“No. Not to me. You’re Rebecca. I don’t know Raven. I don’t care about Raven and what she did. She isn’t real to me. This is the last time we talk about her. I helped Rebecca. I saved Rebecca. Raven is dead, but Rebecca will have a beautiful life, one with me. I’ve fucked Rebecca and need to do it again and again. I’ve fallen in love with Rebecca.”
When I finished my rant and finally focused on her face, there were tears rolling down her cheeks. “I love you, too,” she declared desperately and I knew I wasn’t scaring her anymore. I was in control. I’d always been in control around her. That was what she did for me.
I pulled my solid dick free of my pants and pushed it inside her roughly from behind. “Steady yourself, baby,” I whispered, and the minute her fingertips touched the floor in front of her, I punched forward until I was drilling her at an aggressive pace. It didn’t feel harsh to me. It felt necessary because it was matched perfectly by the fierce pace of the love we felt. It was both of us ridding ourselves of our pasts so we could move forward and be together.
“Jake,” she pleaded. I was the only thing keeping her on her feet right now. I knew she was overwhelmed and struggling, so I picked her up while I was still fully seated inside her wet, warm pussy, and she fought to grip my arms. Her moan when she pulled upright was electrifying. The sheer size and girth of me while she was in that position must have been ripping her in half.
“Kneel on the chair.” I watched as she composed herself on that once inanimate object that had separated us only moments ago as I resumed my immediate mission.
I planned to fuck some feeling into both of us and show her who she belonged to.
I knew she was close. Her whole body was quivering and shuddering fiercely. “Shout my fucking name, baby,” I demanded, and when I felt her insides tightening and clenching, I knew I was going along with her.
Hearing her finally scream my name was the most erotic sound ever and the sweat running down my back told me I was there, too. I sped up for as long as I was able to, and then let it all go. I let all the hurt and pain for both of us release and leave our bodies.
I was panting with emotional exhaustion as she pushed my cock from her body. The noises she made told me I’d gone too far and hurt her. But as much as I wanted to apologize, I couldn’t.
This was me.
Sex had always been my release, but now I knew, sex and love was so much more and I intended to show her that every day for the rest of my life.
There was a throw over the couch, so I used it to cover Rebecca once I’d sat down and pulled her into my lap. As much as I didn’t want to talk right now, I knew there were still words that we had to say. “Why that song?”
Rebecca shuffled around to face me. “It reminds me that I’m always going to be used by people, because that’s the hand I’ve been dealt and the role I play on this earth. Life is what it is and I’ve accepted it. My life could be a sweet dream but there’s every chance it will come with a bitter edge.”
The words leaving those pretty lips didn’t smack of the confident dancer of moments ago. They brought the lost little girl out front and centre for me to see.
“Baby, I hate that you see shit that way. For what it’s worth, everyone is always using someone. That’s the law of the jungle. Knowing that is how you survive. It’s what you choose to do with it that makes you the person you are. You have no influence on the choices others make. That’s on them. I want us to love each other and be fulfilled. Sure, life is what it is, but we can make it so much more.” Her tears began again and I understood I was unearthing emotions that she’d worked hard to bury deep.
I knew she was paying attention so I continued. “Sweet dreams can be ugly where you get used and abused. That’s the part you have to work hard to overcome. If you don’t, you’re just existing. You’re lonely and you become too afraid to live or even try.”
My words seemed to be causing a cathartic breakdown, and I didn’t think I’d ever seen someone so broken.
“Life isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. It’s up to us to make it better for each other. I can’t promise you won’t get burned again, but if it happens, you’ll have me at your back this time.”
No more words were said. She was seeking comfort and I needed to let her exorcize these demons. The ghost of Raven had caused her enough trouble and I wasn’t about to let that come between us. I’d shared the worst of me in my betrayal of my brother and she’d shown me the worst of her. That was all it needed to be, no more, a ritual exorcizing of our pasts.
I waited until she fell asleep, happy that she was with me. She felt so precious in my arms. After an hour or so, the cabin door squeaked open and I realized just how lost I’d been in the calming silence. The frenzied fuck we’d shared was now a memory and I was relishing the sleeping beauty who now sought comfort in my arms.
“We good?” I heard my twin whisper from the far side of the room. He waited until I nodded before he edged his way towards us, trying not to wake Rebecca.
“I get it now,” I told him. “I get why what I did to you hurt so bad. Just because I didn’t set out to do that doesn’t mean it hurt you any less or excuse it.”
“That’s done,” he said finally. “I promise I never knew she was yours at the club. She’s was too fucking feisty and not your usual hookup-slash-pushover type.” Jack laughed.
“She’s it for me. I’m marrying her the first chance I get.”
Jack took me seriously. “She’ll keep you on your toes.”
“She will.”
Rebecca stirred and snuggled into me further. “Jake,” she mumbled. “Sweet dreams, love you.”
“Love you too, baby,” I replied, unfazed by my brother’s presence as I kissed her sleepy head.
“Lucky fucker,” Jack said as he stood up. “The apartment, it’s yours. I’ve got some shit to sort in my own life and it’s time we forged our own paths. I’ve been offered a teaching gig out of town. Consider it my wedding present,” he finished, smiling, and he left as quietly as he’d arrived.
Rebecca
I woke and realized that I just needed to pull up my big girl panties and get over the shame and embarrassment of what I’d done. I was trying to convince myself it was necessary to atone for coming on to the wrong brother. Jake was stuck to me like glue after the night we laid Raven and his secrets to rest. I wasn’t sure what he was trying to prove but I wasn’t going to complain about him being with me.
Jack popped over first thing in the morning and apologized, even though he had no reason to. Jake was important to both of us so we knew it was the right thing to do to start afresh, this time with proper boundaries. While talking to him, I began to see the differences between the two of them. It was odd to see how alike they were while somehow managing to be completely different. I was pleased he and Jake had sorted out their differences and he seemed to get a lot of joy out of seeing his brother happy.
Dolly attempted to leave me alone for as long as she could, but when she walked in through the cabin door, laughing about the drama I’d caused, I knew I had to get over it. Apparently, Purps was ready for a new generation of mischief-makers. Dolly and her friends were only too pleased to hand me that mantle. She was relishing the chance of watching it unfold, even if Jake completely disagreed with her and found her suggestion as amusing as herpes.
The only person I had yet to meet was Lacey.
Jake’s bestie, his confidante, the girl he protected like a sister.
She was the one I was probably the most terrified of meeting. In my experience, girls could be bitches. Letting me muscle in on what had been hers for years might be tough for her.
I’d been in Hawkstown a week and bought a few new clothes at some of the local stores. They were nothing fancy, just a few snippets of fashion but I was desperate to make a good impression when I was told we were going to meet her. We’d been invited for lunch, and even Jake’s attempts to ‘sex some calm into me’ had little effect.
As we kno
cked and waited for the front door to open, I couldn’t help but feel sick to my stomach. When the door was opened by Tommy the cab driver wrestling a small child covered in jelly, I felt my nerves dial down just a notch. “Come in. This one is due for a nap, so we may get some peace and quiet if we’re lucky.”
Jake followed him into the house, grabbing my hand and pulling me with him. He grasped how major this was for me and still considered me a flight risk.
There was no other way to say it; their house was utter chaos. Toys were everywhere and it was the perfect playground for a small child to enjoy life. We carried on following him through to the kitchen area where a pretty girl our age was wiping down counter tops. When she turned to say hello, I saw the youth in her features and just how beautiful she was really was.
“Tommy still got you slaving away? Let me finish that.” Jake stepped over to her and tried to take over the chore.
“I’m done! I’m done! I had a late night with the munchkin. If you’d been here ten minutes earlier, though, I could have put you to work. I missed you while you were gone, but this new Jake… fussing about chores, wow. You must be Rebecca.” She stepped forward and hugged me as best she could without getting soap suds all over me.
Lacey ushered us to sit down and Tommy disappeared with the wide-eyed child. Ten minutes later, he returned followed by a young girl with brilliant auburn hair. “This is our other daughter, Carly.”
“Hey, Uncle Jake.” She smiled, leaning into him to give him a quick hug. She didn’t seem shy or bothered by me even though I was a stranger.
“Carly is heading off to college. My happy life is officially over and we’re entering a period of mourning in the Sevens house.” Lacey sighed. “My best girl and in house babysitter is flying the nest.”
“Mom,” she whined, “I’ve told you. I’ll be home so often you won’t have the chance to miss me.”
The wistful look on Lacey’s face was perfect. She had a messy house, jelly covered kids, a hot husband and a pretty, mature daughter she was going to miss. This was the dream. She was living the dream.
We ate a light lunch and sat making polite conversation, the nerves from before all but gone until Jake told Lacey our plans.
“We’re getting married,” he blurted out during coffee. The spoonful of sugar that Lacey was transporting from the sugar bowl to her mug fell from her hands in shock and covered the table.
“Are you fucking nuts?” she screamed at him.
“Lace,” Tommy warned.
“Don’t Lace me,” she snapped. “Rebecca. That’s it, the sum total of all I know about her. A name and nothing else. How am I supposed to support that?”
I felt my face redden with embarrassment as Carly excused herself, mumbling about the baby.
“You support this because you’re my friend and I asked you to. You support this because it’s my life and I love her.” Jake’s voice was measured as Tommy made some shitty excuse and left, nodding at Lacey like she was big enough to handle this on her own. When I stood up to follow him, they all looked at me like they’d just remembered I was there.
“Love? Really, Jake? You’ve never loved anything for longer than a few hours, so how would you know? You don’t need to get married to be together.”
Jake stood up to join me as she finished and I felt really sad for him. Her approval was as important to him as the rest of his family. “Thanks for lunch, Lacey. I didn’t come for your permission or blessing. How easily you forget the support I gave you with Tommy. Would it have killed you to just say congratulations? Instead, you embarrass me and Rebecca, as well as yourself.”
Jake was pulling me out of the kitchen and I felt awful. I could only imagine how she was feeling and I also knew I shouldn’t be causing this much friction between them. When I tugged on his hand to stop walking, he seemed surprised.
Looking at Lacey and praying for understanding, I began. “I’m sorry. All of this must have come as a shock. The fast pace scares me a bit, too. But the heart wants what the heart wants. I know you don’t know me yet but I do love him. I’ve had a shitty life and I’m ready to start one I’m excited to live. The thought of doing that with Jake makes me so happy. Please don’t hate him because of me. I really hope in time we can get to know each other better and become friends. Thank you for lunch.”
Jake was smiling his appreciation and approval as I grabbed his hand to continue our exit. I was ready to leave, feeling better about having said something.
“Wait. Tough life?” Lacey asked.
“Yeah, it was shitty but it’s the past, or at least Jake’s working on that for me.”
I watched as she folded her hands over and over while she contemplated an answer. “Maybe I was hasty, but you gotta see it from my side. I’ve had longer bathroom visits than he’s had relationships and I’m worried he’s jumping into something unknown.”
“I love that he has someone in his life who looks out for him. But life’s unknown and sometimes you’ve just got to take the chance fate has thrown at you and run with it. Everyone deserves that.”
My words finally struck a chord somewhere inside her and I saw her mellow out. She smiled at me and came to Jake. “I’m sorry. You’re right. You don’t need my approval. If she hurts you, I’ll… I’ll… well I’ll think on that one and let you know.”
Jake’s relief was apparent as he hugged his best friend. I could see how important she was to him and not having her on board would have devastated him, and by default, me.
When he put her down, Tommy and Carly magically reappeared and it was nice to end the afternoon on better terms.
In the car, Jake was silent and it unnerved me. “About what I said…”
“Yeah, about that. Hot as fuck.”
“Excuse me?” I said, sure I’d heard him wrong.
Jake looked down at his pants and indicated the bulge there. His massive man part was fighting for freedom. “Oh my.”
“You just took on my best friend and spoke from your heart to get her onside. Announcing that you loved me made me hard.” He reached for my hand and placed it over his groin. “You’re going to need to deal with this problem. You caused it.”
“I think I may be up to that challenge,” I whispered, sloping sideways towards the driver’s seat and blowing down his ear.”
“Oh God.” He shivered.
“I meant every word.” I carried on squeezing his dick as he quivered and pulled over to the side of the road.
“Hurry up, woman,” he implored as I set him free. He felt heavy and swollen in my hand, and on the first swipe of my tongue, his eyes almost rolled to the back of his head. He began to gently bang his head against the headrest in mock pain. As I set about my task, he very slowly began to gather my hair in his hands. The way he did it, section by section, became part of the tease. I knew as soon as he’d finished gathering it that I was at his mercy and I’d have no control. Each time he added more to the bunch in his palm, his grip tightened with such an exquisite mixture of pleasure and pain that he was not the only one getting turned on.
With my thick mane finally in his grasp, he started to control my head movements. I didn’t care that we were on the side of the road. I just wanted to please him.
“That’s it, baby, tease the end and let me see my silver between your teeth.” His voice was thick and heavy, the hissing noise he made just another thing that made me wet. I was doing this to him. “All in. Let me feel it deep in your throat,” he ordered, and I unhinged my jaw as far as possible. I began to breathe through my nose as he inched his way to the back of my throat and closed my eyes to concentrate as he pushed past my tonsils. I could hear his encouragement and he wasn’t the only one amazed at what I was doing.
“Looking at you like this, with my cock stuffed in your mouth taking me deep, I know I am one lucky motherfucker. I know you mean every word you say, Rebecca. You just need to learn that so do I. Fuck!” he bellowed and I felt his butt cheeks strain with effort and his hips bump up
just a fraction.
The small movement I made was just enough to change the sensation for him. “Swallow it,” he grunted, and I felt his dick widen from the base and ripple until hot, salty liquid was coating my throat. The hand around my hair was still so tight that my scalp was tingling, giving me no room to do anything else but take him.
This was us.
Getting each other off when we needed to feel that connection and show each other how we really felt.
We loved each other and I’d never felt more alive.
Jake’s hold on me lessened as he freed himself from my mouth. He became gentle and caring, smoothing my hair down and running his fingertips around my swollen mouth. He brought me up to his face, not caring about what I’d just had in my mouth, and kissed me deeply as his eyes sparkled with pride and affection.
“I—”
His cell rang and interrupted him. Looking at the screen, he said, “Jonas. I should get this.” I watched as he answered and listened for a few seconds before telling his brother we were on our way.
“Problem?” I asked with concern.
“Don’t know yet. He wants to see us now, says there’s been there a development.”
I shifted back to my seat and nervously buckled up, praying this development wasn’t going to destroy all the normality I was beginning to feel, enjoy and crave.
Jake
It was impossible to tell what was going on from that call. Jonas was his usual coded self. I grew up thinking he was abrupt but after this glimpse into his world, I knew it was just him exerting caution. He’d seen so much more than the rest of us and was fully aware of what the government were capable of. I was shitting it. I knew he had a thing about cell calls being tapped or overheard and the brave face I was showing was purely for Rebecca. I had no idea what the hell Jonas was going to tell us.
Dolly was collecting the twins from Mom and Dad’s place. It was late, which meant that my brother and his wife had made the most of their kid free time. Ross was sitting in a chair waiting for us and it only then occurred to me that I hadn’t seen him around since the night I’d arrived back in town.
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