flung her with centrifugal force out along a thousand lines into a million glass capsules screwed into ceilings, plucked into light by a pull of a cord or a twist of a knob or a flick of a switch.
The light could be in any room; all that was needed was to touch the switch. All rooms were dark until light came. And here she was, in all of fhem at once. And she was not alone. Her grief was but one part of a vast grief, her fear only one of countless others. And this grief was only a half thing. There was the other half; of things born, of comfort in the shape of a new child, of food in the warmed body, of colors for the eye and sounds in the awakened ear, and spring wild flowers for the smelling.
Whenever a light blinked out, life threw another switch; rooms were illumined afresh.
She was with those named Clark and those named Gray and the Shaws and Martins and Hanfords, the Fentons, the Drakes, the Shattucks, the Hubbells, and the Smiths. Being alone was not alone, except in the mind. You had all sorts of peekholes in your head. A silly, strange way to put it, perhaps, but there were the holes; the ones to see through and see that the world was there and people in it, as hard put to and uneasy as yourself; and there were the holes for hearing, and the one for speaking out your grief and getting rid of it, and the holes for knowing the changes of season through the scents of summer grain or winter ice or autumn fires. They were there to be used so that one was not alone. Loneliness was a shutting of the eyes. Faith was a simple opening.
The light-net fell upon all the world she had known for twenty years, herself blended with every line. She glowed and pulsed and was gentled in the great easy fabric. It lay across the land, covering each mile like a gentle, warm, and humming blanket. She was everywhere.
In the powerhouse the turbines whirled and hummed and the electric sparks, like little votive candles, jumped and clustered upon bent elbows of electric piping and glass. And the machines stood like saints and choruses, haloed now yellow, now red, now green, and a massed singing beat along the roof hollows and echoed down in endless hymns and chants. Outside, the wind clamored at the brick walls and drenched the glazed windows with rain; inside, she lay upon her small pillow and suddenly began to cry.
Whether it was with understanding, acceptance, joy, resignation, she couldn't know. The singing went on, higher and higher, and she was everywhere. She put out her hand, caught hold of her husband, who was still awake, his eyes fixed at the ceiling. Perhaps he had run everywhere, too, in this instant, through the network of light and power. But then, he had always been everywhere at once. He felt himself a unit of a whole and therefore he was stable; to her, unity was new and shaking. She felt his arms suddenly around her and she pressed her face into his shoulder for a long while, hard, while the humming and the humming climbed higher, and she cried freely, achingly, against him....
In the morning the desert sky was very clear. They walked from the powerhouse quietly, saddled their horses, cinched on all of the equipment, and mounted.
She settled herself and sat there under the blue sky. And slowly she was aware of her back, and her back was straight, and she looked at her alien hands on the reins, and they had ceased trembling. And she could see the far mountains; there was no blur nor a running-of-color to things. All was solid stone touching stone, and stone touching sand, and sand touching wild flower, and wild flower touching the sky in one continuous clear flow, everything definite and of a piece.
"Wope!" cried Berty, and the horses walked slowly off, away from the brick building, through the cool sweet morning air.
She rode handsomely and she rode well, and in her, like a stone in a peach, was a peacefulness. She called to her husband as they slowed on a rise, "Berty!"
"Yes?"
"Can we..." she asked.
"Can we what?" he said, not hearing the first time.
"Can we come here again sometime?" she asked, nodding back toward the powerhouse. "Once in a while? Some Sunday?"
He looked at her and nodded slowly. "I reckon. Yes. Sure. I reckon so."
And as they rode on into town she was humming, humming a strange soft tune, and he glanced over and listened to it, and it was the sound you would expect to hear from sun-warmed railroad ties on a hot summer day when the air rises in a shimmer, flurried and whorling; a sound in one key, one pitch, rising a little, falling a little, humming, humming, but constant, peaceful, and wondrous to hear.
16
EN LA NOCHE
Copyright, 1952, by Fawcett Publications, Inc.
All night Mrs. Navarrez moaned, and these moans
filled the tenement like a fight turned on in every room so no one could sleep. All night she gnashed her white pillow and wrung her thin hands and cried, "My Joe!" The tenement people, at 3 A.M., finally discouraged that she would never shut her painted red mouth, arose, feeling warm and gritty, and dressed to take the trolley downtown to an all-night movie. There Roy Rogers chased bad men through veils of stale smoke and spoke dialogue above the soft snorings in the dark night theater.
By dawn Mrs. Navarrez was still sobbing and screaming.
During the day it was not so bad. Then the massed choir of babies crying here or there in the house added the saving grace of what was almost a harmony. There was also the chugging thunder of the washing machines on the tenement porch, and chenille-robed women standing on the flooded, soggy boards of the porch, talking their Mexican gossip rapidly. But now and again, above the shrill talk, the washing, the babies, one could hear Mrs. Navarrez like a radio tuned high. "My Joe, oh, my poor Joe!" she screamed.
Now, at twilight, the men arrived with the sweat of their work under their arms. Lolling in cool bathtubs all through the cooking tenement, they cursed and held their hands to their ears.
"Is she still at it!" they raged helplessly. One man even kicked her door. "Shut up, woman!" But this only made Mrs. Navarrez shriek louder. "Oh, ah! Joe, Joe!"
"Tonight we eat out!" said the men to their wives. All through the house, kitchen utensils were shelved and doors locked as men hurried their perfumed wives down the halls by their pale elbows.
Mr. Villanazul, unlocking his ancient, flaking door at midnight, closed his brown eyes and stood for a moment, swaying. His wife Tina stood beside him with their three sons and two daughters, one in arms.
"Oh God," whispered Mr. Villanazul. "Sweet Jesus, come down off the cross and silence that woman." They entered their dim little room and looked at the blue candlelight flickering under a lonely crucifix. Mr. Villanazul shook his head philosophically. "He is still on the cross."
They lay in their beds like burning barbecues, the summer night basting them with their own liquors. The house flamed with that ill woman's cry.
"I am stifled!" Mr. Villanazul fled through the tenement, downstairs to the front porch with his wife, leaving the children, who had the great and miraculous talent of sleeping through all things.
Dim figures occupied the front porch, a dozen quiet men crouched with cigarettes fuming and glowing in their brown fingers, women in chenille wrappers taking what there was of the summer-night wind. They moved like dream figures, like clothes dummies worked stiffly on wires and rollers. Their eyes were puffed and their tongues thick.
"Let us go to her room and strangle her," said one of the men.
"No, that would not be right," said a woman. "Let us throw her from the window."
Everyone laughed tiredly.
Mr. Villanazul stood blinking bewilderedly at all the people. His wife moved sluggishly beside him.
"You would think Joe was the only man in the world to join the Army," someone said irritably. "Mrs. Navarrez, pah! This Joe-husband of hers will peel potatoes; the safest man in the infantry!"
"Something must be done." Mr. Villanazul had spoken. He was startled at the hard firmness of his own voice. Everyone glanced at him.
"We can't go on another night," Mr. Villanazul continued bluntly.
"The more we pound her door, the more she cries," explained Mr. Gomez.
"The priest came this afternoon," said Mrs. Gutierrez. "We sent for him in desperation. But Mrs. Navarrez would not even let him in the door, no matter how he pleaded. The priest went away. We had Officer Gilvie yell at her, too, but do you think she listened?"
"We must try some other way, then," mused Mr. Villanazul. "Someone must be--sympathetic--with her."
"What other way is there?" asked Mr. Gomez.
"If only," figured Mr. Villanazul after a moment's thought, "if only there was a single man among us."
He dropped that like a cold stone into a deep well. He let the splash occur and the ripples move gently out.
Everybody sighed.
It was like a little summer-night wind arisen. The men straightened up a bit; the women quickened.
"But," replied Mr. Gomez, sinking back, "we are all married. There is no single man."
"Oh," said everyone, and settled down into the hot, empty river bed of night, smoke rising, silent.
"Then," Mr. Villanazul shot back, lifting his shoulders, tightening his mouth, "it must be one of us!"
Again the night wind blew, stirring the people in awe.
"This is no time for selfishness!" declared Villanazul. "One of us must do this thing! That, or roast in hell another night!"
Now the people on the porch separated away from him, blinking. "You will do it, of course, Mr. Villanazul?" they wished to know.
He stiffened. The cigarette almost fell from his fingers. "Oh, but I--" he objected.
"You," they said. "Yes?"
He waved his hands feverishly. "I have a wife and five children, one in arms!"
"But none of us are single, and it is your idea and you must have the courage of your convictions, Mr. Villanazul!" everyone said.
He was very frightened and silent. He glanced with startled flashes of his eyes at his wife.
She stood wearily weaving on the night air, trying to see him.
"I'm so tired," she grieved.
"Tina," he said.
"I will die if I do not sleep," she said.
"Oh, but, Tina," he said.
"I will die and there will be many flowers and I will be buried if I do not get some rest," she murmured.
"She looks very bad," said everyone.
Mr. Villanazul hesitated only a moment longer. He touched his wife's slack hot fingers. He touched her hot cheek with his lips.
Without a word he walked from the porch.
They could hear his feet climbing the unlit stairs of the house, up and around to the third floor where Mrs. Navarrez wailed and screamed.
They waited on the porch.
The men lit new cigarettes and flicked away the matches, talking like the wind, the women wandering around among them, all of them coming and talking to Mrs. Villanazul, who stood, lines under her tired eyes, leaning against the porch rail.
"Now," whispered one of the men quietly. "Mr. Villanazul is at the top of the house!"
Everybody quieted.
"Now," hissed the man in a stage whisper. "Mr. Villanazul taps at her door! Tap, tap."
Everyone listened, holding his breath.
Far away there was a gentle tapping sound.
"Now, Mrs. Navarrez, at this intrusion, breaks out anew with crying!"
At the top of the house came a scream.
"Now," the man imagined, crouched, his hand delicately weaving on the air, "Mr. Villanazul pleads and pleads, softly, quietly, to the locked door."
The people on the porch lifted their chins tentatively, trying to see through three flights of wood and plaster to the third floor, waiting.
The screaming faded.
"Now, Mr. Villanazul talks quickly, he pleads, he whispers, he promises," cried the man softly.
The screaming settled to a sobbing, the sobbing to a moan, and finally all died away into breathing and the pounding of hearts and listening.
After about two minutes of standing, sweating, waiting, everyone on the porch heard the door far away upstairs rattle its lock, open, and, a second later, with a whisper, close.
The house was silent.
Silence lived in every room like a light turned off. Silence flowed like a cool wine in the tunnel halls. Silence came through the open casements like a cool breath from the cellar. They all stood breathing the coolness of it.
"Ah," they sighed.
Men flicked away cigarettes and moved on tiptoe into the silent tenement. Women followed. Soon the porch was empty. They drifted in cool halls of quietness.
Mrs. Villanazul, in a drugged stupor, unlocked her door.
"We must give Mr. Villanazul a banquet," a voice whispered.
"Light a candle for him tomorrow."
The doors shut.
In her fresh bed Mrs. Villanazul lay. He is a thoughtful man, she dreamed, eyes closed. For such things, I love him.
The silence was like a cool hand, stroking her to sleep.
17
SUN AND SHADOW
Copyright, 1953, by The Fortnightly Publishing Company, Inc.
The camera clicked like an insect. It was blue and metallic, like a great fat beetle held in the man's precious and tenderly exploiting hands. It winked in the flashing sunlight.
"Hsst, Ricardo, come away!"
"You down there!" cried Ricardo out the window.
"Ricardo, stop!"
He turned to his wife. "Don't tell me to stop, tell them to stop. Go down and tell them, or are you afraid?"
"They aren't hurting anything," said his wife patiently. He shook her off and leaned out the window and looked down into the alley. "You there!" he cried.
The man with the black camera in the alley glanced up, then went on focusing his machine at the lady in the salt-white beach pants, the white bra, and the green checkered scarf. She leaned against the cracked plaster of the building. Behind her a dark boy smiled, his hand to his mouth.
"Tomas!" yelled Ricardo. He turned to his wife. "Oh, Jesus the Blessed, Tomas is in the street, my own son laughing there." Ricardo started out the door.
"Don't do anything!" said his wife.
"I'll cut off their heads!" said Ricardo, and was gone.
In the street the lazy woman was lounging now against the peeling blue paint of a banister. Ricardo emerged in time to see her doing this. "That's my banister!" he said.
The cameraman hurried up. "No, no, we're taking pictures. Everything's all right. We'll be moving on."
"Everything's not all right," said Ricardo, his brown eyes flashing. He waved a wrinkled hand. "She's on my house."
"We're taking fashion pictures," smiled the photographer.
"Now what am I to do?" said Ricardo to the blue sky. "Go mad with this news? Dance around like an epileptic saint?"
"If it's money, well, here's a five-peso bill," smiled the photographer.
Ricardo pushed the hand away. "I work for my money. You don't understand. Please go."
