ALSO BY BECCA FITZPATRICK
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First published in Great Britain in 2015 by Simon & Schuster UK Ltd
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THIS ONE'S FOR MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
First and forever, thank you to the Fitzpatrick boys: Justin, Riley, and Jace.
Thanks to Jenn Martin, who works tirelessly behind the scenes so I can focus on writing.
I'm grateful to my team at Simon & Schuster: Jon Anderson, Justin Chanda, Anne Zafian, Mekisha Telfer, Lucy Ruth Cummins, Chrissy Noh, Katy Hershberger, Dorothy Gribbin, Jenica Nasworthy, Chava Wolin, and Angela Zurlo.
A shout-out to Zareen Jaffery, editor extraordinaire.
I owe my copyeditor and proofreader, Katharine Wiencke and Adam Smith, respectively, a thank-you.
Catherine Drayton, it's been a wild and exciting seven years. Thanks for taking a chance on me. Lyndsey Blessing and the crew at InkWell Management: Thank you for your support!
To the many librarians and booksellers who've placed my books into the hands of a reader: consider this a thank-you just for you.
Thanks to Matt Epley for answering my baseball-related questions.
Thanks to Cameron and Rebecca Chin for providing insight into the world of rodeo cowboys and ranch life.
Thanks to Erin Tangeman for helping me with a couple law-related inquiries.
Thanks to Rob Baer for answering my questions about broken ankle bones--even if you did ask for a rather steep cut of the royalties as compensation.
Thanks to Jason Hales, who, I hope, believes in second chances.
Laura Andersen, Ginger Churchill, and Patty Esden: Long-distance hugs have worked surprisingly well at holding our group together. Love you now and always.
Finally, a heartfelt thank-you to you, dear reader. Whether you've been reading my books over the years, or you're taking a chance on me now, it's been a pleasure writing for you. I do hope you enjoy Chet and Stella's story.
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AN ANGRY RAP SHOOK THE MOTEL ROOM DOOR. I lay perfectly still on the mattress, my skin hot and clammy. Beside me, Reed drew my body to his.
So much for ten minutes, I thought.
I tried not to cry as I nestled my face into the warm curve of Reed's neck. My mind absorbed every detail, carefully retaining this moment so I could play it back for a long, long time after they took me away.
I had a wild impulse to flee with him. An alley flanked the motel, visible from the room they kept me in. Details like where we would hide and how we'd keep from ending up at the bottom of the Delaware River with cement blocks strapped to our feet kept me from acting on that impulse.
The knock grew louder. Bending his head close to mine, Reed breathed deeply. He was trying to remember me, too.
"The room is probably bugged." He spoke so softly, I almost mistook the sound for a sigh. "Have they told you where they're taking you?"
I shook my head from side to side, and his face, which was crisscrossed with cuts and swollen at the cheekbones, fell. "Yeah, me neither."
Because his body was also bruised, he rolled gingerly onto his knees, searching along the headboard. He opened the nightstand drawer and fanned the pages of the Gideon Bible. He looked under the mattress.
Nothing. But of course they'd bugged the room. They didn't trust us not to talk about that night, even though my testimony was the last thing on my mind. After everything I'd agreed to do for them, they couldn't give me ten minutes, ten private minutes, with my boyfriend before they dragged us apart.
"Are you mad at me?" I couldn't help whispering. He was in this mess because of me--because of my mom. It was trouble with her that had effectively ruined his life and future. How could he not resent me even a little? His hesitation made me feel a deep, limitless anger toward my mom.
Then he said, "Don't." Softly, but firmly. "Don't say that. Nothing's changed. We're going to be together. Not now, but soon."
My relief came quick and sure. I shouldn't have doubted him. Reed was the one. He loved me, and had proven once again that I could count on him.
A key scraped the lock.
"Don't forget the Phillies account," Reed whispered urgently in my ear. I met his eyes. In the seconds that followed, we shared an unspoken conversation. With one slight nod, I told him I understood.
Then I threw my arms around him so tightly I heard the breath go out of him. I released him just as Deputy Marshal Price thrust open the door. Two black Buick sedans idled in the parking lot behind him.
He glanced between us. "Time to go."
A second deputy, one I didn't recognize, led Reed out. With one backward glance, Reed held me in his gaze. He tried to smile, but only one side of his mouth turned up. He was nervous. My heart began to pound. This was it. Last chance to run.
"Reed!" I called out. But he was already inside the car. I couldn't see his face behind the tinted glass. The car turned out of the lot and accelerated. Ten seconds later I'd lost sight of it. That's when my heart really started to pound. This was actually happening.
I squeezed my suitcase handle hard between my fingers. I wasn't ready. I couldn't leave the only place I knew. My friends, my house, my school--and Reed.
"First step's always the hardest," Deputy Marshal Price said, coaxing me outside by the elbow. "Loo
k at it this way. You get to start life fresh, reinvent yourself. Don't think about the trial now. You won't have to see Danny Balando for months, maybe years. His attorneys will tie this case up in knots. I've seen the defense delay trial with excuses ranging from a lost E-ZPass to traffic on the Schuylkill Expressway."
"Delay?" I echoed.
"Delays lead to acquittals. General rule. But not this time. With your testimony, Danny Balando is going to prison." He squeezed my shoulder with conviction. "The jury will believe you. He's facing life without parole, and it's going to stick."
"He'll stay in jail through the trial?" I asked uneasily.
"Held without bail. He can't get to you."
Holed up in a safe house for the past seventy-two hours while I waited for my mother's drug dealer to be arraigned on a first-degree murder charge and multiple counts of drug possession and trafficking, I'd felt like a prisoner.
The last three days, a pair of U.S. marshals had guarded me at all times. Two in the morning, another set during the day, and two more for the night shift. I was not allowed to either make or receive phone calls. All electronics had been confiscated. I was provided a wardrobe of ill-matching pieces a deputy had grabbed from my closet at home. And now, as a key witness in a federal criminal case that was going to trial, since Danny Balando had pleaded not guilty to the charges, I was about to be transferred to my final penitentiary. Whereabouts unknown.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked.
Price cleared his throat. "Thunder Basin, Nebraska." There was the faintest note of apology in his tone, which told me all I needed to know. It was a crap deal. I was helping them put away a dangerous criminal, and in return, they were banishing me from civilization.
"And Reed?"
"You know I can't tell you where he's going."
"He's my boyfriend."
"This is how we keep witnesses safe. I know it isn't easy on you, but we're doing our job. Got you the ten minutes you asked for. Had to jump through a lot of hoops. Last thing the judge wants is for one of you to influence the other's testimony."
I was being forced to leave my boyfriend, and he wanted a thank-you?
"What about my mom?" Straightforward, no emotion.
Price rolled my suitcase to the rear of the Buick, carefully avoiding my eyes. "Headed to rehab. I can't tell you where, but if she works hard, she'll be ready to join you at the end of summer."
"We both know I don't want that, so let's not play this game."
Wisely, Price let it drop.
It wasn't dawn yet, and I was already hot and sticky in my shorts and tank. I wondered how Price could be comfortable in jeans and a long-sleeved shirt. I didn't look at the gun in the holster over his shoulder, but I felt its presence. It was a reminder that the danger wasn't over. I wasn't sure it ever would be.
Danny Balando wouldn't stop searching for me. He was in jail, but the rest of his drug cartel was roaming free. Any one of them could be paid to do his bidding. His only hope was to hunt me down and kill me before I could testify.
Price and I slipped into the Buick, and he handed me a passport with a name that wasn't mine.
"You can't come back, Stella. Not ever."
I touched my fingertips to the window. As we drove out of Philadelphia in the predawn hours, we passed a bakery. A boy in an apron ran a broom across the doorstep. I thought he might glance up, and pause to watch me until I was out of sight, but he kept at his work. No one knew I was leaving.
That was the point.
The streets were empty and shiny black with fresh rain. I listened to the water rush under the tires and tried to not lose it completely. This was home. This was the only place I knew. Leaving it felt like giving up something as vital as air. Suddenly I asked myself if I could do this.
"My name's not Stella," I finally said.
"Normally, we let witnesses keep their first name, but yours is unusual," Price explained. "We're taking an extra precaution. Your old and new names sound similar, which should help you adjust."
Stella Gordon. Stell-a, Stell-a, Stell-a. I repeated the new name in my head until the syllables locked together. I hated the name.
The Buick sped up, merging onto the interstate. Soon, I saw signs for the airport, and at that moment, a fierce ache gripped my chest. My flight left in four hours. I was having a hard time breathing; the air refused to go in--it pushed down on me like something solid. I wiped my palms on my thighs.
This didn't feel like a new beginning. I craned my neck to keep the lights of Philly in view. As the car left them in the distance, I felt like my life was coming to an end.
2
SUNLIGHT STRETCHED ACROSS THE NEBRASKA MILES, burning fiery pink-gold through a bank of clouds on the horizon. It was almost sunset, and the land spread out, an expanse of never-ending cornfields broken only by the rising silhouette of a windmill or grain silo.
Gone were the sleek skyscrapers glittering with lights, the historic brick storefronts of the Main Line patched with colorful advertisements, and the lush, manicured gardens and winding roads of the suburbs. No rush of people bustling to catch the subway downtown, or car horns blaring a cacophony of staccato blasts as traffic thickened.
Deputy Price and I passed cattle grazing along the barren highway, swishing flies with their tails, a few raising their large triangular heads to gaze curiously in our direction, making me wonder when they'd last seen a car. I cracked the window. The air smelled green and alive and foreign as it whistled inside. Three shirtless boys, skinny as broomsticks, walked barefoot along the highway, fishing poles balanced over their sunburned shoulders.
I could hear my best friend Tory Bell's voice in my head. They've sent you into Children of the Corn. Forget about Italian drug lords--I give you twenty-four hours in this place.
Price said, "School's out. All summer to do what you please. You lucked out."
"Lucky me," I echoed.
"You'll be safe here."
He waited for my response, but we both knew I wasn't safe. Every morning I would wake up wondering if today Danny would find me.
"You'll be living with Carmina Songster. Retired cop. Very capable. She knows the truth about you, and she'll be living your cover story."
"What if I don't like her?"
"Everyone likes Carmina. They call her Gran. The whole town calls her Gran."
"And she's going to protect me?"
Price turned his head, leveling his Ray Ban-shaded eyes with mine. "Some friendly advice. How this summer plays out is up to you. Could be a miserable one or a tolerable one. Hell, it might even be better than tolerable. I know you're angry at your mom--"
I stiffened. "Don't bring her into this."
"Carmina can call her, when you're ready. She has the clinic's number."
I fixed him with a meaningful icy glare. "I said I don't want to talk about her."
"You've got a right to feel betrayed and hurt, but your mom is going to get better. I really believe that. You can't give up on her now. She needs you more than ever."
"What about when I needed her?" I snapped. "I stopped holding my breath for her to get better a long time ago. She's the reason I'm here, not home with my friends in a world that actually makes sense." My breath caught in the back of my throat.
Price held his tongue several minutes before saying, "After I introduce you to Carmina, I have to head back, but she knows how to reach me. Call me anytime."
"She is not my family. You are not my family. So let's not play this game either."
He grew very still, and I knew my remark had stung. He was putting his life on the line to protect me; the least I could do was show a little gratitude. But I'd told the truth. I was a job to him. We weren't family--I didn't have a family. I had an estranged father, who'd turned down the U.S. attorney's offer to place him in WITSEC with me. I was never to contact him again. And I had a mother in rehab, who I hoped I never saw again. Family implied love, commitment, a sense of solidarity. At the very least it implied living t
ogether.
We rode the rest of the way in silence. I shifted away from Price, watching the sun melt below the horizon. I'd never known the sun could take up so much space. Out here, without buildings or woods or hills to block the view, the sun wasn't merely a sphere; it seemed to spread like shimmering gold liquid, a fat brushstroke of paint on the skyline. It was as dazzling as it was alien.
After dark, Price turned onto a rural road. Plumes of dust clouded the windows. I jostled in my seat as the tires bounced over potholes. Towering, gnarled cottonwood trees framed the road, and I briefly wondered what it would feel like to climb their thick, sloping branches all the way to the top. As a little girl, I had dreamed of having my own tree house with a tire swing. But I was too old to wish for those things now.
I could just make out the silhouette of a two-story house. It had the biggest lawn I'd ever seen, with more cottonwood trees soaring over the roofline. The lawn gave way to open fields, and past those, I could see nothing but a sapphire sky powdered with stars.
It was almost overwhelming, the sheer vastness of it all. I felt completely alone. I had traveled to the edge of the world; there was nothing beyond this place. A few steps farther, and I might drop over the end of the earth.
Unnerved by the thought, I cracked my window again for fresh air, but the breeze was sticky and humid. Night insects droned in a soft, monotonous rhythm. It was an eerie, empty quiet, unlike anything I had ever heard. Suddenly I longed for the familiar sounds of home. I would never get used to this place.
Price slowed at the mailbox, checking the number against the document in his hand. Having confirmed we had the right house, he pulled into the driveway of a stately white clapboard farmhouse.
The house had a porch on both the main and second levels, two white railings running the entire width of the facade. A large American flag hung down from the second level and rippled gently in the breeze. Several smaller flags staked into the lawn created a pathway from the porch steps to the driveway running alongside the house. Bunches of colorful flowers bloomed from whiskey barrels at the top of the drive.
"We made it," Price said, turning off the engine. He popped the trunk, where my suitcase waited.
I knew I had to get out of the car, but my legs wouldn't move. I stared up at the house, unable to picture myself inside it. I thought of my real home. Last year as a birthday gift--or, more accurately, to apologize for failing to register me for driver's ed because she was too busy getting high, and the timing had just happened to work out nicely--my mom had hired a decorator to refinish my bedroom. I got to pick everything. White-painted bookshelves, a vintage chandelier, Tiffany-blue walls, and a Victorian mahogany desk we'd bought on our last trip to New York. My diary was still locked inside the top drawer. My life was back there. Everything was back there.
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