by J. S. Cooper
“The economy’s shit. You know that.” He shrugged. “When it gets better, I’ll get a job.”
“And until then, you’ll live off your momma?”
“I don’t wanna live off my momma. I want you to enter this damn fight and win a million dollars. Dude, do you know what we can do with a million dollars?”
“Nope.” I shook my head again and laughed at him. “Please stop trying to seduce me with your eyes. Save it for the girls.”
“I’m practicing on you until Riley gets home,” he joked, and I froze for a second.
“What did I tell you about, Riley?” I kept my voice calm, but my insides were storming up at the sound of her name. “Don’t even joke about Riley. Or Eden,” I added for good measure.
“I won’t go after your sister, dude.” Luke laughed. “Now her best friend? Yummy.” He licked his lips. “I don’t know if I can back away from her.”
“Not funny.” I glared at him, heat rising in me. I clenched my fists and took a step back.
“I’m just joking. Damn, Hudson. I know she’s like your sister as well.” Luke shook his head and then stared at my fists. “You were not just about to hit me, were you?”
“Get a life.”
“I’ll get a life if you sign up for one fight.” He collapsed on the couch. “It’s not just about me. You could also give some money to Clara’s mom. I heard she still hasn’t found a job.”
I flinched as he said Clara’s name. “The economy’s rough. She’ll find a job.”
“She’s so depressed.” He shrugged and looked away from me. “I don’t know that she’ll ever be able to work again. I heard my mom say that she thought Clara’s mom may lose her house.”
“What?” I frowned and felt a nerve jumping in my neck. “I thought she had insurance money.”
“It’s gone.” His voice sounded normal, but the words seemed to reverberate in my mind. Well, really only one word. Gone. Gone. Gone. It was like the clanging of a gong against my temple.
“I’ll see if I can give her some money.” I shook my head, trying to shake the inevitable headache I knew was coming.
Luke made a face. “For the rest of her life?”
“I don’t know.” I sighed and looked away from him again. “I gotta go.”
“Think about the fight. It could solve a lot of problems.” Luke made one last passionate plea. “And giving Clara’s mom a bunch of money may make you feel better.”
“I guess.” I shrugged, but a light in my head went off at his words.
“You can even help Eden with her tuition.”
“Yeah.”
“When are they coming home though? I seriously haven’t seen Eden or Riley in ages.”
“Eden was home a few weekends ago.” I opened the front door. “And Riley’s not my family so I have no clue what she is doing.”
“Is she dating anyone?” he asked curiously, and my heart stopped for a second.
“Who knows?” I looked at the wall, trying to ignore the tightening of my chest. “I don’t have her call me with updates.”
“She knows better than that. They both do. Who needs a father with a shotgun when you’ve got a brother that can fight them off with his hands?”
“She’s not my sister,” I muttered. “And I don’t beat guys off of anyone.”
“What about if it’s for a million dollars?”
“Luke.” I stared at his goofy smile for a second and then shook my head. “I swear, if we weren’t friends I would smack you.”
“Lucky for me, we’ve been friends since we were kids.” He laughed. “I’m too pretty to be bruised.”
“But I guess I’m ugly enough to stand a few scrapes and cuts?”
“You’re handsome enough to look even hotter with a few scars.” Luke shrugged. “It’ll just make more women want you.”
“I don’t want more women to like me.”
“You have to get over Clara at some point, Hudson.” Luke’s voice was suddenly serious, and once again I froze at his words. “I know it hurts, but—”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” I quickly walked over to the door. “I’m out. I’ll see you later to shoot some hoops?”
“Yeah, I’ll see you at the court. I still...”
I didn’t hear the rest of Luke’s words as I immediately closed the door and walked to my car.
I decided to go swimming as soon as I got home. I was lucky enough to live in an apartment complex that had an Olympic-size pool. I wasn’t really sure how Rosemead Apartments had gotten the money to put in any sort of pool, but I wasn’t complaining. I walked through the parking lot filled with old and rusting cars and tried to ignore the crowd of guys huddled at the end of the parking lot, talking loudly and passing something around in a small bag. I could guess at what was in the bag, but I didn’t really want to know. I didn’t want anything to do with the other guys who lived in the Rosemead complex. I didn’t need any trouble.
I noticed a young blond guy with a marine buzz cut staring at me, and I started jogging to get away from them. I wished moving out were as easy. I hated living here at Rosemead; I absolutely hated it, but I felt like I needed to. Not because I couldn’t afford to live anywhere else. But this was for Clara. This was to make her happy.
Jamilah waved at me excitedly. “Hey, Hudson.”
“Hi, Jamilah.” I grinned at the little girl who was about to dive into the pool. “How is school going?”
“School is school.” She made a face. “It’s boring. But I think I’m going to make the swim team.”
“Well of course.” I smiled at her and looked around. “Where is your mom?”
“At work.” Jamilah chewed on her lower lip as she twisted her arms. “She got a new job, but she has to work evenings.”
“Where’s Marcus?”
“Doing his homework.” She shrugged. “I just came to practice swimming for an hour. Don’t tell my mom.”
I looked at her and tried to keep the smile on my face. I didn’t want her to see how upset I was. Jamilah was only ten and her brother was only eight. I felt bad that their mom had to leave them alone while she went to work, but I was angry that Jamilah was here by herself when I knew she was still a beginning swimmer.
“Hey, next time you want to go swimming and your mom isn’t home, come and find me, okay?” I gave her a look. “And if I’m not home, wait until me or your mom is available.”
“Okay.” She nodded. “Do you want to race?”
“Race?” I laughed. “But you know you’ll beat me.”
“I won’t.” She giggled. “I’ll be slow this time.”
“You can’t go slow just for me.” I smiled at her. “You need to go your fastest.”
“I will.” I watched the light fade from her eyes before she spoke again. “Hudson, do you think I have a real shot of making the team?”
“Of course!”
“But what if my mom can’t afford it?” She looked away from me. “There are fees to be a part of the team and she just got this job.”
“Jamilah, you’re ten. Let your mom worry about that.” I ran my hands over the top of her head to comfort her. “You just practice swimming.”
“Yeah, I guess.” She nodded. “Okay, one, two, three, go.” And with that, she did a clean dive into the pool and started doing a front crawl.
I watched her swim for a few seconds and then dove in behind her. The water felt cold and crisp against my skin, and my brain soared to life at the shock of my body submerging into the cold water without a second thought. My arms stretched out and got into their rhythm automatically: one, two, breathe, one, two, breathe.
I saw Jamilah’s legs kicking furiously in front of me as she tried desperately to keep her lead, and I slowed my pace slightly to ensure that I didn’t overtake her. I wanted to give her the confidence she needed to make certain she didn’t give up on her swimming dream. I could tell from the way that she was talking that it wasn’t going to take much to dissuade her.
> It saddened me that she wasn’t pursuing her dreams like a normal kid. A kid shouldn’t have to worry about money or being bullied. I sighed inwardly as I reached the other side of the pool and thought to myself, If only there was a way for me to give her mom some money.
“I beat you, I beat you!” She splashed me with the water as she grinned at me. “I can’t believe I beat you.”
“I guess it’s the Olympics up for you next.”
“They’ll play the national anthem for me,” she beamed. “That would be awesome.”
“Yes, it would be.” I nodded in agreement.
“I wish it would really happen.” The smile left her face and she pushed herself out of the pool.
“It could happen if you practice a lot.” I jumped out of the pool with her.
“I don’t know.” She looked down. “I have to support my mom.”
Her words made me freeze. The memories that brought back to me were bittersweet, and I could feel my heart racing. Jamilah stood there shivering as water slid down her body and her eyes were full of sadness. She was too young to be taking on the cares of her mother.
I repeated the words I had said to Clara so many times. “It’s not your responsibility to take care of your mom.”
“She doesn’t make much money.” She shrugged. “I want to help her.”
“That’s admirable of you, Jammy.” I gave her a quick hug. “But your mom is doing fine.”
“I wish she was home more.” She hugged me back and then giggled. “What flavor jam am I?”
“What flavor jam do you want to be?” I whispered, playing the game we’d been playing for the last year.
“Not raspberry jam.” She made a face. “Or mixed fruit. Mixed fruit jam is yucky.”
“What about strawberry?” I smiled down at her. “You like strawberry jam, don’t you?”
“Yes!” She smiled up at me. “I love strawberry jam.”
“Then you’re my strawberry Jammy.” I winked at her, and she giggled.
“I should go and check on Marcus.” She sighed. “Make sure he’s doing his homework.”
“Yeah, you should.” I smiled. “I’ll walk you to your apartment.”
She shook her head and made a little face. “You don’t have to do that.”
I laughed. “Have I told you that you remind me of a girl I once knew?”
She shook her head as we walked. “No, who?”
“When I was younger, I used to tease a girl on the bus. Her name was Riley, and one day she went to her mom and complained about me. Her mom came to my parents’ house and told them what was going on. She asked if she could ask me to protect her instead of my being punished.” I smiled at the memory as I spoke. “Well, that girl and I became friends, and she always used to make faces at me.”
“Is she your best friend?”
“No. Luke. You remember Luke? Well, he’s my best friend.”
“He’s goofy.” She made a face and then stopped, her hand flying to her mouth as she looked at me sheepishly. “I mean, he’s nice, but goofy.”
“That describes him perfectly.” I smiled at her.
“So, are you and Riley still friends?”
“No, not really.” I frowned as I thought of her. I paused as I let the feelings of love, joy, wonder, hurt, horror, and heartbreak wash over me. “She has her own life now.” I tried to smile again, but couldn’t.
I could see Riley’s face in my mind as clear as day. It made me feel incredibly guilty and incredibly sad. Riley was a part of my life that I couldn’t think about anymore. Not after what had happened. Not after Clara. It didn’t matter what I wished were different. This was my life now. I thought back to my earlier conversation with Luke and sighed inwardly. I had a feeling I was going to try and enter that fight. A million dollars would go a long way. I knew what Clara would want me to do, and I couldn’t let her down. Not now.
Chapter 2
Riley
Present Day
The taste of sin is sweet. Ridiculously sweet—like honey dipped in sugar. It’s satisfying for one distinct moment before you realize that it’s too much and you regret taking a bite. Especially if you’re like me and you’ve taken the biggest bite your mouth could handle.
“Riley, there is no way that you are going to be able to go in there and fool those guys into believing that you know a thing about underground fighting.”
“You don’t know my powers of persuasion.” I laughed. “And my acting skills are also great. I’ll be fine.”
“Unfortunately, I do know about your bad wannabe-actress skills. Also, you don’t have any powers of persuasion.” Eden shook her head. “Just because you watched one YouTube video about how to persuade people to believe you’re invisible doesn’t mean you have any mad skills. In fact, it gives you no skills and makes you a bit of an idiot.”
“I’m going to believe I didn’t hear that.” I stared at my reflection in the mirror. “Do you think I should cut my hair? Or dye it or something?”
“No way.” Eden jumped up and grabbed my arm. “If you cut off your beautiful hair, I will kill you.” Her fingers played with my long brown hair and she sighed with envy. “You have gorgeous hair, Riley. You know what I would do for your chestnut tresses.”
“I told you I’ll sell it to you.” I grinned at her and stared at her golden bob. “Though, half the world wishes they had naturally blond hair like you.”
“Uh huh.” She flopped down on the bed. “Anyways, this is not about me. Are you really going to try and infiltrate the fighting ring?”
“Yeah.” I looked at her in excitement. “This is my first real assignment. I can’t mess this up.”
“It’s not going to be dangerous, is it?” She looked at me with a worried expression. “You don’t want me to get Hudson down here, do you?”
“Whatever.” I rolled my eyes while my insides flushed at the mention of her brother’s name.
“You know he’ll totally drive down if he thinks you’re up to something bad.”
“Don’t tell him.” I gave her a stern look, and she laughed.
“You’d think he was your brother and not mine.” She shook her head. “Though I suppose I should be thankful that he thinks he has two younger sisters. I’m very grateful that he is on your case more than he is on mine.”
“Argh. I’m not,” I moaned. “My mom asked him to look after me when I was six. He doesn’t have to keep doing it like it’s his job.”
“It’s because he loves you like a sister,” Eden explained. “He plays the overprotective-big-brother role to a T.”
“Yeah he does.” I smiled at her before I turned around and walked to my closet.
“Did I tell you that he’s going on an around-the-world trip in a few months?”
“Oh?” I turned around in surprise and tried to still my beating heart. “For how long?”
“No idea. He thinks he’ll be gone for a year or two.”
“A year?” I frowned.
“Yeah,” she nodded. “You should be happy. I’m enthused. We can finally date boys and not have him acting like he’s a part of the FBI and they’re criminals.”
“Yeah.” I gave her a weak smile.
I was hurt that Hudson hadn’t called me to tell me of his plans. But then after what had happened three years ago, nothing had been the same.
“We’re twenty-one, Riley. We’re ready for real relationships.” Eden sighed and stared up at the ceiling. “I’m ready to lose my virginity.”
“Yeah,” I mumbled, my face burning up at the huge secret I was keeping from her.
“I hope it’s romantic and sexy.” Her eyes glazed over as she daydreamed out loud. “I hope he has short, dark, silky tresses and sky blue eyes. I hope his lips are soft and sweet and taste like cotton candy. I hope my body trembles at his look and shivers at his touch.”
“Eden!” I burst out laughing. “You have been reading way too many Harlequin books. You really need to stop.”
“Shhh
!” She grinned at me. “A girl can only hope right. Knowing my luck, it will be one, two, three, bam, and then he’ll fall asleep on me and I’ll be thinking, Is this it?”
“It won’t be that bad.”
“How do you know?”
“I don’t.” I made a face and closed my eyes for a second, remembering my first time. It had been as gentle as it was rough, sweet, bitter, and sweaty, and I had still been able to taste myself on his lips as we’d kissed and climaxed together. It had been the best night of my life. And also the worst. The most wickedly devious night of my life, and I wanted to relive it again and again.
“Well, we both need to find out then.” Eden giggled. “And preferably soon.”
"Hi, I'm Riley." I smiled wide at the group of guys in front of me. "I'm from the school newspaper," I continued and then groaned inside. "Not high school, by the way. I'm in college. At State," I mumbled, seeing that I was losing their attention. "I'm going for my English degree. I know, I know. Should I be studying journalism or some sort of broadcasting?" I paused as I saw a few of the guys yawning. "Anyways, I don't mean to bore you." I smiled tentatively this time. "I just wanted to introduce myself so that you know who I am if I ask you any questions or if you see me in the changing rooms." I tried not to sigh as I saw all of the guys looking at their phones. I'd lost them. Eden was right—I had no business being here. I wasn't a journalist, and I knew nothing about fighting or fighters. "Does anyone have any questions?"
"What are you doing tonight?" one of the guys shouted out, and the other guys laughed. He gave me a boyish smile, and I smiled at him without reservation.
"Hopefully talking to you," I shot back at him, and he raised his eyebrows at me. "What's your name?"
"Channing." His blue eyes twinkled at me. "Yes, like Channing Tatum."
"You wish." The guy to his right punched him in the shoulder. "You’re as much Channing Tatum as I am Denzel Washington." He rolled his eyes, and all the guys laughed again.
"What's your name?" I smiled at the handsome black guy, who looked much hotter than I considered Denzel Washington to be.
