by Schow, Ryan
Sometime between this blonde lady with impossible eyes changing shows with a Ken doll looking guy with Lego hair, I fall asleep. When I wake up, I check the clock and find it’s just after five. Putting my hair back in a ponytail, straightening my clothes, I mosey out front, pop a squat on the front stoop with the house phone in one hand and my cell phone in the other. I’m starting to worry that I haven’t heard from my dad.
All around me the streets are empty. And entirely too quiet. It’s unsettling. Further off, in the distance, however, the sound of things exploding persists. How much longer is this going to last? What is really going on down there?!
Heading out back, I lean the ladder against the detached garage giving me access to the roof. The thing about my house and detached garage is, there’s nothing pretty or architecturally appealing about either. It’s purely function over form. Hence, the flat roof. Standing on the garage with a pair of my dad’s binoculars, I scan the downtown sky.
My breath catches.
I pull back the field glasses, take a second to compose myself, then bring the binoculars back to my eyes. Hovering over the downtown skies is a smattering of black dots. They’re moving around in the smoky haze. Rising up into it, then dipping back down.
Oh my God, I’m thinking, alien invasion.
No, that can’t be right.
I tilt my head and search the skies above. No mothership there. Back to the city skyline. This is where the explosions are coming from. It’s hard to imagine this has been going on for hours now. It’s even harder to believe the smoke and the explosions aren’t from gas mains. Earlier, if I was deeply invested in any scenario, it was that one.
I’m starting to freak out when the phone rings making me jump.
I pick up. “Dad?”
“Sweetheart,” he says, a bit frantic. “Are you okay?”
“I am.”
“Good, good. Something’s happening here, Indy, and it’s not looking too good.”
“Fires?” I ask.
I so badly want to tell him what’s going on here, but he sounds anxious, nearly out of breath. Suddenly I’m worried about him. Worried that he’s half the state away and poop is hitting the proverbial fan.
“I…I think…I think we’re being bombed. The city I mean. San Diego is under attack but we’re not sure by whom or what. Have you seen it on the news? Are they saying anything about San Diego? Because none of us know what’s going on here.”
There’s all kinds of commotion in the background and it’s making it hard to hear him. I stick a finger in one ear, press the phone harder against the other, then tuck my head away from my own downtown noise.
“It’s happening here, too, Dad.”
“What?! Did you say it’s happening there, too?”
“Yeah, it is I think.”
“Oh, God. Oh, God! You need to listen to me, okay? You need to listen good.”
“Daddy?” I ask, tears rushing to my eyes, my blood pumping so fast my face feels all hot and slick. I’m suddenly looking up and around, but the world is blurry behind these wet eyes of mine.
“Baby, I love you. Get to your mom’s house ASAP, and stay inside. Take your bow and arrows with you, too. And the gun. I’m not sure if I’ll make it home when I said, or at all the way things are looking here. Whatever you do, you need to protect yourself at all costs, okay?”
“I will, Dad. I love you—”
The line suddenly goes flat.
“Dad? Daddy?”
Nothing.
“Daddy?”
I reluctantly hang up the phone and I can’t stop crying. By now it’s getting dark and I’m noticing for the first time that almost no one is coming home. There are no cars, no kids outside, no mailman or really anyone. Overhead, there are no airplanes, nothing of consequence, unless you count the little black dots hovering around the downtown skies.
A pair of low flying drones zip by, causing me to look left. They are traveling at a brisk pace, which concerns me. Are they part of the problem? Or is the military trying to get a smaller set of eyes into…whatever it is going on downtown? All I know is right now I’m happy to be here and not down there.
Dad said to get to Mom’s, so I’m going to get the gun, my bow and arrows and I’m going to do what he said.
As I’m packing up the car, I’m trying to put this whole thing together. Truth be told, my mind is scrambled eggs right now. If the city has been getting bombed, like San Diego has been getting bombed, then reason would have it traffic must be beyond congested and people must be dying.
A rolling sickness drags an anchor through my insides, causing within me a deep, debilitating pain. An attack on the city would explain why no one’s coming home. They’re either dead or in the mother of all traffic jams. All I can do is hope that whatever it is doing all this will stop before it reaches this edge of town.
As I’m getting ready to head out, the sun has fallen behind the city and darkness is quickly settling in. I step outside, listen: it’s stopped. The bombing has stopped.
Maybe it’s over. Is it finally over?
Instead of going to Mom’s, I head back inside, pick up the landline and call her cell. It goes straight to voicemail. I call her home phone and it just rings and rings. Finally I do the one thing I never wanted to do and that’s call Tad, her stupid bf.
He answers quickly. “Margot, are you okay?”
“It’s me, Tad,” I say with a sigh. “It’s Indigo.”
Pause…then: “Oh, I need to keep this line clear in case your mother tries to call.”
“Yes, Tad. I’m okay, thanks for asking.”
“I don’t have time for you to be a teenager right now, Indigo.”
“Do you have time for this?” I ask, my voice high and breathless, smarting with hostility. Before he can say a word, I hang up on him.
What a jerk!
Even worse than being brushed off, I’m worried, and now more frustrated than ever. Where the hell is my mom? In between dialing and re-dialing my dad, I’m dialing and re-dialing my mom. It’s the same result: a fast busy signal. I try again every ten minutes until I get a message telling me the entire system is down.
Then at long last, it dawns on me: I’m truly on my own.
I haul my weapons back in the house, then try to find anything on TV or the internet, but both of those services are down, too. I heat a cup of noodles and grab a bag of Fritos thinking this is as healthy as it’s going to get with me all by myself and going to pieces.
Sitting on the couch under a blanket in the crushing, crushing quiet, I feel the sinking temperatures forcing the house to settle. If I hadn’t heard these creaks and pops before, I’d swear the place was haunted. I can actually feel the weight of the air cooling and I don’t like it, but what am I going to do?
Fortunately I have electricity, running water and heat, but for how long?
Chapter Twenty-Four
Mom’s dead. I’m sure of it. Whatever spent all of yesterday unleashing hell upon the city started up again with the rising sun. Now I’m really panicking. I try her on the cell phone and the lines are still down. Same with the landline. I try dad. Same. The internet is kaput, but there are still two channels being broadcast on TV. One of the less-than-polished looking talking heads seems squirmy enough to maybe be telling the truth, which looks like some kind of foreign concept that’s now completely freaking him out.
Horrifying video is now rolling: Chicago is being bombed and people are screaming, running, being wasted in the streets; New York is under attack, too—cabs are being eviscerated and the Empire State Building is being peppered with missiles from fleets of mammoth drones; California’s State Capital building is on fire, people are running, burning and being riddled with bullets.
Cut back to the talking head. His face is losing color by the minute. Even his eyes are overly jumpy, like his brain is winding up for the big, catastrophic meltdown.
The man’s veneer is steadily cracking.
Under any o
ther conditions, the network would probably cut to commercial. But these are different times and dreadful conditions.
He takes a deep breath, clears his throat, then says: “The President just returned from a short working vacation, but he was able to give a quick briefing before communications in Washington D.C. went down. Sources close to the commander say he’s working with General Slater to ready a military response, but I’m also told we’re facing the might of an enemy like no other. Certainly one we never planned for. According to one Silicon Valley insider who has been very vocal about Artificial Intelligence, he thinks AI has gone rogue and taken control of the nation’s entire fleet of drones in order to carry out what he calls an anti-human agenda. Although skeptics scoff at early speculations of a tech conspiracy, the studio here has been flooded with video and imagery from citizen journalists. It seems the skeptics are now retracting their earlier statements. Ladies and gentleman, we are officially under attack by a hostile, uncontrollable force we may not be able to stop. May God help us all.”
Struggling to breathe, feeling extra clammy and overrun by an awful, helpless emotion, I shut off the television, grab the phone and curl into a ball.
I try my dad; I try my mom.
Nothing.
So I was wrong about this being aliens. I wasn’t far off though. All those black dots hovering in the smoky skies, according to the boob tube, they’re drones controlled by AI with an anti-human agenda. Good Lord, how do I even process this?
Are the machines really killing us?
On the landline, I try mom again. All circuits are still down. I try my Dad again and to my utter frustration, I get the same result. I see myself pitching the phone across the room in frustration, but I won’t be so impulsive, so out of control.
I set it down instead.
“Screw it,” I mutter, wiping my eyes. Dragging myself off the couch, I tell myself it’s time. Time to collect my gear and head in for a closer look.
I grab the Glock, check the chamber and stuff it in the waistband of my black jeans, right in the small of my back. I pack a spare magazine (just in case) and slip that into my back pocket. My compound bow goes over my shoulder. Same with a full quiver of arrows.
Out back, it looks like a heavy fog has settled into the yard. I step into it only to realize this isn’t wet or clean air, and it’s certainly not fog. This is smoke. The sharp tinge of it stings my eyes and nostrils. The once blue sky is now a harsh, leaden color. Very dry and ashy. Suddenly I’m squinting, rubbing my eyes, and hustling to the garage for cover.
Inside the garage, I climb into the Olds, jam the key in the ignition and fire up the engine. I wait for the garage door to open, then back out into Dirt Alley. Slinking out in a steady rumble, driving past homes that look eerily vacant, this doesn’t feel right. None of this feels right. Now I can’t stop thinking about the talking head on TV, how scared he looked.
May God help us all…
On Judah, I take a right and it’s all concrete, flat faced homes and an ugly, overhead network of tram lines. There are cars parked on the sides of the road, but less cars than normal. A few other people like me are driving, but this is nowhere near the normal traffic you’d expect for this time of morning. One car ahead looks charred, like it was attacked while driving. It looks like it just coasted to the side of the road and burned to the ground where it stood. I slow down as I pass by it, a vision of the sedan engulfed in flames popping into my head.
I swing a left on 19th Avenue and that’s where things change.
There are a few mature trees lining this six lane thoroughfare, but much of the street is packed with abandoned cars. The smoke is still billowing here, fresh from a nearby house. It’s more dense than I’d like, but passable, if I’m careful.
To my right, the 19th Avenue Baptist church—a bone colored clapboard structure—stands unharmed. Several homes on that side of the street didn’t fare as well. Their frames are sagging from fire damage and collapse, and in some places, full sections of these houses are still on fire.
Slowly navigating through the boneyard of cars leaves me with a sinking feeling. Half of them are shot up, the other half are smoldering wrecks. Even worse, in some of these cars, to my absolute shock, are the remains of dead drivers. Shot-to-death drivers.
Up ahead, a pair of survivors are ransacking the cars. Confiscating the material remains. These scavengers are wearing beanies on their heads, they have scarves wrapped around their mouths and noses, and their eyes are hidden behind steampunk-like glasses.
With a fist-sized rock, one of them is breaking windows while the other is rifling through center consoles, glove boxes, back seats and trunks. I pull out the Glock, draw back the slide, then set it on my lap when I’m satisfied there’s a round in the chamber.
Driving past these deviants, they stop what they’re doing and look up at me. I look away and press on, unconcerned. The two of them go back to looting the cars.
“Jesus Christ,” I mutter to myself.
As I’m heading toward Golden Gate Park, the hard, stone surfaces are softened by the ever growing presence of trees. I hang a right on Lincoln where the road is not as narrow as others, and the smoke not as thick. There are still a number of cars sitting in the street, deserted, but I can get through here. I roll down the window, try to let some of the smoky air that collected in the Olds back out into the world.
To my left is Golden Gate Park, with all its lush foliage and mature trees; to the right are more boxed homes—three, four and five story houses with metal fire-escape stairs and concrete stoops with iron hand railings. It’s like everything else you’d see in San Francisco, but with scattered reminders that something else is out there, destroying this city block by block.
Pushing forward, forced to drive up on the sidewalks here and there, I avoid people mulling about, dazed, talking to themselves, talking to people who aren’t there. Most of these poor souls are alone. Others travel in groups. A few times, as I’m making my way through the debris, palms slap the flat surfaces of my car and angry voices curse at me. At first, this has me on edge, my nerves jostled. Most of the offending people seem harmless, a touch deranged, perhaps even jealous that I’ve got a car and they’ve got nothing. I feel bad for them. I want to help them, but what can I do?
Pray I don’t get mobbed, for starters.
Back on Lincoln, navigating cautiously through a maze of stopped cars and people, I rumble up on three men beating someone to death on the sidewalk. My breath hitches in my throat and my heart begins to hammer to a terrified beat. Everything in me cinches tight, goes rigid. The violence unfolding is like nothing I’ve ever seen in real life. The movies, sure. But real life? No way.
My car isn’t quiet, so I know they hear the deep rumble of me approaching. This gives me pause. No, this gives me cause for concern.
If they consider me a witness to their crime…
Just then one of the attackers stops, turns and pins me down with a look. His face is pumped full of rage, but in stark contrast, his eyes are as dead as I’ve ever seen. A body-rocking chill shoots through me. The two other men continue kicking the downed victim while this freak just stares at me. My eyes flick from him to the attack. It’s ruthless, unrelenting. By the time the freak with the staring problem returns to the fight, one of his pals is already stomping on the man’s head.
Fear and anxiety leave me with a knot of sickness low in my gut. I want to do something, to help, but the truth is I’m scared. I’m scared and I can’t breathe. I pick up the gun, think about shooting them just to make them stop. Can I do that? Is there such thing as a citizen’s shooting? An act of violence to stop the violence? It’s not like the cops are going to come after me when the entire block is a crime scene…
Am I actually hyperventilating?!
Setting the gun back down in my lap, thoroughly disgusted with myself for feeling so dang helpless in this situation—for failing to help the man being beaten—my foot lets up on the brake, which I’ve been
riding. It takes a minute or more for my chest to loosen, for my breathing to return to semi-normal, but that doesn’t mean I’m still not thinking of going back and intervening.
Turning my rear view mirror back to the beating, I watch the three guys finish the job. The violence finally reaches an end. I’m now at a complete stop, mesmerized, unable to tear my eyes away from them. Then again, I’m also ready to haul balls if they come after me.
But they don’t.
The victim just lays there, unmoving, his arms splayed out, his head turned to the side, streaked red. One of the attackers leans against a nearby building, exhausted. The other two go through the dead guy’s pockets looking for…whatever. Cash, drugs, keys?
Who knows.
Part of me wants to hit the gas, crank the wheel and head back and shoot them. I can’t do that, though. Do I even have that in me? I don’t know. Probably not. What I do know is that the most prudent response to murder can’t be more murder. You never undo a body count by adding to it. But by killing them, am I saving others from the same fate, or is this an isolated incident? I’ll never know. So how can I even begin to decide the fate of their lives?
I can’t. I’m not smart enough to make this decision.
“This is real,” I hear myself say on a shaky breath. My foot comes off the brake, moves to the gas pedal.
Further up Lincoln, hanging so low in the sky it’s blanketing the top floors of several apartment towers, is a huge cloud of smoke. It’s not so much a static thing as it is a boiling-underneath-with-hot-ash-and-soot kind of thing. There are flickers of orange in the gray. If I was standing outside in the already congested air without the boisterous growl of the Cutlass, I’m sure I’d hear the sounds of things being destroyed. Of buildings crumbling and people dying en masse.
