by Quinn, Cari
Carly Anderson is gorgeous and funny and seductive. She isn’t shy about letting me know she’s interested. But she’s far too innocent for me to taint with the sins of my past—and my present.
In the circles I run in, a bullet can take you out at any time. My father and older brother embraced the dark, dangerous world of the mafia that I turned away from, until the person I loved most was caught in the crossfire between our warring families.
I made a choice to avenge her death, fully aware I likely won’t come out alive. I’ve embraced the life I now live. And if it ends me, so be it.
But I never expected Carly would have to pay my debts—and her sister’s.
Author’s note: On The Ropes is a full-length MMA romantic suspense novel with a happily ever after ending and no cliffhanger, though it contains violent material that may be triggering. It was previously published by Cari Quinn in 2015 and has been lightly re-edited.
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On The Ropes
Chapter One
Carly
I used to feel invisible. I was an ordinary girl with a sister with a not-so-ordinary background, and because of that, I’ve always lived in her shadow. I didn’t want her to worry about me, and I didn’t want to cause any trouble. But even the good girl eventually goes bad.
At least this one did.
The first time I got drunk, I tasted the freedom I hadn’t realized I’d been missing. After a while, you become so numb that it becomes easier to pretend it doesn’t hurt to deny who you are, down deep under the lies. You get used to breaking off pieces of yourself and tucking them away where they won’t cause any pain to someone else, someone you love more than life. Someone who would sacrifice anything to keep you safe.
Claiming those real, true slices of yourself—even in secret—feels like a betrayal.
I didn’t want to hurt Mia, my older sister. My hero. She’s the strongest, bravest, sweetest person I know. And she’s suffocated me for years, trying to ensure that I never have to endure what she did.
Now she’d become part of a set. Her boyfriend, Fox, is almost as bad as she is when it comes to being protective of me. I love him like he’s my own brother, and I’m so happy he’s in Mia’s life, but my father is dead and buried. I threw the roses on his casket years ago, and I never signed up for another one.
My sister smothers me enough. She doesn’t need any help.
We’re so different, Mia and I. Night and day. I used to think she was the night and I was the day. Not anymore. She’s fought her dark with every ounce of who she is. I chase mine.
I also have a big fat chip on my shoulder about making my mark. Wherever and however I can.
Hey world, Carly Fucking Anderson is on this planet too, and she’s not here just to be the walk-on in someone else’s show.
I want my own. My own existence. Even my own tragedy, if it comes to that.
If Mia knew part of me wanted to be in the spotlight, no matter the cost, she’d never understand. She lived through a trauma. Survived it. She didn’t cling to the walls of her world like a paper doll, as thin and insubstantial as the wind.
People passed by me and through me and few of them ever realized I’d suffered too. I was the one who had to pick up the pieces after my sister’s kidnapping. I took care of my dad as best as I could, and I went through the motions. Even at eleven, I learned how to put on the mask. I was normal. I was okay. Nothing or no one would ever harm me because I was too strong.
Not anymore. Now I wasn’t hiding from trouble. I was seeking it, eyes wide open. Hoping like hell it could find me where no one else ever had.
That unnaturally warm October night at The Pyramid Club, it did.
The club was slamming on a Friday night in the city, as it always was. At eighteen, I lived the usual college girl’s life. I went to school all day at the International Culinary Institute, and I worked part-time three days a week at a salad shop.
And two nights of the week, I danced nearly nude in a cage at a club.
Okay, so maybe not quite so usual.
I’ll give you a clue which of my two jobs paid more—and it wasn’t the one where I chopped vegetables for my two-hundred-year-old boss.
I’d worked as a dancer for more than four months. A few times, I’d had to go onstage to fill in, but the cage above the dance floor was mostly mine. Initially, I’d had to fight for it. The cage was kinda primo dance space, and a girl with no dancing or stripping experience wasn’t who Trina wanted to put inside it right away. But I’d danced for her in her office, with my palms sweating and my mind screaming a million protests, and she’d agreed right away to a probationary period in the cage.
Now it was my permanent spot.
Every week, I changed my look. There were a couple reasons for that. One, I enjoyed playing dress-up. I’d collected an assortment of wigs that I stored at my friend Jenna’s apartment. I’d started out with a long, layered white-blond one. The next week, I’d gone for sable brown page boy. The same Carly didn’t show up two weeks in a row, and I loved it.
There was another reason I went for the wigs. I was hiding in plain sight.
See, I hadn’t even known about this particular club until I’d followed my crush there last April. Crush was such a pathetic word. In the intervening months, I’d moved way on from it, but back then, I’d been firmly in crush mode. Giovanni Costas had been my fascination from the first time I’d laid eyes on him after I moved to the city to live with my sister in January.
That night in April, when I’d followed him, he’d smashed my crush to smithereens.
All for my own good, of course. That was why he’d warned me away from the club, and added the exclamation point of getting a blowjob from one of the waitresses in a back room while I waited outside like an idiot.
I wonder what he’d do if he went for another blowjob, and discovered the waitress was me?
Not that I did that. Yet. I wasn’t naïve enough to think I’d be able to avoid the sex acts that took place in the back rooms—and sometimes right at the tables—forever. I’d been lucky so far. My sister might’ve been the fighter in the family, but I knew how to dodge and weave with the best of ‘em. Every time I’d almost gotten called into service, I’d handily disappeared.
Eventually, everyone’s luck ran out.
Mine ran out that night.
The first hint that something was afoot was the change in routine. I normally worked Friday and Saturday nights. Friday nights, early, because that was when Giovanni usually fought. I didn’t think he’d recognize me in my getup—the Strawberry Shortcake Carly he knew couldn’t have been further away—but there was no reason to tempt fate. Saturday nights, I worked late, from ten to closing, because he tended to come in after the dinner crowd and leave early.
I might not have admitted to crushing on him anymore, but I still watched him. Relentlessly.
My sister’s fight last month and her subsequent injury might’ve kindled a few of those lingering crush sparks back to life, but I’d stomp them out with my pointy-toed shoes eventually. The problem was he was always so sweet to me, when he wasn’t being a complete dick.
He had old world manners. Opening doors, allowing ladies to go first. He was unfailingly polite, but what burned in his blue-black eyes spoke of long nights of dirty, inventive sex.
Turned out I was a sucker for that particular combination. Who knew?
There was a fight that night. I knew that because a female that Fox trained was on the undercar
d. Lately, women’s MMA was getting more cred in the underground scene, but it was still very much a man’s world.
And Giovanni ruled it. He had a nearly unbeaten record, and tonight, he was fighting Cuda, a new guy rising up the ranks. It was supposed to be a huge bout. Big bets, lots of big talk, plenty of pretty girls swarming to assist the fighters in any way possible. Some of the other chicks who worked at The Pyramid Club had been called in to work as ring card girls, and they also worked their mouths on the regular. And not to talk.
Me, I danced. And I collected my tips, socking them away for school. I was accumulating a hefty bank account, one slow grind at a time.
I didn’t expect the fight to let out until eleven at least. But it wasn’t much past nine when the first wave of revelers arrived. They were noisy, jubilant. From where I was at the opposite end of the bar, adjusting my short dark wig in the reflective glass behind the bottles, I could see the swells of people pushing into the club, and some of them were dressed in fight gear. Some of the fighters, like Giovanni, wore certain colors all the time. His were red and black. As were the jackets on several of the first shouting men through the doors.
The Grey Goose, Hennessey and Moet started flowing. Quickly, I made my way to my cage. I didn’t want to get caught on the floor if Giovanni showed up early. I had to think the fight had gone well, and that he’d shut down his opponent fast. Not that surprising. He wasn’t known for stringing his competitor along.
It wouldn’t be the first time I’d brought drinks to his table, but I didn’t feel like pressing my luck tonight. Though I wasn’t technically a waitress, we were all called to perform the task now and then, especially if someone developed a special preference for one of us. A couple of the members of Giovanni’s usual crowd were friendly with me, even as he always seemed to be occupied with his blond du jour every time I showed up at the table.
Always blonds. Because that didn’t sting, not even a little.
I wasn’t exactly a blond. I wasn’t completely not one either. My hair was more red, but there was some gold in there too.
Not tonight though. Tonight, I had swingy, short dark hair to go with my smoky eye makeup and dark red lips. Nothing at all like my usual self.
Amen for that.
The music was pumping, and so was the money. With this kind of exultant atmosphere, I wouldn’t have to worry about going home with thin pockets at the end of the night. Even the share of my tips I had to give the bouncers on duty and the waitresses serving my section of the club shouldn’t put much of a dent in my take.
The unobtrusive metal steps to the cage lowered from supports on the ceiling clanged under my platform heels. I wore my standard outfit: super short skirt, tied off top that would be easily stripped away to reveal my bra and then my breasts, and a tiny G-string. I didn’t dance naked but damn close. That G-string didn’t hide much. I was lucky that my natural hair color was fairly light, but Brazilians were a part of my life on a regular basis.
I hadn’t intended to dance topless when I started. Back then, I’d hoped I could just wear next-to-nothing. Yeah, not so much. I was lucky I hadn’t been required to do more than the occasional—very occasional—lap dance.
Yet.
On the third step, my heel broke. I swore and gripped the railing, nearly going to my knees. I swiveled around, my butt landing hard on the step. The dirty, nasty step walked on by how many pairs of feet. Ugh.
I fumbled for my shoe, trying to gauge the damage. The heel had completely snapped off. No temporary fixes for that one. I had another pair in my locker, thank God.
Sighing, I gripped it by the strap and looked at my watch. And I was officially about to be late to start my shift. I had to hustle.
“You need some help, sweetheart?”
At the rich, melodic voice that was often attached to so many of my tips, I smiled and dangled my shoe strap from my pinky. “You know how to fix broken shoes?”
“Now that is a tough one.” Marco Salzano, one of Giovanni’s usual crowd, leaned on the railing beside the stairs and scratched his chin. He was smooth-shaven like a baby’s bottom at all times, whereas Giovanni usually had scruff.
Last weekend, when I’d scoped him out from behind the bar like a spy, he’d been rocking a short beard to go with his longish wavy dark hair. He’d had on a muscle shirt that showed off his full sleeves of tattoos, and he’d kept the alcohol flowing to the entire table. I’d nearly gotten caught watching him, and in last weekend’s getup of go-go boots and a long sleek auburn wig, I’d been too close to real Carly to risk exposure.
The man was nothing short of beautiful, and I hated him for it.
“But you’re in luck, lovely lady.”
Marco’s voice made my head snap up. I’d been lost in reveries of Giovanni. As usual. I couldn’t stand his effect on me, but that didn’t mean I’d figured out how to stop it. Especially now that he was spending so much time at my apartment.
Apparently, he and Fox had become friends. I didn’t really know how, since Gio had kicked Fox’s ass in the ring and ended his fighting career last winter, but that was boys for you. They didn’t make a lot of sense.
“Oh, I am, am I?” I tilted my head flirtatiously and pasted on my best smile. Marco padded my wallet often, and I knew how to play the game. Maybe I didn’t take it as far as some of the other girls—okay, almost all of the other girls—but that didn’t mean I was averse to flashing some ass for cash. I just did it from behind the bars of my cage.
Glancing up at the empty structure, I sighed again. I needed some shoes stat, or my tips were in serious danger.
“You are. I’m happy to help you with your predicament.” He held out an arm and smiled. He was dressed impeccably as always, in a fancy Italian suit that probably cost what I made in a month. And I wasn’t exactly underpaid at the club. “Come, gattina.”
I started to rise and take his arm before I cocked my head. “Gattina? What does that mean?”
I loved Italian. It was part of the reason I’d fallen so hard and fast for Giovanni. From the first time we’d met, he’d called me tesoro—treasure in Italian. I’d looked it up right away and always felt a secret joy when the word tumbled from his lips. That he didn’t want to call me it anymore only added another layer of thrill.
Some part of him was drawn to me too. He might not want that connection any more than I did—even if I didn’t fully understand why—but the link existed nonetheless. So far, neither of us had been able to kill it.
“Gattina means little cat.”
I started to smile back until a possible dual meaning of that phrase sneaked into my head and I blushed. He was a handsome, older man, in his mid-twenties to my not-quite-nineteen, and all of the women at the club wanted to be close to him. His special interest in me from almost the beginning had garnered me more than a bit of jealousy. I’d never really encouraged his attention, but I hadn’t exactly discouraged it either.
I wasn’t interested in him. That didn’t mean I couldn’t have some fun, right?
He wasn’t Giovanni. No one was.
“Come now, gattina.” His smile grew as he inclined his chin at his extended arm. “You’re running late.”
Biting my lip, I took another glance at my cage. The chaser lights surrounding it glowed green and purple, my special colors. The structure would start revolving soon, though it was empty.
“Maybe I should just skip the shoes.” I started backing up the steps. “Not like I really need them to—”
“But your costume. Your legs look so beautiful in heels.” His gaze dropped and I gripped the railing, trying not to react to his intense perusal. I was used to men looking at me. Hell, I loved it. I loved knowing I’d made their dicks hard, that they wanted to take me home and never would. I found a control here I’d found so few other places.
By day, I had to listen to my instructors. At night, this was my world, and I ruled it from behind a shy smile. No one suspected I was anything but an innocent college student who�
�d somehow stumbled into stripping to pay my bills. I wasn’t supposed to enjoy the power that rode in my veins every time I made these men want.
And beg.
“Thank you,” I said demurely, rubbing my bare foot against my opposite ankle. I wasn’t stupid. I knew the movement allowed him to see straight up to the G-string barely hidden by my flared schoolgirl skirt. If he squinted, he might even be able to see the shadowy outline under the nearly see-through white panties.
His nostrils flared and he shifted toward the stairs, locking an arm around the back of my thighs. Before I could react, he’d yanked me down the steps and against him. There was no mistaking the column in his pants. For me.
Suddenly, I doubted what he wanted to show me in a back room had anything to do with shoes.
“Gattina,” he breathed, and his Bourbon-laced breath puffed over my mouth. It didn’t turn me on, not exactly. I had the kind of motor that usually needed a lot of warming up before it ran hot. “You’re needed elsewhere.”
“But my job.” I fingered his ruby tie and gave him a playful smile. “I can’t just take off when I want to.” I licked my lips and his nostrils flared again. “Much as I might want to.”
“You must want a lot, a gorgeous girl like you.” His gaze flickered over my face. “A place like this will never be enough for you.”
I tugged my lower lip between my teeth and made my eyes wide. God, I loved this game. It didn’t hurt anyone, and it was so much fun. “What do you have in mind?”
He pulled me against him, hard, and the moan I let out at the rough brush of his suit-clad cock against my pelvis was only half fake. “Let me show you.”
“Oh, how I wish.” Flashing him a grin, I stepped back up the steps. But my lack of a shoe made me unsteady, and he took advantage by grabbing me again.
“Your shift will be covered. Don’t worry, I know the owner.” The deadly flash in his eyes disappeared as fast as it had appeared. “Come with me now, Carly.”
