by Kaero Davis
You get cornered or stuck, even snuffed,
Set your bluff and make it enough,
Cause it’s just as they say –
When the going get’s tough,
Make your mind,
Ahead of time,
Design – redefine,
Reason – existence, this mortal bind,
Gotta have the mind,
Up, ahead of time,
Strategize – plan your strike,
Or else forever be left behind,
Exit Scenario
“I often have to apologize to myself on behalf of others when I feel offended for saying a hello but receive a bad or poor attitude in return. Little does anyone ever know anything about you or who you are inside – and little does anyone ever contemplate the impact of their attitude towards you – or life at that particular moment. On occasion it only ever takes just that one rude bastard having a shit day to scramble up yours. The trick is being able to take it as a grain of sand or a pinch of salt because on the grander-scale, those quick few seconds really don’t matter. Not if your paths are never destined to cross for an extended period of time or if they ever cross again. Even when you can never really know. Sometimes, when you have no faith in humanity – you’ve gotta think for others as much as yourself. I suppose that is possibly the conclusion to the riddle I’ve been trying to figure out now for some time. But where does one draw the line for propriety? How do we know when we can say a deadest ‘NO’ – or ‘that isn’t good for us’ – at what point can we decide as individuals what’s good or bad for our nation as a whole? I felt I even knew the answer to that before I even went to ask, which would have to be once again a majority vote at some stage – I’d say, anytime where we feel our comfort or more, is endangered of being endangered. But in my defence, I’d just really like to say it’s all a matter of opinion and perspective, as to – ‘one man’s trash, is another man’ treasure’, or ‘one man’s fun is another man’s Hell’. It just seems to me more and more that we need a paradigm shift – and a more thorough education.” – Euxervarius.
Enter Scenario
“The very first ever martyr, the very first one to be given charge of this position failed. It is debatable; and has been for a good period of time, even this opinion is debateable. Nonetheless, light – can be symbolized in so many various ways. What it means to me would take too long an explanation, though we often fit ‘light’ into the category of ‘good’ – or I do anyway. Many say God is love, and unconditional love at that. And what can heal and override misery and pain and soothe even anger is but the kind and gentle care that love has to offer. I know of anger, hatred, misery and pain well, and I know even better that love will prevail over them. I have felt extremes in each; anger, hatred, misery, pain and even fear – and having a mental illness hasn’t made the reception any easier when coming round to dealing with it, yet I remain hopeful, ask for guidance at times from the higher power. I ask for patience and understanding and that I can eventually let go of all the hurt. I ask, and I receive, but in my prayer’s, I also promise something in return. I often feel guilt when receiving what I desire without being able to give anything back, in fact – I’d only ever prefer to be giving – it wouldn’t bother me if I never receive anything back at all, only that I can still feel an abundance and fulfillment in other ways – and I’m not afraid to work for it either. I promise the heavenly father that where there is an occasion that I might help anyone, then I’ll take any opportunity I can to fulfil in my assistance. I have enough heart to know that I wouldn’t just sit and watch as others face any kind of trouble but rush to their aid immediately and try help figure out a solution for resolve. I empathize with many as difficult as it sounds or as difficult as it is to believe – God knows I’ve been in countless undesirable positions before and somehow gotten myself out. I can and do fully empathize and would endeavour my complete efforts to help anybody in dire need. I know the good lord and the heavenly father would one-day smile on me – so long as I serve in His purpose in the meantime and hope I’ll have another rescue me – should I be in need of assistance. Anyway, ‘Angel Of Light’ was inspired by my desire of working for the higher power, and my gratitude…” – Zharrarhkerrin.
Angel Of Light
The fallibility of mankind,
Is tested most in desperate times,
And one might turn to a life of crime,
Or follow other signs and really outshine,
Now I don’t have much but I do wish to share,
The size of my heart has love to spare,
I willingly give because I care,
The faith I bestow is surely rare,
I’d give anything to be your older brother,
Maybe the hero – maybe the martyr,
To rid the world of all we suffer,
Of any darkness and evil moving to smother,
Each time I would cry I’d look to the sky,
And beg and plead to God’s merciful side,
That he might be a gentle guide,
And bring to light some fresh insight,
Now I wish to be your strength,
And go further beyond the greatest lengths,
Be the first to your defence,
No matter the expense nor how intense,
And you will never be alone,
I’ll follow wherever you roam,
Redeem you when you wish to atone,
Salvage you of evils, both known and unknown,
Watcher, protector,
Turpitude deflector,
Mister going to go and put shit right,
Your new and improved ‘Angel Of Light’,
But now I look down from the sky,
To touch you as soon as you cry,
Cause now I’m at God’s merciful side,
I’ll be your guide…
Exit Scenario
“It has always been a fantasy of mine to become an influential supernatural being; though it may never happen to me or for me, there are still plenty of opportunities for me to be influential, many ways of it too – though preferably for good. For all I know, God may favour me and allow this desire to come true – but of course there’s the after-thought of the responsibility that goes right alongside the power. I seriously doubt I’d ever betray His trust if ever given the chance, I doubt in all my mind that I’d abuse it, not for the faith returned to me for such. I’d do my best to keep my word. God should know me well enough by now to know I’m too honest. Even if there are folk out there that would sooner call me a liar – God would most definitely have the power to look into my heart to see for himself to judge. He alone knows of the perils I’ve faced with as much certainty as I have, he’d have watched every step of my growth into the man I’ve become so far – and I assume he can only know who I might be and how further on. And for such influence as the heavenly father has had in my growth – I would consider his opinion to be the one of top-most importance. Aside from the more immediate sources of people I’ve grown to love and trust throughout. But my life is far from over – I have much more to learn, and more to pass on to others yet. It’s not too late to make a change – never is, not really. I will carpe diem, and make the most good of it as I can.” – Zharrarhkerrin.
Enter Scenario
“One way to weed out who to trust is by putting people in desperate situations to see what they say about who, what it was and where, when etc. – if they spill their guts and sell you out – you’ll know about it soon enough. Just remember what bait you’d lain where for each trap. There are other ways – possibly less incriminating or less unfortunate, but when you just can’t tell, it’s probably the best way you can know. You can get a feel by observing them, reactions, responses, expressions – bodily movement etc. people do questionable things that can on occasion make you want to question their loyalty and integrity. All
the same, if a time arose and you hadn’t count your blessings, you may be into a fall for more than you’d bargained for. This piece details an account of mine alone, attempting to reason at the faith Christ had upon his peers and billions to have come and gone after. He kept his mouth shut, but it was fucked none of his cronies did the same. Perhaps he might’ve lived had he taken better precaution in his endeavours. The poor bastard couldn’t save his mortal self. Perhaps he could’ve if he wanted – shit, he could turn water to wine for fucks’ sake. Any sane man would’ve pulled a Houdini and got the fuck outta there. We know the point he was trying to make, unfortunately martyrs have to suffer – preferably with an audience…I suppose at least he knew that much…” – Lazemhed.
Battle Of Faith
Confide your love and faith in Christ,
Submit, surrender, follow grace to paradise,
Remorse, repent and sanctify,
Purge, re-lent and sacrifice,
Wait – What? I can’t do as I please?
But you know full-well everybody’s got needs,
Christ wants faith but won’t spare any?
There’s no quicker way making friends enemies,
You say if I’m sincere enough remorsing for my sins,
Hell’s death-grip bondage on me will wither and thin,
But if you knew me any better than you think –
You’d see a win where you’d think shit’s grim,
Who or what would I be to regret all of my past?
To just quit at dead ends and not carve a new path?
Not all of it was a blast except the kind through a heart,
And it’s not uncommonly known there’s comfort in the dark,
Christ knows love is worth fighting and dying for,
And no other martyr matters more than this messenger metaphor,
Love is an abstract concept, another perspective for thought,
In all purity is intense, can’t be bought but taught,
A good lot of my sin consisted of loving things,
That made living life less dull and less dim,
So be the false skin – and lies therein,
Anybody worth remembering have stories worthy telling,
You could be a right royal piece of shit,
But somebody out there still thinks you’re mint,
You could be commit for less than you care to admit,
Persecution rolling quick and you’re roasting on a spit…
Exit Scenario
“So, Christ must’ve been confident with all he’d accomplished before he’d suffered. Reminds me of a joke I’d heard years ago – ‘Why are Jewish men the most confident in the world? – they cut a bit of their dick off before they know how long it grows.’ I don’t mean to blaspheme – there are just too many flaws in the rationale, too many faults in the reasoning. Too many loopholes. Christ wasn’t ever the only one either. It appears to be such a common thing from theft – to infidelities with marriages and relationships of all kinds. Every one of us must face a battle of faith at some point in our lives. Shit, some of us are the cause of our own undoing.” – Lazemhed.
Enter Scenario
“How does it feel really being in control of your life as opposed to living under the compliance of another’s will? Fucking phenomenal. Who likes answering to someone else? Not fucking me. Been a victim of control before and it feels great being released of it, fulfilling almost. What such splendour it is not answering to anybody else but living as comfortable as I like, doing as I like to do. Maybe occasionally bending or breaking the odd rule here and there, but all for the experience. That extra little bit of interaction (whether wanted or not) between others out of irritation over; the dead silence of similar wavelength understanding between others where – what’s known is known between each other without ever having a remark made to make awkward tensions between us and those others. No, I like the chaos – I love the attention – again, interaction – exchange of conversation between me and others that really isn’t that necessary to have. Can you tell I get bored easily? I want to make a difference – some kind of impact to influence many people’s lives that would stir some kind of controversy. Talk that’ll spread for miles and a reputation that reaches towns long before I arrive to visit. A reputation that precedes me. I want to be an entity, recognized by thousands. I want to be the king.” – Towltku.
Be The King
I’ve seen some things no one ever should,
And these never led to anywhere good,
These things I’ve witnessed were far from right,
I could almost say that I’d trade in my sight,
I’ve had corpses of the damned,
Hunt me down for reprimand,
Been confused these allusions weren’t just delusions,
Had to sleuth to further prove they weren’t mere illusions,
When you live without boundaries, life can be hell,
But when you live by many rules, you’ve got less to tell,
You could have life boring or you could soak in glory,
But I know I’d best my story without painful mourning,
So why don’t you rip off that grave face,
Shake off all of your fallen grace,
Break the chains on your slave brace,
Pick up from where you last lost place,
And you’ll soon see things you couldn’t live without,
Wonder how you ever had your doubt,
Nothing is ever as bad as it seems,
You could soon be living all your dreams,
Be the king to your own throne,
Nevermore need to piss and moan,
Go ahead and throw your stones,
Show they’ll soon rue your tone,
So why don’t you rip off that grave face,
Shake off all of your fallen grace,
Break the chains on your slave brace,
Pick up from where you last lost place,
Be the king to your own throne,
Nevermore need to piss and moan,
Go ahead and throw your stones,
Show they’ll soon rue your tone,
Exit Scenario
“Yeah, that’d be the life. I’ve got things good for now yet I wouldn’t mind being that little bit more better off than I am now, but who wouldn’t? who doesn’t dream of being successfully wealthy? But mainly aside from that – being of an importance where people try to involve themselves around you – engage with you no matter what you’re doing or where you’re going, hell, the more alibis – the better right? No, in a role of that position, reputation is everything and God knows who’s going to see or hear what you’ve been getting up to, and people talk, it normally doesn’t take too long after doing something that you find some folk have more knowledge of what you’re doing long before you get to it yourself. Bloody rumours, conjecture, and by the time you hear what people know of you, the entire story’s been altered. But, in a way – the less importance you make of someone – the less of a big deal it really is – and nothing they can do or say will affect you the way it might on occasion hope for. Shit, I want to be different – I want to stand out in a crowd – and I actually do as it is already, but to at least be looked up to as a good influence and make impressions that won’t affect me negatively. And we all know that saying – with power comes an amount of responsibility – well, if you’re as big a reputation as king – you’ve gotta behave yourself and lead by example. And some days I reckon I might should I be given that position but, on stranger days – in different situations – I probably wouldn’t mind rebelling, even in the ‘Kingly’ position. It depends on states of mind and circumstances. I know what I want and that’s a fulfilling lifestyle with a lot to tell of at the very end. Of the hundreds of things I can eventually feel pride in knowing, I’d have been there
and done that. And if there was just one regret I would die with, it’d be that I never did more than I could’ve, or would’ve wanted to.” – Towltku.
Enter Scenario
“‘Bitter Lemons’ is about utilizing the worst of what you’re given and making it turn in on itself for a positive effect. It’s about taking an absolute fucked situation and using it to purposefully accelerate success of positivity where it may otherwise drown you in hopelessness. This piece was written with the objective to illustrate even the harshest of obstacles, may in fact be a god-send, a blessing, a miracle. For a long time, I couldn’t understand why these particular unfortunate circumstances where handed my way, but given my talent – I have the power to demonstrate just how effective it is to put good use to my lessons, my revelation. Life lessons that may be used to assist in a way of aiding others in their decisions at how to determine what methods may work for them despite whatever consequences, and with such a morbid humour – I do also approve of these instances with an amount of hilarity. As much as I am dropping hints to things, I am intentionally providing an entertainment about it. I write journal entries, I write poetry – more so hopefully lyrics to songs yet to have musical influence added to later – though mainly based around the hidden darkest fantasies and/ of human nature. And speaking of, it is human nature to be displeased with something that goes against our better preferences – it is within human nature to despise any difficult obstacle that deters and prevents us doing what we feel we enjoy. One might actually call it ‘superhuman’ to absorb it all, absolve it and make whatever situation happens – work better for you, work in your favour.” – Velb.
