by Angie Thomas
“Deep shit,” DeVante repeats.
“Maybe the four of us can get a place in Mexico?” says Chris.
I shake my head. “Not far enough for our mom.”
Seven picks at his face. The milk has dried and formed a crust. “All right, we need to call them. And if we call from the office phone, Ma will see it on the caller ID and know we’re not lying when we say we’re here. That’ll help, right?”
“We’re at least three hours too late for any help,” I say.
Seven stands and gives me and Chris a hand up. He helps DeVante off the bench. “C’mon. Make sure y’all sound remorseful, all right?”
We head for Daddy’s office.
The front door creaks. Something thuds onto the floor.
I turn around. A glass bottle with flaming cloth—
Whoomf! The store is suddenly lit bright orange. A heat wave hits like the sun dropped in. Flames lick the ceiling and block the door.
TWENTY-FIVE
An entire aisle is already engulfed.
“The back door,” Seven says, choked up. “The back door!”
Chris and DeVante follow us down the narrow hall near Daddy’s office. It leads to the restroom and the back door where deliveries are unloaded. Smoke’s already filling the hall.
Seven pushes the door. It doesn’t budge. He and Chris ram their shoulders against it, but it’s bulletproof, shoulder-proof, everything-proof. The burglar bars won’t let us out anyway.
“Starr, my keys,” Seven croaks.
I shake my head. I gave them to Goon, and the last time I saw them he left them in the front door.
DeVante coughs. It’s getting harder to breathe with all the smoke. “Man, we can’t die up in here. I don’t wanna die.”
“Shut up!” Chris says. “We’re not gonna die.”
I cough into the crook of my arm. “Daddy may have a spare,” I say, and my voice is thin. “In his office.”
We rush back down the hall, but the office door is locked too.
“Fuck!” Seven screams.
Mr. Lewis limps into the middle of the street. He grips a baseball bat in each hand. He glances around, like he’s trying to figure out where the smoke is coming from. With the boards on the windows, he can’t see the inferno in the store unless he looks through the front door.
“Mr. Lewis!” I scream as loud as I can.
The guys join in. The smoke strangles our voices. The flames dance feet away, but I swear it’s like I’m standing in them.
Mr. Lewis limps toward the store, squinting his eyes. They widen as he looks in through the door, straight at us on the other side of the flames. “Oh Lord!”
He limps into the street faster than I’ve ever seen him move. “Help! These kids stuck up in here! Help!”
There’s a loud crackling to our right. The fire takes out another shelf.
Mr. Reuben’s nephew, Tim, runs over and opens the front door, but the flames are too much.
“Go to the back door!” he calls to us.
Tim almost beats us getting there. He yanks hard on the door, and the glass rattles. The way he’s pulling, the door will come off eventually. We don’t have eventually time though.
Tires screech outside.
Moments later, Daddy runs up to the back door.
“Watch out,” he tells Tim, moving him out the way.
Daddy fumbles for his keys and sticks several in the lock while muttering, “Please, God. Please.”
I can barely see Seven, Chris, or DeVante for all the smoke, and they’re coughing and wheezing next to me.
A click. The knob turns. The door flies open. We rush out. Fresh air fills my lungs.
Daddy pulls me and Seven through the alley, around the corner, and across the street to Reuben’s. Tim gets DeVante and Chris. They make us sit on the sidewalk.
Tires screech again, and Momma goes, “Oh my God!”
She runs over, Uncle Carlos on her heels. She holds my shoulders and helps me lie on the sidewalk.
“Breathe, baby,” she says. “Breathe.”
But I have to see. I sit up.
Daddy attempts to run into the store for God knows what. The flames swat him back. Tim rushes a bucket of water from his uncle’s restaurant. He runs into our store and douses it on the flames, but he’s forced to jump back too.
People trickle onto the street, and more buckets of sloshing water are hauled into the store. Ms. Yvette carries one from her beauty shop. Tim tosses it onto the fire. Flames eat away at the roof, and smoke billows from the windows of the barbershop next door.
“My shop!” Mr. Lewis cries. Mr. Reuben stops him from running toward it. “My shop!”
Daddy stands in the middle of the street, breathing hard, looking helpless. A crowd has gathered, and people watch with their hands pressed to their mouths.
Bass rattles nearby. Daddy slowly turns his head.
The gray BMW is parked in the intersection near the liquor store. King leans up against it. Some other King Lords stand alongside him and sit on the hood of the car. They laugh and point.
King stares straight at Daddy and takes out his cigarette lighter. He sparks a flame.
Iesha said King was gonna fuck us up because I dry snitched. That meant my whole family.
This is it.
“You son of a bitch!” Daddy marches toward King, and King’s boys advance toward Daddy. Uncle Carlos stops him. The King Lords reach for their pieces and tell Daddy to bring it. King laughs like it’s a comedy show.
“You think this shit funny?” Daddy yells. “Punk ass, always hiding behind your boys!”
King stops laughing.
“Yeah, I said it! I ain’t scared of you! You ain’t shit to be scared of! Trying to burn up some kids, you fucking coward!”
“Oh uh-uh!” Momma starts for King, and Uncle Carlos has to work overtime to hold her back too.
“He burned Maverick’s store down!” Mr. Lewis announces to everybody, in case we didn’t hear. “King burned Maverick’s store down!”
It bubbles around the crowd, and narrowed eyes set on King.
Of course, that’s when the cops and the fire truck decide to show up. Of course. Because that’s how it works in Garden Heights.
Uncle Carlos convinces my parents to back away. King lifts his cigar to his lips, eyes gleaming. I wanna get one of Mr. Lewis’s baseball bats and knock him upside his head.
The firefighters get to work. The cops order the crowd to back up. King and his boys are really amused now. Shit, it’s like the cops are helping them out.
“You need to be getting them!” Mr. Lewis says. “They the ones who started the fire!”
“That old man don’t know what he talking about,” King says. “All this smoke done got to him.”
Mr. Lewis starts to charge at King, and an officer has to hold him back. “I ain’t crazy! You did start it! Everybody know it!”
King’s face twitches. “You better watch yourself, lying on folks.”
Daddy glances back at me, and there’s this expression on his face that I’ve never seen before. He turns around to the cop who’s holding Mr. Lewis and says, “He ain’t lying. King did start it, Officer.”
Ho-ly shit.
Daddy snitched.
“It’s my store,” he says. “I know he started the fire.”
“Did you see him do it?” the cop asks.
No. That’s the problem. We know King did it, but if nobody saw it . . .
“I saw him,” Mr. Reuben says. “He did it.”
“I saw him too,” Tim says.
“So did I,” Ms. Yvette adds.
And shit, now the crowd is echoing the same thing, pointing at King and his boys. I mean, everybody’s snitching. The rules no fucking longer apply.
King reaches for his car door, but some of the officers draw their guns and order him and his boys to the ground.
An ambulance arrives. Momma tells them about our smoke inhalation. I snitch and tell them about DeVante, although his black eye make
s it obvious he needs help. They let the four of us sit on the curb, and they put oxygen masks on us. I thought I wasn’t that bad anymore, but I forgot how nice clean air is. I’ve been breathing in smoke since I got to Garden Heights.
They look at DeVante’s side. It’s purple-looking, and they tell him he’ll need to go in for X-rays. He doesn’t wanna go in the ambulance, and Momma assures the paramedics that she’ll take him in herself.
I rest my head on Chris’s shoulder as we hold hands, oxygen masks on both of us. I’m not gonna lie and say tonight was better because he was here—frankly this has been one fucked-up night, nothing could make it better—but it doesn’t hurt that we went through it together.
My parents come our way. Daddy’s lips thin, and he mumbles something to Momma. She elbows him and says, “Be nice.”
She sits between Chris and Seven. Daddy hovers over me and Chris at first, as if he’s expecting us to make room for him.
“Maverick,” Momma says.
“A’ight, a’ight.” He sits on the other side of me.
We watch the firefighters put out the flames. No point though. They’re only saving a shell of the store.
Daddy sighs, rubbing his bald head. “Damn, man.”
My heart aches. We’re losing a family member, for real. I’ve spent most of my life in that store. I move my head off Chris and rest it on Daddy’s shoulder. He puts his arm around me and kisses my hair. I don’t miss that smug look that crosses his face. Petty.
“Wait a minute.” He pulls away. “Where the hell y’all been?”
“That’s what I wanna know,” Momma says. “Acting like you can’t answer my texts or calls!”
Really? Seven and I almost died in a fire, and they’re mad ’cause we didn’t call them? I lift my mask and say, “Long night.”
“Oh, I’m sure it was,” Momma says. “We got ourselves a li’l radical, Maverick. All on the news, throwing tear gas at the cops.”
“After they threw it at us,” I point out.
“Whaaat?” Daddy says, but in that impressed way. Momma cuts him a side-eye, and he says in a more stern tone, “I mean, what? What you do that for?”
“I was mad.” I fold my arms onto my knees and stare at my Timbs through the gap. “That decision wasn’t right.”
Daddy puts his arm around me again and rests his head against mine. A Daddy-snuggle. “Nah,” he says. “It wasn’t.”
“Hey,” Momma beckons me to look at her. “The decision may not have been right, but it’s not your fault. Remember what I said? Sometimes things will go wrong—”
“But the key is to keep doing right.” My eyes drift to my Timbs again. “Khalil still deserved better than that.”
“Yeah.” Her voice thickens. “He did.”
Daddy looks past me at my boyfriend. “So . . . Plain-Ass Chris.”
Seven snorts. DeVante snickers. Momma goes, “Maverick!” as I say, “Daddy!”
“At least it’s not white boy,” Chris says.
“Exactly,” Daddy says. “It’s a step up. You gotta earn my tolerance in increments if you gon’ date my daughter.”
“Lord.” Momma rolls her eyes. “Chris, baby, you’ve been out here all night?”
The way she says it, I can’t help but laugh. She’s basically asking him, “You do realize you’re in the hood, right?”
“Yes, ma’am,” Chris says. “All night.”
Daddy grunts. “Maybe you do got some balls then.”
My mouth drops, and Momma says, “Maverick Carter!” Seven and DeVante crack up.
But Chris? Chris says, “Yes, sir, I’d like to think I do.”
“Daaaaamn,” says Seven. He reaches to give Chris dap, but Daddy cuts him a hard eye and he pulls his hand back.
“A’ight, Plain-Ass Chris,” Daddy says. “Boxing gym, next Saturday, you and me.”
Chris lifts his oxygen mask so fast. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said—”
“Calm down, I’m not gon’ fight you,” Daddy says. “We gon’ train. Get to know each other. You been seeing my daughter for a minute now. I gotta know you, and you can learn a lot about a man at a boxing gym.”
“Oh . . .” Chris’s shoulders relax. “Okay.” He puts the oxygen mask back on.
Daddy grins. It’s a little too mischievous for my liking. He’s gonna kill my poor boyfriend.
The cops load King and his boys into patrol cars, and the crowd claps and cheers. Finally, something to celebrate tonight.
Uncle Carlos strolls over. He’s got on a wifebeater and shorts, which is so not Uncle Carlos, yet something about him still looks detectivey. He’s been in cop mode since his colleagues arrived.
Uncle Carlos gives this old-man grunt as he lowers himself onto the sidewalk next to DeVante. He grabs the back of DeVante’s neck the same way Daddy grabs Seven’s. Man hugs, I call them.
“I’m glad you’re safe, kid,” he says. “Even if you do look like a truck ran over you twice.”
“You not mad I left without telling y’all?”
“Of course I’m mad. I’m actually pissed. But I’m happier that you’re safe. Now, my mom and Pam, that’s a whole different story. I can’t save you from their wrath.”
“Are you putting me out?”
“No. You’re grounded, probably for the rest of your life, but that’s only because we love you.”
DeVante cracks a smile.
Uncle Carlos pats his knees. “Sooo . . . thanks to all these witnesses, we should get King for arson.”
“Oh, for real?” Daddy says.
“Yep. It’s a start, but not really enough. He’ll be out by the end of the week.”
And back to the same ol’ shit. With targets this time.
“If y’all knew where King’s stash was,” DeVante says, “would that help?”
Uncle Carlos says, “Probably, yeah.”
“If somebody agreed to rat on him, would that help?”
Uncle Carlos turns completely toward him. “Are you saying you want to turn witness?”
“I mean . . .” DeVante pauses. “Will it help Kenya, her momma, and her sister?”
“If King went to jail?” says Seven. “Yeah. A lot.”
“It’ll help the whole neighborhood, honestly,” Daddy says.
“And I’ll be protected?” DeVante asks Uncle Carlos.
“Absolutely. I promise.”
“And Uncle Carlos always keeps his promises,” I say.
DeVante nods for a moment. “Then I guess I will turn witness.”
Ho-ly shit again. “You’re sure about that?” I ask.
“Yeah. After seeing you face those cops the way you did, I don’t know, man. That did something to me,” he says. “And that lady said our voices are weapons. I should use mine, right?”
“So you’re willing to become a snitch,” Chris says.
“On King,” Seven adds.
DeVante shrugs. “I already need the stitches. Might as well snitch.”
TWENTY-SIX
It’s around eleven the next morning, and I’m still in bed. After the longest night ever I had to seriously get reacquainted with my pillow.
My mom flicks on the lights in my new room—good Lord, it’s too many lights in here. “Starr, your partner in crime is on the phone,” she says.
“Who?” I mumble.
“Your protest partner in crime. Momma told me she saw her hand you that bullhorn on TV. Putting you in danger like that.”
“But she didn’t mean to put me in—”
“Oh, I’ve dealt with her already, don’t worry. Here. She wants to apologize to you.”
Ms. Ofrah does apologize for putting me in a bad situation and for the way things turned out with Khalil, but she says she’s proud of me.
She also says she thinks I have a future in activism.
Momma leaves with the phone, and I turn onto my side. Tupac stares back at me from a poster, a smirk on his face. The Thug Life tattoo on his stomach looks bolder than the rest of the pho
to. It was the first thing I put in my new room. Kinda like bringing Khalil with me.
He said Thug Life stood for “The Hate U Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody.” We did all that stuff last night because we were pissed, and it fucked all of us. Now we have to somehow un-fuck everybody.
I sit up and grab my phone off my nightstand. There are texts from Maya, who saw me on the news and thinks I’m dope personified, and texts from Chris. His parents grounded him, but he says it was so worth it. It really was.
There’s another text. From Hailey, of all people. Two simple words:
I’m sorry.
Not what I expected; not that I expected to get anything from her; not that I even wanna deal with her. This is the first time she’s spoken to me since our fight. I’m not complaining. She’s been nonexistent to me too. I respond anyway.
Sorry for what?
I’m not being petty. Petty would be saying, “New number, who dis?” There’s a damn near endless list of things she could be apologizing for.
About the decision, she says.
And that you’re upset with me.
Haven’t been myself lately.
Just want everything to be how it used to be.
The sympathy for the case is nice, but she’s sorry I’m upset? That’s not the same as apologizing for her actions or the garbage she said. She’s sorry I reacted the way I did.
Oddly enough, I needed to know that.
You see, it’s like my mom said—if the good outweighs the bad, I should keep Hailey as a friend. There’s a shit ton of bad now, an overload of bad. I hate to admit that a teeny-tiny part of me hoped Hailey would see how wrong she was, but she hasn’t. She may not ever see that.
And you know what? That’s fine. Okay, maybe not fine, because it makes her a shitty-ass person, but I don’t have to wait around for her to change. I can let go. I reply:
Things will never be the way they used to be.
I hit send, wait for the text to go through, and delete the conversation. I delete Hailey’s number from my phone too.
I stretch and yawn as I creep down the hall. The layout of our new house is way different than our old one, but I think I can get used to it.
Daddy clips some roses at the kitchen counter. Next to him Sekani inhales a sandwich, and Brickz stands on his hind legs with his paws on Sekani’s lap. He watches the sandwich the same way he watches a squirrel.
