by Kasey Krane
“Spade, let me go…this is not going to work out between us.”
“I’m not letting you go, River. We are going to figure this out.”
“We were never meant to be!” I snapped but before I could say anything else, Spade was kissing me. He’d leaned towards me and our mouths met. I couldn’t pull back, I had no control over my desire for him. Even in the middle of all this, I couldn’t help but marvel at how amazing he made me feel.
His tongue slipped into my mouth and I could feel myself being carried away. I was drifting off…but I stopped myself just in time.
I pushed against him.
“No. I can’t. This is insane. I can’t fall down the same hole again!”
“River, I love you.”
His words were strong and firm. They made me stand still. All I could do was stare into his eyes, hoping I hadn’t misheard him. Was he being serious? Slowly, Spade’s grip around me loosened and he was letting me go.
“You can leave if you want, I’m not going to hold you back. But I need you to know that I love you and I want to do everything I can to figure this out together. I’m sorry if I made you feel like I was pushing you away. I’m not.”
All I could do, even when he had let me go, was just stand and gape at him. How long had I waited to hear those words from him? Especially since seven years ago he claimed he didn’t love me and he wanted me to leave.
I opened my mouth to say something but no sound came out. Spade was watching me.
“I’ve always been in love with you, River. I never got over you.”
A wave rushed over me and I threw myself at him.
“I love you too, Spade,” I whispered, as I clutched the lapels of his leather jacket. We were kissing again. Spade lifted me up in his arms and in the darkness, he was carrying me somewhere. Our mouths were all over each other’s. I could feel him kicking doors open with his feet.
Soon enough, we were in his bedroom and he threw me on his bed. I didn’t know how to feel. Just minutes ago, I was determined to walk out of his life and here I was now, on his bed, spreading my legs apart for him to take.
Spade threw himself on the bed too, covering me. His solid muscular arms were like tree trunks, shielding me on both sides while he lowered himself down so we could kiss again. His jacket was gone and he fumbled with my dress.
Quickly, we were undressing each other. My denim jacket, his t-shirt, my dress, his belt and pants. My lingerie took him a split-second to take off. He snapped off my bra and pulled my thin panties till it literally ripped.
I was heaving, my breasts were rising and falling and I was lying under him. Spade took a moment to look down at my body.
“Fuck, River, you are a fucking Goddess, you’re irresistible and I love you.”
I pulled myself up towards him, throwing my arms around his wide neck, covered in tattoos. His power was sexy, the way he touched me blew me away. Every cell of my body was alive.
Our limbs were entwined. His mouth was everywhere—on my mouth, then my mouth, then licking my aching nipples. I wrapped my legs around his, clinging to him like he was a tree. I licked his skin, squeezed his biceps, rubbed myself against him.
My pussy was so wet, juicy and dripping. While he explored my body with his tongue, I rubbed my pussy against his thigh. I was amping myself up. I could feel my clit swelling up with desire. Spade’s body was like a walking breathing sex machine. I was going to make myself come by just dry jumping his thigh!
Then he caught me by my waist and twisted us around. In a moment, it was him on the bed and I was on top of him. I bit down on my lip with delight and he was grinning too.
I was straddling him, I could feel his cock, see it growing. Big and powerful and kingly. That cock was capable of possessing me completely and that was exactly what I wanted it to do.
I rolled my hips as I sat on top of him. Spade’s eyes looked heavy and dark. He was clenching his jaws. I could see every muscular vein on his bulging biceps as his hands moved over my torso. My breasts were in his hands while I danced on him. He seemed so much bigger, so much stronger as I straddled him. I was as light as a feather, as weak as a leaf on top of him. He could blow me away if he wanted to—just crush me. But he was treating me with tenderness. Like I was something precious.
Slowly, I lifted myself up, holding his erect pulsating cock with one hand so I could guide him in.
“I love you, Spade,” I murmured as I threw my head back. I lowered myself now, my pussy was waiting, throbbing, I was holding my breath. Then inch by inch his cock entered me. Parting my pussy folds just a little at first, and then smoothly driving in. He was going to fill me up within moments, I could feel it now. Deep inside, I could feel the way the knots were untying themselves in my belly.
I moved my hips, I was riding him. I placed my hands down on his chest while I rode him. My cries were getting louder, I was moaning deliciously. Spade was thrusting too. His hands were on my waist, gripping me tightly; keeping me in place while he filled me up.
“No…don’t stop…” I pleaded with him, in a daze, even though I was the one on top. I could feel his driving force inside me. His cock big and strong. I was on fire. I couldn’t stop bouncing, riding, feeling his cock slide in and out…
I had no idea how long we did that, I’d lost track of time. All I knew was that my body had taken over my actions. My fingers were on my clit. I was rubbing myself while I rode him and Spade held on to me, thrusting me hard now. Pump pump pump. I could hear our bodies colliding together and then sweet release…my orgasm came strong, making me scream out his name and begging him to keep fucking me like that.
I couldn’t stop it. Spade grunted, watching me come. He was coming too. I could feel his seed shoot inside me. It was a beautiful feeling. I was with a man who I loved, who loved me. Nothing could feel more safe than this.
I fell forward on his chest while we continued to move together. His cock was still inside me. Our motions had become slower now. He had his arms wrapped around me and he was holding me close. We kissed, wildly at first and then the kiss was tender and soft.
We were both done, exhausted and covered in sweat. I realized I was smiling, just like Spade was. It felt good, peaceful, lying like this in his arms and for some time I didn’t want to do anything else.
Spade kissed the side of my face and I rested my cheek on his chest. I could hear his heart racing. His body was still on fire, still so warm. But I was wrapped up in his arms like I was in a cocoon. Nothing could hurt me here.
***
We’d been lying in bed together for some time before Spade eventually moved and suggested a shower. A nice hot shower sounded really good after the eventful evening we’d had.
I went into the bathroom and showered and it felt good to clean myself. It was relaxing. I could feel my muscles and limbs sighing after I’d stood under the steady stream of hot water for some time.
When I came back to the bedroom I saw Spade ready to take a shower too.
“Sorry, I don’t have things like hair dryers around here, but I’ll stock up stuff tomorrow. Just make a list,” he told me as he watched me drying my hair out. I smiled and nodded. This sounded like a huge step. He wanted me to make a list of all the things I wanted in his house! Which meant that he expected me to be around more often.
I must have still been in somewhat of a shock after we’d confessed our love to each other. It just seemed so surreal. In all those years in Texas, I hadn’t ever dared to entertain the idea that Spade and I could ever get back together.
I wrapped the towel around myself while Spade went in for his shower. I was looking around his bedroom. It was simple, but tidy—a man’s room. My clothes were strewn all over the floor and so were his and I started picking them up.
I wasn’t sure what to do next. Before we had sex, before he confessed he had feelings for me; I was about to walk out of the house and never turn back…was I just supposed to stay here now? Spend the night?
I sat down
on the edge of the bed, waiting for him to come out again. Spade eventually emerged from the shower, rubbing the towel on his head to dry his hair. He was completely naked and he didn’t have a shred of embarrassment about his nakedness. He didn’t have any reason to be.
He was one hulking mass of muscle and strength. His arms and neck were covered in tattoos. His stomach was flat and muscular. My gaze drifted down to his cock hanging between his athletic thighs…those thighs…I remembered how I’d rubbed myself up against him earlier. It was enough to make me come.
I tried to distract myself from getting aroused again.
We needed to talk. We needed to do something other than ravage each other’s bodies again!
“Get into bed, River, you look very tired,” he said, in a deep authoritative voice. I had no choice but to obey him.
I unwrapped the towel from my body and slid back into bed, under the covers. My hair was still damp but I didn’t care. I just wanted to feel the warmth of his body next to mine. Spade came up to me, threw down his towel and just like I wanted; slipped into bed beside me.
His body was warm from the shower, comforting and powerful. He fluffed up our pillows and threw an arm around my shoulder. I snuggled up beside him, feeling like this was heaven. Somehow, I’d managed to forget everything about our problems. I couldn’t even remember what I was worried about before.
“I’m sorry for throwing that on you all of a sudden,” he said, stroking my bare arm with his thumb. I looked up at him and shook my head. How was I supposed to explain to him how happy I was to hear him say those words? Nothing else mattered.
“Please don’t apologize for that, Spade. You can tell me you love me anytime you want.” We smiled at each other and kissed.
“Well, okay, I’m sorry for making you feel like I wanted to shut you out of my life then. That was not what I was trying to do. I was trying to protect you. I had a lot on my mind and I just didn’t want to hash it out. But you’re right, you should know everything about what’s going on. You should know what we are all up against.”
The way Spade was speaking made my heart beat faster. I could see the earnestness in his eyes. He wasn’t lying earlier when he said he wanted our relationship to be different. I nodded.
“And I promise not to come down on you like a ton of bricks. I’m sorry. I was just panicking. I was scared and I felt lost because I didn’t know what was going on.”
We were holding hands now. Our fingers were weaved together and he squeezed my hand.
“I’m going to figure this out, River.”
“How? What are you going to do?”
I watched him square his shoulders and clench his jaws.
“I think the only thing I can do now is take up the role of the President of the MC. These guys need fucking direction, someone to keep everyone calm and formulate a plan. Nobody else is willing to do it so I’ll take the responsibility. I just want to get us out of this fucking mess as quickly as possible.”
I was staring at him in shock as he said the words. Spade wanted to be President of The High Rollers…he was going to take my dad’s place. I didn’t know much about the MC world but I knew there couldn’t be anyone else better at the job!
“It’s going to be a tough ride. Things are going to get messy before this is all over, River,” he continued. I leaned in towards him, nodding my head.
“I don’t care. I’m ready for it. Just don’t ever push me away again,” I said.
Spade was kissing me and I kissed him back hard. I could feel it in my bones now—we were finally a team. Something I wanted since my dad sent me away. I just wanted to be a part of this family and that was what Spade was giving me!
Chapter Twenty
Spade
I woke up the next day with River in my arms. We’d fallen asleep in bed together, tangled up in each other’s bodies with the sheets between us. I watched her sleeping for a little while, still in complete disbelief that this was real. That River and I were actually together.
Even though I had so many doubts before this, slowly I was beginning to realize that Buck would have definitely approved of this. Once he saw the kind of care I was going to give her. The lengths I would go to keep his daughter safe.
While still in bed, with River’s body warm next to mine, I texted Edge and Rook and told them to call Church. We needed to get the ball rolling on this shitstorm. Now I had an additional incentive to stop this from snowballing any further. I had River’s safety to think about.
When I finally started moving out of bed, she blinked her eyes open and smiled softly.
“Good morning…”
I smiled back at her, reaching over to leave kisses all over her face.
“I have to go sort out a few things. You’ll be okay here,” I said. I’d already started changing into fresh clothes. River sighed and nodded and then I watched her drifting off to sleep again.
I wasn’t surprised. I was sure she’d had a rough couple of days since she found out about Buck dying and then traveling all the way here. Now, all she had to do was rest and wait for me to solve the problem.
Before I left, I kissed her again and stroked her hair. I had an angel sleeping in my bed and that was how I was going to treat her.
Outside the house I checked the perimeter again; there was no sign of the SUV or any other clue that we might be being watched. I got on my bike and made my way to the clubhouse, deciding to check in on River later to make sure everything was in order.
At least today, River and my longing for her wasn’t muddling up my head. I had the clarity which I needed to think straight.
When I got to the clubhouse, most of the other guys had started assembling there already.
I walked in with determination in my stride. We weren’t wasting any more time.
“Last night I was tailed, literally chased by a black SUV,” I declared. Those words were enough to shut up the chatter in the room. All the members of my MC turned to look at me.
“The fuckers tried to run you off the road?” Spinner asked and I shook my head.
“No, I’m not sure if it was because I managed to lose them quickly or if it was because their intention was just to send me a message that I am being watched.”
“Motherfuckers!” Rook growled.
Ace was shaking his head in disgust.
“They’re going to come after each of us now. One by one. Now that they’ve tasted our blood,” he snarled. I looked at Edge and he glared back at me. Maybe it was time that we got the rest of the men involved in the surprise we had in Buck’s office.
I tipped my head once and Edge nodded. Things were in the clear.
“Yeah, exactly, matters are getting from bad to worse here. We need to give them a taste of their own medicine and put a fucking stop to this madness,” I declared.
“And how are we supposed to do that?” someone asked.
I turned to Edge with a smile.
“Why don’t you lead the way?”
The others turned to Edge too. I could bet they were all as confused as I was when Edge first showed me.
We all started walking collectively towards Buck’s office. I could hear the others asking what was going on. They were all getting impatient. Edge pulled the key out and unlocked the door. One by one we all stepped into the room and Edge switched the lights on.
Nothing had changed since the last time I saw this guy. Except maybe he was beginning to look a little more dehydrated. It didn’t seem like Edge had taken matters into his own hands either. There were no new wounds on this guy. Yet.
“Who the fuck?”
“What the fuck?”
“It’s one of Mr. Money’s guys!” Ace was the one who declared it. A buzz rang out in the group. We were all staring at this guy like he was a wild untamed beast in a cage.
Today, he wasn’t hanging his head in shame, but was looking up at us. His eyes were bloodshot, it was obvious he was exhausted too. I hadn’t even asked Edge if he was being fed, I wasn
’t concerned about that. I was willing to do whatever it took to solve the problem.
“Has he talked yet?” Bingo asked. Edge shook his head.
“I haven’t even tried yet. I didn’t want to start all the fun without you guys,” Edge replied and a snigger rang out within the group.
This was not the sort of thing we usually did for sport, but since the death of Asher and Buck; our wounds were open. None of us were going to look at Mr. Money or his men lightly.
Having one of his guys in our custody, tied up and helpless—was exactly the kind of scenario we were all dreaming about.
Rook cracked his knuckles and stepped up towards the guy. He still had a rag stuffed in his mouth so all he could realistically do was growl and make animal sounds.
“Not for long. He’s about to talk,” Rook hissed.
Whatever he was about to do, none of us were going to stop him.
I stood back and watched as the rest of the MC started to close in on this guy. We were going to find a way to make him give us what we wanted.
Chapter Twenty-One
River
I woke up some time in the morning, feeling like I had never slept so deeply before. It felt like a newborn waking up from a deep sleep. It was just the most relaxing and happy feeling. I stretched my arms out and turned to find the bed empty.
I had a vague recollection of Spade leaving, his warm lips on my forehead, the early morning smile on his face. He’d said something about having to take care of things. Even though he wasn’t physically present, I could still feel him in the room.
I could feel his arms around me, the warmth of his body in bed with me. I breathed in deeply and I could smell him in the air as well. I felt beautiful, just lying in bed here alone. Just because I was in his bed, in his room, in his house.
I was giddy with excitement.
I sat up, remembering all the things he’d said to me last night. He told me that he was in love with me, that he’d never stopped loving me in the past seven years.
Those words were music to my ears. I kept reliving that moment over and over again…
