Let the Right One In

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by John Ajvide Lindqvist


  The wounds had healed. The only remaining traces of the lacerations on Virginia’s body were white lines, here and there the remnants of scabs that had not yet fallen off. Lacke stroked her hand, pressed against her body with a leather strap, and yet another scab crumbled away under his fingers.

  Virginia had resisted. Had violently resisted when she fully came to her senses and understood what was happening. She had torn out the catheter for the blood transfusion, screamed and kicked.

  Lacke had not been able to watch as they struggled with her, how she seemed like a different person. Had gone down to the cafeteria and had a cup of coffee. Then another, and another. When he was pouring himself his fourth cup the woman at the register had pointed out in a tired voice that he was only allowed one free refill. Lacke had said that he was broke, felt like he was going to die tomorrow, could she make an exception?

  She could. She even offered Lacke a dry mazarin cake that would have been thrown away the next day anyway. He had eaten it with a lump in his throat, thinking about people’s relative goodness, relative evil. Then he went and stood out by the front doors and smoked the second to last cigarette in the packet before he went back up to Virginia.

  They had tied her down with straps.

  A nurse had received such a blow that her glasses had broken and a sliver had slashed an eyebrow. Virginia had been impossible to calm. They had not dared give her an injection because of her general state and so strapped her arms down with leather straps mainly to prevent—as they put it—‘to prevent her from injuring herself’.

  Lacke rubbed a scab between his fingers; a powder as fine as pigment coloured the tops of his fingers red. A movement in the corner of his eye; the blood from the bag hanging from the stand next to Virginia’s bed fell in drops down a plastic tube, and on down through the catheter into Virginia’s arm.

  Apparently, once they had identified her blood group, they had first given her a transfusion where they literally pumped in a quantity of blood, but now when her condition had stabilised she received it by the drop. There was a label on the half-full blood bag printed with incomprehensible markings, dominated with a capital ‘A’. The blood type, of course.

  But…wait a minute…

  Lacke had blood type B. He now recalled that he and Virginia had talked about it one time, that Virginia also had the blood group B and therefore he could…yes. That was exactly right. That they could give blood to each other because they had the same blood type. And Lacke had B, he was completely sure of that.

  He got up, walked out into the corridor.

  Surely they don’t make these kinds of mistakes?

  He got hold of a nurse.

  ‘Excuse me, but…’

  She glanced at his worn clothes, put on an aloof air. ‘Yes?’

  ‘I was just wondering. Virginia…Virginia Lind who you… admitted a while ago…’

  The nurse nodded, looked positively dismissive now. Had perhaps been present when they…

  ‘Well, I was just wondering…her blood type.’

  ‘What about it?’

  ‘Well, I saw there’s a big “A” on the bag that…but she doesn’t have that.’

  ‘I’m afraid I’m not following this.’

  ‘You see…uh…do you have a moment?’

  The nurse looked down the corridor. Perhaps to check if there was help to be had if this deteriorated into something, perhaps to underscore that she had more important things to do, but she did agree to accompany Lacke into the room where Virginia lay with closed eyes, the blood slowly dropping down the tube. Lacke pointed to the bag of blood.

  ‘Here. This “A” it means that…’

  ‘That it contains type A blood, yes. There is such a shortage of blood donors these days. If people knew how—’

  ‘Excuse me, yes. But she has blood type B. Isn’t it dangerous to…’

  ‘Of course it is.’

  The nurse was not unfriendly exactly, but her body language suggested that Lacke’s right to question the competence of hospital staff was minimal. She shrugged lightly, said, ‘If one has blood type B. But this patient does not. She has AB.’

  ‘But…the bag says A…’

  The nurse nodded, as if she was explaining to a child that there were no people on the moon. ‘People with the blood type AB can receive blood from all blood groups.’

  ‘But…I see. Then she has changed her blood type.’

  The nurse raised an eyebrow. The child had just claimed that it had been to the moon and seen people up there. With a hand gesture as if she were slicing a ribbon she said, ‘That’s just not possible.’

  ‘Is that a fact? Well, she must have been wrong, then.’

  ‘She must have been. If you’ll excuse me I have other things to attend to.’

  The nurse checked the catheter in Virginia’s arm, adjusted the IV-stand slightly and with a last look at Lacke that said that these were important things and God save him if he so much as looked at them, she left the room with energetic steps.

  What happens if you get the wrong kind of blood? The blood…coagulates.

  No. It must have been Virginia who couldn’t remember correctly.

  He walked to a corner of the room where there was an armchair, a small table with a plastic flower. Sat down, looked around the room. Bare walls, shining floor. Fluorescent lights in the ceiling. Virginia’s bed of metal tubing, over her a pale yellow blanket printed with ‘County Administration’.

  This is how things end up.

  In Dostoevsky illness and death were almost always dirty, impoverished affairs. Crushed beneath wagon wheels, mud, typhus, blood-stained handkerchiefs. And so on. But damned if that weren’t preferable to this. Slow disintegration in a polished machine.

  Lacke leaned back into the armchair, closed his eyes. The chair back was too short, his head slumped back. He straightened up, put his elbow on the armrest and leaned his head in his hand. Looked at the plastic flower. It was as if they put it there to emphasise the fact that no life was allowed here; here order reigned.

  The image of the flower stayed on his retina when he shut his eyes again. It transformed into a real flower that grew, became a garden. A garden attached to the house they were going to buy. Lacke stood in the garden, looked at a rose bush with shining red flowers. From the house came the long shadow of a person. The sun set hastily and the shadow grew, became longer, stretched out over the garden…

  He jumped and was suddenly awake. His palm was wet with saliva that had run out of the corner of his mouth as he was sleeping. He rubbed his mouth, smacked his lips together and tried to straighten his head. Couldn’t. His neck had seized up somehow. He forced it to straighten out with a crackling of the ligaments, stopped.

  Wide open eyes staring right at him.

  ‘Hi! Are you…’

  His mouth closed. Virginia was on her back, restrained by the straps, with her face turned towards him. But her face was much too still. Not a flicker of recognition, joy…nothing. Her eyes didn’t blink.

  Dead! She is…

  Lacke flew up out of the armchair and something cracked in his neck. He threw himself on his knees next to the bed, grabbed the metal tubing and moved his face close to hers as if to will her soul back into her face, from her depths, by the sheer force of his presence.

  ‘Ginja! Can you hear me?’

  Nothing. And yet he could have sworn that her eyes in some way looked back into his, that they were not dead. He looked for her, all the way through them; casting hooks from deep within himself, into the holes that were her pupils in order to reach through the darkness for…

  Her pupils. Is that what you look like when you…

  Her pupils were not round. They were stretched lengthwise, to little points. He made a face when a cold stream of pain washed over his neck, put his hand on it, rubbed.

  Virginia blinked. Opened her eyes again. And was there.

  Lacke gaped idiotically, still rubbing his neck mechanically. A wooden click as Vir
ginia opened her mouth, asked: ‘Are you in pain?’

  Lacke removed his hand from his neck, as if he had been caught doing something he shouldn’t.

  ‘No, I just…I thought you were…’

  ‘I’m tied down.’

  ‘Yes, you…put on a bit of a fight before. Wait a second and I’ll…’ Lacke put his hand in between two of the bars on the bed frame and started loosening one of the straps.

  ‘No.’

  ‘What?’

  ‘Don’t do it.’

  Lacke hesitated, the strap in his fingers.

  ‘Are you planning to do some more fighting?’

  Virginia half-closed her eyes.

  ‘Don’t do it.’

  Lacke dropped the strap, didn’t know what to do with his hands now they had been robbed of their task. Without getting up he turned on his knees, pulled over the little armchair to the bed—with a new burst of pain in his neck as a result—and clumsily crawled up into it.

  Virginia nodded almost imperceptibly. ‘Have you called Lena?’

  ‘No. I can—’

  ‘Good.’

  ‘Do you want me to?’

  ‘No.’

  A silence fell between them. The kind of silence particular to hospitals, which stems from the fact that the very situation—one person in the bed, sick or injured, and a healthy person at her side— says it all. Words become small, superfluous. Only the most important ones can be said. They looked at each other for a long time. Said what could be said, without words. Then Virginia turned her head in line with her body, stared at the ceiling.

  ‘You have to help me.’

  ‘I’ll do anything.’

  Virginia licked her lips, breathed in, and let out the air with a sigh so deep and long that it seemed to draw on hidden reserves of air in her body. Then she let her gaze slide up Lacke’s body. Searching, as if she was taking a last goodbye of the body of a loved one and wanted to imprint his image in her mind. She rubbed her lips against each other and finally got out the words.

  ‘I am a vampire.’

  The corners of Lacke’s mouth wanted to pull up into a silly grin, his mouth say something soothing, perhaps funny. But the corners of his mouth didn’t move and the comment took a wrong turn somewhere, never got anywhere near his lips. Instead all he got out was ‘No!’

  He massaged his neck to change the atmosphere, to break the stillness that made all words the truth. Virginia spoke in a low voice, controlled.

  ‘I went to Gösta. To kill him. If it hadn’t happened. What happened. I would have killed him. And then…drunk his blood. I would have done that. It was my intention. With it all. Do you understand?’

  Lacke’s gaze wandered over the walls of the room as if it were searching for the mosquito, the source of the insufferable, buzzing sound that in the silence was tickling his brain, making it impossible to think. It finally stopped at one of the overhead lights.

  ‘That damned sound.’

  Virginia looked up at the light. ‘I can’t stand light. I can’t eat. I have horrible thoughts. I’m going to hurt people. You. I don’t want to live.’

  Finally something more concrete, something he could respond to.

  ‘You can’t say things like that,’ Lacke said. ‘Ginja, you are not allowed to talk like that, you hear? Do you?’

  ‘You don’t understand.’

  ‘No, I probably don’t. But you are not going to die, damn it. Here you are, you’re talking, you are…it’s OK.’

  Lacke got up out of the chair, took a few aimless steps over the floor, held his arm out.

  ‘You’re not allowed to…you’re not allowed to say those things.’

  ‘Lacke. Lacke?’

  ‘Yes!’

  ‘You know. That’s it’s true. Don’t you?’

  ‘What?’

  ‘What I’m talking about.’

  Lacke snorted, shook his head while his hands patted his chest, his pockets. ‘Need a smoke. That…’

  He found the crumpled cigarette packet, the lighter. Managed to get out the last cigarette, put it into his mouth. Then he remembered where he was. Took the cigarette out.

  ‘Damn, they’ll have me out on my behind if I…’

  ‘Open the window.’

  ‘Now you’re telling me to jump too?’

  Virginia smiled. Lacke walked over to the window, opened it all the way and leaned out as far as he could.

  The nurse he had talked to could probably catch the whiff of a cigarette a mile away. He lit the cigarette and inhaled deeply, making an effort to exhale the smoke so it didn’t blow back in the window. Looked up at the stars. Behind him Virginia started to talk again.

  ‘It was that child. I’ve been infected. And then…it has grown. I know where it’s centred. In my heart. The whole heart. Like cancer. I can’t control it.’

  Lacke blew out a column of smoke. His voice echoed between the tall buildings around them.

  ‘Nonsense. You seem…normal.’

  ‘I’m making an effort. And they’ve given me blood. But if I let go. At any moment I could let go. And then it would take over. I know it. I feel it.’

  Virginia took a few deep breaths, continued.

  ‘You are standing there. I’m looking at you. And I want to…eat you.’

  Lacke didn’t know if it was the kink in his neck or something else that sent a shiver down his spine. He suddenly felt vulnerable. He quickly stubbed out the cigarette against the wall, flicked the butt away in an arc. Turned back into the room.

  ‘This is complete utter insanity.’

  ‘Yes, but that’s how it is.’

  Lacke crossed his arms across his chest. With a forced laugh he asked, ‘What do you want me to do?’

  ‘I want you to…destroy my heart.’

  ‘What? How?’

  ‘However you want.’

  Lacke rolled his eyes.

  ‘Can you hear yourself? How this sounds? It’s crazy. Like I should…drive a stake into you or something.’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘No, no, no. You can forget about it in that case. Have to think of something better.’ Lacke laughed, shaking his head. Virginia looked at him as he walked to and fro across the room, with his arms still folded across his chest. Then she nodded gently.

  ‘OK.’

  He walked over to her, took her hand. It felt unnatural that it was…restrained. He didn’t even have enough room to put both his hands around it. But her hand was the warm one, squeezed his. With his free hand he stroked her cheek.

  ‘Are you sure I shouldn’t undo these things?’

  ‘No. It can…come back.’

  ‘You’re going to get well. It’ll work out. I only have you. Do you want to know a secret?’

  Without letting go of her hand he sat down in the armchair and started to tell her. Told her everything. About the stamps, the lion, Norway, the money. The little cottage they were going to buy. Red Falu-paint. Spun out a long fantasy about what the garden was going to look like, what flowers they would have and how you could put out a small table, make a little shady patio where you could sit…

  Somewhere in all of this the tears started to flow from Virginia’s eyes. Quiet, translucent pearls that found their way down her cheeks, wet her pillowcase. No sobs, just tears that streamed down, jewels of sadness…or joy?

  Lacke grew silent. Virginia squeezed his hand, hard.

  Then Lacke walked out into the corridor, and managed to half-convince, half-plead his way to an extra cot. Lacke positioned it so it was exactly next to Virginia’s. Turned out the light, took off his clothes and crawled down into the stiff sheets, fumbled for and found her hand.

  They lay like that for a long time. Then came the words. ‘Lacke. I love you.’

  And Lacke did not reply. Simply let the words hang in the air. Become encapsulated and grow until they were a large red blanket that floated around the room, that lowered itself onto him and kept him warm all night.

  4:23, Monday morning, Icel
and Square.

  A number of people in the vicinity of Björnsonsgatan are awakened by loud screams. One person who calls the police believes it is an infant crying. When the police arrive on the scene ten minutes later the screams have stopped. They search the area and find a number of dead cats. On some, limbs have been separated from the body. The police find contact information on the cats with collars and make a note of names and telephone numbers with the intention of notifying the owners. Street services are contacted for clean up.

  Half an hour until sunrise.

  Eli is reclining in the armchair in the living room. He has been here all night, morning. Packed up what there is to pack.

  Tomorrow evening, as soon as it gets dark, Eli will go to a telephone booth and ring a taxi. He doesn’t know which number to call, but it’s probably something that everybody knows. Just have to ask. When the taxi comes he’ll load his three boxes into the trunk and ask the taxi driver to take him…

  Where?

  Eli shuts his eyes, tries to imagine a place he would like to be.

  As usual the first image he sees is of the cottage where he lived with his parents, his older siblings. But it is gone. Outside Norrköping where it once stood there is now a roundabout. The stream where his mother rinsed their clothes has dried up, become overgrown, a depression next to the intersection.

  Eli has a lot of money. Would be able to ask the taxi driver to take him anywhere, as far as the darkness allows. North. South. Could sit in the back seat and ask the driver to drive north for two thousand kronor. Then get out. Start over. Find someone who…

  Eli throws his head back, screams up at the ceiling, ‘I don’t want to!’

  The dusty cobwebs sway slightly in his exhalation. The sound dies in this sealed room. Eli puts his hands to his face, presses his fingers against his eyelids. Feels it in his body, the approaching sunrise, like a worry. He whispers, ‘God. God? Why can’t I have anything? Why can’t I…’

  It has been brought up many times before, this question.

  Why can’t I be allowed to live?

  Because you should be dead.

  Only once after he had been infected did Eli meet another infected person. A grown woman. Just as cynical and hollow as the man with the wig. But Eli received an answer to another question that had been nagging him.

 

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