by Tana French
Any sign of sexual assault? I asked. Sam flinched. I was way past that.
Cooper wont say for sure till the post-mortem, but nothing on the preliminary points that way. We might get lucky and find some foreign blood on hera lot of stabbers cut themselvesbut, basically, Im not holding my breath for DNA.
My first impressionthe invisible killer, leaving no tracehadnt been far off. After a few months in Murder, you can tell One of Those Cases a mile away. With the last clear corner of my mind I reminded myself that, no matter what it looked like, this one was not my problem. Great, I said. What do you have? Anything on her, other than shes in Trinity and shes running around wearing a fake name?
Sergeant Byrne says shes local, Sam said. Lives at Whitethorn House, maybe half a mile away, with a bunch of other students. Thats all he knows about her. I havent talked to the housemates yet, because . . . He gestured at Frank.
Because I begged him to hold off, Frank said smoothly. I have this little idea I wanted to run by you two, before the investigation gets into full gear. He arched an eyebrow towards the door and the uniforms. Maybe we should go for a wander.
Why not, I said. The girls body was doing something funny to the air in there, fizzing it, like the needle-thin whine the TV makes on mute; it was hard to think straight. If we stay in the same room for too long, the universe might turn into antimatter. I gave Frank his evidence bag back and wiped my hand on the side of my trousers.
In the moment before I passed through the doorway I turned my head and looked at her, over my shoulder. Frank had switched off his torch, but pulling back the brambles let in a flood of spring sun and for the split second before my shadow blocked it again she rose up blazing out of the darkness, tilted chin and a clenched fist and the wild arch of her throat, bright and bloodied and relentless as my own wrecked ghost.
That was the last time I saw her. It didnt occur to me at the timeI had other stuff on my mindand it seems impossible now, but those ten minutes, sharp as a crease pressed straight across my life: that was the only time we were ever together.
* * *
The uniforms were slumped where we had left them, like beanbags. Byrne was staring off into the middle distance in some kind of catatonic state; Doherty was examining one finger in a way that made me think he had been picking his nose.
Right, Byrne said, once he surfaced from his trance and registered that we were back. Well be off, so. Shes all yours.
Sometimes the local uniforms are pure diamondreeling off details about everyone for miles around, listing half a dozen possible motives, handing you a prime suspect on a plate. Other times, all they want is to pass the hassle to you and get back to their game of Go Fish. This was obviously going to be other times.
Well need you to hang on for a while, Sam said, which I took as a good signthe extent to which Frank had been running this show was making me edgy. The Technical Bureau might want you to help with the search, and Ill be asking you to give me all the local info you can.
Shes not local, sure, Doherty said, wiping his finger on the side of his trousers. He was staring at me again. Them up at Whitethorn House, theyre blow-ins. Theyve nothing to do with Glenskehy.
Lucky bastards, Byrne mumbled, to his chest.
She lived local, though, Sam said patiently, and she died local. That means well be needing to canvass the area. You should probably give us a hand, seeing as ye know your way around.
Byrnes head sank farther into his shoulders. Theyre all mentallers, round here, he said morosely. Stone mentallers. Thats all you need to know.
Some of my best friends are mentallers, Frank said cheerfully. Think of it as a challenge. He gave them a wave and headed off up the field, feet swishing wetly through the grass.
Sam and I followed him. Even without looking I could feel the worried little line between Sams eyebrows, but I didnt have the energy to reassure him. Now I was out of that cottage, all I could feel was outrage, pure and simple. My face and my old name: it was like coming home one day and finding another girl coolly making dinner in your kitchen, wearing your comfiest jeans and singing along to your favorite CD. I was so furious I could barely breathe. I thought of that photo and I wanted to punch my smile straight off her face.
Well, I said, when we caught up with Frank at the top of the field, that was fun. Can I go to work now?
DV must be a lot more entertaining than I thought, Frank said, doing impressed, if youre in this much of a hurry. Sunglasses.
I left the glasses where they were. Unless this girl was a victim of domestic violence, and Im not seeing anything that points that way, shes got sweet fuck-all to do with me. So you dragged me out here why, exactly?
Hey, Ive missed you, babe. Any excuse. Frank grinned at me; I gave him a hairy look. And you seriously figure shes fuck-all to do with you? Lets see you say that when were trying to ID her, and everyone youve ever known is freaking out and ringing up to give us your name.
All the anger deflated out of me, leaving a nasty hollow at the bottom of my stomach. Frank, the little bollocks, was right. As soon as this girls face went into the papers alongside an appeal for her real name, there would be a tidal wave of people who had known me as Lexie, her as Lexie, me as me, all of them wanting to know who was dead and who both of us had been if we werent in fact Lexie Madison, and general hall-of-mirrors overload. Believe it or not, that was the first time it hit me: there was no way in the world for this to be as easy as Dont know her, dont want to know her, thanks for wasting my morning, see you around.
Sam, I said. Is there any way you could hold off on putting her picture out for a day or two? Just till I can warn people. I had no idea how I was going to word this one. See, Aunt Louisa, we found this dead girl and . . .
Interestingly, Frank said, now that you mention it, that fits right in with my little idea. There was a jumble of moss-covered boulders piled in the corner of the field; he pulled himself backwards onto them and sat there, one leg swinging.
Id seen that gleam in his eyes before. It always meant he was about to come out, spectacularly casually, with something totally outrageous. What, Frank, I said.
Well, Frank began, getting comfortable against the rocks and folding his arms behind his head, weve got a unique opportunity here, havent we? Shame to waste it.
We do? Sam said.
We do? I said.
Oh, yeah. Jesus, yeah. That risky grin was starting at the corners of Franks mouth. Weve got the chance, he said, taking his time, weve got the chance to investigate a murder case from the inside. Weve got the chance to place an experienced undercover officer smack in the middle of a murder victims life.
We both stared at him.
When have you ever seen anything like that before? Its beautiful, Cass. Its a work of art.
Work of arse, more like, I said. What the hell are you on about, Frankie?
Frank spread his arms like it was obvious. Look. Youve been Lexie Madison before, right? You can be her again. You canno, hang on, hear me outif shes not dead, just wounded, right? You can walk straight back into her life and pick up where she left off.
Oh my God, I said. This is why no Bureau and no morgue guys? This is why you made me dress like a dork? So nobody notices you have a spare? I pulled my hat off and stuffed it back in my bag. Even for Frank, this had taken some fast thinking. Within seconds of arriving at the scene, he must have had this in his head.
You can get hold of info no cop would ever learn, you can get close to everyone she was close to, you can identify suspects
You want to use her as bait, Sam said, too levelly.
I want to use her as a detective, mate, Frank said. Which is what she is, last time I checked.
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sp; You want to put her in there so this fella will come back to finish the job. Thats bait.
So? Undercovers are bait all the time. Im not asking her to do anything I wouldnt do myself in a heartbeat, if
No, Sam said. No way.
Frank raised an eyebrow. What are you, her ma?
Im the lead investigator on this case, and Im saying no way.
You might want to think about it for more than ten seconds, pal, before you
I might as well not have been there. Hello? I said.
They turned and stared at me. Sorry, Sam said, somewhere between sheepish and defiant.
Hi, Frank said, grinning at me.
Frank, I said, this is officially the looniest idea Ive ever heard in my life. You are off your bloody trolley. You are up the wall and tickling the bricks. You are
Whats loony about it? Frank demanded, injured.
Jesus, I said. I ran my hands through my hair and turned full circle, trying to figure out where to start. Hills, fields, spaced-out uniforms, cottage with dead girl: this wasnt some messed-up dream. OK, just for starters, its impossible. Ive never even heard of anything like this before.
But thats the beauty of it, Frank explained.
If you go under as someone who actually exists, its for like half an hour, Frank, and its to do something specific. Its to do a drop-off or a pickup or something, from a stranger. Youre talking about me jumping right into the middle of this girls life, just because I look a bit like her
"A bit ?
Do you even know what color her eyes are? What if theyre blue, or
Give me some credit, babe. Theyre brown.
Or what if she programs computers, or plays tennis? What if shes left-handed? It cant be done. Id be burned inside an hour.
Frank pulled a squashed pack of smokes out of his jacket pocket and fished out a cigarette. He had that glint in his eye again; he loves a challenge. I have every faith in you. Want a smoke?
No, I said, even though I did. I couldnt stop moving, up and down and around the patch of long grass between us. I dont even like her, I wanted to say, which made no sense at all.
Frank shrugged and lit up. Let me worry about whether its possible. It might not be, Ill grant you that, but Ill figure that out as we go along. Whats next?
Sam was looking away, his hands shoved deep in his pockets, leaving me to it. Next, I said, its somewhere out on the other side of unethical. This girl must have family, friends. Youre going to tell them shes alive and well and just needs a few stitches, while shes lying on a table in the morgue with Cooper slicing her open? Jesus, Frank.
Shes living under a fake name, Cass, Frank said, reasonably. You really think shes in touch with her family? By the time we track them down, this will all be over. Theyll never know the difference.
So what about her mates? The uniforms said she lives with a bunch of others. What if shes got a boyfriend?
The people who care about her, Frank said, will want us to catch the guy who did this to her. Whatever it takes. Thats what Id want. He blew smoke up at the sky.
Sams shoulders shifted. He thought Frank was just being smart-arsed. But Sams never done undercover, he had no way of knowing: undercovers are different. There is nothing they wont do, to themselves or anyone else, to take their guy down. There was no point in arguing with Frank on this one, because he meant what he had said: if his kid were killed, and someone kept that from him in order to get the guy, he would take it without a murmur. Its one of the most powerful lures of undercover, the ruthlessness, no borderlines; strong stuff, strong enough to take your breath away. Its one of the reasons I left.
And then what? I said. When its over. You tell them, Oops, by the way, we forgot to mention, thats a ringer; your mate died three weeks ago? Or do I keep being Lexie Madison till I can die of old age?
Frank squinted into the sun, considering this. Your wound can get infected, he said, brightening. Youll go into the ICU and the doctors will try everything modern medicine can offer, but no go.
Jesus Christ on a bike, I said. I felt like this was all I had said, all morning long. What on earth is making this seem like a good idea to you?
Whats next? Frank asked. Come on, hit me.
Next, Sam said, still looking away down the lane, its bloody dangerous.
Frank raised one eyebrow and tilted his head at Sam, giving me a wicked private grin. For an off-balance second I had to stop myself grinning back.
Next, I said, its too late anyway. Byrne and Doherty and Whatsisname with the dog all know theres a dead woman in there. Youre telling me you can get all three of them to keep their mouths shut, just because it suits you? Whatsisnames probably told half of Wicklow already.
Whatsisname is Richard Doyle, and Im not planning on getting him to keep his mouth shut. As soon as were done here, Im going to go congratulate him on saving this young womans life. If he hadnt shown great presence of mind by calling us immediately, the outcome could have been tragic. Hes a hero, and he can tell as many people as he likes. And you saw Byrne, babe. Thats not a happy little member of our glorious brotherhood. If I hint that there might be a transfer in it for him, not only will he keep his mouth shut, hell keep Dohertys shut too. Next?
Next, I said, its pointless. Sams worked dozens of murders, Frank, and hes solved most of them, without needing to pull any wack-job stunts. This thing youre talking about would take weeks to set up
Days, anyway, Frank amended.
and by that time hell have someone. At least, he will if you dont fuck up his investigation by getting everyone to pretend theres no murder to begin with. All this will do is waste your time and mine and everyone elses.
Would it fuck up your investigation? Frank asked Sam. Just hypothetically speaking. If you told the publicjust for, say, a couple of daysthat this was an assault, not a murder. Would it?
Eventually Sam sighed. No, he said. Not really, no. Theres not that much difference in investigating attempted murder and actual murder. And, like Cassie said, well have to keep this pretty quiet for a few days anyway, till we find out who the victim is, so things dont get too confused. But thats not the point.
OK, Frank said. Then heres what I suggest. Mostly you guys have a suspect within seventy-two hours, right?
Sam said nothing.
Right?
Right, Sam said. And theres no reason why this should be different.
No reason at all, Frank agreed, pleasantly. Todays Thursday. Just through the weekend, we keep our options open. We dont tell civilians its a murder. Cassie stays home, so theres no chance of the killer getting a glimpse of her, and weve got our ace up the sleeve if we decide to use it. I find out everything I can about this girl, just in casethat would need doing anyway, am I right? I wont get in your way, youve got my word on that. Like you said, youre bound to have someone in your sights by Sunday night. If you do, then I back off, Cassie goes back to DV, everything goes back to standard procedure, no harm done. If by any chance you dont . . . well, weve still got all our options.
Neither of us answered.
Im only asking for three days, guys, Frank said. No commitment to anything. What damage can that do?
Sam looked marginally reassured by this, but I wasnt, because I knew how Frank works: a series of little tiny steps, each one looking perfectly safe and innocuous until suddenly, bam, youre smack in the middle of something you really did not want to deal with. But why, Frank? I asked. Answer me that and yeah, fine, Ill spend a gorgeous spring weekend sitting in my flat watching crap telly instead of going out with my boyfriend like a normal human being. Youre talking
about throwing huge amounts of time and manpower at something that could well turn out to be completely pointless. Why?
Frank whipped a hand up to shade his eyes so he could stare at me. Why? he repeated. Jesus, Cassie! Because we can. Because nobody in the history of police work has ever had a chance like this. Because it would be bloody amazing. What, youre not seeing that? What the fuck is wrong with you? Have you gone desk on me?
I felt like he had hauled off and punched me in the stomach. I stopped pacing and turned away, looking out over the hillside, away from Frank and Sam and from the uniforms twisting their heads into the cottage to gawp at wet dead me.
After a moment Frank said behind me, softer, Sorry, Cass. I just wasnt expecting that. From the Murder gang, sure, but not from you, of all people. I didnt think you meant . . . I thought you were just covering all the bases. I didnt realize.