by Katy Kaylee
Amber put her hands down on his chest and slowly pushed up and slid back down. She rolled her head back as she did it again, feeling the intensity as he filled her to the brim. With every climb and every fall, he met her with his hips, rubbing her clit with his fingers. She groaned, wanting more but not having the strength to move faster.
Logan put his hands down and pulled himself back, resting his back on the headboard. He took her face in his hands and kissed her gently, but passionately. He kept his hands there, holding her face close to his as she ground her hips like a wave against him. Both of their breathing began to increase, the intense closeness between them making it difficult to even wrap their heads around it.
Amber had never felt something so intense or so strong with anyone in her life. She felt like she could freeze time and stay right there in that moment forever. There was a connection that before was only a whisper, but now had turned into a full-fledged storm. They were lost in each other’s eyes, in each other’s souls and all they could do was breathe.
Amber rolled her hips and began to move again, breaking the spell enough to keep going. Logan licked his lips and leaned his head back, feeling the pleasure of her body rubbing against his. He ran his hands up and down her thighs, feeling every inch of her skin. She leaned forward and whispered into his ear. “Take me. Take me and make love to me.”
Slowly Logan opened his eyes and nodded his head. He leaned forward and wrapped his arm around her back. They turned over, and he carefully laid her down, her head comfortably on the pillow. Logan moved on top of her and moved the hair from her face, running his lips over her cheek and gently across her lips. He slid his hand down over her breast and under her ass, gripping it tightly. With one smooth thrust, he was inside of her, holding it deep and grunting softly over her shoulder.
She smoothed her fingers across his back, feeling the bulging muscles rippling. He pulled back and then thrust forward, hard and fast. She gasped in pleasure as he did it again, and again, locking his eyes with hers. Over and over he would pull slowly out and then thrust hard into her, their eyes not wavering for even a moment. She was so caught up in the power of it all she didn’t even want to blink.
His moves were hard but meaningful, and after three or four more thrusts they both began to tingle from head to toe. He held tightly to her, pressing his forehead against hers. Both of their mouths hung open, but no sound escaped as the flow of pure bliss took over their entire beings. They stayed like this for several minutes, unable to move a muscle, not wanting to separate. As the climax began to dissipate, Logan lowered himself and rolled onto his side, pulling her close into him. He took time to rub her hair back and gently kiss her lips. There was an emotion to it all that Amber couldn’t even begin to describe.
“I have to go back,” he whispered, almost shattering everything inside of her, although she didn’t know why.
He kissed her lips tenderly once more and rolled off the bed, grabbing his clothes. He dressed quickly and came back to her side, kissing her forehead. “I’ll see you in the morning.”
She gave him a small smile and nodded, watching as he carefully and quietly moved from the room and shut the door behind him. She rolled over onto her back and stared up at the ceiling, completely blown away. It was the most erotic moment of her life up to that point, and the bond she just felt with him was unbelievable. All she wanted was to be in his arms, and she knew that he felt the same. She had asked him to make love to her, and that was exactly what he had done.
The caress of his lips, the move of his hands left her reeling and completely speechless. She turned back over on her side and pulled the covers over her, snuggling into the pillow that still held his scent. She knew that whatever she had gotten herself into, she was in deep and her feelings for him were crazy.
23
Logan
“I’m really glad you decided to come by today,” Matt said walking next to Logan.
Logan smiled. “I wanted to see how everything was coming along with the changes that you had decided to make. I also felt like I just don’t spend enough time with the two of you. Life can be crazy sometimes, that’s for sure.”
Matt stopped and looked at him. “If you don’t mind, I’d like to say something. I don’t know who this girl is that you have in your life, but I think she really is good for you. I’ve seen a softness in you the last few weeks that I haven’t seen in you since before your parents passed. I worried for a long time that you had lost something that you could never get back, but I am seeing the old you in there again.”
Logan breathed deeply, feeling calmer than ever. “Thanks. And it’s true, she is really good for me. She does things to my emotions and my mind that I didn’t think would ever happen. It feels like the right thing, you know?”
Matt slapped him on the shoulder. “I do know. Bickering or not, that is how Lisa made me feel, and still does. She is my calm in the storm. Don’t let this one go, no matter what.”
Logan felt that guilt again, only this time it ached in his heart like nothing he had felt before. He opened his mouth to let it out, to get it over with, but Jordan walked in the back door, holding hands with his girlfriend. Logan smiled and turned toward them as Jordan introduced her. “Dad, this is Melissa, my girlfriend. Melissa, this is my dad.”
Matt put his arms out and hugged her. “You can call me Matt. We’ve all been patiently waiting to meet the woman that has calmed my son down more than I’ve seen since he was a baby.”
Melissa was pretty. She was tall, with long brown hair and a comforting smile. She didn’t look at all like the bombshells he usually went for, but then again, he actually cared for this one. Matt was right, she had calmed Jordan the way that Amber had calmed him.
Jordan turned toward Logan. “And this is my best friend and brother from another mother, Logan. We’ve known each other since we were in diapers.”
Logan smiled and shook her hand. “Nice to meet you, finally.”
“You too, Jordan talks about both of you constantly. I was starting to wonder if I’d ever meet you,” she giggled.
Matt clapped his hands together. “Why don’t we go take a tour around the facility? Melissa, have you ever been to a production studio before?”
She raised her shoulders and walked beside Matt, Jordan looking back at Logan with a huge smile. Logan gave him the okay sign and followed along behind them. Melissa seemed really nice and cheerful, and Logan wished that he could do that same thing with Amber. To take her places, introduce her to people, reveal to his best friend that he was in love with her, but he knew it would turn out badly. They wouldn’t be happy about it like they seemed to be in this moment.
Logan rubbed his hand across his chest, feeling that all too familiar pain. Just thinking about Amber, especially after the night before and the connection they had made, made his heart break right there in his chest. He watched the others around the corner and took the side door, going outside to get some air. He leaned over, putting his hands on his knees and taking in a deep breath through his nose.
“I’m making a damn mistake,” he said out loud to himself. “This girl is everything that I or any other human being would want in their lives. Get it together, Logan.”
He put his hands together and began to pace back and forth. He knew that he had made a mistake deciding to go take that internship. She had given up everything for him, and he couldn’t give up this one thing? He cared too much about her to think about letting her feel even a pin prick of pain. He wanted to protect her from everything in the world, not to be the man who broke her heart.
It was right then and there that he decided he would call Bloomberg on Monday and tell them that he couldn’t accept the position. It was just a job, after all; there would be plenty more out there for him. If it meant that he would have to build his business the hard way, it would be worth it to get to spend every moment with Amber. No one would even know the difference, besides Jordan, but he knew he wouldn’t say anything to anyone. A
mber would have no idea he was even offered the position, and that was for the best. He didn’t want to cause her any pain or have any question in her mind as to his feelings for her.
“Hey, what are you doing out here?” Jordan said walking out.
Logan stood up straight, feeling better already. “I just got lightheaded and needed some air.”
Jordan looked at him with concern. “You alright, buddy?”
Logan walked over to Jordan and put his hand around his shoulders. “I think I am now. Actually, I know I am now. It’s funny how the smallest things in life can trigger you to really rethink things and make decisions you never thought you would make.”
Jordan nodded. “I don’t really know what you are talking about, but sure. The little things in life are what really determine the power of the big things. My dad always tells us it’s the little things that we will remember, not the big things. Those are usually the things that don’t bring the quality that we all strive for in our lives.”
Logan shook his head. “Exactly on point. Come on, let’s not leave that girl too long with your dad. You want to keep her as your girl, right?”
Jordan laughed. “Yeah, that would be preferable.”
The guys walked back into the building with Jordan adding a bit of a pep to his step. He wouldn’t have to break Amber’s heart, or his own for that matter. He could go on with things the way they had been going and build a life with her. She was one of the most important things in his world, and he already couldn’t believe that he would have made any decision that could have jeopardized that.
They found Matt and Melissa in the control room, with Matt telling her all about the new machines that had just been installed. “These boards are going to give us state of the art sound, picture quality, and editing capabilities. We no longer outsource anything in this company, and all our employees are paid above industry standard.”
Melissa looked impressed. “Wow. That’s really great. Most companies these days put profit over employees, and that really makes it hard to keep that profit up. It sounds like you have your feet firmly planted here.”
Matt glanced over at the guys. “Not forever. Eventually, I am going to hand this all over to Jordan and let him take it into the next era. Movie making has changed so much just in the last twenty years. I can’t wait to see what it will be like in another twenty. Hopefully, by then, I’m the one taking the tour and he’s the one making the decisions.”
Melissa smiled. “He talks about it a lot. About this place, and the company. He is smitten with the fact that you have given that opportunity to him. He can’t see himself doing anything else.”
Logan and Jordan could see the pride wash over Matt, and Logan leaned in. “Man, she is good. She just managed to fix your entire relationship with your father in two seconds. You need to keep her. She can be your liaison to your parents so there aren’t any more fights.”
Jordan nodded. “I think that sounds like a perfect idea. I always hoped I could say as little as possible to my parents and still have them be satisfied.”
Logan grinned. “Listen, I’m going to head out of here. I want to hit up the gym before I go home. You guys coming by the house?”
“Nah, not today. We have a thing at her parents’ place. I’ll see if you’re awake if I get back early enough. Otherwise, I’ll see you tomorrow. And for God’s sake, bring that girl around. We all want to shake her hand.”
Logan patted him on the back. “Yeah, eventually.”
“It was nice meeting you,” Melissa yelled waving her hand.
Logan waved back. “You too. Keep our boy in check.”
Melissa gave him a thumbs up. “Oh, I got this. I promise.”
Matt jogged over and shook Logan’s hand. “If you change your mind about working here, I think you and Jordan would make a fantastic team. Just let me know and I’ll make sure there is a position here for you.”
Logan nodded. “Thanks, Matt. I really appreciate that.”
Logan headed out of the studio and jumped in his Jeep, leaving the top down and sides off as he cruised through Los Angeles toward the gym. He let the air blow over him as he went, feeling the sensation of love palpitating in his heart. He had taken the next step with Amber the night before, and it was what ultimately changed his mind. It was like he could see clearly for the first time since he had gotten that phone call, and he was kind of mad at himself for being such an idiot about it. Luckily, he came to that revelation when he did and there would be no harm done.
He pulled into the gym and grabbed his bag, going inside. This time, instead of killing himself on the treadmill, or doing the stepper for an hour straight, he worked with weights. He didn’t have any anger or stress at all to worry about. Logan worked out for about forty minutes before wiping off his equipment and heading out. He whistled as he walked, swinging his bag back and forth and greeting others as he passed. He felt on top of the world, knowing he would get to be with Amber. There was nothing he could think of that could put a damper on that, except maybe Jordan and Matt finding out.
Logan loved Jordan, but he had to start listening to his own intuition instead of trying to have other people make decisions for him. As he pulled into the drive, he noticed that Amber’s care wasn’t there, but he knew she would be back soon. He wanted to make sure he got a shower before she got home, so that there were no more instances of her making fun of him for being a gym rat. Just remembering the conversation made Logan laugh as he climbed the steps and went inside his room.
He threw his bag on the floor and grabbed some clean clothes from the drawer. He turned on the shower and immediately got in, letting the water heat up slowly on his skin. He leaned forward and let the waterfall run down over his head and into the tub below. The heat massaged all of his sore and tired muscles, which made him wonder at first how he had gotten so sore. Then he remembered the hot and sensual sex they had been having, an activity which, until recently, had been completely foreign to him. He was building muscle and having sex with his girl; it was like killing two birds with one stone. Now all he had to do was get their relationship to a place where they could actually be together in public, and his world would be sealed.
24
Amber
“Call me later and let me know how everything goes with you two. I’m really glad to know that you are happy and being taken care of.” Taylor hugged Amber tightly.
Amber smiled at her best friend and walked out the front door. The girls had been out shopping all morning, and then ran some errands for school. Taylor couldn’t have been happier that Amber would be staying in the area; she was her best friend. At the same time, she wanted to make sure Amber was positive about what she was doing. Amber couldn’t have been more positive if she tried. There wasn’t even a whisper of a doubt in her mind.
Amber drove up the driveway at her house and pulled her car up behind Logan’s Jeep. There were no other cars there, so she could assume that they would be alone at least for a little while. She entered the house, hanging her keys on the hook by the door and went to the kitchen to grab a snack. She drank her bottle of water and ate the package of cheese crackers she found in the pantry. Above her, she could hear the shower running and assumed that was Logan, who had probably went by the gym.
She meandered up the stairs and down the hall, walking into his room and looking around. He was definitely in the shower, and as much as she wanted to join him, she knew that it would be a really bad idea. That was the moment they would get caught, and not only would it be mortifying, it would be bad juju for their future. Instead, she sat down on his bed and leaned back, putting her arms under her head. The ceiling fan spun around and around, making practically no sound at all. His huge flat screen television was off and the only sound in the whole house was the water falling in the shower.
Amber was trying to be as patient as she possibly could be, but she just wanted to be near him, to feel his arms wrapped around her. It was the most comforting feeling in the world,
and she felt almost vulnerable without it. She sighed and turned her head to the side, spying his bed side table. She bit her lip and sat up, thinking about the journal inside. On a normal basis, Amber didn’t consider herself a nosey person, and she tended to trust most people. However, when she found out that he had been writing in a journal, her interest had been instantly peaked.
She looked up at the door and then over at the drawer, giving up and moving over there. She quietly slid the drawer open and pulled out the faded old journal from the top. She held it in her hands for several minutes, trying to give herself enough balls to open it. After a few moments, she just sat back and opened it to the first page.
Today my mom and dad died in a car accident. They say the other guy was a drunk driver but I guess it doesn’t really matter because they are gone. I feel numb, unloving and unloved. I have been given the offer to go live with my best friend in their huge estate, but even that place has memories of them. Where am I supposed to go with no one to guide me?
Amber turned the page, almost feeling awkward for reading such an intimate post. The next page was two weeks later.
It’s been a week since the funeral and everyone keeps telling me I need to grieve. I am grieving, just in my own way. Jordan’s parent’s Matt and Lisa are amazing. They are there for me but they don’t smother. They accepted me into their household without question and they treat me exactly the same as they treat their own kids, Jordan and Amber. I can see in the future that I will love them like I loved my parents, I just hope I don’t let them down.
Amber flipped through the book, page after page, reading excerpts from his writing. A lot of it was documented teenage angst and nothing else. There were some interesting parts, but mostly just bitching about college, girls, and Jordan being an asshole all the time. Amber flipped through to the summer before that, and saw there were only three writings. One was about drinking and bars, but another was about the family.
