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"Yes," Haley said, shifting her glance to the left and away from him.
He slowly pulled away from her and stood up. Swallowing hard, he asked, "Is that what you really want?"
"Yes," she said without the slightest hesitation, making everything suddenly crystal clear.
He pulled out two twenties and tossed them on the table. "Come on," he said, heading for the door.
"Where are we going?" Haley asked when she caught up to him.
"Home. "
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"Jason? Jason, talk to me. You're really scaring me. "
For the past six hours he'd been deadly quiet. When he said they were going home at the diner she thought he meant back to the cottage. She knew she shouldn't have encouraged that waitress. She didn't want to and had been on the verge of informing the woman that Jason was spoken for when she realized seeing Jason with another woman might help her get over him sooner. She had no idea he'd be this pissed otherwise she wouldn't have said anything, but she needed to get over him before she finally gave into the pain threatening to bring her to her knees.
She loved him so much more than she should have allowed herself to.
Instead of answering her, he threw the driver's side door open and popped the trunk. She quickly climbed out of the car just as the motion sensor lights on her house turned on.
"Please talk to me," she said as she watched him grab the three shopping bags of clothes he'd bought and head towards his front door.
"Jason, don't do this!" she said, unable to stand the idea of ending things like this.
"You want to talk?" he asked, slowly turning around to face her.
"Yes," she said, relieved that he was at least talking.
He threw the bags to the side and walked over to her. "Fine. Let's talk, Haley," he said, getting into her face. "I f**ked up, Haley. I shouldn't have let some bitch sell me a line of bullshit and I should have talked to you, but you know what? You screwed up, too. "
"You never even bothered to tell me why you didn't want to have sex," when she opened her mouth to argue he spoke over her, "I know I could have asked you a thousand different times, but I was too damn happy to care. I wanted to be with you, no matter what. I loved you, Haley and I thought you loved me. So, when that woman told me that you wouldn't sleep with me because you didn't love me I panicked big time and did something I will probably regret for the rest of my life. "
"You regret sleeping with me?" Haley asked, feeling her heart drop.
"Yes, because I obviously hurt you that night and it gave you the excuse you obviously wanted to break things off," he said, stepping away from her as he ran his hands through his hair in frustration.
"I wasn't looking for an excuse to break things off," she sputtered, taking a step towards him.
"Bullshit!"
"I wasn't!" she yelled right back. "You're the one who thought I was pulling a fast one on you! You're the one who just had to prove-"
"Oh give me a f**king break!" he shouted, causing her to jump back. "I f**ked up, Haley. I admit that. Hell, I admitted it right when it happened and I even told you when we started out that I would most likely f**k up. " He continued, not giving her a chance to speak, "You were happy that I f**ked up. It gave you the little excuse you needed to drop me. "
"No, it didn't! You hurt me, Jason! You should have-"
"I should have done a hundred different things, but you know what, Haley? I didn't. I f**ked up, yeah, but you're acting like I f**ked around on you!"
"Because you're going to!" she shouted back, wiping angrily at the tears that spilled down her cheeks. "We both knew this wasn't going to last, Jason! What you did proved it!"
"Wasn't going to last? I f**king loved you!" he shouted, getting closer. "I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you! But the entire time I was picturing a house, marriage and kids you were just using me!"
"I wasn't using you!" she cried, shoving him back.
"Then what the hell do you call it?" he asked, letting her shove him again. "I was good enough to hang around, date, sleep with, oh wait, no I wasn't, was I? The only thing you thought I was good for was a good time!"
"I can't believe you're complaining!" she said, shoving her hair out of her face. "That's exactly how you treat women! You're just pissed because someone did it to you!"
"I have never led any woman on. They all knew I had nothing to offer them, but you," he shook his head in disgust, "you made me think that you actually cared for me when all you were was a bitch looking for a good time. "
She slapped him. Hard.
"You're a f**king snob just like your family," he said coldly.
"I hate you," she bit out, ignoring the stinging pain in her hand. She hadn't used him, she knew that. She'd been the only one of them who went into this relationship with a level head. He might think that he loved her today, but she knew that would change one day and she wasn't going to feel bad because she got out before that day came.
He wiped a small drop of blood off his lip as he watched her. "You came to me for a good time so I'm going to make sure you get just that. "
"Wha-"
He cut her off with a firm kiss. She tried to pull back, but he wasn't having that. He cupped the back of her head, holding her to him as he brushed his lips over hers, coercing them to cooperate. When he ran the tip of his tongue between her lips, demanding entrance, she was helpless to refuse.
She moaned when his warm tongue slid into her mouth, gliding over hers, and then tangled together. Her arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer, unable to stand the thought of being apart.
No matter what he thought, she hadn't been using him. She loved him so much and even though she knew she would wind up hurt in the end she hadn't been able to pass up a chance to be with him.
When he picked her up in his arms she didn't fight him. No, she fisted his hair, tilted her head, and deepened the kiss. Several minutes later they were in her living room and he was kicking the front door shut. He placed her on her feet only to grab behind her thighs and lift her up. She wrapped her legs around his waist, loving the way he grabbed her ass and ground her against his hard erection.
She released one hand from his hair to reach between them and yank his tee shirt up. Jason turned in the hall, leaning her against the wall as he reached back and yanked his shirt off, only breaking the kiss to pull the shirt off. He kept her pressed against the wall as he worked her shirt off.
He raised her above him so he could lick his way down to her br**sts. She hugged his head against her chest as he traced the cups with his tongue and moaned when he suckled her hard nipple through the thin lace.
"Mmmm," she moaned softly as he suckled and kneaded her br**sts. Her h*ps gently rolled against his stomach, searching for relief. She arched her back when she felt his hands leave her br**sts and move to her back. In seconds he had her bra undone and his tongue running over her br**sts, flicking her hard ni**les.
Haley licked her lips as she worked her bra off the rest of the way. She wrapped her arms back around his head, holding him against her as she leaned over and pressed a kiss to the top of his head.
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