But above all we wanted her brought down because Diego liked her. We’d met Diego in Bariloche on our senior class trip. He was thin and had bushy eyebrows, and he always wore a different Rolling Stones shirt (one with the tongue, another with the cover of Tattoo You, another with Jagger clutching a microphone whose cord morphed into a snake). Diego played us songs on the acoustic guitar after the horseback ride when it got dark near Cerro Catedral, and later on in the hotel he showed us the precise measurements of vodka and orange juice to make a good screwdriver. He was nice to us, but he only wanted to kiss us, he wouldn’t sleep with us, maybe because he was older (he’d repeated a grade, he was eighteen), or maybe he just didn’t like us that way. Then, once we were back in Buenos Aires, we called to invite him to a party. He paid attention to us for a while, until Silvia started chatting him up. And from then on he kept treating us well, it’s true, but Silvia totally took over and kept him enthralled (or overwhelmed: opinions were divided), telling stories about Mexico and peyote and sugar skulls. She was older too, she’d been out of high school for two years. Diego hadn’t traveled much, but he wanted to go backpacking in the north that year. Silvia had already made that trip (of course!), and she gave him advice, telling him to call her for recommendations on cheap hotels and families who would rent out rooms, and he bought every word, in spite of the fact that Silvia didn’t have a single photo, not one, as proof of that trip or any other (she was quite the traveler).
Silvia was the one who came up with the idea of the quarry pools that summer, and we had to give it to her, it was a really good idea. Silvia hated public pools and country club pools, even the pools at estates or weekend houses: she said the water wasn’t fresh, she always felt like it was stagnant. Since the nearest river was polluted, she didn’t have anywhere to swim. We were all like, “Who does Silvia think she is, she acts like she was born on a beach in the south of France.” But Diego listened to her explanation of why she wanted “fresh” water and he was totally in agreement. They talked a little more about oceans and waterfalls and streams, and then Silvia mentioned the quarry pools. Someone at her work had told her you could find a ton of them off the southern highway, and that people hardly ever went swimming there because they were scared, supposedly the pools were dangerous. And that’s where she suggested we all go the next weekend, and we agreed right away because we knew Diego would say yes, and we didn’t want the two of them going alone. Maybe if he saw how ugly her body was—she had some really tubby legs, which she claimed were because she’d played hockey when she was little, but half of us had played hockey too, and none of us had those big ham hocks. Plus she had a flat ass and broad hips, which was why jeans never fit her well. If he saw those defects (plus the black hairs she never really got rid of—maybe she couldn’t pull them out down to the root, she was really dark), maybe Diego would stop liking Silvia and finally pay attention to us.
She asked around a little and decided we had to go to the Virgin’s Pool, which was the best, the cleanest. It was also the biggest, deepest, and most dangerous of all. It was really far, almost at the end of the 307 route, after the bus merged onto the highway. The Virgin’s Pool was special, people said, because almost no one ever went there. The danger that kept swimmers away wasn’t how deep it was: it was the owner. Apparently someone had bought the place, and we accepted that: none of us knew what a quarry pool was good for or if it could be bought, but still, it didn’t strike us as odd that the pool would have an owner, and we understood why this owner wouldn’t want strangers swimming on his property.
It was said that when there were trespassers, the owner would drive out from behind a hill and start shooting. Sometimes he also set his dogs on them. He had decorated his private quarry pool with a giant altar, a grotto for the Virgin on one side of the main pool. You could reach it by going around the pool along a dirt path to the right, a path that started at an improvised entrance from the road, marked by a narrow iron arch. On the other side was the hill over which the owner’s truck could appear at any moment. The water in front of the Virgin was still and black. On the near side, there was a little beach of clayey dirt.
We went every Saturday that January. The heat was torrid and the water was so cold: it was like sinking into a miracle. We even forgot Diego and Silvia a little. They had also forgotten each other, enchanted by the coolness and secrecy. We tried to keep quiet, to not make any racket that could wake the hidden owner. We never saw anyone else, although sometimes other people were at the bus stop on the way back, and they must have assumed we were coming from the quarry because of our wet hair and the smell that stuck to our skin, a scent of rock and salt. Once, the bus driver said something strange to us: that we should watch out for wild dogs on the loose. We shivered, but the next weekend we were as alone as ever, we didn’t even hear a distant bark.
And we could see that Diego was starting to take an interest in our golden thighs, our slender ankles, our flat stomachs. He still kept closer to Silvia and he still seemed fascinated, even if by then he’d realized that we were much, much prettier. The problem was that the two of them were very good swimmers, and although they played with us in the water and taught us a few things, sometimes they got bored and swam off with fast, precise strokes. It was impossible to catch up with them. The pool was really huge; we’d stay close to the shore and watch their two heads bobbing on the surface, and we could see their lips moving but had no idea what they were saying. They laughed a lot, that’s for sure, and Silvia’s laugh was raucous and we had to tell her to keep it down. The two of them looked so happy. We knew that very soon they would remember how much they liked each other, and that the summer coolness near the highway was temporary. We had to put a stop to it. We had found Diego, and she couldn’t keep everything for herself.
Diego looked better every day. The first time he took off his shirt, we discovered that his shoulders were strong and hunched, and his back was narrow and had a sandy color, just above his pants, that was simply beautiful. He taught us to make a roach clip out of a matchbook, and he watched out for us to make sure we didn’t get in the water when we were too crazy—he didn’t want us getting high and drowning. He ripped CDs of the bands that according to him we just had to hear, and later he’d quiz us; it was adorable how he got all happy when he could tell we’d really liked one of his favorites. We listened devotedly and looked for messages—was he trying to tell us something? Just in case, we even used a dictionary to translate the songs that were in English; we’d read them to each other over the phone and discuss them. It was very confusing—there were all kinds of conflicting messages.
All speculation was brought to an abrupt halt—as if a cold knife had sliced through our spines—when we found out that Silvia and Diego were dating. When! How! They were older, they didn’t have curfews, Silvia had her own apartment, how stupid we were to apply our little-kid limitations to them. We snuck out a lot, sure, but we were controlled by schedules, cellphones, and parents who all knew each other and drove us places—out dancing or to the rec center, friends’ houses, home.
The details came soon enough, and they were nothing spectacular. Silvia and Diego had been seeing each other without us for a while; at night, in effect, but sometimes he went to pick her up at the Ministry and they went for a drink, and other times they slept together at her apartment. No doubt they smoked pot from Silvia’s plant in bed after sex. We were sixteen, and some of us hadn’t had sex yet, it was terrible. We’d sucked cock, yes, we were quite good at that, but fucking, only some of us had done that. Oh, we just hated it. We wanted Diego for ourselves. Not as our boyfriend, we just wanted him to screw us, to teach us sex the same way he taught us about rock and roll, making drinks, and the butterfly stroke.
Of all of us, Natalia was the most obsessed. She was still a virgin. She said she was saving herself for someone who was worth it, and Diego was worth it. And once she got something into her head, she’d hardly ever b
ack down. Once, she’d taken twenty of her mom’s pills when her parents had forbidden her from going dancing for a week—her grades were a disaster. In the end they let her go dancing, but they also sent her to a psychologist. Natalia skipped the sessions and spent the money on stuff for herself. With Diego, she wanted something special. She didn’t want to throw herself at him. She wanted him to want her, to like her, she wanted to drive him crazy. But at parties, when she went to talk to him, Diego flashed her a smile and went on with his conversation with whichever of us he was talking to. He didn’t answer her calls, and if he did, the conversations were always languid and he was always the one to end them. At the quarry pool he didn’t stare at her body, her long, strong legs and firm ass, or else he looked at her like he would a pretty boring plant—a ficus, for example. Now, that Natalia couldn’t believe. She didn’t know how to swim, but she got wet near the shore and then came out of the water with her yellow swimsuit stuck to her tan body so tight you could see her nipples, hard from the cold water. And Natalia knew that any other boy who saw her would kill himself jacking off, but not Diego, no—he preferred that flat-assed skank! We all agreed it was incomprehensible.
One afternoon, when we were on our way to PE class, Natalia told us she’d put menstrual blood in Diego’s coffee. She’d done it at Silvia’s house—where else! It was just the three of them, and at one point Diego and Silvia went to the kitchen for a few minutes to get coffee and cookies; the coffee was already served on the table. Real quick, Natalia poured in the blood she’d managed to collect—very little—in a tiny bottle from a perfume sample. She’d wrung out the blood from cotton gauze, which was disgusting; she normally used pads or tampons, the cotton was just so she could get the blood. She diluted it a little in water, but she said it should work all the same. She’d gotten the technique from a parapsychology book, which claimed that while the method was not very hygienic, it was an infallible way to snag your beloved.
It didn’t work. A week after Diego drank Natalia’s blood, Silvia herself told us they were dating, it was official. The next time we saw them, they couldn’t keep their hands off each other. That weekend when we went to the quarry pool they were holding hands, and we just couldn’t understand it. We couldn’t understand it. The red bikini with hearts on one of us; the super-flat stomach with a belly button piercing on another; the exquisite haircut that fell just so over the face, legs without a single hair, underarms like marble. And he preferred her? Why? Because he screwed her? But we wanted to screw too, that was all we wanted! How could he not realize, when we sat on his lap and pressed our asses into him, or tried to brush our hands against his dick like on accident? Or when we laughed near his mouth, showing our tongues. Why didn’t we just throw ourselves at him, once and for all? Because it was true for all of us, it wasn’t just an obsession of Natalia’s: we wanted Diego to choose us. We wanted to be with him still wet from the cold quarry water, to fuck him one after the other as he lay on the little beach, to wait for the owner’s gunshots and run to the highway half-naked under a rain of bullets.
But no. There we were in all our glory, and he was over kissing on old, flat-ass Silvia. The sun was burning and flat-ass Silvia’s nose was peeling, she used the crappiest sunscreen, she was a disaster. We, though, were impeccable. At one point, Diego seemed to realize. He looked at us differently, as if comprehending he was with an ugly skank. And he said, “Why don’t we swim over to the Virgin?” Natalia went pale, because she didn’t know how to swim. The rest of us did, but we didn’t dare cross the quarry, so long and deep and if we started to drown there was no one to save us, we were in the middle of nowhere. Diego read our thoughts: “How about Sil and I swim over, you guys walk along the edge and we’ll meet there. I want to see the altar up close. Are you up for it?”
We said yes, sure, though we were concerned because if he was calling her “Sil” then maybe our impression that he was looking at us differently was wrong, and we were just so desperate for it to be true that we were going kind of crazy. We started to walk. Getting around the quarry wasn’t easy: it seemed much smaller when you were sitting on the little beach. It was huge. It must have been three blocks long. Diego and Silvia went faster than us, and we saw their dark heads appear at intervals, shining golden under the sun, so luminous, and their arms plowing slippery through the water. At one point they had to stop, and we watched from the shore—under the sun, dust plastered to our bodies with sweat, some of us with headaches from the heat and the harsh light in our eyes, walking as if uphill—we saw them stop and talk, and Silvia laughed, throwing her head back and treading water with her arms to stay afloat. It was too far to swim in one go, they weren’t professionals. But Natalia got the feeling that they didn’t stop just because they were tired, she thought they were plotting something. “That bitch has something up her sleeve,” she said, and she kept walking toward the Virgin we could barely see inside the grotto.
Diego and Silvia reached the Virgin’s grotto just as we were turning right to walk the final fifty yards. They must have seen the way we were panting, our armpits stinking like onion and our hair stuck to our temples. They looked at us closely, laughed the same way they had when they’d stopped swimming, and then they jumped right back into the water and started swimming as fast as they could back to the little beach. Just like that. We heard their mocking laughter along with the splash. “Bye, girls!” Silvia shouted triumphantly as she set off swimming, and we were frozen there in spite of the heat—weird, we were frozen and more boiling hot than ever, our ears burning in shame as we cast about desperately for a comeback and watched them glide away, laughing at the dummies who didn’t know how to swim. Humiliated, fifty yards away from the Virgin that now no one felt like looking at, that none of us had ever really wanted to see. We looked at Natalia. She was so filled with rage that the tears wouldn’t fall from her eyes. We told her we should go back. She said no, she wanted to see the Virgin. We were tired and ashamed, and we sat down to smoke, saying we would wait for her.
She took a long time, about fifteen minutes. Strange—was she praying? We didn’t ask her, we knew very well how she was when she got mad. Once, she’d bitten one of us in an attack of rage, for real, she left a giant bite mark on the arm that had stayed there for almost a week. Finally she came back, asked us for a drag—she didn’t like to smoke whole cigarettes—and started to walk. We followed her. We could see Silvia and Diego on the beach, drying each other off. We couldn’t hear them well, but they were laughing, and suddenly a shout from Silvia, “Don’t get mad, girls, it was just a joke.”
Natalia whirled around to face us. She was covered in dust. There was even dust in her eyes. She stared at us, studying us. Then she smiled and said:
“It’s not a Virgin.”
“What?”
“It has a white sheet to hide it, to cover it, but it’s not a Virgin. It’s a red woman made of plaster, and she’s naked. She has black nipples.”
We were scared. We asked her who it was, then. Natalia said she didn’t know, it must be a Brazilian thing. She also said she’d asked it for a favor. And that the red was really well painted, and it shone, like acrylic. That the statue had very pretty hair, long and black, darker and silkier than Silvia’s. And when she approached it, the false virginal white fell on its own, she didn’t touch it, like the statue wanted Natalia to see it. Then she’d asked it for something.
We didn’t reply. Sometimes she did crazy things like that, like the menstrual blood in the coffee. Then she’d get over it.
We reached the beach in a very bad mood, and we ignored all of Silvia and Diego’s attempts to make us laugh. We saw them start to feel guilty. They said they were sorry, asked our forgiveness. They admitted it had been a bad joke, mean, designed to embarrass us, mean and condescending. They opened the little cooler we always brought to the quarry and took out a cold beer, and just as Diego flipped off the cap with his keychain-opener, we heard t
he first growl. It was so loud, clear, and strong that it seemed to come from very close by. But Silvia stood up and pointed to the hill where the owner supposedly could appear. It was a black dog, though the first thing Diego said was, “It’s a horse.” No sooner did he finish the word, the dog barked, and the bark filled the afternoon and we could have sworn it made the surface of the water in the quarry pool tremble a little. It was big as a pony, completely black, and it was clearly about to come down the hill. But it wasn’t the only one. The first growl had come from behind us, at the end of the beach. There, very close to us, three slobbering pony-dogs were walking. You could see their ribs as their sides rose and fell—they were skinny. These were not the owner’s dogs, we thought, they were the dogs the bus driver had told us about, savage and dangerous. Diego made a “shhh” sound to soothe them, and Silvia said, “We can’t show them we’re scared.” And then Natalia, furious, finally crying now, screamed at them: “You arrogant assholes, you’re a flat-ass skank, and you’re a shithead, and those are my dogs!”
There was one ten feet away from Silvia. Diego didn’t even hear Natalia: he stood in front of his girlfriend to protect her, but then another dog appeared behind him, and then two smaller ones that came running and barking down the hill where the owner never did turn up, and suddenly they started howling, from hunger or hatred, we didn’t know. What we did know, what we realized because it was so obvious, was that the dogs didn’t even look at us. None of us. They ignored us, it was like we didn’t exist, like it was only Silvia and Diego there beside the quarry pool. Natalia put on a shirt and a skirt, whispered to us to get dressed too, and then she took us by the hands. She walked to the iron arch over the entranceway that led to the highway, and only then did she start to run to the 307 stop; we followed her. If we thought about getting help, we didn’t say anything. If we thought about going back, we didn’t mention that either. When we got to the highway and heard Silvia’s and Diego’s screams, we secretly prayed that no car would stop and hear them too; sometimes, since we were so young and pretty, people stopped and offered to take us to the city for free. The 307 came and we got on calmly so as not to raise suspicions. The driver asked us how we were and we told him, fine, great, it’s all good, it’s all good.
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