‘You mean we might be the only ship to get there?’
‘No,’ his father said. ‘I mean we might be one of those which never arrives. Understand that, Sky - understand that any one of us is expendable - and you’ll be a long way to understanding what makes the Flotilla tick; what decisions might have to be taken fifty years from now, if the worst comes to the worst. Only one ship needs to arrive.’
‘But if another ship blew up . . .’
‘Agreed, we’d probably not be hurt this time. Since the Islamabad went up, we’ve moved all the ships much further apart. It’s safer, but it makes physical travel between them harder. In the long run, that might not be such a good idea. Distance can breed suspicion, and it can make enemies hardly worthy of consideration as human beings. Much easier to consider killing.’ Titus’s voice had grown cold and remote, almost like that of a stranger, but then he softened his tone. ‘Remember that, Sky. We’re all in this together, no matter how hard things become in the future.’
‘You think things will?’
‘I don’t know, but they’re almost certainly not going to get easier. And by the time that any of this matters - when we get close to the end of the crossing - you’ll be my age, in a position of senior responsibility, even if not actually running the ship.’
‘You think that could happen?’
Titus smiled. ‘I’d say it for certain - if I didn’t also know a certain talented young lady by the name of Constanza.’
While they had been speaking, the Santiago had grown much larger, but now they were approaching it from a different angle, so that the bulbous sphere of the command section loomed like a miniature grey moon, filigreed by panel lines and the boxy accretions of sensor modules. Sky thought of Constanza, now that his father had mentioned her, and wondered if - perhaps after all - this trip might have impressed her. After all, he had been outside, even if it had not been quite the surprise to her that he had originally hoped. And what he had been shown - what he had been told - had really not been so hard to take, had it?
But Titus was not done yet.
‘Take a good look,’ his father said as the darkened side of the sphere rotated into view. ‘This is where your mother’s inspection team was working. They were attached to the hull by magnetic harnesses, working very close to the surface. The ship was spinning of course - just like she is now - and if luck had been on their side, your mother’s team would have been working on the other side when the Islamabad went up. But the rotation had brought them right round into full view when she detonated. They caught the full blast, and they were wearing only lightweight suits at the time.’
He understood now why his father had brought him out here. It was not simply to be told how his mother had died, or to be initiated into the chilling knowledge that one fifth of the Flotilla no longer existed. That was part of it, but the central message was here; on the hull of the ship itself.
Everything else had just been preparation.
When the flash had hit them, their bodies had temporarily shielded the hull from the worst excesses of the radiation. They had burned quickly - there had probably been no pain, he later learned - but in that moment of death they had left negative shadows of themselves; lighter patches against the generally scorched hull. They were seven human shapes, frozen in postures which could not help but look tortured, but which were probably just the natural positions they had been working in when the flash had hit them. They all looked alike in every other respect; there was no way to tell which shadow had been cast by his mother.
‘You know which one was her, don’t you?’ he said.
‘Yes,’ Titus said. ‘Not that I found her, of course - someone else did. But yes, I do know which one belonged to your mother.’
Sky looked at the shadows again, burning their shapes into his brain, knowing that he would never have the courage to come out here again. Later he would learn that there had never been any serious attempt to remove the shadows; that they had been left as a monument not just to the seven dead workers, but to the thousand who had died in that soul-flensing flash. The ship wore them like a scar.
‘Well?’ Titus said, with the tiniest trace of impatience. ‘Do you want to know?’
‘No,’ Sky said. ‘No, I don’t want to know, ever.’
SEVEN
The next day Amelia brought my possessions to the chalet and then left me alone while I went through them. But as curious about them as I was, it was difficult to focus on the task. I was troubled by the fact that I’d dreamed about Sky Haussmann again: an unwilling observer to another incident in his life. The first dream about him that I clearly remembered must have happened to me during my revival; now I’d experienced another, and while there seemed to be a large gap in his life between them, they had clearly happened in chronological order. Like instalments.
And my palm had bled again, a hard new encrustation of dried blood over the wound. Spots of blood marred the sheet.
It didn’t take a massive leap of imagination to see that the two were connected. From somewhere I remembered that Haussmann had been crucified; that the mark in my palm signified his execution, and that I’d met another man with a similar wound in what seemed simultaneously like the recent and the infinitely remote past. I seemed to remember that the man had suffered the dreams as well, and hadn’t been an especially willing recipient of them either.
But maybe the things Amelia had brought me would explain the dreams. Trying to put Haussmann temporarily from mind, I focused on the task at hand. Everything I owned now - apart from any holdings back around Swan - lay in an unassuming briefcase which had come with me on the Orvieto.
There was some Sky’s Edge currency in large-denomination Southlander bills; about half a million Australs. Amelia had told me it amounted to a reasonable fortune on Sky’s Edge - based on the information she had, anyway - though it had negligible value here in the Yellowstone system. Why had I brought it with me, then? The answer seemed obvious enough. Even allowing for inflation, the Sky’s Edge money would still be worth something thirty years after my departure, though perhaps only enough to buy a room for the night. The fact that I had carried the money with me suggested that I had planned on returning home some day.
So I wasn’t emigrating then. I’d come here on business.
To do something.
I had also brought experientials: pencil-sized data sticks crammed with recorded memories. They must have been what I was planning to sell on my revival. Unless you were an Ultra trader specialising in esoteric high-technologies, experientials were about the only way a rich individual could preserve some of their wealth while crossing interstellar space. A market always existed for them, no matter how advanced or primitive the buyer - provided, of course, that they had the basic technology to make use of the experientials. Yellowstone would be no problem in that regard. It had been the wellspring of all major technological and social advances across human space for the last two centuries.
The experientials had been sealed in clear plastic. Without playback equipment, there was no way I could tell what they contained.
What else?
Some money which felt truly unfamiliar to me: strangely textured banknotes with unfamiliar faces on them and surreal, random denominations.
I had asked Amelia what they were.
‘That’s local money, Tanner. From Chasm City.’ She pointed to a man on one side of each bill. ‘That’s Lorean Sylveste, I think. Or it could be Marco Ferris. It’s ancient history, anyway.’
‘The money must have travelled from Yellowstone to Sky’s Edge and then back again - it’s at least thirty years old. Is it worth anything at all now?’
‘Oh, a little. I’m no expert in these matters, of course, but I think this would be enough to get you to Chasm City. Not much more than that, though.’
‘And how would I get to Chasm City?’
‘It’s not difficult, even now. There’s a slowboat shuttle which makes the run down to New Vancouver, in orbit around Yellowstone. Fr
om there you’d need to buy a place on a behemoth, to get down to the surface. I think what you have should be enough, if you were prepared to abstain from some luxuries.’
‘Such as?’
‘Well, any guarantee of arriving safely, for a start.’
I smiled. ‘I’d better hope my luck’s in, then.’
‘But you’re not planning on leaving us yet, are you, Tanner?’
‘No,’ I answered. ‘Not just yet.’
There were two other things in the briefcase: a dark, flat envelope and another, fatter one. Amelia had left me alone by the time I tipped the flatter of the two onto the chalet’s bed. The contents spilled out; less in it than I had expected and nothing that seemed like a revelatory message from my past. If anything, the contents were designed to confuse me even more: a dozen passports and laminated ID cards for myself, all valid at the time I had boarded the ship, and all applicable to some part of Sky’s Edge and its surrounding space. Some were simply printed; others had computer systems embedded into them.
I suspected that most people could have managed with only one or two such documents, accepting that there were areas they could not legally enter - but from what I gathered from the documents’ small print, I would have been able to travel more or less freely, in and out of war zones and militia-controlled states, into the neutral zones and into the low-orbital space around the planet. They were the documents of someone who needed to get around without interference. There were some anomalies, though: what appeared to be trifling inconsistencies in the personal data in each document, places of birth and places I had visited. In some of the documents I was listed as having been a soldier in the Southland Militia, whereas in others I was affiliated to the Northern Coalition as a tactical specialist. Other documents failed to mention any soldiering history at all - listing me only as a personal security consultant or an agent for an import/export firm.
Suddenly the documents stopped being a confusing jumble and cohered into a clear indication of the kind of man I had been. I was someone who needed to be able to slip across borders like a ghost; a man of many guises and pasts - most of them probably fictitious. I sensed that I had been a man who lived dangerously; someone who probably made enemies the way most people made acquaintances. I guessed that it had seldom bothered me much. I was a man who could think about killing a pervert monk without breaking sweat, and then refrain from the act because the monk was not worth the tiny expenditure of energy it would have taken.
But there were three other things in the envelope, tucked at the back so that they had not fallen out at first. I pulled them out carefully, my fingers feeling the gloss surfaces of photographs.
The first picture showed a woman of striking, dark beauty, a nervous smile on her face, backdropped by what looked like the edge of a jungle clearing. The picture had been taken at night. Angling the picture to look past her, I could just see the back of another man examining a gun. It could almost have been me - but then who had taken the picture, and why did I have it with me?
‘Gitta,’ I said; without any effort I had remembered her name. ‘You’re Gitta, aren’t you?’
The second picture showed a man standing in what might once have been a road, but which was little more than a pot-holed trail, curtained on either side by jungle. The man was walking towards the person taking the picture, a huge black weapon slung over his shoulder. He wore a shirt and a bandolier, and though his build and age were more or less the same as mine, his face was not quite the same. Behind the man, there was what seemed to be a fallen tree blocking the road, except that the tree ended in a bloodied stump, and much of the road was covered in a thick impasto of gore.
‘Dieterling,’ I said, the name springing from somewhere. ‘Miguel Dieterling.’
And knew that he had been a good friend of mine who was dead now.
Then I looked at the third picture. There was no trace of the intimacy of the first about this image, or even the dubious triumph of the second, since the man did not seem to be aware that his picture had been taken. It was a flat-image, taken with a long lens. The man was moving quickly through a mall, the neon lights of stores blurred into hyphens by the panned exposure. The man was slightly blurred too, but sharp enough for recognition. Sharp enough for acquisition, I thought.
I remembered his name, too.
I picked up the heavier of the two envelopes and allowed it to empty itself on the bed. The sharp-edged, intricately shaped pieces that fell out of it seemed to invite me to fit them together. I could feel the thing squeezed into my palm, ready to be used. It would be difficult to see; pearly in colour, like opaque glass.
Or diamond.
‘This is a blocking move,’ I said to Amelia. ‘You’ve immobilised me now. I may be taller and stronger than you, but there’s nothing I can do at this point which won’t cause me a lot of pain.’
She looked at me expectantly. ‘What now?’
‘Now you take the weapon from me.’ I nodded down towards the little trowel we were using as an ersatz weapon. She removed it from my grip softly with her free hand, then flung it away as if it were poisoned.
‘You’re letting go too easily.’
‘No,’ I said. ‘With the pressure you’re putting on that nerve, it’s all I could do not to drop it. It’s simple biomechanics, Amelia. I think you’ll find Alexei even easier to deal with.’
We were standing in the clearing before the chalet in what passed for late afternoon in Hospice Idlewild, the central filament of the sun turning from white to sullen orange. It was an odd kind of afternoon because the light always stayed overhead, imparting none of the flattering face-on glow and long shadows of a planetary sundown. But we were paying it little attention anyway. For the last two hours I had been showing Amelia some basic self-defence techniques. We had spent the first hour with Amelia trying to attack me, which meant touching any part of my body with the edge of the trowel. In all that time she had not succeeded once, even when I willed myself to let her through my defences. No matter how hard I gritted my teeth and said that this time I was going to let her win, it never happened. But at least it demonstrated something, which was that the right technique would almost always beat a clumsy assailant. She was getting closer, though, and things had improved when we reversed roles for the second hour. Now at least I was able to hold back, moving in slow enough for Amelia to learn the right blocking moves for each situation. She was a very good pupil; achieving in an hour what normally took two days. Her moves were not yet graceful - not yet hardwired into muscle memory - and she telegraphed her intentions, but neither of these defects would count much against an amateur like Brother Alexei.
‘You could show me how to kill him, too, couldn’t you?’ Amelia said, while we took a breather on the grass - or rather, while she caught her breath and I waited.
‘Is that what you want?’
‘No; of course not. I just want to make him stop.’
I looked across the curve of Idlewild to the tiny, dotlike figures toiling in the cultivation terraces on the far side, hurrying while there was still enough light to work in. ‘I don’t think he’ll come back,’ I said. ‘Not after what happened in the cave. But if he does, you’ll have an edge on him - and I’m damn sure he won’t come back after that. I know his type, Amelia. He’ll just fixate on an easier target.’
She thought about that for a while, doubtless pitying whoever would have to go through the same thing she had. ‘I know it’s not the sort of thing we’re meant to say, but I hate that man. Can we go through these moves tomorrow again?’
‘Of course. In fact, I insist on it. You’re still weak - although you’re well ahead of the curve.’
‘Thanks. Tanner - do you mind if I ask how you know these things?’
I thought back to the documents I had found in the envelope. ‘I was a personal security consultant.’
‘And?’
I smiled ruefully, wondering how much she knew about the contents of that envelope. ‘And some other
things.’
‘They told me you were a soldier.’
‘Yes; I think I was. But then almost everyone alive on Sky’s Edge had some connection to the war. It wasn’t something you stayed out of easily. The attitude was, if you weren’t part of the solution, you were part of the problem. If you didn’t sign up for one side, you were considered by default to have sympathies with the other.’ That was an over-simplification, of course, since it ignored the fact that the aristocratic rich could buy neutrality off the shelf like a new outfit - but for the average non-wealthy Peninsula citizen, it wasn’t so far from the truth.
‘You seem to be remembering well now.’
‘It’s beginning to come back. Having a look at my personal possessions certainly helped.’
She nodded encouragingly and I felt the tiniest stab of remorse at lying to her. The pictures had done very much more than just jog my memory, but for the moment I chose to maintain the illusion of partial amnesia. I just hoped Amelia was not shrewd enough to see through my subterfuge, but I would be careful not to underestimate the Mendicants in any of the moves that lay ahead.
I was, indeed, a soldier. But as I had also inferred from the slew of passports and ID documents in the envelope, soldiering was nowhere near the end of my talents, merely the core around which my other skills orbited. Not everything had come into absolutely sharp focus yet, but I knew a lot more than I had the day before.
I’d been born into a family at the low end of the aristocratic wealth scale: not actively poor but consciously struggling to maintain any façade of wealth. We’d lived in Nueva Iquique, on the south-eastern shore of the Peninsula. It was a fading settlement buffered from the war by a range of treacherous mountains; sleepy and dispassionate even in the war’s darkest years. Northeners would often sail down the coast and put into Nueva Iquique without fear of violence, even when we were technically enemies, and inter-marriage between Flotilla lines was not uncommon. I grew up able to read the enemy’s hybrid language with almost the same fluency I read ours. To me it seemed strange that our leaders inspired us to hate these people. Even the history books agreed that we’d been united when the ships left Mercury.
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