V
M’s voice.
Set: circular, about 5 m. diameter, surrounded by deep shadow.
Lighting: a gradual lightening from dark periphery to maximum light at centre.
1. West, roads.
2. North, sanctum.
3. East, closet.
4. Standing position.
5. Camera.
1. Dark. 5 seconds.
2. Fade up to M. 5 seconds.
3. V: When I thought of her it was always night. I came in—
4. Dissolve to S empty. 5 seconds. Ml in hat and greatcoat emerges from west shadow, advances five steps and stands facing east shadow. 2 seconds.
5. V:No—
6. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
7. V: No, that is not right. When she appeared it was always night. I came in—
8. Dissolve to S empty. 5 seconds. Ml in hat and greatcoat emerges from west shadow, advances five steps and stands facing east shadow. 5 seconds.
9. V: Right. Came in, having walked the roads since break of day, brought night home, stood listening (5 seconds), finally went to closet—
10. Ml advances five steps to disappear in east shadow. 2 seconds.
11. V: Shed my hat and greatcoat, assumed robe and skull, reappeared—
12. Ml in robe and skullcap emerges from east shadow, advances five steps and stands facing west shadow. 5 seconds.
13. V: Reappeared and stood as before, only facing the other way, exhibiting the other outline (5 seconds), finally turned and vanished—
14. Ml turns right and advances five steps to disappear in north shadow. 5 seconds.
15. V: Vanished within my little sanctum and crouched, where none could see me, in the dark.
16. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
17. V: Let us now make sure we have got it right.
18. Dissolve to S empty. 2 seconds. Ml in hat and greatcoat emerges from west shadow, advances five steps and stands facing east shadow. 2 seconds. He advances five steps to disappear in east shadow. 2 seconds. He emerges in robe and skullcap from east shadow, advances five steps and stands facing west shadow. 2 seconds. He turns right and advances five steps to disappear in north shadow. 2 seconds.
19. V: Right.
20. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
21. V: Then crouching there, in my little sanctum, in the dark, where none could see me, I began to beg, of her, to appear, to me. Such had long been my use and wont. No sound, a begging of the mind, to her, to appear, to me. Deep down into the dead of night, until I wearied, and ceased. Or of course until—
22. Dissolve to W. 2 seconds.
23. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
24. V: For had she never once appeared, all that time, would I have, could I have, gone on begging, all that time? Not just vanished within my little sanctum and busied myself with something else, or with nothing, busied myself with nothing? Until the time came, with break of day, to issue forth again, shed robe and skull, resume my hat and greatcoat, and issue forth again, to walk the roads.
25. Dissolve to S empty. 2 seconds. Ml in robe and skullcap emerges from north shadow, advances five steps and stands facing camera. 2 seconds. He turns left and advances five steps to disappear in east shadow. 2 seconds. He emerges in hat and greatcoat from east shadow, advances five steps and stands facing west shadow. 2 seconds. He advances five steps to disappear in west shadow. 2 seconds.
26. V: Right.
27. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
28. V: Let us now distinguish three cases. One: she appeared and—
29. Dissolve to W. 2 seconds.
30. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
31. V: In the same breath was gone. 2 seconds. Two: she appeared and—
32. Dissolve to W. 5 seconds.
33. V: Lingered. 5 seconds. With those unseeing eyes I so begged when alive to look at me. 5 seconds.
34. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
35. V: Three: she appeared and—
36. Dissolve to W. 5 seconds.
37. V: After a moment—
38. W’s lips move, uttering inaudibly: ‘ …clouds …but the clouds …of the sky …’, V murmuring, synchronous with lips: ‘… but the clouds…’ Lips cease. 5 seconds.
39. V: Right.
40. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
41. V: Let us now run through it again.
42. Dissolve to S empty. 2 seconds. Ml in hat and greatcoat emerges from west shadow, advances five steps and stands facing east shadow. 2 seconds. He advances five steps to disappear in east shadow. 2 seconds. He emerges in robe and skullcap from east shadow, advances five steps and stands facing west shadow. 2 seconds. He turns right and advances five steps to disappear in north shadow. 2 seconds.
43. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
44. Dissolve to W. 2 seconds.
45. Dissolve to M. 2 seconds.
46. Dissolve to W. 5 seconds.
47. V: Look at me. 5 seconds.
48. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
49. Dissolve to W. 2 seconds. W’s lips move, uttering inaudibly: ‘… clouds …but the clouds …of the sky …’, V murmuring, synchronous with lips: ‘ …but the clouds …’ Lips cease. 5 seconds.
50. V: Speak to me. 5 seconds.
51. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
52. V: Right. There was of course a fourth case, or case nought, as I pleased to call it, by far the commonest, in the proportion say of nine hundred and ninety-nine to one, or nine hundred and ninety-eight to two, when I begged in vain, deep down into the dead of night, until I wearied, and ceased, and busied myself with something else, more …rewarding, such as … such as …cube roots, for example, or with nothing, busied myself with nothing, that MINE, until the time came, with break of day, to issue forth again, void my little sanctum, shed robe and skull, resume my hat and greatcoat, and issue forth again, to walk the roads. (Pause.) The back roads.
53. Dissolves to S empty. 2 seconds. Ml in robe and skullcap emerges from north shadow, advances five steps and stands facing camera. 2 seconds. He turns left and advances five steps to disappear in east shadow. 2 seconds. He emerges in hat and greatcoat from east shadow, advances five steps and stands facing west shadow. 2 seconds. He advances five steps to disappear in west shadow. 2 seconds.
54. V: Right.
55. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
56. Dissolve to W. 5 seconds.
57. V: ‘…but the clouds of the sky …when the horizon fades …or a bird’s sleepy cry … among the deepening shades …’ 5 seconds.
58. Dissolve to M. 5 seconds.
59. Fade out on M.
60. Dark. 5 seconds.
Odds
Roughs for Theatre and Radio
Theatre I
Street corner. Ruins. A, blind, sitting on a folding stool, scrapes his fiddle. Beside him the case, half open, upended, surmounted by alms bowl. He stops playing, turns his head audience right, listens.
Pause.
A: A penny for a poor old man, a penny for a poor old man. (Silence. He resumes playing, stops again, turns his head right, listens. Enter B, right, in a wheelchair which he propels by means of a pole. He halts. Irritated.) A penny for a poor old man!
Pause.
B: Music! (Pause.) So it is not a dream. At last! Nor a vision, they are mute and I am mute before them (He advances, halts, looks into bowl. Without emotion.) Poor wretch.
(Pause.) Now I may go back, the mystery is over. (He pushes himself backwards, halts.) Unless we join together, and live together, till death ensue. (Pause.) What would you say to that, Billy, may I call you Billy, like my son? (Pause.) Do you like company, Billy? (Pause.) Do you like tinned food, Billy?
A: What tinned food?
B: Corned beef, Billy, just corned beef. Enough to keep body and soul together, till summer, with care. (Pause.) No? (Pause.) A few potatoes too, a few pounds of potatoes too. (Pause.) Do you like potatoes, Billy? (Pause.) We might even let them sprout and then, when the time came, put them in the ground, we might even try that.
(Pause.) I would choose the place and you would put them in the ground. (Pause.) No?
Pause.
A: How are the trees doing?
B: Hard to say. It’s winter, you know.
Pause.
A: Is it day or night?
B: Oh … (he looks at the sky)… day, if you like. No sun of course, otherwise you wouldn’t have asked. (Pause.) Do you follow my reasoning? (Pause.) Have you your wits about you, Billy, have you still some of your wits about you?
A: But light?
B: Yes. (Looks at sky.) Yes, light, there is no other word for it. (Pause.) Shall I describe it to you? (Pause.) Shall I try to give you an idea of this light?
A: It seems to me sometimes I spend the night here, playing and listening. I used to feel twilight gather and make myself ready. I put away fiddle and bowl and had only to get to my feet, when she took me by the hand.
Pause.
B: She?
A: My woman. (Pause.) A woman. (Pause.) But now …
Pause.
B: Now?
A: When I set out I don’t know, and when I get here I don’t know, and while I am here I don’t know, whether it is day or night.
B: You were not always as you are. What befell you? Women? Gambling? God?
A: I was always as I am.
B: Come!
A (violently): I was always as I am, crouched in the dark, scratching an old jangle to the four winds!
B (violently): We had our women, hadn’t we? You yours to lead you by the hand and I mine to get me out of the chair in the evening and back into it again in the morning and to push me as far as the corner when I went out of my mind.
A: Cripple? (Without emotion.) Poor wretch.
B: Only one problem: the about-turn. I often felt, as I struggled, that it would be quicker to go on, right round the world. Till the day I realized I could go home backwards. (Pause.) For example, I am at A. (He pushes himself forward a little, halts.) I push on to B. (He pushes himself back a little, halts.) And I return to A. (With élan.) The straight line! The vacant space! (Pause.) Do I begin to move you?
A: Sometimes I hear steps. Voices. I say to myself, They are coming back, some are coming back, to try and settle again, or to look for something they had left behind, or to look for someone they had left behind.
B: Come back! (Pause.) Who would want to come back here? (Pause.) And you never called out? (Pause.) Cried out? (Pause.) No?
A: Have you observed nothing?
B: Oh me you know, observe … I sit there, in my lair, in my chair, in the dark, twenty-three hours out of the twenty-four. (Violently.) What would you have me observe? (Pause.) Do you think we would make a match, now you are getting to know me?
A: Corned beef, did you say?
B: Apropos, what have you been living on, all this time? You must be famished.
A: There are things lying around.
B: Edible?
A: Sometimes.
B: Why don’t you let yourself die?
A: On the whole I have been lucky. The other day I tripped over a sack of nuts.
B: No!
A: A little sack, full of nuts, in the middle of the road.
B: Yes, all right, but why don’t you let yourself die?
A: I have thought of it.
B (irritated): But you don’t do it!
A: I’m not unhappy enough. (Pause.) That was always my unhap, unhappy, but not unhappy enough.
B: But you must be every day a little more so.
A (violently): I am not unhappy enough!
Pause.
B: If you ask me we were made for each other.
A (comprehensive gesture): What does it all look like now?
B: Oh me you know … I never go far, just a little up and down before my door. I never yet pushed on to here till now.
A: But you look about you?
B: No no.
A: After all those hours of darkness you don’t–
B (violently): No! (Pause.) Of course if you wish me to look about me I shall. And if you care to push me about I shall try to describe the scene, as we go along.
A: You mean you would guide me? I wouldn’t get lost any more?
B: Exactly. I would say, Easy, Billy, we’re heading for a great muckheap, turn back and wheel left when I give you the word.
A: You’d do that!
B (pressing his advantage): Easy, Billy, easy, I see a round tin over there in the gutter, perhaps it’s soup, or baked beans.
A: Baked beans!
Pause.
B: Are you beginning to like me? (Pause.) Or is it only my imagination?
A: Baked beans! (He gets up, puts down fiddle and bowl on the stool and gropes towards B.) Where are you?
B: Here, dear fellow. (A lays hold of the chair and starts pushing it blindly.) Stop!
A (pushing the chair): It’s a gift! A gift!
B: Stop! (He strikes behind him with the pole. A lets go the chair, recoils. Pause. A gropes towards his stool, halts, lost.) Forgive me! (Pause.) Forgive me, Billy!
A: Where am I? (Pause.) Where was I?
B: Now I’ve lost him. He was beginning to like me and I struck him. He’ll leave me and I’ll never see him again. I’ll never see anyone again. We’ll never hear the human voice again.
A: Have you not heard it enough? The same old moans and groans from the cradle to the grave.
B (groaning): Do something for me, before you go!
A: There! Do you hear it? (Pause. Groaning.) I can’t go! (Pause.) Do you hear it?
B: You can’t go?
A: I can’t go without my things.
B: What good are they to you?
A: None.
B: And you can’t go without them?
A: No. (He starts groping again, halts.) I’ll find them in the end. (Pause.) Or leave them forever behind me.
He starts groping again.
B: Straighten my rug, I feel the cold air on my foot. (A halts.) I’d do it myself, but it would take too long. (Pause.) Do that for me, Billy. Then I may go back, settle in the old nook again and say, I have seen man for the last time, I struck him and he succoured me. (Pause.) Find a few rags of love in my heart and die reconciled, with my species. (Pause.) What has you gaping at me like that? (Pause.) Have I said something I shouldn’t have? (Pause.) What does my soul look like?
A gropes towards him.
A: Make a sound.
B makes one. A gropes towards it, halts.
B: Have you no sense of smell either?
A: It’s the same smell everywhere. (He stretches out his hand.) Am I within reach of your hand?
He stands motionless with outstretched hand.
B: Wait, you’re not going to do me a service for nothing? (Pause.) I mean unconditionally? (Pause.) Good God!
Pause. He takes A’s hand and draws him towards him.
A: Your foot.
B: What?
A: You said your foot.
B: Had I but known! (Pause.) Yes, my foot, tuck it in. (A stoops, groping.) On your knees, on your knees, you’ll be more at your ease. (He helps him to kneel at the right place.) There.
A (irritated): Let go my hand! You want me to help you and you hold my hand! (B lets go his hand. A fumbles in the rug.) Have you only one leg?
B: Just the one.
A: And the other?
B: It went bad and was removed.
A tucks in the foot.
A: Will that do?
B: A little tighter. (A tucks in tighter.) What hands you have!
Pause.
A (groping towards B’s torso): Is all the rest there?
B: You may stand up now and ask me a favour.
A: Is all the rest there?
B: Nothing else has been removed, if that is what you mean.
A’S hand, groping higher, reaches the face, stays.
A: Is that your face.
B: I confess it is. (Pause.) What else could it be? (A’s fingers stray, stay.) That? My wen.
A:
Red?
B: Purple. (A withdraws his hand, remains kneeling.) What hands you have!
Pause.
A: Is it still day?
B: Day? (Looks at sky.) If you like. (Looks.) There is no other word for it.
A: Will it not soon be evening?
B stoops to A, shakes him.
B: Come, Billy, get up, you’re beginning to incommode me.
A: Will it not soon be night?
B looks at sky.
B: Day … night … (Looks.) It seems to me sometimes the earth must have got stuck, one sunless day, in the heart of winter, in the grey of evening. (Stoops to A, shakes him.) Come on, Billy, up, you’re beginning to embarrass me.
A: Is there grass anywhere?
B: I see none.
A (vehement): Is there no green anywhere?
B: There’s a little moss. (Pause. A clasps his hands on the rug and rests his head on them.) Good God! Don’t tell me you’re going to pray?
A: No.
B: Or weep?
A: No. (Pause.) I could stay like that for ever, with my head on an old man’s knees.
B: Knee. (Shaking him roughly.) Get up, can’t you!
A (settling himself more comfortably): What peace! (B pushes him roughly away, A falls to his hands and knees.) Dora used to say, the days I hadn’t earned enough, You and your harp! You’d do better crawling on all fours, with your father’s medals pinned to your arse and a money box round your neck. You and your harp! Who do you think you are? And she made me sleep on the floor. (Pause.) Who I thought I was … (Pause.) Ah that … I never could … (Pause. He gets up.) Never could … (He starts groping again for his stool, halts, listens.) If I listened long enough I’d hear it, a string would give.
B: Your harp? (Pause.) What’s all this about a harp?
A: I once had a little harp. Be still and let me listen.
Pause.
B: How long are you going to stay like that?
A: I can stay for hours listening to all the sounds.
They listen.
B: What sounds?
A: I don’t know what they are.
They listen.
B: I can see it. (Pause.) I can—
A (imploring): Will you not be still?
B: No! (A takes his head in his hands.) I can see it clearly, over there on the stool. (Pause.) What if I took it, Billy, and made off with it? (Pause.) Eh Billy, what would you say to that? (Pause.) There might be another old man, some day, would come out of his hole and find you playing the mouth-organ. And you’d tell him of the little fiddle you once had. (Pause.) Eh Billy? (Pause.) Or singing. (Pause.) Eh Billy, what would you say to that? (Pause.) There croaking to the winter wind (rime with unkind), having lost his little mouth-organ. (He pokes him in the back with the pole.) Eh Billy?
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