I also felt a little dirty. A tad bit wrong. Was fucking an alien even ethical? It wasn’t bestiality, right? No. God. It couldn’t be.
The way his cock split to service me was perhaps the weirdest and most genius evolution nature has ever designed.
He held me with one hand cupped around my breast. The other played with the hair above my pussy. His breathing was slow, but his heart was still racing. I could feel it rock against my back. There was silence, but I couldn’t help but nudge closer to him and smile to myself.
Before I left Earth, things were bad between people. Between nations. The whole thing was spiraling out of control. Problems were never solved at the source. The people in charge, whoever the hell they were, tried tackling the symptoms of a dying planet. There was nothing I could do. I felt so hopeless.
In my fertility room with Talis, I felt like someone again. It was like I forgot how to be a human all these years. I wouldn’t say I was in love, but there was something lingering between us. In the midst of all this tragedy, a stranger gave me another option.
He closed his eyes and kissed my neck one more time. “You are what I have been searching the stars for,” he said. Yes, that beast of an alien actually said that, and, in so many ways, it set me free. I was going to survive this. I was going to get off of this ship and find myself again.
Talis was already snoring like a freight train. I bit my lip and could still taste him, could still feel the sensation of his throbbing cock inside of me, splitting me open. The sex was pure ecstasy, and the comedown was hard. Everything about this felt like heaven.
But, of course, we were in the midst of hell. I had blocked everything out of my mind, carelessly opting to let him bite the apple in my garden. I let him in because I needed the support, and what I saw was more than just an intruder. He was someone who had gone through hardship and loss.
We understood each other, and that’s why I was staying with him.
9
Mia
The cold air from the vents blew loudly above my head. I slept for a few hours, but far too much was on my mind. Breathing in, I ignored my responsibilities and scooped my ass back against his cock, admiring how quick his member thickened and grew against me.
“Mm,” he moaned. “Good morning.”
I turned around and held between his shoulder blades, kissing him as soon as he revealed a grin. “Last night,” I said, trying not to laugh with excitement.
He laughed and smacked my ass, ending with a firm grip. “What about it?”
A part of me wanted to question the memory; did it even happen? His cock latched onto me. It dug and delivered the seed in such a quick fashion.
Now that some time had passed, I had to wonder what it even meant to him. Was I just another open and ready vessel, a cunt to endlessly breed to keep his bloodline intact? Did any of that even matter when every planet’s ultimate trajectory seemed to end in total obliteration?
You can’t fight nature. If you try, it will find a way back to its solitude, back to a time when man, woman, or child didn’t exist. Back to a place of silence.
It will eradicate us all.
We were the invaders. And this journey was just another form of colonizing. It was all we knew. Death, devastation for personal gain, the ultimate greed. It always leads to isolation. Darkness. Space. That was our path, and no amount of evolution could ever change that.
“Something is wrong,” he said. “Tell me. What have I done to harm you?”
“It’s nothing,” I lied and turned away, but I didn’t want to shut him out. I just wanted to understand how this all came to be. How did he find our ship, and who was he back on his planet? These were questions I needed to ask.
He tickled down my back, swaying his palm around the soft curves of my ass. “Delicious, why must you be so silent?”
“There’s just so much I don’t know. And sometimes, I feel like I have no grounding anymore. It feels like I’m floating. I feel out of control,” I admitted.
He nodded and felt my stomach, tracing a line down to my belly button from behind. “What do you want to know?” he asked.
“The knotting,” I said, biting my lip awkwardly. “What exactly happened?”
Talis nudged his cock against the center of my cheeks. He felt so warm, and every bit of me just wanted to ride back on him. “You know what happened,” he said.
“It gave you power,” I said. “It turned you into a beast.”
He nodded and looked down at the mild scar from his injury. “If we don’t breed and find a mate, we eventually die. It is a part of our existence. I knotted you because it was time. I realize that now. Destiny brought me to you,” he said.
“But I’m human.”
I didn’t know a thing anymore. Everything I was taught felt like an ongoing story that just abruptly ended.
“It is strange,” he said. “You are thousands of years away from us, but your body allowed you to take me.”
“You mean, you didn’t know I would survive?” My face turned hot, and I demanded answers.
“I smelled your pheromones. There was nothing I could do. It is my nature. For us, it’s uncontrollable,” he said, trying to get me to understand, but all I was hearing was some fucked-up excuses. “Little Fawn, I was injured and probably well on my way toward death’s door. I had nothing to live for. I was going to leave and fly until my ship ran out of gas. And on the off chance it didn’t, I was going to forget about my soul’s regeneration.”
I could see the rage flood through him. His veins bulged in the side of his neck, and his eyes flashed red, twitching every so often. For a second, I thought he might hammer his fist against something nearby, but he managed to settle his nerves.
“When my senses picked you up, I knew what needed to be done. It was a biological necessity for both of us. I had to make you my mate. There was no other choice.”
“And you... you’ve never once mated someone before?” I asked.
“If you’re asking whether I’ve rutted my cock through a female, you may be surprised to learn that many before you have had the opportunity to be my mate,” he snarled, annoyed by my growing number of questions.
I shouldn’t have been jealous of Talis’ sexual conquests. I didn’t even know him, but it didn’t feel so hot thinking of him with so many other women. His cock was like a magical shape-shifting sex toy. I couldn’t even imagine what the women’s bodies were like where he grew up.
To save face, I kept talking. “What made them decide against choosing you as a mate?”
He chuckled and tried to grab the bag of dried apples from my hand, but I managed to spin and dance away from him.
“Foolish jokes,” he muttered.
“What? You’re mad at me now? I saved your life, remember? I thought that meant something.” I turned and shook my bare ass at him, probably testing the limits too far. He was an unknown species, and he was dangerous as fuck. I knew all of that, but it didn’t change the way I acted around him. It had been so long since I had been allowed to feel loose around someone. I just wanted to feel that closeness again.
“Get the fuck over here and obey your alpha,” he said, taking me hard by the arm.
I fell to my knees, sighing with pain. He stood above me, clenching his fist punishingly. “This is not some joke, little fawn,” he growled. “You now bear my offspring. Even your people must know the significance of your situation.”
The punishment I was receiving was going too far. I knew the gravity of pregnancy, but I didn’t believe it was possible, even with his so-called knotting.
Tears welled in my eyes, and, suddenly, a flash went off in my brain. My crew was locked away with a limited supply of food and water. My captain was missing, and the worst inmate of all was on the loose. I remembered the blood. I remembered all of the horrible things I saw.
What was I doing during all this? I was fucking the intruder who threatened the entire stability of this project. An alien, nonetheless.
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nbsp; I wasn’t from some posh planet in the outer limits of the universe. I was an earthling, and that meant I wasn’t going to bite my tongue anymore. I shook free of him and took back my wrist, slowly tending to one of many bruises he gave me. “Whatever antiquated thoughts you have on love and marriage disgust me. If that’s how it’s going to be between us, I don’t want any part in this,” I said.
He lowered his body menacingly. If he wanted to crush me, he certainly could have. But I think, in a way, I intrigued him. Still, he was a man, and he did what men did when they behaved badly. He denied all wrongdoing.
“By now, my sperm will have formed with your absorbed DNA. It will make its own nest, and then it will feed off of you like a parasite. The pregnancy will occur in less than forty-eight hours. It will be at that point when you realize that the only one who can keep you alive is me,” he said.
My heart sent cold shockwaves throughout my body. “What?”
“You will learn to trust. You will learn to obey. And when you do, I will give you my everything.”
“You keep saying that,” I muttered.
It was more than a denial. It was a shock to my entire system. I took a few steps back and tried to make sense of things. Forty-eight hours? Was I fucking insane? Why did I sleep with him? How could I let him breed me like some sort of lab specimen?
I did this. I allowed it to happen. All of this. And now, I had to come to terms with my terrific decision-making. I exhaled and stared at the floor, searching my brain for answers.
He knelt down to my level. He moved closer to me and sighed. “I am... sorry,” he said. “But I won’t leave you like the others. I will protect you till my next death.”
“You’re not sorry,” I said. I could see the dishonesty in his eyes when he said it. That end bit, however, that was real. He would protect me, and I had no doubt he wouldn’t fail. I just wasn’t sure I made the right decision. In all honesty, I wasn’t sure about anything anymore.
“If my apology doesn’t suit you, I will gladly walk away from this ship and sail until I lose fuel and oxygen,” he said. “You have felt the strength of our bond. This means everything to me.”
Of course, I didn’t want him to leave. And I knew that I needed him to help me find Cade. I was way over my head, and I just wanted to cry and lie down in the cryo-chamber. However, instead of turning into the logic-handler that some men loved to play, he reached out and placed his hand against my belly. It was so gentle all of my worry disappeared. In one instant, I was back in his arms.
I was feeling so many crazy emotions but decided to let it all go. My entire life was focused on building stability. As time went on, that stability broke down, and I lost faith. But if it was possible to start again, I wanted in. It was time.
“Okay,” I said.
“Okay?” A smile curled up his handsome face.
I just said the word. Maybe it was a bad decision, but I had already made a ton of bad decisions. Some were even made out of necessity at the time, but they all led to here. What was the worst that could happen? Honestly...
“Yes,” I said. “I’ll be your... mate.”
He stood up and took my hand, squeezing. “You will submit to me and be my concubine for life? Then, bow your head.”
“I will,” I said. “But we must keep searching for the pilot. I need to make sure the crew is safe.”
I bowed, and he breathed in deeply, calm and heavy. He turned toward the exit, back to where the stairs to the main corridors were. It was a surprise that Cade hadn’t come looking for us. Talis and I were reckless beyond belief.
I tried to ease the tension with quiet conversation. “Tell me more about your species. About your planet, too,” I said while dressing.
He shrugged before taking my body into his arms and lifting me into the large vents above. “In here. It’s safer than wandering around.”
I pushed myself into the vents, sliding forward. They were big enough for me to crouch. “You didn’t answer the question.”
Gliding in behind me, he had his face practically inside my ass. “Doesn’t matter. My people didn’t want me, anyway,” he said.
“Don’t say such stupid things. They were your people. You must have loved them,” I said.
I looked back, and he glared at me. His eyelids creased with anger. “You don’t know my family,” he muttered.
“What’s wrong with them?” I asked.
He went off without answering the question. “To me, time means nothing and everything, all at once. It cannot be measured. It is infinite and pure, and bows to no one.”
“And what do you think of yourself?” I asked.
“I believe we all deserve a little better, but I’ve been a negative force for too long. I’m getting tired of it,” he said.
“My people were the same,” I admitted. “Everyone wanted one thing from me, so I did the opposite. I left.”
“It doesn’t matter. I shouldn’t have survived my planet’s decimation. I am a criminal. I’ve always felt above it all, and that’s why I left. I left because I saw an opportunity. A way out. I tried to help them, but they wouldn’t fucking listen. I have you now.”
I tried to picture their culture and their world, but it was too difficult to understand. All I knew was that he lost so much, and I had lost so much. Together, we could take our losses to the bank.
“You did all you could. In some cultures, that would make you a hero,” I said.
“That doesn’t make me a hero, little fawn. It makes me a fucking coward. And cowards deserve to live a life of shame.”
It was silent for a while after. There was a lot I didn’t know and wouldn’t ever be able to understand. It seemed like he wasn’t clear with me on purpose, but I felt the pain he shared. I knew it because it sat at the bottom of my heart, too. I tried to erase that hurt, but memories can only be utilized and perhaps transformed.
We reached the end of the shaft, where he had taken me from earlier. There were bruises that littered my body, but they didn’t mean shit to me. He was right. We had to stick together.
I glanced down at the control center. The space seemed deserted, so I carefully extended my neck to see. After scanning the place for any sign of Cade or Juliana, I dropped down and carefully held my eye up to the retinae scanner. We were logged in for the day. “Starship T1-95 Pandorum. All systems go,” I whispered, smiling when the green light appeared.
Talis stood behind me, so tall that his shadow loomed over the whole station. He placed his hand around my chest and brought his lips to the top of my head. “It’s hard losing a home,” he said.
“I used to stay up every night watching digital home movies. Kinda childish, I know. But it made me feel at peace. For a while, I thought I could bring them all back,” I said.
“Everything comes to an end, but that doesn’t mean we die,” he said.
I turned to follow him to the large window overlooking the starry world we inhabited. Life was a mystery, but he was probably right. Still, it didn’t make the pain seem any more pointless.
I thought about Gregory and all he went through. He was my first love, and I watched him perish. It reminded me how fragile everything was.
Talis seemed to sense my sadness. He comforted me by holding me. I absorbed his warmth and kept watching the mapping systems. We were much closer than I thought.
There was only the present now. If we got the engines to start, we could get to our destination in less than a day. “What’s your ship like?” I asked.
“It’s a junker. But it’s better than yours,” he said.
“The speed. How fast can you get us to our destination? You must have read the logs,” I said, searching the maps for our final stop.
Talis paced the room. Lifting his gaze toward the coordinate systems, he sighed. “Like I said, it’s better than this trap. We must leave this talk for later.”
He wasn’t behaving in the usual fashion. I sensed something else was wrong. It was something he had known this
entire time, something he kept hidden from me.
“There is no life where we are headed,” I said, half amazed at my level of stupidity. I threw my bag off of my shoulder, grabbed the emergency pistol, and I started toward the cafeteria.
“Mia, wait.”
I cocked the weapon and picked up the pace. I could hardly see straight, but I suddenly had the courage to destroy everyone in sight. If Cade was to ambush me, he’d taste the lead of my bullets. “We were sent on a suicide mission!” I screamed.
Astonishment. I didn’t want to believe it. What I wanted was for Talis to be dead wrong, but it explained so much. Cade’s anger. Juliana’s disappearance. She had caught him once in the control center, messing around on the computer. We locked the place down, but it was possible he saw the mapping systems and put everything together.
“Oh, Jesus.” I stopped, dead in my tracks. “Why would they do it? It doesn’t make any sense.”
“My planet was your destination,” Talis muttered. “It took some creative work to get into the captain’s logs, but when I did, I saw my planet. Trust me, you wouldn’t have been welcomed there.”
“Why won’t you answer my question? Why us?” I asked.
Talis took my hand and lowered the weapon. “I can’t be certain. Because you signed up, maybe. They knew you would follow orders,” he said.
“There are other ships,” I said.
“They hedged their bets. I am certain you’re the only ones still alive.”
“There is no final destination.” I choked on my words; it made me sick.
“There is, but it’s not a place of life. It died weeks ago. Now, it will be used for storage. Weapons. Bodies. It is nothing but a pile of trash,” he said.
It took a second to sink in, but I wasn’t going to let myself fall to weakness. Now that I knew we had both been betrayed, we had to make a plan. “So, what do we do? We can’t die out here.”
“I’m going to do what I said I’d do from the beginning. Protect you.”
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