by Nora Roberts
“Don’t smart-mouth me, you little punk.” Bad Cop leaned over the bed. “I see your kind every fucking day. You’re not out of the system twenty hours before you end up bleeding into the gutter.”
Phillip didn’t flinch. “Is getting shot a violation of my parole?”
“Where’d you get the money?”
“I don’t remember.”
“You were down in Drug City to score.”
“Did you find any drugs on me?”
“Maybe we did. You wouldn’t remember, would you?”
Good one, Phillip mused. “I could sure as hell use some now.”
“Ease off a little.” Good Cop shifted his feet. “Look, son, you cooperate and we’ll play square with you. You’ve been in and out of the system enough to know how it works.”
“If the system worked I wouldn’t be here, would I? You can’t do anything to me that hasn’t been done. For Christ’s sake, if I’d known something was going down I wouldn’t have been there.”
The sudden disturbance out in the hall took the cops’ attention away. Phillip merely closed his eyes. He recognized the voice raised in bitter fury.
Stoned, was his first and last thought. And when she stumbled into the room, he opened his eyes and saw that he’d been right on target.
She’d dressed up for the visit, he noted. Her yellow hair was teased and sprayed into submission, and she’d put on full makeup. Under it, she might have been a pretty woman, but the mask was hard and tough. Her body was good, it was what kept her in business. Strippers who moonlight as hookers need a good package. She’d peeled on a halter and jeans, and she clicked her way over to the bed on three-inch heels.
“Who the hell do you think’s gonna pay for this? You’re nothing but trouble.”
“Hi, Ma, nice to see you, too.”
“Don’t you sass me. I got cops coming to the door ’cause of you. I’m sick of it.” She flashed a look at the men on either side of the bed. Like her son, she recognized cops. “He’s almost fourteen years old. I’m done with him. He ain’t coming back on me this time. I ain’t having cops and social workers breathing down my neck anymore.”
She shrugged off the nurse who hustled in to grab her arm, then leaned over the bed. “Why the hell didn’t you just die?”
“I don’t know,” Phillip said calmly. “I tried.”
“You’ve never been any good.” She hissed at Good Cop when he pulled her back. “Never been any damn good. Don’t you come around looking for a place to stay when you get out of here,” she shouted as she was dragged out of the room. “I’m done with you.”
Phillip waited, listening to her swearing, shouting, demanding papers to sign to get him out of her life. Then he looked up at Bad Cop. “You think you can scare me? I live with that. Nothing’s worse than living with that.”
Two days later, strangers came into the room. The man was huge, with blue eyes bright in a wide face. The woman had wild red hair escaping from a messy knot at the nape of her neck and a face full of freckles. The woman took his chart from the foot of the bed, scanned it, then tapped it against her palm.
“Hello, Phillip. I’m Dr. Stella Quinn. This is my husband, Ray.”
“Yeah, so?”
Ray pulled a chair up to the side of the bed and sat down with a sigh of pleasure. He angled his head, studied Phillip briefly. “You’ve got yourself into a hell of a mess here, haven’t you? Want to get out of it?”
ONE
PHILLIP LOOSENED THE Windsor knot in his Fendi tie. It was a long commute from Baltimore to Maryland’s Eastern Shore, and he’d programmed his CD player with that in mind. He started out mellow with a little Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers.
Thursday-evening traffic was as bad as predicted, made worse by the sluggish rain and the rubberneckers who couldn’t resist a long, fascinated goggle at the three-car accident on the Baltimore Beltway.
By the time he was heading south on Route 50, even the hot licks of vintage Stones couldn’t completely lift his mood.
He’d brought work with him and somehow had to eke out time for the Myerstone Tire account over the weekend. They wanted a whole new look for this advertising campaign. Happy tires make happy drivers, Phillip thought, drumming his fingers on the wheel to the rhythm of Keith Richards’s outlaw guitar.
Which was a crock, he decided. Nobody was happy driving in rainy rush-hour traffic, no matter what rubber covered their wheels.
But he’d come up with something that would make the consumers think that riding on Myerstones would make them happy, safe, and sexy. It was his job, and he was good at it.
Good enough to juggle four major accounts, supervise the status of six lesser ones, and never appear to break a sweat within the slick corridors of Innovations, the well-heeled advertising firm where he worked. The firm that demanded style, exuberance, and creativity from its executives.
They didn’t pay to see him sweat.
Alone, however, was a different matter.
He knew he’d been burning not a candle but a torch at both ends for months. With one hard slap of fate he’d gone from living for Phillip Quinn to wondering what had happened to his cheerfully upwardly mobile urban lifestyle.
His father’s death six months before had turned his life upside down. The life that Ray and Stella Quinn had righted seventeen years ago. They’d walked into that dreary hospital room and offered him a chance and a choice. He’d taken the chance because he’d been smart enough to understand that he had no choice.
Going back on the streets wasn’t as appealing as it had been before his chest had been ripped open by bullets. Living with his mother was no longer an option, not even if she changed her mind and let him buy his way back into the cramped apartment on Baltimore’s Block. Social Services was taking a hard look at the situation, and he knew he’d be dumped into the system the minute he was back on his feet.
He had no intention of going back into the system, or back with his mother, or back to the gutter, for that matter. He’d already decided that. He felt that all he needed was a little time to work out a plan.
At the moment that time was buffered by some very fine drugs that he hadn’t had to buy or steal. But he didn’t figure that little benefit was going to last forever.
With the Demerol sliding through his system, he gave the Quinns a canny once-over and dismissed them as a couple of weirdo do-gooders. That was fine with him. They wanted to be Samaritans, give him a place to hang out until he was back to a hundred percent, good for them. Good for him.
They told him they had a house on the Eastern Shore, which for an inner-city kid was the other end of the world. But he figured a change of scene couldn’t hurt. They had two sons about his age. Phillip decided he wouldn’t have to worry about a couple of wimps that the do-gooders had raised.
They told him they had rules, and education was a priority. School didn’t bother him any. He breezed his way through when he decided to go.
No drugs. Stella said that in a cool voice that made Phillip reevaluate her as he put on his most angelic expression and said a polite No, ma’am. He had no doubt that when he wanted a hit, he’d be able to find a source, even in some bumfuck town on the Bay.
Then Stella leaned over the bed, her eyes shrewd, her mouth smiling thinly.
You have a face that belongs on a Renaissance painting. But that doesn’t make you less of a thief, a hoodlum, and a liar. We’ll help you if you want to be helped. But don’t treat us like imbeciles.
And Ray laughed his big, booming laugh. He squeezed Stella’s shoulder and Phillip’s at the same time. It would be, Phillip remembered he’d said, a rare treat to watch the two of them butt heads for the next little while.
They came back several times over the next two weeks. Phillip talked with them and with the social worker, who’d been much easier to con than the Quinns.
In the end they took him home from the hospital, to the pretty white house by the water. He met their sons, assessed the situation. When he learned that the other boys, Cameron and Ethan, had been taken in much as he had been, he was certain they were all lunatics.
He figured on biding his time. For a doctor and a college professor they hadn’t collected an abundance of easily stolen or fenced valuables. But he scoped out what there was.
Instead of stealing from them, he fell in love with them. He took their name and spent the next ten years in the house by the water.
Then Stella had died, and part of his world dropped away. She had become the mother he’d never believed existed. Steady, strong, loving, and shrewd. He grieved for her, that first true loss of his life. He buried part of that grief in work, pushing his way through college, toward a goal of success and a sheen of sophistication—and an entry-level position at Innovations.
He didn’t intend to remain on the bottom rung for long.
Taking the position at Innovations in Baltimore was a small personal triumph. He was going back to the city of his misery, but he was going back as a man of taste. No one seeing the man in the tailored suit would suspect that he’d once been a petty thief, a sometime drug dealer, and an occasional prostitute.
Everything he’d gained over the last seventeen years could be traced back to that moment when Ray and Stella Quinn had walked into his hospital room.
Then Ray had died suddenly, leaving shadows that had yet to be washed with the light. The man Phillip had loved as completely as a son could love a father had lost his life on a quiet stretch of road in the middle of the day when his car had met a telephone pole at high speed.
There was another hospital room. This time it was the Mighty Quinn lying broken in the bed with machines gasping. Phillip, along with his brothers, had made a promise to watch out for and to keep the last of Ray Quinn’s strays, another lost boy.
But this boy had secrets, and he looked at you with Ray’s eyes.
The talk around the waterfront and the neighborhoods of the little town of St. Christopher’s on Maryland’s Eastern Shore hinted of adultery, of suicide, of scandal. In the six months since the whispers had started, Phillip felt that he and his brothers had gotten no closer to finding the truth. Who was Seth DeLauter and what had he been to Raymond Quinn?
Another stray? Another half-grown boy drowning in a vicious sea of neglect and violence who so desperately needed a lifeline? Or was he more? A Quinn by blood as well as by circumstance?
All Phillip could be sure of was that ten-year-old Seth was his brother as much as Cam and Ethan were his brothers. Each of them had been snatched out of a nightmare and given a chance to change their lives.
With Seth, Ray and Stella weren’t there to keep that choice open.
There was a part of Phillip, a part that had lived inside a young, careless thief, that resented even the possibility that Seth could be Ray’s son by blood, a son conceived in adultery and abandoned in shame. It would be a betrayal of everything the Quinns had taught him, everything they had shown him by living their lives as they had.
He detested himself for considering it, for knowing that now and then he studied Seth with cool, appraising eyes and wondered if the boy’s existence was the reason Ray Quinn was dead.
Whenever that nasty thought crept into his mind, Phillip shifted his concentration to Gloria DeLauter. Seth’s mother was the woman who had accused Professor Raymond Quinn of sexual harassment. She claimed it had happened years before, while she was a student at the university. But there was no record of her ever attending classes there.
The same woman had sold her ten-year-old son to Ray as if he’d been a package of meat. The same woman, Phillip was certain, that Ray had been to Baltimore to see before he had driven home—and driven himself to his death.
She’d taken off. Women like Gloria were skilled in skipping out of harm’s way. Weeks ago, she’d sent the Quinns a not-so-subtle blackmail letter: If you want to keep the kid, I need more. Phillip’s jaw clenched when he remembered the naked fear on Seth’s face when he’d learned of it.
She wasn’t going to get her hands on the boy, he told himself. She was going to discover that the Quinn brothers were a tougher mark than one softhearted old man.
Not just the Quinn brothers now, either, he thought as he turned off onto the rural county road that would lead him home. He thought of family as he drove fast down a road flanked by fields of soybeans, of peas, of corn grown taller than a man. Now that Cam and Ethan were married, Seth had two determined women to stand with him as well.
Married. Phillip shook his head in amused wonder. Who would have thought it? Cam had hitched himself to the sexy social worker, and Ethan was married to sweet-eyed Grace. And had become an instant father, Phillip mused, to angel-faced Aubrey.
Well, good for them. In fact, he had to admit that Anna Spinelli and Grace Monroe were tailor-made for his brothers. It would only add to their strength as a family when it came time for the hearing on permanent guardianship of Seth. And marriage certainly appeared to suit them. Even if the word itself gave him the willies.
For himself, Phillip much preferred the single life and all its benefits. Not that he’d had much time to avail himself of all those benefits in the past few months. Weekends in St. Chris, supervising homework assignments, pounding a hull together for the fledgling Boats by Quinn, dealing with the books for the new business, hauling groceries—all of which had somehow become his domain—cramped a man’s style.
He’d promised his father on his deathbed that he would take care of Seth. With his brothers he’d made a pact to move back to the Shore, to share the guardianship and the responsibilities. For Phillip that pact meant splitting his time between Baltimore and St. Chris, and his energies between maintaining his career—and his income—and tending to a new and often problematic brother and a new business.
It was all a risk. Raising a ten-year-old wasn’t without headaches and fumbling mistakes under the best of circumstances, he imagined. Seth DeLauter, raised by a part-time hooker, full-time junkie, and amateur extortionist, had hardly come through the best of circumstances.
Getting a boatbuilding enterprise off the ground was a series of irksome details and backbreaking labor. Yet somehow it was working, and if he discounted the ridiculous demands on his time and energy, it was working fairly well.
Not so long ago his weekends had been spent in the company of any number of attractive, interesting women, having dinner at some new hot spot, an evening at the theater or a concert, and if the chemistry was right, a quiet Sunday brunch in bed.
He’d get back to that, Phillip promised himself. Once all the details were in place, he would have his life back again. But, as his father would have said, for the next little while . . .
He turned into the drive. The rain had stopped, leaving a light sheen of wet on the leaves and grass. Twilight was creeping in. He could see the light in the living room window glowing in a soft and steady welcome. Some of the summer flowers that Anna had babied along were hanging on, and early fall blooms shimmered in the shadows. He could hear the puppy barking, though at nine months Foolish had grown too big and sleek to be considered a puppy anymore.
It was Anna’s night to cook, he remembered. Thank God. It meant a real meal would be served at the Quinns’. He rolled his shoulders, thought about pouring himself a glass of wine, then watched Foolish dash around the side of the house in pursuit of a mangy yellow tennis ball.
The sight of Phillip getting out of his car obviously distracted the dog from the game. He skidded to a halt and set up a din of wild, terrified barking.
“Idiot.” But he grinned as he pulled his briefcase out of the Jeep.
At the familiar voice, the barking turned into mad joy. Foolish bounded up with a delighted look in his eyes and wet, muddy paws. “No jumping!” Phillip yelled, using his briefcase
like a shield. “I mean it. Sit!”
Foolish quivered, but dropped his rump on the ground and lifted a paw. His tongue lolled, his eyes gleamed. “That’s a good dog.” Gingerly Phillip shook the filthy paw and scratched the dog’s silky ears.
“Hey.” Seth wandered into the front yard. His jeans were grubby from wrestling with the dog, his baseball cap was askew so that straw-straight blond hair spiked out of it. The smile, Phillip noted, came much more quickly and easily than it had a few months before. But there was a gap in it.
“Hey.” Phillip butted a finger on the bill of the cap. “Lose something?”
“Huh?”
Phillip tapped a finger against his own straight, white teeth.
“Oh, yeah.” With a typical Quinn shrug, Seth grinned, pushing his tongue into the gap. His face was fuller than it had been six months before, and his eyes less wary. “It was loose. Had to give it a yank a couple of days ago. Bled like a son of a bitch.”
Phillip didn’t bother to sigh over Seth’s language. Some things, he determined, weren’t going to be his problem. “So, did the Tooth Fairy bring you anything?”
“Get real.”
“Hey, if you didn’t squeeze a buck out of Cam, you’re no brother of mine.”
“I got two bucks out of it. One from Cam and one from Ethan.”
Laughing, Phillip swung an arm over Seth’s shoulders and headed toward the house. “Well, you’re not getting one out of me, pal. I’m on to you. How was the first full week of school?”
“Boring.” Though it hadn’t been, Seth admitted silently. It had been exciting. All the new junk Anna had taken him shopping for. Sharp pencils, blank notebooks, pens full of ink. He’d refused the X-Files lunch box she’d wanted to get him. Only a dork carried a lunch box in middle school. But it had been really cool and tough to sneer at.
He had cool clothes and bitching sneakers. And best of all, for the first time in his life, he was in the same place, the same school, with the same people he’d left behind in June.
