My hands goes to the hem of her dress and pushes it up. My fingers go to her panties and I pull them off her, needing to be inside of her as quickly as possible.
"Hurry," she begs as she pushes down my pants, my dick as hard as rock. She whimpers when she sees it.
My hands go to her ass cheeks and I lift her, positioning my dick at the entrance to her vagina. I don't even hesitate in pushing inside of her. She gasps as I fill her. I pull out of her, and she whimpers, her hands grabbing at my shirt pulling me closer to her. When I push inside of her, it feels fucking amazing, I'm bare inside of her wet, hot pussy. My mouth attacks her, needing to dominate every inch of her at once. She doesn't even protest, she gives me all of her, every single piece of her is mine and I take it with no mercy. Thrusting inside of her harder and harder each time, my pleasure climbing higher and higher with every movement.
Mia's groans with each thrust and I know that I'm not the only one that's close. "Hudson. Oh, Hudson. Please," she begs and I give it to her. I thrust so hard into her that she hits against the wall, I don't stop, the pounding is hard and frantic but the sounds coming from her aren't in fear, they're in want. She's mine and I can't wait to show her just how fucking amazing fucking can truly be. I've been soft with her now, it's changing. She's mine, she's more than proven that.
I thrust into her once more, and she detonates, screaming my name as she comes. Her pussy contracts around my dick, pulling my come from me. I groan as I cum, unloading inside of her.
"Fuck, Mia," I growl as I kiss her neck, her legs wrapped around my waist, my dick still inside of her. I'd love nothing more than to fuck her again, but it's time to go, I've people waiting and shit to do. "Once I get home, I'm going to fuck you all night long. You're not going to be able to move by the time I'm finished with you." I promise her.
She laughs. "Sounds delicious." Her tongue snakes out and wets her lips
She's fucking dirty and I love it. “Made for me,” I tell her and her eyes light up. “I love you, Princess.”
She melts into me. "I love you, too." Then she squeals, "We're getting married!"
"Yep, now we've got to go." I do the zipper up on my pants as she smooths out her dress. Once we’re both ready, I take her hand and we leave the room, both my dad and Jagger waiting for me as we exit. Jagger has a smirk on his face, and I shoot him a dark look. He better not even open his damn mouth.
Sixteen
Mia
Two weeks later
"Hudson, do I look okay?" I ask standing in front of the mirror. My black dress hanging off me, I've lost a lot of weight. My hair is straight and falls down my back, I've a pair of small white gold diamond studs in my ears, they match the ring Hudson bought for me. He came home the night he told me I was marrying him with this huge pear cut engagement ring. It's the most gorgeous ring I've ever seen, Hudson told me it's a twenty-six karat diamond. I cried when he placed it on my finger. I still can't believe that I'm engaged, but I'm happy that I am. I love Hudson with all my heart and marrying him means that I get to spend the rest of my life with him.
"You look beautiful," he replies softly, I look through the mirror and see him standing, watching me. He looks handsome, everything about him is clean and neat. From his perfectly pressed black suit, to his impeccably polished shoes. There's not a hair out of place either.
He glances at me, he's worried, he told me before we flew out here that I hadn't grieved for Lacey, he thinks I'm going to fall apart now that we're here and going to her funeral. I may sob, I may crumble to the ground as the pain hits me that she's really gone, but I won't break. Martin will not break me, I'm not going to let him ruin my life any more than he already has. He took Lacey's life, he took Barney's life, and I won't let him take anymore.
"Do you think mom's here?" She told me she'd come but when Hudson was booking the flights she told us she'd get her own way here. I appreciate that Jagger and Harrison are here.
Sarah wanted to come but we all agreed it was too risky, especially now we know that it's Martin that's after us. None of us want her or Allie in danger. I wouldn't put it past Martin to hurt either of them for his stupid vendetta. We still have no idea where he is, he's gone to ground and everyone's efforts are focused on finding him. I don't think he'll be found until he wants to be, he managed to keep being Hudson's brother quiet for over fifteen years, it shows he's good at hiding things.
"I don't know, Dad called her earlier but there was no answer."
I think they've split up, no one is saying anything but Harrison has been staying at Hudson's and Mom's been staying in a motel. Whenever Mom comes to the house Harrison either leaves the room or leaves the house.
I glance at my watch, it's time to leave, and the car should be downstairs waiting for us. "We should go." I don't want to but I know that I have too. She was my best friend, my sister. I feel as though a piece of me is missing. I've buried it deep down, not wanting to feel the pain that comes whenever someone says her name, whenever I hear I took a pill in Ibiza by Mike Posner. It was our jam, whenever it would come on, we'd sing it at the top of our lungs. Now whenever I hear it, my eyes well with tears and I want to crawl into a corner and sob.
"Yeah, Princess, we should leave." He walks over to me and pulls me into his arms. I rest my head against his chest, my hands going around his waist, and I inhale his scent. He smells minty, he's just brushed his teeth. "Ready?" he asks after a couple of minutes and I nod, not wanting to let go of him. I reach for my sunglasses and put them on, it’ll hide the tears once they fall.
As soon as we leave our hotel room, I spot Harrison and Jagger standing by the elevator. I wonder how long they've been standing there. They're always waiting for us, I feel bad in case they've been there for a long time. Whenever I ask, I always get the same answers, not long, or it's their job. Everyone looks sombre, both Harrison and Jagger offer me a small, sad smile, one that I return. Hudson’s hand grips mine, offering me support as we step into the elevator.
The elevator doors close, no one says a word. What is there to say? Lacey's gone and she's never coming back, Martin's still out there and we have no idea where he is or what he has planned next. Every time Hudson leaves the house I worry that I'll never see him again. It's something that I have to get used to. Hudson is always going to have enemies, he'll always piss someone off, it's the nature of his career. While I don't condone him selling drugs, I have said that I'll stand behind him. I'm not going to change him, or what he does. There is only one thing I've asked and that is he be one hundred percent honest with me. If something's happening, I want to know, I don't want to be in the dark about it. He's agreed saying that it's going to be total honesty with us, although he won't go into details about the people he works with or the things he does, anything that leads to danger he'll tell me.
The elevator dings, and the doors slide open. Instantly I see, Aaron, Greg, David, and Liam. They're Hudson's men, they've proven to Hudson that they're not working for Martin and that they're loyal to him. They're all strapped, at least two guns on each of them, I can see the outline of it on Aaron's back. He has it hidden under his suit jacket, although not that hidden. I glance at Harrison, checking to see if he too has a gun. If he does, he has it well concealed.
Walking through the hotel lobby, the hair on the back of my neck stands up, someone's watching me. Glancing around, trying to see whose making me feel this way.
"Princess?" Hudson asks, his eyes narrowed.
I don't see anyone, maybe I'm imagining things? "It's nothing." I brush him off, "Has anyone heard from Mom?"
Hudson exchanges a look with someone behind me, whatever they're silently conveying doesn't look good. "Dad's going to call her and see where she is. She's probably waiting for us at the church."
I nod. "Yeah, you're probably right." I don't think she is, I just have a knot in the pit of my stomach, something is going on with her and I need to know what. She's tried her hardest since I've been home to make things right, but she just c
an't keep her disdain for Hudson to herself. Hudson, being Hudson makes sure she knows that her disrespect is noted and that she's skating on thin ice. He hasn't done anything yet because of me.
As soon as we're outside the men gather around us. "Aaron and Greg, you're in the lead car, David and Liam, you're trailing us," Hudson instructs and the men instantly nod. "Jagger, you're driving."
Jagger smirks. "Told you old man," he taunts Harrison.
Since Hudson and I got engaged, things between him and his dad have eased, they're getting along better and Hudson doesn't want to kill him. Harrison seems to have mellowed out a bit too, especially while staying in Hudson's house, he's always joking with the men, something Hudson told me he never did before. Jagger even teases him, telling that he's got better with age. I think because Jagger has been a part of their family for a long time, he's able to get away with it. None of the other men dare to say anything.
Hudson's mom hasn't been by, she won't while Harrison's in the house, I totally understand that and have told him that we could go to her house once we get back. I can't wait to meet her, from everything Hudson's told me she's really worked hard to find who she is. He told me that while his parents were married, that his mom lost a sense of who she was. She's moving on, I'm secretly hoping that she finds someone who'll treat her like a queen, just as her son treats me.
I slide into the back of the car, Hudson following right behind me, I glance down at my watch, its 10:40 am, there's only twenty minutes until the service starts, I don't want to be late. I can't miss her funeral. The car starts and Jagger pulls off toward the church.
"We'll be there in fifteen minutes," Hudson says and I give him a smile, he always seems to know what to say to reassure me.
"Thanks." I reach for his hand and intertwine my fingers with his. I sink into the seat and turn to look out the window, watching everyone we pass, they all seem so happy and unaware of the evils that occurs every day. I watch children chasing one another and wonder if Hudson and I will ever be able to have that? Will our child be able to live a relatively normal life like I had? Or will they be destined to be Kingpin just as their father was? I guess that's a conversation for another day.
"We're here," Jagger announces as he parks a little bit down from the church.
Relief washes through me, I'm not going to miss it. I reach for the car door handle and open it, wanting to get some fresh air into me.
"Mia," Hudson growls. "Wait for us to exit first." This is the third time that he's said this to me, it's something I'm not used to, waiting until it's safe.
"Sorry," I mumble feeling like a child that's been scolded.
He gets out of the car and walks around to my side. He opens the door and holds out his hand for me to take. "You've got to remember this Mia, anyone could be waiting to ambush us."
I roll my eyes. "I know, I said I was sorry." I climb out of the car and look around, so many faces that I don't know. I don't see Lacey's parents anywhere, maybe they're inside the church already.
"I didn't think you were going to make it on time." My eyes widen when I hear that raspy voice. A smile forms on my lips and I turn around. "Always the way with you though Mia. You can never be early."
I raise my brow. "Coming from the woman that can't do anything she's asked. What are you doing here Sarah? We told you it was safer to stay in New York." God, it's so good to see her. "Where's Allie?"
She nods her head to the left, a beautiful smile graces her face. Standing by the gate is Sarah’s brother Frankie who's holding onto Allie's stroller. "He got back last week, he called me and I told him everything. He flew to New York and has been staying with me, when I told him I wanted to come to Lacey's funeral he made sure I'd be here."
I release Hudson's hand and walk over to her, she opens her arms and I fall into them. "God, I'm so glad you disobeyed orders," I whisper as my arms wrap around her.
"Me too, I couldn't stay away. She was my friend Mia, she helped me out and I'd never forgive myself if I didn't come." Wetness hits my shoulder and I tighten my hold on her, showing her that she's not alone. "Mia, how are you holding up?"
I pull away from her. "I'm doing better." It's not a lie, my frame of mind is better. I can't sleep with the light off, so Hudson has the en-suite light shining so if I wake up, I'm not shrouded in darkness.
"Liar," she mouths but her eyes light up, looking at where her gaze is focused. Frankie and Allie are walking over to us. "He's been such a help, I didn't realize how much I had missed him."
"I bet, even I missed him. What was his reaction to Allie?" I'd say he was shocked to say the least.
"At first he was angry that I didn't tell him. But he soon got over that and he's besotted with her."
As soon as Frankie's close, I walk over to him. His smile grows and he opens his arms out wide, "Missed me, huh?"
I ignore him and look down at the beauty in her stroller. "Hello Allie, I've missed you so much." I unbuckle her, ignoring the laughter coming from the guys and the grumble from Frankie. Lifting Allie out, I hold her close to me, I inhale her scent, there's something about the smell of a baby that just makes everything better. "You're the cutest girl ever," I whisper placing a kiss on her chubby little cheek.
"Seriously?" Frankie whines and I laugh.
"Get it through your head, you are no longer second best, you've been relegated." Sarah quips.
I walk over to Sarah, Hudson, and Jagger. Both Hudson and Jagger have been staring at me since I picked up Allie, both for very different reasons, although I have no idea what that look in Hudson's eyes is. I'd love to hand Allie over to Jagger but I think that's something that Sarah should do. "She's gotten so big," I remark as I hand her to her mom.
"You're telling me, I blink and she's grown a couple of inches." She kisses Allie's head and Jagger inches closer to them.
I turn my attention to Frankie and Hudson. "Frankie, meet Hudson." I smile, he's still not happy that I haven't hugged him. "Hudson, this is Sarah's brother, Frankie."
"Hey," Hudson says with an edge to his tone.
I walk over to Frankie and hug him. "Thanks for coming, I know you never got the chance to meet Lace, but she'd have loved you," I say as I pull back and smile at him.
"What's not to love," he quips and I smack his shoulder. "No, in all seriousness, Sarah told me about her, about what you both did for her and Allie. I'm forever in your debt."
I wave my hand in dismissal. "No you’re not, Sarah's my best friend, has been for years. She's like a sister."
His eyes narrow in on my hand. "You're engaged?" He sounds shocked, pissed even.
Hudson steps closer to me, his hand on the base of my back. "Yes, I am." My tone less than pleased.
"I'm sorry, it was a surprise, Sarah never said anything."
I know why he's angry, Sarah's obviously told him about who Hudson is. I told her everything about Jagger and Hudson, with their permission of course, and she wasn't as shocked as I thought she'd be. We spoke about everything that happened, I told her everything except for what Martin did to me. I just can't bring myself to tell her, I don't want the pity, or things to change between us. She doesn't treat me like I'm fragile and I don't want that to change. I don't want her to think I'm weak.
"Mia, we should go in," Hudson says breaking the awkwardness. His hand pressing against my back, directing me forward.
"I'm sorry, I'm an ass. Congratulations." Frankie holds out his hand for him to shake and it's then that I realize he never replied to Hudson when he said hi to him.
"Thanks," Hudson says quickly shaking his hand. This is awkward and now isn't the time.
I reach for Hudson's hand, and turn to Sarah, Jagger's holding Allie, his eyes so full of love as he looks at his daughter. "I'm going to go and find a seat," I tell her, and Jagger glances up at me and winks. I blow him a kiss and Hudson pulls me into his body.
She nods. "Yeah, I'm coming too."
"You okay, Princess?"
I lean my head agains
t his shoulder as we wait for Jagger and Sarah to get Allie back in her stroller. "I'm okay, I've really missed her and even though we said for her not to come. I'm glad she did."
"Jagger's happy she's here too." He kisses my head. "It's time to go in." His mood turns sombre, and I glance to the church, everyone is making their way inside. I tentatively take a step forward, my chest burns with pain.
An arm links through mine and I know without looking that it's Sarah. "Let's go do this and then when it's over, let’s get drunk."
"God, yes," I breathe. One step at a time, one foot in front of the other. It's all I can do right now. I've buried this deep down and now it's finally coming to the surface. Having both Hudson and Sarah here for support means the world, I have someone to lean on, have someone who's going through the same.
As soon as I enter the church, I look around, no Mom. She didn't come. I shouldn't be surprised but I am. I'm deeply hurt that she's not here. I take my seat, Hudson and Sarah flanking either side of me. A tear falls and it's like the floodgates have opened, and they cascade down my face as I mouth the words I wish I could say to her.
I love you Lacey, I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you.
Seventeen
Hudson
One week later
“Mom, leave her alone,” I roll my eyes as I walk into the house.
She looks good, every time I see her, she looks happier. Each time I look at her or talk to her she seems better. No longer depressed, or allowing the past to get to her. She’s not living in my father’s shadow or focusing on me. She’s working on herself and its showing, she’s smiling, she finally has that twinkle in her eyes and I’m guessing it means she’s dating again.
“Oh hush you. I've been dying to meet Mia. You’ve finally brought her with you.” She holds Mia at arm’s length, giving her a once over. “You’re too skinny you need to eat. It’s a good thing I have food ready for you. Let’s get you some.”
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