“I’m not a baby,” she said. “And for that, you shall have to be the seeker. Close your eyes.”
Amused—and as always, quite unable to refuse darling Lily anything—Whitby did as he was told and closed his eyes.
Lily’s boots tapped quickly along the flat stones toward the left. “Come and find me!” she called out a few seconds later.
The thought of getting up out of the chair gave Whitby pause. He didn’t really want to move. “Damn, James, why don’t you go.” Whitby tipped his head onto the back of the chair. “She’s your sister.”
“But she asked you,” James said.
“She always asks me.”
“That’s because I never play with her. You have much to learn about discouraging unwelcome female attentions, my friend.”
Knowing he’d never convince James to play with Lily, Whitby forced himself to stand, though it cost him much. “There is no such thing as unwelcome female attentions, James. Even if they are from a nine-year-old.”
Whitby heaved a deep sigh and grudgingly crossed the veranda. “Here I come!” he called out.
He descended the steps and immediately saw the bright, white hem of Lily’s dress behind the birdbath, which was nowhere near wide enough to hide her. Yet she thought she was invisible.
Smiling and chuckling, he shook his head. “Perhaps you’re behind the azaleas!” He walked softly toward the birdbath. “Or here, under the bench!”
Lily giggled.
“What’s that I hear?” Whitby said, stopping only a few feet away, seeing her as plain as day. “You must be hiding in the hedge!”
She giggled again, and he lunged around the birdbath. “Found you!”
Lily screamed and took off, and Whitby ran after her, throwing his arms around her and tickling her ribs until she bent over, clutching her side. She laughed and screeched until he stopped and slapped his hands over his ears.
“Great Scott, Lily. My head.”
She straightened. “You’re getting too old for this, aren’t you, Lord Whitby? One of these days, you won’t want to play with me, and you’ll be very dull like James. Very old.”
“James isn’t old.”
“Well, he’s certainly dull,” Lily said spitefully.
Whitby felt honor-bound to defend his friend. Or perhaps he was inclined to help Lily understand that her brother was a complicated man. If he was reserved, he had his reasons. “He’s dull because he doesn’t play hide-and-seek? Surely he’s interesting in other ways.” Whitby could certainly think of a few.
“He doesn’t play anything. Like I said, he’s practically an old man. As bad as my father was.”
Whitby narrowed his eyes at her. His tone became serious with a gentle reprimand. “I doubt that, Lily.”
She shrugged casually, and he could see she regretted the remark, for her father had been a cold, cruel man. To compare anyone to him was beyond exaggeration.
Whitby bent forward to speak to her at eye level. “I promise I will never stop playing with you, Lily, because I have no intention of ever growing old.”
“Everyone grows old.”
“Not me.” He straightened and rested his fists on his hips. “I will stay young forever. Young at heart at least.”
Lily smiled. “Then I shall grow up and catch up with you in years, and then we can get married. I should like that.”
“Married! Good heavens, Lily, what are you thinking? I am the worst rake in the world, and you, darling, are a child.”
He tugged at one of her braids and turned to walk back to the veranda for more coffee, which he sorely needed. After running around just now, his headache had returned with a vengeance.
He rubbed the back of his neck as he walked, oblivious to the fact that Lily had run off without a word in the other direction with tears in her eyes.
Chapter 1
Wentworth Castle, Yorkshire
October 1884
With the late-afternoon sun beaming in through the lace curtains, bathing her room in bright, shiny light, Lady Lily Langdon sat at her desk, tapping her foot impatiently on the floor while she tapped her pen in a similar rhythm upon the letter she was trying to write. She gazed at the clock on the mantel, ticking away in the silence, while the sunlight reflected off the silver-and-gold plated face.
She was anxious and edgy. She couldn’t pretend not to know why. She knew enough about her own emotions to understand it. It was the first day of her brother James’s annual shooting party. The guests had been arriving all day, and in a very short time, she would be dressing for dinner in one of her elegant gowns and donning heavy jewels.
She’d already chosen the right gown for the evening—her dark blue satin Worth with the black velvet roses emblazoned on the hem. She need only select the right earrings to go with her sapphire necklace. Then she would be ready to venture downstairs and meet the guests in the drawing room.
Lily continued to tap her pen upon her desk, still feeling frustratingly anxious. It was not something she enjoyed, mingling in a room full of strangers. Of course, they wouldn’t all be strangers. Her family would be there, and friends of her family, some of whom she had known forever....
Perhaps that’s why she was anxious.
A knock sounded. She rose from her desk chair, crossed the room and opened the door. “Mother....”
Her mother, Marion, the dowager duchess, stood in the corridor with her hands clasped in front of her. She wore a long-sleeved black day dress, buttoned stiffly around her neck. Her dark gray hair was pulled into a tight bun at the back of her head. “Lily, I must have a word with you.”
Lily stepped back and invited her into the room.
While her mother gazed around at everything—the pile of unfinished letters on the desk, the modern novel lying open on the bed—a sense of inadequacy swept through Lily.
She quickly moved to close the book and turn it over, face down, wondering if she would ever be able to disregard the enduring weight of her mother’s disappointment in her. Lily’s mother had never understood Lily’s romantic nature, in particular when it made Lily take exception to her duties, for Marion was a strict, humorless woman, and she would never even consider questioning her own duties.
Marion sat down on a chair, while Lily sat on the sofa opposite. They gazed at each other uneasily for a few seconds before Marion spoke.
“Lily, as you know, the guests have been arriving throughout the day.”
Lily nodded.
“As it happens, there is a particular gentleman who arrived not more than an hour ago—a young man I encouraged Sophia to invite, as I believe he is a charming and respectable young man. He is Lord Richard, the Earl of Stellerton’s youngest son.”
A youngest son. Lily squeezed her hands together in her lap. There was a time when her mother would only consider an eldest son as husband material—for Lily was after all the daughter of a duke. But Lily was twenty-one now, and not exactly without her share of knocks and scratches. She suspected her mother was becoming desperate.
“How old is he?” Lily asked, grasping frantically for calm, intelligent questions when all she really wanted to do was leap out of her chair and say, “I don’t want to be shepherded.”
But she didn’t leap out of her chair because she supposed she did want guidance. She was afraid of trusting her own judgment when it came to men. She knew how foolish one could become when blinded by passion, for she had become infatuated with someone once—Pierre, a charming Frenchman with an enchanting accent. That man had turned out to be something very different from what she believed him to be. Yet, for a brief week or two, she had fancied herself quite in love with him.
And then there was Whitby. Always Whitby. But he did not see Lily as a woman. He saw her as a child or sister. She had learned that to hope for something more where he was concerned was unrealistic and foolish.
So yes, she needed guidance, because she wanted to get on with her life.
“Lord Richard is twenty-six,” her mother replied. “I met him when he arrived, and I can say, without hesitation, that he is very handsome.”
Lily lowered her gaze. “You know I don’t consider looks to be the most important quality in a husband.”
“Well, you did at one time,” her mother said flatly, revealing the embers of resentment that still smoldered over Lily’s recklessness with Pierre.
Lily wondered if she would ever be able to make up for that misstep.
“Is he expecting to meet me tonight?” she asked. “Is that why he came?”
“Yes. Like you, he does not enjoy London during the Season, and he is looking for a quiet country girl.”
That sounded promising.
“What do you plan to wear this evening?” her mother asked.
“My blue Worth with the black velvet roses.”
Her mother’s gaze drifted toward Lily’s dressing room. “The blue Worth....” She pondered it for a moment. “Perhaps something more traditional. What about the green gown you wear with your cameo?”
The green gown was certainly more traditional. It had long sleeves and a lace neckline that was far less daring than the blue gown. “If you think it would be more appropriate....”
“I do. Lord Richard is a highly regarded young man, and he has just taken the chaplain’s position on his father’s estate. His father seems to think he has a bright future with the church and might one day become a bishop.”
“He sounds perfectly ideal.” Lily crossed her ankles and squeezed her hands together on her lap. “But what if he finds out about what happened with...?”
It was difficult to say Pierre’s name. She didn’t like to think about how foolish she had been. “Lord Richard might not want me,” she said. “Having me for a wife might hurt his chances of becoming a bishop.”
Her mother frowned and spoke in a firm voice. “That is water under the bridge. No one knows but the members of this family—”
“Whitby knows.”
Her mother said nothing for a moment. It was no secret that she had always detested Lord Whitby, ever since the first moment she’d laid eyes on him. He was the one who had befriended James at an early age and had exerted more influence upon him than she’d ever been able to do.
When she did speak, her voice was strained. “Yes, unfortunately he does, and I wish that were not the case. If I had had any say in the matter three years ago....” She stopped herself. “I suppose that is neither here nor there. The point is, Lily, you must move on. You were young and you made a mistake, but thankfully there were no lingering effects from it.”
Her mother was of course referring to the matter of Lily’s virginity. She still possessed it.
“But what if Lord Richard approves of me and wants to marry me? Would I tell him what I did?” An image of Pierre’s dingy boardinghouse room flashed in her mind. She thrust it away. “I can’t imagine keeping something like that a secret from my husband.”
Her mother’s brow furrowed. “Why ever not?”
Lily experienced the confusing mixture of frustration and sympathy she always felt when her mother said things like that, for she had never loved Lily’s father. She had probably kept many things about herself secret from him.
But since James had married Sophia, Lily had seen for herself what was possible in a marriage. There were no secrets between them. They loved and trusted each other completely—something she never could have imagined when she was growing up. And now she wasn’t sure she would want to jeopardize such a future for herself. She wanted openness and honesty in her marriage, just like James and Sophia had in theirs.
Oh, and passion, of course.
Yet, if Lord Richard or any other prospective groom knew about her reckless behavior with a Frenchman at eighteen, there might never be a marriage....
Lily flinched. She sometimes felt as if she were teetering on a narrow precipice, and one day soon, she would fall to one side. But which side would it be? Would she end up closed off like her mother, or open and loving like Sophia?
She felt her chest constricting under the pressure to choose the right side, before she merely lost her balance and toppled whichever way the wind blew.
“Wear the green dress tonight,” her mother said. “And the cameo. It is so becoming on you.”
“Thank you, Mother.” Lily stood and walked her mother to the door.
Later, however, while she sat at her vanity watching her maid, Aline, do her hair, she found herself wondering what another man might think of the green dress and cameo. She suspected that man would prefer the blue one with the more daring neckline.
As she considered it more, she reconciled herself to the fact that Whitby would probably not even notice what Lily was wearing. He would be noticing the other women, as he always did. Which was why she had to forget him.
If she had a farthing for every time she said that....
Lily gazed fixedly at herself in the mirror for a moment. She thought of her childhood suddenly and heard the distant sound of her own laughter as she dashed about the garden, playing tag with Whitby. His visits had always been a bright, shining light in an otherwise dark existence, when she’d lived in a house without laughter.
Her heart ached suddenly with grief and a painful longing for those singular moments from the past. She laid a hand over her heart.
“Are you all right, my lady?” Aline asked.
“Yes, I’m fine,” she replied.
But she was not fine. Not really. She hadn’t been fine for a very long time.
She wished she could travel back in time and find the girl she had once been. The girl who had known how to skirt the shadows. The girl who was not afraid to act upon her passions.
Was that girl gone completely? Or was there still a part of her alive somewhere, deep down inside? Lily leaned close to the mirror and looked carefully into the blue of her eyes.
Chapter 2
At quarter past four in the afternoon, a liveried footman with clean white stockings and shiny buckled shoes hurried down the steps of Wentworth Castle to open the coach door for one final guest—the Earl of Whitby, the duke’s oldest friend.
Wearing an impressive dark brown wool overcoat and matching hat, Lord Whitby stepped out of the coach and smiled up at James, who had just emerged from the house with Sophia at his side.
Whitby walked up the steps, pulling off his gloves as he approached. He stopped before James and Sophia, his shoulders rising and falling with a deep sigh.
“Well. Another year has gone by, and another shooting party is upon us. Where does the time go?” He reached for Sophia’s hand and kissed it. “Duchess, you look stunning as always.”
She smiled at him. “Oh, Edward, give me a hug.” She pulled him close and wrapped her arms around his shoulders. But when she stepped away, she glanced with concern at James.
Whitby had expected such a reaction from her. He was unshaven, exhausted, and he was conscious of the fact that he had lost some weight since they’d last seen him.
James eyed Whitby curiously. “You look like hell, my friend. What the devil were you up to last night?”
With one booted foot raised on a higher step, Whitby tapped his gloves on his thigh and looked toward the moors in the distance. “The usual, I’m afraid. Colchester had one of his theater parties at his country house. It went a little late.”
“You slept during your travels here, I hope,” Sophia said.
“Yes, I did manage to get some rest.”
Which was not entirely true. Whitby had in fact sat awake all day, worrying about his sister, Annabelle.
But he did not want them to know that. They would ask why, and then he would have to tell them. And he was not ready to talk about it.
Sophia linked her arm through Whitby’s and led him up the stairs to the front door. “Well, there will be no such wild, late night parties here, I assure you. We will all retire at a decent hour like the mature, responsible adults that we are. Lights will be extinguished at precisely ten o’clock.”
Whitby laughed and glanced over his shoulder at James, who was following behind them. “Who is this impostor leading me into the house? Or has your wife finally given up her American ways?”
Smiling, they entered the grand hall, their laughter echoing off the gray stone walls and the high cathedral ceiling.
“And how are the boys—little Liam and John?” Whitby asked. “Getting into trouble yet?”
“Gracious, yes, and growing faster than weeds,” James replied. “Just the other day, Liam rode the pony without either of us holding on to him.”
“Rode the pony on his own. He’s only two, James—and heir to a dukedom, may I remind you? Your mother couldn’t have been pleased.”
James smiled. “We didn’t tell her. We thought it best to spare her the anxiety.”
They walked past a shiny suit of armor on display at the bottom of the stairs.
“Well, now that the pleasantries are out of the way,” Whitby said, “let us skip to more important matters. Is Lady Stanton here?”
Sophia stopped and slapped his arm. “Lady Stanton is a married woman, Whitby. Shame on you for asking.”
“We are friends, Eleanor and I.” He grinned. When Sophia smirked at him, he surrendered to her proper influence. “All right,” he said. “Tell me who the unmarried ladies are. I suppose they and their mothers are waiting to wrestle me to the ground.”
Sophia shook her head at him while James looked on, amused and unsurprised. She listed off the names while they climbed the stairs and escorted Whitby to his room in the east wing.
“I promise I will dance with each of them,” he said as he entered the Van Dekker room—the guest chamber they always reserved for him when he visited. The green velvet curtains were pulled open, held back by gold braided tassels. His trunks were already waiting for him, stacked in the center of the room, as his valet had taken an earlier train.
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