"Okay," I said, nodding at the two men as I moved to stand.
"Then that's settled," Johnnie said to Father Sanders then turned to me. "So, it's time."
"Time?" I repeated, brows drawing together.
"Yeah. For lunch. Let's go."
"What? I have to..."
"Let me treat you to lunch," he finished for me, reaching for the cup in my hands and, no lie, pushing it into Father Sanders' hands. Then he reached down and wrapped my pinkie in his pinkie and started pulling me down the aisle toward the front door.
I was so frazzled by the gesture that I didn't think to object until we were already outside on the front steps. "I, ah, I need my purse," I tried dumbly.
"Not familiar with the concept of being treated to lunch, huh?" he asked, swinging our entwined hands between us as we walked down the street.
"Johnnie, I really don't think..."
"That there is anyone in the world you would rather share a meal with? I know. I'm pretty fucking phenomenal."
I felt myself smile, but shook my head at him. "That's really annoying, you know."
"My charm?" he asked, turning toward me with a wink.
"You cutting off my sentences," I corrected.
"But mine are a whole lot nicer than yours."
"How do you know that when you won't let me finish?"
"Because I know you are intrigued by me. You think I'm interesting. And I know you've thought about me naked." At that, I felt a blush creep up my cheeks and he smiled huge. "See? Now, because I know you feel that way, I also know you are going to do everything in your power to try to shut me down."
"And why would I do that?"
"Because you're smart," he said simply, opening the door to the diner for me and dropping my pinkie. I felt unreasonably sad for the loss of contact. I thought he was done speaking but he moved up behind me as we waited for the hostess (Carol, a sixty-plus year old woman who moved with the pace of a snail) to make her way up to us. His fingertips brushed my hip and his breath was warm on my ear, making a small shiver run through my body. "And smart girls know I am nothing but trouble. But let me tell you, angel, I am worth the risk."
"Johnnie!" Carol greeted him, ignoring me completely and, for once, I wasn't offended by it.
"Miss Carol," Johnnie smiled disarmingly as he reached for her hand and brought it to his lips, making the mother of five and the grandmother of fifteen giggle like a darn schoolgirl. "You look lovely today."
"Oh, you," she smiled, swatting his arm as she moved to reach for menus. "Two?"
"Yes ma'am."
She led us across the half-full diner to a table in the center. "I'm so sorry about your daddy," she said as we sat and she placed the menus in front of us on the table.
"Thanks," was Johnnie's unusually clipped reply.
"Well, Jennie will be your waitress. Oh, it is so good to see you," she smiled, framing his face with her hands for a second before bustling away.
"What?" Johnnie asked over his menu when he saw my smirk.
"That thing you have. Apparently it works on females of all species, huh?"
"That... thing I have?" he repeated, knowing darn well what I meant.
"Yeah and I listened to her whine for an hour about her fight with Mindy Sue," a voice broke in from over Johnnie's shoulder, drawing my attention. It was a table of early-twenties-something guys, all in jeans and tees with baseball caps on. "Then that fucking bitch puts me in the friend zone?" he asked the group who exploded in support for their poor, sexless friend.
I felt the anger well up inside, making my skin feel itchy, making me want to reach over the table and slap the jock-jerk across the face. Not just for using the b-word, but for assuming that being a friend to a woman could possibly be a bad position to be in.
Johnnie's head cocked to the side while watching me before he suddenly scooted his chair back and turned it so his profile was toward the guys at the table behind us. He reached out and tapped the one who had been speaking on the shoulder, making him turn slightly in his chair to look at him.
"What?"
"Women don't trade pussy for kindness," he started. "Thinking you're owed something for not being an asshole, makes you an asshole. She ain't a bitch 'cause she doesn't want your dick, but you sure as fuck are a dick for calling her a bitch just because she has some standards that you obviously don't meet."
"What the fuck do you know about anything?" one of the braver guys at the table asked.
"Take it from someone who gets more pussy than the whole lot of you could ever handle, women can sense when all you see in them is spread legs and an open mouth. You're going to be spending a lot of time in that 'friend zone' of yours if you don't smarten up."
"Man, I don't know who the fuck you think you are..." the loud-mouth started, planting his hands on the table and moving to stand.
"Uh uh uh," Johnnie said, shaking his head at him. "You don't want to do that."
"Fuck you you little punk. I'm gonna fuck your shit up."
Oh, lordy. The guys were big. I mean Johnnie was no slouch, he was tall and had a wiry sort of strength, but the muscle-bound jerks had a good fifty pounds on him. Plus, there were four of them.
"Did you hear me, you pussy?" he asked, rounding the table toward Johnnie, grabbing the back of his chair and hauling it backward on two legs.
I didn't see him so much as flinch at the sudden change of position and I swear his hand moved so fast toward his jeans then back upward that it blurred. It had to have blurred because one second it was just his bare hand, the next it was his hand wrapped around the handle of a big, silver gun that he had pressed into the underside of the jock's jaw. It was a gun I recognized. It was Ben's gun.
"Heard ya just fine. You hear me?" he asked, cocking the gun, seemingly completely unconcerned about the restaurant full of people.
"Yeah... yeah, man... I hear you," the jock nodded, sweat already beading across his brow.
"Thought you might. Now I suggest you get your stupid hillbilly asses out of here."
"Sure. Sure," the jock nodded, his friends already standing as he put Johnnie's chair back on four legs.
"Tip your waitress," Johnnie called, scooting his chair back to face me as he tucked his gun back from wherever it had been hiding before. He gave me a small smile, seemingly already forgetting about the incident.
Meanwhile, my insides felt like they were shaking. "What... what was that?" I asked, annoyed that my voice sounded small and scared.
"That was me teaching those idiots that they can't make anyone they want a victim."
"You pulled a gun on them in a public place," I said, feeling the fear slip away, leaving my body adrenaline-drunk with no good outlet but anger. "What if he didn't back right down? Were you really risking a scuffle with a loaded gun in the middle of a restaurant?"
"Honey, I know how to handle a gun," he said in a way that sounded like he was trying to smooth things over.
"Oh, I know all about how you handle guns," I said, sitting back in my chair and crossing my arms over my chest. How I had managed to forget, even for just ten minutes who he was, what he was... well... that was completely beyond me.
Johnnie's head cocked to the side, his brow raising. "What do you think you know?"
"I don't think I know anything. I just know, plain and simple. Your father told me all about your little job."
There was a pregnant pause, confusion masking his handsome features for a long minute before he pushed it away. "So you know I'm a sniper."
"Snipers are supposed to snipe for their country, to protect innocent citizens. You, Johnnie, don't romanticize it, you're a killer."
He didn't flinch. He didn't react at all. He was the most unflappable person I had ever met, a trait I both envied and resented in equal turns. "Snipe, huh?" he asked, sounding amused.
"It's the right word," I said, lifting my chin.
"Whatever you say, angelface."
"You're... impossible," I said, scooting my chair
back to stand. But his hand snapped outward and covered mine, pressing it against the table top. "Let me go, Johnnie."
"Sit your pretty ass down and have some lunch and try to keep that temper under control."
"Who do you think you are to tell me what to do with my feelings?"
"Someone who understands them better than you," he said with a shrug.
"How could you possibly know my own feelings better than I do?"
"Because I'm not the one twisting everything into anger because it's easier."
"Easier?" I asked, feeling my body tense because he was right; he was so right.
"Sit," he said, slipping his fingers around my hand and squeezing before letting me go.
"Why should I?"
"Because, baby, you want to know what I have to say."
He wasn't wrong. As much as it bruised my pride to, I pulled my chair in and sat down on it.
"You were like... super good with that gun," Jennie, the eighteen year old, blond-haired, big blue eyed former cheerleader gushed as she moved to the end of our table in her awful yellow diner dress, a pad and pen poised in her hands.
My eyes went from Jennie's silly, girlish awe to Johnnie who was giving her a smile that made my belly do a flip-flop and he wasn't even directing it at me. "Thanks, pumpkin," he said. "I think I will have a sweet tea seeing as someone," he said pointedly, nodding the side of his head toward me, "made some yesterday and wouldn't let me have any."
Jennie's gaze fell to mine, utterly dismissing me. "And for you?"
"Hot tea. No milk," I clarified. It was hot as sin out, but I was feeling unsteady and tea always had a way of soothing my nerves.
"I'll be right back with that for you," she told Johnnie with a huge smile before she shuffled off, making sure her behind swayed provocatively as she did so even though Johnnie wasn't looking. I took an odd sort of pleasure in that. He wasn't watching her, because his eyes were on me.
"So who was it?" he asked, moving his menu to the edge of the table.
"Who was what?"
"Mom or dad with the booze?"
Geez. He was good. "Mom," I answered honestly.
"Really? I would have pegged it for daddy."
"Why's that?"
"Because, cupcake, you have 'daddy issues' written all over you."
"What? I do not!" I so, so did.
"Sure you do. It's why you clung so tight to my old man. It's why you feel like you need to keep a firm grip on what's going on with us."
"There is nothing going on with us," I objected.
"See? Right there," he smiled. "You know there's something here," he said, gesturing at the air between us. "And that scares the shit out of you so you try to be snippy and pick fights. It's easier for you to be angry with me, even if it is a superficial anger based on nothing, than admit that you want me."
"You think really highly of yourself," I said, clinging to the only part of his sentence that I could.
"Look me in the eye and tell me I'm wrong," he pressed.
My eyes raised defiantly to his and my mouth opened, but I couldn't push the words out. I wasn't a great liar, and that was exactly what I would be doing if I told him he was wrong.
Oh, hell. I was in for it.
FOUR
Shooter
I had her.
It was right there in her sleepy eyes looking suddenly wide; her mouth parted slightly with no sound coming out. I wasn't lying when I walked into her apartment and told her I got her. I did. She was covered in thorns she wore like a shield to keep anyone from seeing what was underneath: a woman who was soft and sweet enough to paint her living room walls a pastel purple and kept a small collection of intricate snow globes on display in a place of honor. She was so scared of anyone seeing that, of understanding her that she hadn't seemed to have made any connections in the town except with my father. No one smiled and greeted her as we walked down the street; no one in the diner waved at her as we walked in. She was an outsider. And I knew these people well enough to know they would have accepted her if she put the effort in; so it only stood to reason that she never tried. She kept everyone at a distance.
Except Pops.
Normal women her age didn't make friends with their past-middle aged drunken neighbors. Normal women her age would find the idea creepy, would assume that the only reason a man like that would help fix her shower thingy would be because they wanted in her pants. And judging by the way she looked taken back when I implied she belonged to my old man suggested the idea of such a thing had never even crossed her mind.
Fucking daddy issues.
There were many types of daddy issues. There were the girls who sought the love they never got from their fathers in every man who crossed their paths. They were the type to fall into bed with you after you called them pretty and told them they had so much potential in life. But Amelia was not that kind. Amelia was the kind who saw men as raging rivers and she knew that if she wasn't a strong swimmer, she would never be able to keep her head above water. So she kept men she thought of as a threat at a distance by attempting to be as nasty as possible. And, to her, I was a flashing warning sign.
The problem was, I wasn't so easy to shut down. And I was fucking interested. She was different. I'd known a lot of women back home. I enjoyed every sort from the fun-loving party girls always out to give a fuck to the wallflowers who could barely look me in the eye for the first couple hours. Professionally, I worked with the baddest bitches on the East coast, each one of them strong as steel. Not one of them had been able to keep kicking me back into my place the way the raven-haired, brown-eyed bombshell spitfire across the table from me could. I liked that. I was intrigued by that.
Alright. So maybe I was just looking for a distraction. I was itching to get the hell out of this place since my tires crossed into town the day before. From one town line to the other, I had nothing but bad memories. Every inch of the place was shrouded with the ghosts of my past. Every person looked at me and knew who I used to be. They all knew about the bruises that used to line my forearms. They all knew the look of my ribs sticking out of my torso. They all remembered the fights I used to pick as a young teen, misplaced anger swirling around me like poison, making me slam my fists into anyone who dared look at me the wrong way.
It was the worst possible feeling for someone who spent his life making sure no one knew about his past. I had gotten good at almost convincing myself I wasn't Johnnie Walker Allen anymore. I was just Shooter. I was a man with a gun and a steady trigger finger. I was the guy you went out for beer with who left with the hottest chick in the room. I was someone too laid-back and reckless for things like regrets and sore spots.
Being in my home town stripped away everything I had believed about myself.
And analyzing Amelia was an easy way for me to not have to turn that lens on myself.
Now add in the fact that she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life, yeah, I was interested.
Hell, I wanted to spend more time with her enough to actually fucking agree to stay for my father's funeral. That was two more days. Considering I had every intention of being on a plane back to Navesink Bank right that moment, that was a pretty big deal. Now if only I could get her to the point where she wasn't constantly trying to keep me at a distance, that would be great.
"You're not wrong," she admitted after the longest possible pause, a pause that was long enough for the waitress to come back and drop off our drinks, giving me a smile that suggested if I wanted to meet her after her shift, she would be all too willing. She was cute and she was into me in a very superficial 'we don't have the likes of you around these parts' kinda way. But she was way too young and altogether too eager. No, apparently I preferred getting caught up in Amelia's brambles.
Christ, when did I turn into a masochist?
"So we can let all the I want him, but don't want him to know I want him shit drop now?"
She rolled her eyes, letting out a long breath that sounded susp
iciously similar to a sigh. "I think you're charming, Johnnie. I'll admit that. But that's all it is. Nothing is going to come of this."
"Why not?"
"One, because I barely know you. Two, because even if I did want to get to know you, you're out of here in a few days. And three, I'm just not interested."
"Well two of those are true," I said, giving her a small smile.
"All three are true," she insisted, but it lacked the conviction she wanted it to have.
"What would you do if I kissed you right now?"
Her head jerked back almost violently, her eyes going wide as she looked around us. "You wouldn't do that."
"Wouldn't I?" I asked moving to stand slightly and lean across the table. Her eyes stayed on mine and her breathing went shallow as her lips fell slightly open. I felt the side of my lips quirk up. "You're right," I said, booping her on the nose before settling back into my seat. "When I kiss you, angel, I want it to be in private. I want you to be completely comfortable so I can kiss you slow and deep and thorough and hear the little murmurs you make at the back of your throat."
She swallowed hard once, twice, three times before she shook her head. "I don't do that," she said in an airy tone and I knew she had been fantasizing about my arms around her, holding her tight to me as I kissed her to shivers. "And you meant if not when."
"Did I?" I asked with a wink before turning my attention to Jennie who was back to take our order. I didn't need to look at the menu. One quick glance and I realized it was exactly the same as it had been when I left town. So I ordered the BLT with a side of onion rings.
Amelia ordered a grilled cheese and was holding back a smile when Jennie walked away. "Well," she said at my questioning look, "that settles it."
"Settles what?"
"You're definitely not going to kiss me after eating onion rings," she said, letting the smile slip out and the effect was so breathtaking that my chest felt tight. She didn't seem to be the kind of person who found cause to smile often, but fuck if the result of one wasn't like a kick to the balls.
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