“But if you can work through that, maybe the nightmares will stop.” He had a point, but she needed to not think about it anymore, at least not right then.
“I’ll think about it, but not right now. Okay?”
“I’m not trying to push you, Sunshine. I just want you to not be afraid anymore.”
“Thank you. I’m sorry I woke you.”
“It’s an occupational hazard. Can I get you anything? Some cold water?”
“That would be great. I’m going to splash some cool water on my face.” He kissed her before he let her go, and a little more of the terror evaporated.
Cam had a fresh bottle of water waiting for her when she returned, and he’d put the stereo on with some Paganini. That he’d remembered it was one of her favorite pieces surprised her.
“Thank you so much.”
“You’re welcome so much. Do you think you can go back to sleep or do you want to get up?”
“I think I’ll be able to get back to sleep in a little bit. We can lie here and talk.”
They settled into the bed and that’s when she remembered she’d fallen asleep during the movie. He must have brought her in and put her to bed. After another swallow, she tucked herself against his side and listened to his heartbeat.
“What would you like to do tomorrow?”
“I don’t care as long as I’m with you. But it might be fun to go to the beach.”
“Beach it is. Did you bring a bathing suit, or do we need to go shopping first?”
“Oh, I’m not going into the water, besides I don’t want to show my legs with all the scars.”
“I thought we talked about this.”
“Yeah but kids go to the beach, I don’t want to scare them.”
‘Dammit, Miranda.” Cam sighed and she felt bad. She didn’t want to make a big deal about this, but she couldn’t help it. Maybe she did need to go to counseling.
“I’m sorry. Maybe the beach wasn’t a good idea.”
“Sure it was. And we’ll go, and you can dress any way you want to. But hopefully one of these days you’ll realize you don’t have to hide from the world.”
“Thank you.” She leaned up to kiss him, just a quick one on the lips, but when they touched the flames of passion she’d been keeping pushed down flared to life. He took control and rolled her onto her back. Balancing over her, as he lowered his head to take her lips again, she saw the sparkle of his eyes even in the dim light of the room.
Cam’s tongue darted into her mouth, then sucked on her tongue, and the kiss grew more intense as he leaned against her and his hard-on made it clear that he wanted her.
She groaned and arched against him her legs captured between his. Pulling away they were both gasping for air. She’d never been so turned on by a kiss. He’d aroused every inch of her body and it craved his touch.
“I need you, Cam.”
“Are you sure, baby? We agreed to wait until tomorrow. But if we keep this up, I’m not sure I can stop.”
“I’m sure.” Worried that he’d pull away, she sat up and pulled her sleep shirt over her head and leaned on the pillows beneath him. He swore just loud enough for her to hear him, and at first, she thought it was about the scars, but he must have seen the look on her face.
“You’re fuckin’ gorgeous. For the love of all things holy, you have no idea do you?”
“I don’t know.”
“I’ll just have to show you.” Not sure what he meant, having him get off the bed was the last thing she expected. But it was just long enough to strip out of his t-shirt and boxers. Then it was her turn to stare at him. The moon had to be full, otherwise, the light shining through the mini-blinds were divine intervention. His body was illuminated as he stood beside the bed, glowing like an angel.
She couldn’t look away, wondering if maybe all of this was a dream. Until he climbed on the bed and pulled off her panties. He slid over her body and balanced on his elbows to make sure he didn’t put all his weight on her. There was nothing soft about Cam, and when his hard-on twitched against her, she arched her back and made him groan.
“If you keep that up, I won’t last long, and I want to make this special for you.”
“It already is.”
“Ahh, Sunshine, you have no idea.” He was right, she didn’t but she had no doubt that she’d found the perfect man for the job.
Repeating over and over in his head that he needed to move slowly so he wouldn’t scare her, helped to calm his raging need. When she’d removed her shirt, he thought he was going to come just from seeing her lying there, bathed in the light of the full moon and all his. He’d dreamed of that moment for months, and it was even better than his best fantasy. Now he had to make sure it was for her too.
The sight of her glorious breasts whet his appetite for a taste. Sliding his tongue across her already taut nipple, it grew even harder. As he continued to lick and tease it with his teeth, he massaged the other breast. Focusing on her pleasure, her writhing underneath him was all the encouragement he needed.
It might just about kill him, but he wanted all of her memories of their first night to be amazing. Each time she rubbed against his hard cock was like sweet torture but reciting mission checkpoints in his head, helped to maintain his control.
Learning what made her moan the loudest was a course he looked forward to taking for a long time to come. But for Miranda 101, he learned that her breasts were extra sensitive and even the slightest touch of his tongue elicited a response. But when he sucked it into his mouth and nibbled with his teeth, she came apart in his arms. She writhed against him and moaned his name over and over, begging him for more.
Every inch of her required the same attention but there was no way he could restrain himself this first time. But it didn’t mean he couldn’t try. Slowly he worked his way down her body. He licked and kissed each scar he came across. This was the first time seeing her undressed, and he understood better why she was so concerned. He’d had no idea they’d carved her up from her breasts to her knees. He’d seen much worse, but it angered him to know how much she’d suffered.
“It’s not your fault. You stopped it before it got worse.”
It was like she could read his mind. “I know, and it’s not what you think. They don’t disgust me. They are part of you, help to make you the woman you are, and I wouldn’t change anything.”
“Ahh, Cam…” He’d wanted her to stop thinking and sliding his tongue along her lower lips did the trick. Focusing on the bundle of nerves, circling it with his tongue before sucking it between his teeth.
“Oh my God, oh God,” she whispered. Shuddering beneath him as she found her release. But he didn’t stop, just kept up the licking, sucking, and then inserted a finger into her slick passage. She was already wet and ready for him, but he wanted more for her first.
Thrusting first one then two fingers into her, he worked to stretch and searched for her G-spot. He was a big boy, and she was tight. The last thing he wanted was to hurt her, but he needed to be buried deep inside her as much as she was begging him to be there. Her muscles clenched around his fingers so hard they almost cut off the circulation, the spasming increased and just when he thought she was on the edge he bit down gently on her clit.
No whispering this time. She screamed his name loud enough the neighbors would definitely be giving him the side eye. It made him smile, as he licked her juices and hoped it would be the first of many mind-blowing orgasms.
After he’d licked her clean, he moved up the bed and stretched out next to her. Then he pulled her up on top of him with his cock settled between her legs. It was his turn to twitch and moan.
“Why did you stop? Aren’t you going to have sex with me?” she’d said it so softly at first he wasn’t sure he’d heard her.
“Yes, Sunshine, we are most definitely. But I thought you might like to be in control this first time.”
“I’ve never done it this way.”
“No worries, you’ll get the
hang of it. It’s better for the woman in this position.”
“Better than what you already did? I might die.”
“I promise you that this is only the beginning and none of this will kill you except with pleasure.”
“A little sure of yourself?”
“Maybe. I’ll let you be the judge. Now, how about you start with a kiss unless you mind your taste?”
She hesitated and he wondered if maybe it was something else she hadn’t tried, but then she eased up his body and kissed him. And not some shy touch of the lips, she gave him back everything he’d given her, sliding her tongue between his lips and sucking on his, moaning as her desire amped up again.
For a brief moment, Cam wondered if this hadn’t been such a good idea. He was going to lose it before she even took him inside. Breaking the kiss, she slid down his chest, then took his nipple in her mouth, repeating everything he’d done to her, licking, sucking and then nibbling until he moaned and couldn’t keep his hips still.
“Sunshine, my restraint is wearing thin. If you don’t want me to come before I’m inside you, you need to stop.”
With a look of pure female satisfaction that curled his toes, she moved further down his body, but instead of shifting to take him inside, she slid her kiss-swollen lips over his rigid shaft.
“You don’t…”
“Yes, I do. I let you do what you want, this is my turn.”
His brain turned to mush, this was not what he’d expected, but fuck it was incredible. Her mouth was so hot and what she did with her tongue and teeth, eroded what was left of his will power and he came. He tried to pull out of her mouth, but she held on, taking all he had to give.
“Fuck. Miranda, I don’t even know what to say.”
“How about, that was amazing?”
“It was that. But damn, woman. When I put you on top it wasn’t for that.”
“But you liked it, right?”
“Fuck yes. But I wanted to be inside you.”
“I didn’t realize we were done yet. You’re still rock hard, baby.”
“Fuck. Maybe I was wrong, maybe you can die from sex.” Then he pulled her face to his and kissed her with all the feelings he hadn’t been able to say out loud.
“Now, where were we?” She settled over him and slid down his hard cock one throbbing inch at a time. He couldn’t have answered her if his life depended on it. He’d been worried about shocking her with his skills, but she’d knocked him sideways.
Cam was large and even if she was skilled, it would be a lot to take since it was her first time in a while. He’d tried to stretch her with his fingers, but she was making it difficult. Trying to ease in and slow down, he held onto her hips and arched up as she slid down his shaft. Sweat dotted his brow as he struggled for control. She was so hot, tight and wet.
“Relax, baby. Slowly…” She listened, and her clenched muscles loosened around him. Seated fully inside, her muscles spasmed around his shaft. Slowly, she started the rhythm, it was like sweet torture, as she slid all the way up his cock and down. Over and over, until he couldn’t take it anymore.
Flipping them over so she was on her back, he smiled at her shocked expression. “Sorry, Sunshine, but I just can’t hold back.”
Rubbing her clit as he thrust inside her faster and faster, she quivered and writhed, but he held back until her orgasm started. Then he thrust hard and fast until his body quaked with his release.
Cam didn’t want to move, wanted them both to stay just as they were. Capturing the moment in his memory to hold on to, the look on her face, seeing her hair spread all over his pillows in every direction, the red marks on her chest from his day-old beard, and finally her flavor.
“Wow,” Miranda said with a sigh as she stared into his eyes.
“Yes, it was. Incredible. You’re amazing.”
“If I am, it’s your fault.”
“I think it’s always been inside you, just waiting for the right person to wake it up.”
“Maybe. But if all my nightmares are cured this way, I’m not sure I’ll mind them as much.”
Cam laughed. “Just think how much better it would be if it hadn’t started with you terrified. I’ll be right back. I’m going to get a towel and some cold water for you.”
“You…”
“Shh. Just relax, Sunshine, and let me do this.”
It had taken every ounce of restraint not to say, ‘I love you,’ but he didn’t think she was ready to hear the words yet. It surprised him that he was ready to say them. They’d known each other over six months but most of that time they’d been apart. Skype and text messages, phone calls, none of that was the same, but he knew what his heart wanted. Now it was just a matter of proving to her that she was his one and only passion.
Chapter 10
Miranda woke up to hot breath and licks. As she slowly opened her eyes, she came face-to-face with Halo who was grinning and wagging his tail.
“Are you my wakeup call?”
“Woof.” The one word delivered gently as if he understood what she’d asked.
“Where’s Cam?” Halo jumped off the bed and left the room, making her laugh.
Sitting up against the pillows, she finger-combed her hair and thought about last night. Her cheeks grew warm just thinking about how ballsy she’d been. He’d said that maybe she just needed the right person. It sure seemed to be that way.
Jeremiah, her boyfriend in college had begged her to be more aggressive, but he was just ‘meh.’ Probably ‘bagging’ a senator’s daughter was a notch on his belt. He figured they’d get married, but there was no way in hell that was going to happen. The first thing she’d done after graduation was to break up with him. Sometimes she wondered if that had been her real motivation for joining the Deliver Hope Ministries. It had certainly gotten her out of his circle.
While she was still contemplating that earlier decision, Halo came back dragging Cam with him.
“You called, Sunshine? I’d hoped you were going to sleep in.”
“Then you need to have a word with our furry friend, here. He was breathing on my face and licking me. I thought it was you, then I realized the breath was better.”
“What?” He jumped on the bed, laughing, and grabbed one of the other pillows and smacked her on top of the head. Nothing hard and it cracked her up. Reaching behind her she got up on her knees and they had a full-fledged pillow fight until one of them split, and sent feathers flying everywhere.
Halo ran back and forth at the end of the bed, barking and jumping for the floating feathers. When he’d decided he’d been left out long enough he jumped onto the bed and tackled Cam.
It was the funniest thing Miranda had seen in a long time. Dog and handler were covered in white feathers and the dog had Cam pinned. Every time he barked, the feathers would be disturbed and float back into the air. She was laughing so hard that she could barely breathe. Her stomach muscles cramped, and she fell onto her side next to Cam, still giggling.
Halo leaned over and licked her face. It made her laugh even harder and sputter when his tongue slipped into her mouth. “Ugh, gross, Halo. You’re as bad as Cam. Always trying to get your tongue in my mouth.”
“Except you like mine,” Cam said and waggled his eyebrows. She couldn’t disagree with that. She needed to brush her teeth so she could have another one of those toe-curling kisses.
“I’ll be right back. And keep that dog out of the bathroom.”
“Yes, ma’am. Would you like some coffee?”
“Oh, yeah. That would be wonderful.”
“Here or in the kitchen?”
“Kitchen might be a better idea. I don’t like feathers in my coffee.”
“Good point.”
Brushing her teeth, turned into a shower and washing her hair. It helped ease some of the soreness from yesterday. She wasn’t sure whether it was more from hitting the hard sidewalk or the busy night in bed. Probably the nighttime lovemaking session, she was already looking forward to th
e next time. Just thinking about it made her wet. She half-hoped he’d get tired waiting for her and join her in the shower.
Then she realized what she’d said. Yesterday she was worried about him seeing her naked body and all the scars and today she wanted him in the shower with her. After drying off, she wiped down the mirror to take a good look at herself. Most of the scars were on her belly and down her legs, they were angry, red, ragged and some of them still looked unhealed. Not a pretty site at all, but after the way Cam had treated her last night, she didn’t look at them the same way.
“Are you almost done, or do I need to come in there and help you?”
Now he asks, so much for timing. “I’m just getting dressed, I’ll be right out.”
“Too bad.”
Yeah, no kidding she said under her breath and then started giggling. Man one night of mind-blowing sex and she was a new woman. As she dragged a comb through her damp hair and added a touch of mascara, she wondered if she’d seem different to anyone else. Not that she cared, she liked this version of herself. But was it just the glow of last night? She wouldn’t know until she had to go back to Georgia, and the thought of leaving Cam squeezed her heart.
Gathering her toiletries she put them back in her case and followed the aroma of coffee. Entering the kitchen, she was surprised to find the table set, a mug of coffee waiting for her, and Cam frying bacon. She was about to comment on it when she realized he was also on the phone.
Rather than interrupt she petted Halo on the head as she passed him and grabbed her coffee mug and went into the living room. A few moments later, Cam came to find her.
“Good morning, Sunshine. Again,” he said over her shoulder. He’d startled her again, damn these guys were stealthy.
“Dang,” she exclaimed as she almost spilled her coffee. “You have to stop sneaking up on me.”
“Sorry, I’m not doing it on purpose.”
“I know, it’s okay. Good morning again,” she answered with a huge smile. He grabbed the mug out of her hand and put it on the coffee table and then pulled her into his embrace.
“How about some sugar?”
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