by Cilla Lee
“Let him up, he’s not worth it” I tell him and Colt looks at me
“Should put a bullet in you fucker, teach you how to talk to women”
“Please, it was a mistake, please” Robbie begs, Tiny Razor Maggie Niya Lilly and the kids walking over as Colt and Stryker kick Robbie as they walk over him, Robbie curls up into a ball and I roll my eyes (pussy) the crowd start to talk again but give us all a wide birth
“What are you guys doing here?” I hug each of them
“Thought we’d come down early” Colt says and I pick up little Willow breathing in her gorgeous baby smell
“Look how big she’s grown” I say hugging her to me
“Tell me about it, she sucks me dry” Lilly says rubbing her breasts
“Well, she’s gorgeous, so, what are you guys doing here?”
“Thought we could go shopping for your graduation,” Niya says, and I smile at her
“And a spa day,” I say making Colt moan
“Yep,” Niya says, smiling
“Deal, come on this party sucks.”
I follow them all back to the front of the dorm, and we get into the large SUV Colt and Niya Razor Maggie Logan in one Stryker and Lilly Tiny Junior and Willow in the other
“Why did you bring two cars?”
“For all your shit,” Colt tells me
“I don’t have that much stuff.”
“Sure, you don’t,” Colt says, and I look at Logan
“So, kiddo how’s school.”
“Good, got a girlfriend” I laugh looking at my sister and she rolls her eyes
“Oh yeah, what’s her name?”
“Taylor”
“Taylor” I repeat, and he nods smiling
“And what does this Taylor look like?”
“She’s just as beautiful as mom” I look at Niya, and she smiles
“Oh yeah.”
“Yep, and she brings me in cupcakes.”
“So, she’s bribing you with treats.”
“Yep,” he says with a big smile
“You’re too easy to please little man,” I say, rubbing his head and he pushes me away
“Watch it women, your gonna mess my hair up” we all laugh as I pull him closer giving him a noogie
*
It’s the day before my graduation and Niya Lilly, Maggie and I are sitting in the mudroom of the spa “So” Lilly says, and I look at her
“What?”
“Any men you want to tell us about.”
“No,” I say laying back closing my eyes
“Oh, come on Zoey, you’ve been at college for four years, and you’re telling us you’ve not had one boyfriend.”
“Nope,” I say, and I can feel them looking at me
“Not one,” Maggie asks, and I shake my head “not even one date.”
“I didn’t say I didn’t date; I didn’t have a boyfriend.”
“So, you went on dates, you just never stayed with them” I look up
“What are you trying to ask me?”
“Come on, we seen all those hot twenty-something half-naked guys at your dorm,” she says
“And”
“So is the college experience the same as it is on TV” Lilly asks me and I look at her
“The college experience”
“Yeah you know parties sex and parties”
“Parties yes sex no, Why?” Lilly asks me and I look at her
“None of them done it for me”
“No one done it for you” I shake my head “so your still…” she says and I nod
“Yeah, but I want my first time to be with some guy that I felt nothing for, when I do lose my virginity, I want it to mean something to be special” I tell them and they all nod
*
When we get back to the hotel room, Razor Tiny Colt and Stryker have drinks in their hands and we all stop “What’s wrong?” they ask all at the same time
“Chance and Gunner are dead” Razor says
“What?” the four of us say moving towards them, I look into the adjoining room, seeing Willow asleep in her cot and the boys sitting on their iPad’s
“How?” Niya asks
“Some Old man ran a red, and they're both gone” Niya Lilly and Maggie sit on the guys' laps hugging them
“Was anyone else hurt?” I ask Colt
“Jake”
“Is he ok?”
“A few broken bones.”
“Oh baby,” Lilly says kissing Stryker and I look at my graduation gown
“We should head home now,” I tell them, and Colt shakes his head
“There’s nothing we can do,” he says
“But” Colt looks up at me
“Zoey we're stayin’ and watchin’ you walk across that stage, you’ve worked your ass off. Plus, the funerals will be next week, so there’s nothin’ we can do, the Brothers will just be drinkin’
“Are you sure?”
“Pipsqueak where positive” Stryker says as tears come to my eyes and Niya Lilly and Maggie get up hugging me. We spend most of the night drinking, not heavily, but enough so Stryker, Colt Tiny and Razor can tell us stories about their two lost Brothers.
****
Saint
“I can’t believe you just left and didn’t say anything”
“Christa the club have lost two Brothers, do you think I give a fuck about your hair”
“I was going to surprise you”
“Go home, I’ll be back sometime next week”
“But why can’t I stay with you”
“Christa go home” I tell her getting pissed off
“Saint, I’m your woman,” she says and I roll my eyes at her
“Go home”
“But”
“Go,” I tell her and she walks to her car
“Fuck man, how do you put up with that bitch” I watch as she drives off and I turn to look at my brother
“She sucks good dick” I tell him and he shakes his head at me laughin’
“You’re a fuckhead” he tells me making me smile
When we get back into the house the smells coming from the kitchen makes my mouth water “Damn Tink that smells good,” I tell her and she smiles as the three hellions come running in
“Uncle Saint can you read us a bedtime story” Codi asks handing me a book
“A caterpillars’ life”
“Can you read it to us, please” the three of them plead with me and Tink smiles
“Go clean-up for dinner” Sinner tells them and the three of them run down the hall
“Is it easier now there four” I ask and Tink and Sinner look at each other
“No” they both say and I smile
“Any more in the future” I ask both of them as I sit at the counter
“Fuck no” Sinner says as the front doorbell rings (don’t be Christa)
“Hello” is called out as Rowen comes around the corner and we hear screaming as little footsteps come running down the hall and Sinner yells out
“NO RUNNING” I look at him “what?” he asks and I smile at him
“You sound like, dad” I tell him and he gives me the finger as Rowen comes around the corner
“Saint” she says, hugging me surprised to see me
“Rowen, what are you doing here?” I ask her and she pushes my shoulder
“Hello, I still live in town and come and see the triplets all the time, thank you very much” she’s almost bowled over as six hands grab her
“Uncle Saint is going to read us a bedtime story” they all say and Rowen looks down at them
“Oh, I see how it is, he comes into town and Aunty Rowen is no longer wanted, maybe I should just go than”
“NO!” all three of them scream and Primrose hugs her
“No Aunty Rowen we love you too” Rowen smiles
“Well then, I guess I’ll stay, but only if you want me to”
“WE DO WE DO” they all jump up and down
*
Dinner
is great and after I read the triplets, their story and they're all fast asleep, I make my way to the kitchen where Sinner Tink and Rowen are talking, Sinner hands me a beer “How many times did you have to read it” Tink asks
“Twice,” I tell them sitting next to Rowen
“Sorry about your Brothers” she says and I nod
“It was a shock that’s for sure”
“How long are you staying in town,” she asks and I look at Sinner than at Tink and damn I miss them
“Actually, I was thinkin’ about staying permanently” Sinner looks shocked
“Seriously, what about your fights?” I shrug, I’d had a talk with Preacher and Nash last week about coming back home. I just wasn’t into the fights anymore and I wanted to come home and work a real job
“I’m over fighting” I tell him
“Well, I know the triplets would love it” Tink tells me and I smile
“Yeah, I’d love to spend more time with them”
“And Christa” Rowen asks through her teeth
“Was gonna end it” I tell the three of them
“Oh god yes, please do, no offense big brother, but your girlfriends a cunt” Rowen says and Tink spits her drink out
“Rowen!” Tink says and I look at both women
“Oh, come on Tink, last Christmas at mom and dads, I swear I was gonna brain the bitch with the skillet”
“What?” I say and Rowen looks at Tink and Tink looks down, picking at her label of her beer
“She fucking insulted Tink” Sinner looks at his wife
“What the fuck, why didn’t you say anything?” Sinner asks her pissed off
“It was nothing,” she says
“Nothing, that bitch told you, you got pregnant on purpose to trap Sinner”
“She what!” he says
“It’s fine, I ignored her ok”
“Baby anyone says anything to you and you fuckin’ tell me you hear me” Tink nods her head as he pulls her to him so she’s sitting on his lap and he kisses her on the neck. I feel like shit for bringing that bitch home, the only reason I did was she nagged me for a fuckin’ month so I gave in just to shut her up, Sinner turns to me “So, when are you coming home?”
“I was gonna move next month.”
“Just move your shit now, after the funerals, I’ll help you.”
“Sounds good.”
“You sure about the move?” Sinner asks, and I nod
“Yeah man, I miss all your ugly mugs,” I tell him, and he flicks his bottle top at me.
Chapter Three
Zoey
Walking across the stage of my graduation, I’m reminded of my high school one, and I smile, all of the guys were there apart from Saint. He’d moved to Oregon a few months before; I remember Chance giving me a big hug and tears come to my eyes as I look out seeing my family Niya Colt Logan, Maggie Razor Lilly Stryker Junior, Willow and Tiny all of them here for me. I’m handed my degree and smile, holding it up, but it doesn’t feel right. As I head back to my seat, I keep walking, and Niya stands up coming to the end of her aisle “What’s wrong?” she asks me
“I want to leave now,” I tell her, and she frowns at me
“But” tears come to my eyes, and she hugs me
“Zoey” she holds me tight
“Please,” I tell her as the tears fall faster
“Of course,”
Niya grabs my hand turning to Colt, and we all walk out and head to the cars. We’d packed all of my things yesterday, and I’d said my goodbyes to Simone before graduation knowing the second I had my degree I was out of here.
“Honey, are you ok?” Maggies asks, pulling me to her and I sniffle wiping the tears away
“Can we go home now?” I ask her, and everyone looks at me
“Darlin’,” Razor says, pulling me in for a hug
“Why do you want to leave?” Niya asks me, and I look at all of the men who I know are busting to get back
“I walked across the stage; I have my degree,” I tell them all
“But your friends, don’t you want…” I shake my head at her
“No, I’ve said my goodbyes, can we go home.”
“Let’s move then,” Razor says, and we all get into the cars and make our way home.
Logan watches a movie on his iPad, and I sit watching it with him, Fast and the furious. I listen to Maggie and Niya talk about what they’ll do when we get home and setting things up for the funerals. They talk about how much food the clubhouse is going to need and what they’re going to cook, even about getting the rooms set up for the visitors. My mind drifting to Saint, will he be there (of course he will) god it’s been four years since I’ve seen him, I wonder if he has a girlfriend (I don’t do girlfriends) I remember him telling me years ago. I wonder how much he’s changed god my heart was racing, I’ve had the biggest crush on him since I was fifteen and now that I’m twenty-one will that make a difference. When the girls were asking me about dating yesterday, I didn’t want to say that I’ve been saving myself for Saint even though I know it’s just a dream I still wish it to be true.
As we pull up to the clubhouse there were trucks, bikes cars and people everywhere and we all get out, the guys being pulled in for a hug the woman stays with the men and I take the three kids into the clubhouse. As I walk in I look around but don’t see him, but I see the others Cookie coming up to me “Zoey” he says, pulling me in for a hug “damn girl you’ve grown up”
“How much have I changed” I ask him and he gives me the once over
“A lot trust me on that,” he says almost drooling and I smile
“Watch it” a deep voice says behind me and Willow puts her arms out for her grandfather and Tiny takes her
“What? I was just being nice” Cookie says and my smile widens
“Be nice somewhere else” Tiny says, pushing me forward “take the kids into the kitchen darlin’” I nod, taking Willow off of him and head into the kitchen to the women
“Zoey” Lena says as I walk in and she pulls me in for a hug
“Hey Lena” she smiles, but I can tell it’s strained, I place Willow into her high chair and set the boys up at one of the tables
“Ok, I’m here to help, what do you need?” I ask and she rubs my arms
“Well, some of the rooms need to be sorted out”
“Who’s in charge of them”
“Sheryl” she says and I look around for her
“Where is she?”
“Upstairs”
“Ok, can you watch those three, Niya Lilly and Maggie will be in, in a minute”
“Sure honey,” I make my way upstairs, but a little boy runs into me
“MASON!” is yelled and I look up seeing Widow
“Damn I’m sorry Ni….” She stops looking at me “Zoey” I smile and she pulls me in for a hug holding onto the little boy’s shirt
“Hi Widow, how are you?” she looks around and I see her face drop
“It’s gonna be a shit few weeks,” she tells me and I look around nodding
“Yeah, it is” I look down at the little boy and he’s a spitting image of his dad “Wow he’s grown so much” she nods
“Yeah, he’s a little terror”
“Mom, let me go, Logan and Junior are back” he wines at her
“Fine go,” she says letting him go “and don’t run” I turn seeing him smile, “I better go Zoey it was good to see you, how long are you back for?” I smile
“That’s me home now, I’ve got my degree”
“Wow, that went fast”
“It didn’t feel it when I was up until three studying” she smiles
“Well, you’re home now, better go Zoey I’ll see you around”
“Ok,” she moves through the crowd chasing after her son
“Sheryl” I yell out when I get to the second floor
“In the third room,” she calls out and I head to the room, seeing her bent over the bed making it
“Zoey” she says
coming to me and hugging me
“Hey”
“I’m glad you’re home”
“Thanks, I just wish…” tears tickle my nose and I hold them back
“I know, honey, I know it’s been hard the boys are lost” we sit on the bed and she grabs my hand giving it a squeeze
“How’s Dover?” I ask her, he’s getting on in years and I’m sure this sort of stress isn’t good for him
“Like the rest in shock”
“When are they having the funerals?”
“Monday, they want to make sure the other Chapters will be here.”
“I still can’t believe it, I only saw Chance a few months ago” she looks at me
“You did” I nod my head
“Yeah, I was out shopping in the city, and he was at a café, said he was in town for club business.”
“He never said anything” I smile
“No, he wouldn’t, we got so drunk that night, and he slept in my dorm room” she looks shocked
“In your dorm room with you and your roommate,” I shake my head
“No Simone went to see her dad that weekend, so Chance and I went out dancing and drinking all night, we didn’t get in until the sun was coming up.”
“That sounds like Chance always knew how to party.”
“Yeah,” she pulls me to her, and I lay my head on her shoulder
“Well, come on, we’ve got a whole floor to clean and prepare,” she tells me, and we get to work.
****
Saint
“Here,” Sinner says, handing me another beer
“Fuck man, I just can’t believe it” Cookie says, looking at both of us
“Yeah.” Just then I see Niya and Colt walk in with Stryker Lilly, Razor and Maggie “When did they get back?” I ask looking around to see if I can see Zoey
“About twenty minutes ago, seen Zoey take the kids into the kitchen,” Cookie says and everything in me wants to go into the kitchen
“How’d she look?” Sinner asks him and he smiles
“Smokin’ fuckin’ hot”
“Damn,” he says and I look at him
“Hello your married”
“Doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate a fine-looking woman”
“Oh, she’s fine alright” Cookie says and I want to punch him in the head, a pair of hands slide up my back and I turn to see Christa standing there
