by A E Housman
I heard the beechnut rustle down,
And saw the purple crocus pale
Flower about the autumn dale;
Or littering far the fields of May 15
Lady-smocks a-bleaching lay,
And like a skylit water stood
The bluebells in the azured wood.
Yonder, lightening other loads,
The seasons range the country roads, 20
But here in London streets I ken
No such helpmates, only men;
And these are not in plight to bear,
If they would, another’s care.
They have enough as ’tis: I see 25
In many an eye that measures me
The mortal sickness of a mind
Too unhappy to be kind.
Undone with misery, all they can
Is to hate their fellow man; 30
And till they drop they needs must still
Look at you and wish you ill.
XLII.
Once in the wind of morning
The Merry Guide
ONCE in the wind of morning
I ranged the thymy wold;
The world-wide air was azure
And all the brooks ran gold.
There through the dews beside me 5
Behold a youth that trod,
With feathered cap on forehead,
And poised a golden rod.
With mien to match the morning
And gay delightful guise 10
And friendly brows and laughter
He looked me in the eyes.
Oh whence, I asked, and whither?
He smiled and would not say,
And looked at me and beckoned 15
And laughed and led the way.
And with kind looks and laughter
And nought to say beside
We two went on together,
I and my happy guide. 20
Across the glittering pastures
And empty upland still
And solitude of shepherds
High in the folded hill,
By hanging woods and hamlets 25
That gaze through orchards down
On many a windmill turning
And far-discovered town,
With gay regards of promise
And sure unslackened stride 30
And smiles and nothing spoken
Led on my merry guide.
By blowing realms of woodland
With sunstruck vanes afield
And cloud-led shadows sailing 35
About the windy weald,
By valley-guarded granges
And silver waters wide,
Content at heart I followed
With my delightful guide. 40
And like the cloudy shadows
Across the country blown
We two fare on for ever,
But not we two alone.
With the great gale we journey 45
That breathes from gardens thinned,
Borne in the drift of blossoms
Whose petals throng the wind;
Buoyed on the heaven-heard whisper
Of dancing leaflets whirled 50
From all the woods that autumn
Bereaves in all the world.
And midst the fluttering legion
Of all the ever died
I follow, and before us 55
Goes the delightful guide,
With lips that brim with laughter
But never once respond,
And feet that fly on feathers,
And serpent-circled wand. 60
XLIII.
When I meet the morning beam
The Immortal Part
WHEN I meet the morning beam,
Or lay me down at night to dream,
I hear my bones within me say,
‘Another night, another day.
‘When shall this slough of sense be cast, 5
This dust of thoughts be laid at last,
The man of flesh and soul be slain
And the man of bone remain?
‘This tongue that talks, these lungs that shout,
These thews that hustle us about, 10
This brain that fills the skull with schemes,
And its humming hive of dreams, —
‘These to-day are proud in power
And lord it in their little hour:
The immortal bones obey control 15
Of dying flesh and dying soul.
‘’Tis long till eve and morn are gone:
Slow the endless night comes on,
And late to fulness grows the birth
That shall last as long as earth. 20
‘Wanderers eastward, wanderers west,
Know you why you cannot rest?
’Tis that every mother’s son
Travails with a skeleton.
‘Lie down in the bed of dust; 25
Bear the fruit that bear you must;
Bring the eternal seed to light,
And morn is all the same as night.
‘Rest you so from trouble sore,
Fear the heat o’ the sun no more, 30
Nor the snowing winter wild,
Now you labour not with child.
‘Empty vessel, garment cast,
We that wore you long shall last.
— Another night, another day.’ 35
So my bones within me say.
Therefore they shall do my will
To-day while I am master still,
And flesh and soul, now both are strong,
Shall hale the sullen slaves along, 40
Before this fire of sense decay,
This smoke of thought blow clean away,
And leave with ancient night alone
The stedfast and enduring bone.
XLIV.
Shot? so quick, so clean an ending
SHOT? so quick, so clean an ending?
Oh that was right, lad, that was brave:
Yours was not an ill for mending,
’Twas best to take it to the grave.
Oh you had forethought, you could reason, 5
And saw your road and where it led,
And early wise and brave in season
Put the pistol to your head.
Oh soon, and better so than later
After long disgrace and scorn, 10
You shot dead the household traitor,
The soul that should not have been born.
Right you guessed the rising morrow
And scorned to tread the mire you must:
Dust ‘s your wages, son of sorrow, 15
But men may come to worse than dust.
Souls undone, undoing others, —
Long time since the tale began.
You would not live to wrong your brothers:
Oh lad, you died as fits a man. 20
Now to your grave shall friend and stranger
With ruth and some with envy come:
Undishonoured, clear of danger,
Clean of guilt, pass hence and home.
Turn safe to rest, no dreams, no waking; 25
And here, man, here ‘s the wreath I ‘ve made
’Tis not a gift that ‘s worth the taking,
But wear it and it will not fade.
XLV.
If it chance your eye offend you
IF it chance your eye offend you,
Pluck it out, lad, and be sound:
‘Twill hurt, but here are salves to friend you,
And many a balsam grows on ground.
And if your hand or foot offend you, 5
Cut it off, lad, and be whole;
But play the man, stand up and end you,
When your sickness is your soul.
XLVI.
Bring, in this timeless grave to throw
BRING, in this timeless grave to throw
No cypress, sombre on the snow;
Snap not from the bitter yew
His leaves that live December throug
h;
Break no rosemary, bright with rime 5
And sparkling to the cruel crime;
Nor plod the winter land to look
For willows in the icy brook
To cast them leafless round him: bring
To spray that ever buds in spring. 10
But if the Christmas field has kept
Awns the last gleaner overstept,
Or shrivelled flax, whose flower is blue
A single season, never two;
Or if one haulm whose year is o’er 15
Shivers on the upland frore,
— Oh, bring from hill and stream and plain
Whatever will not flower again,
To give him comfort: he and those
Shall bide eternal bedfellows 20
Where low upon the couch he lies
Whence he never shall arise.
XLVII.
Here the hangman stops his cart
The Carpenter’s Son
HERE the hangman stops his cart
Now the best of friends must part.
Fare you well, for ill fare I:
Live, lads, and I will die.
‘Oh, at home had I but stayed 5
‘Prenticed to my father’s trade,
Had I stuck to plane and adze,
I had not been lost, my lads.
‘Then I might have built perhaps
Gallows-trees for other chaps, 10
Never dangled on my own,
Had I but left ill alone.
‘Now, you see, they hang me high,
And the people passing by
Stop to shake their fists and curse; 15
So ’tis come from ill to worse.
‘Here hang I, and right and left
Two poor fellows hang for theft:
All the same ‘s the luck we prove,
Though the midmost hangs for love. 20
‘Comrades all, that stand and gaze,
Walk henceforth in other ways;
See my neck and save your own:
Comrades all, leave ill alone.
‘Make some day a decent end, 25
Shrewder fellows than your friend.
Fare you well, for ill fare I:
Live, lads, and I will die.’
XLVIII.
Be still, my soul, be still
BE still, my soul, be still; the arms you bear are brittle,
Earth and high heaven are fixt of old and founded strong.
Think rather, — call to thought, if now you grieve a little,
The days when we had rest, O soul, for they were long.
Men loved unkindness then, but lightless in the quarry 5
I slept and saw not; tears fell down, I did not mourn;
Sweat ran and blood sprang out and I was never sorry:
Then it was well with me, in days ere I was born.
Now, and I muse for why and never find the reason,
I pace the earth, and drink the air, and feel the sun. 10
Be still, be still, my soul; it is but for a season:
Let us endure an hour and see injustice done.
Ay, look: high heaven and earth ail from the prime foundation;
All thoughts to rive the heart are here, and all are vain:
Horror and scorn and hate and fear and indignation — 15
Oh why did I awake? when shall I sleep again?
XLIX.
Think no more, lad; laugh, be jolly
THINK no more, lad; laugh, be jolly:
Why should men make haste to die?
Empty heads and tongues a-talking
Make the rough road easy walking,
And the feather pate of folly 5
Bears the falling sky.
Oh, ’tis jesting, dancing, drinking
Spins the heavy world around.
If young hearts were not so clever,
Oh, they would be young for ever: 10
Think no more; ’tis only thinking
Lays lads underground.
L.
In valleys of springs of rivers
Clunton and Clunbury,
Clungunford and Clun,
Are the quietest places
Under the sun.
IN valleys of springs of rivers,
By Ony and Teme and Clun,
The country for easy livers,
The quietest under the sun,
We still had sorrows to lighten, 5
One could not be always glad,
And lads knew trouble at Knighton
When I was a Knighton lad.
By bridges that Thames runs under,
In London, the town built ill, 10
’Tis sure small matter for wonder
If sorrow is with one still.
And if as a lad grows older
The troubles he bears are more,
He carries his griefs on a shoulder 15
That handselled them long before.
Where shall one halt to deliver
This luggage I ‘d lief set down?
Not Thames, not Teme is the river,
Nor London nor Knighton the town: 20
’Tis a long way further than Knighton,
A quieter place than Clun,
Where doomsday may thunder and lighten
And little ‘twill matter to one.
LI.
Loitering with a vacant eye
LOITERING with a vacant eye
Along the Grecian gallery,
And brooding on my heavy ill,
I met a statue standing still.
Still in marble stone stood he, 5
And stedfastly he looked at me.
‘Well met,’ I thought the look would say,
‘We both were fashioned far away;
We neither knew, when we were young,
These Londoners we live among.’ 10
Still he stood and eyed me hard,
An earnest and a grave regard:
‘What, lad, drooping with your lot?
I too would be where I am not.
I too survey that endless line 15
Of men whose thoughts are not as mine.
Years, ere you stood up from rest,
On my neck the collar prest;
Years, when you lay down your ill,
I shall stand and bear it still. 20
Courage, lad, ’tis not for long:
Stand, quit you like stone, be strong.’
So I thought his look would say;
And light on me my trouble lay,
And I slept out in flesh and bone 25
Manful like the man of stone.
LII.
Far in a western brookland
FAR in a western brookland
That bred me long ago
The poplars stand and tremble
By pools I used to know.
There, in the windless night-time, 5
The wanderer, marvelling why,
Halts on the bridge to hearken
How soft the poplars sigh.
He hears: no more remembered
In fields where I was known, 10
Here I lie down in London
And turn to rest alone.
There, by the starlit fences,
The wanderer halts and hears
My soul that lingers sighing 15
About the glimmering weirs.
LIII.
The lad came to the door at night
The True Lover
THE LAD came to the door at night,
When lovers crown their vows,
And whistled soft and out of sight
In shadow of the boughs.
‘I shall not vex you with my face 5
Henceforth, my love, for aye;
So take me in your arms a space
Before the east is grey.
‘When I from hence away am past
I shall not find a bride, 10
And you shall be the first and last
I ever lay beside.’
She
heard and went and knew not why;
Her heart to his she laid;
Light was the air beneath the sky 15
But dark under the shade.
‘Oh do you breathe, lad, that your breast
Seems not to rise and fall,
And here upon my bosom prest
There beats no heart at all?’ 20
‘Oh loud, my girl, it once would knock,
You should have felt it then;
But since for you I stopped the clock
It never goes again.’
‘Oh lad, what is it, lad, that drips 25
Wet from your neck on mine?
What is it falling on my lips,
My lad, that tastes of brine?’
‘Oh like enough ’tis blood, my dear,
For when the knife has slit 30
The throat across from ear to ear
‘Twill bleed because of it.’
Under the stars the air was light
But dark below the boughs,
The still air of the speechless night, 35
When lovers crown their vows.
LIV.
With rue my heart is laden
