by Max Lucado
As the light diminished, Bea urged, “Edward! The candle!”
If only he had kept his eyes on it. If only he hadn’t looked away to see where the angel went. If only his foot hadn’t gone to sleep. Then the calamity might have been averted, but it wasn’t.
Edward took a step on his tingling foot and lost his balance. As he fell face forward, he thrust one hand high in the air, hoping to grab the just-touched candle. Instead, he hit the rack and knocked it off the hooks, sending thirty candles—thirty identical candles—flying around the room.
Edward looked up at Bea. Bea looked down at Edward. Horrified. They sprang to their feet and raced around the shop, examining candles in the hope that one of them might contain a glimmer of light. None did.
After a few moments both plopped into their chairs, hands full of candles. Neither had the slightest notion which candle had been touched by the angel.
Bea burst into tears. “Now what? We have thirty candles. One of them is special, and we don’t know which!” She buried her face in her hands. Edward stared at the floor.
As the shock wore off, Bea spoke up. “You’ll have to make a new batch for tomorrow’s Advent service. We can’t risk giving away the angel candle.”
“I will. We’ll save this batch until we know what to do.”
Bea set the thirty candles in a basket, and Edward got busy in the shop.
CHAPTER 7
SUNDAY
December 18, 1864
After church the next morning, Edward and Bea were the center of attention.
“Visitors last night?”
“Any candles to distribute this week?” Wink.
“Come see me tomorrow, Bea. I’ll make biscuits.” Wink. Wink.
Later that afternoon Edward decided to go for a walk. “I need to get outside for a while, dear. Would you like to come?”
Bea declined. “You go ahead.”
But as he left the house, she stopped him. “Take these.” Bea handed him the basket of candles from the night before.
“Why?”
“I don’t know. God may tell you what to do with them.”
Edward stopped by the livery stable to greet his old friend Adam Patterson. Adam was tall and lean and ever happy and could make Edward feel as if the day revolved around his arrival. This day, however, there was no cheerful shout from within the stables, no slap on the back or offer of tea and biscuits. Edward found Adam in a horse stall, seated on a stool, leaning against a wall.
“Adam?” Edward hurried to his side. “What is wrong?”
His friend didn’t look up. “It’s my head, Edward. It pounds and pounds.”
“When did this start?”
“Last week.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“You’ve been busy with the candle.”
“Have you talked to Mr. Chumley?”
“I have. He has no solution.” Adam looked up for the first time. “My father, Edward. Remember?”
Edward remembered. Years before, Adam’s father had complained of the same symptoms and had died within a week.
Still looking at Edward, Adam said, “My friend, I know I ask much. But God must have guided you to me for a reason. Tell me. Do you still have the candle?”
The candle maker pulled a stool next to Adam and sat. “I do,” he answered. He had the candle; he just didn’t know where. Yet how could he admit this to Adam? The pain had paled his friend’s face and left his hands trembling. Edward sighed and made his decision. He reached into his basket and handed Adam a candle. “Take this, my friend. God will hear your prayers.”
Adam’s eyes misted with gratitude. Edward’s heart clouded with confusion. What had he done? How dare he give hope? But how dare he not? Adam was his friend, and, who knows, he might have given his friend the Christmas Candle.
Edward requested, “Let’s keep this our secret.”
“Whatever you say.”
After some time the candle maker left the livery stable and continued his walk. James Clemly spotted him on the street. When the pub owner requested a moment to chat, Edward guessed the topic. “The lord of the manor needs his rent, and I need some help.”
Edward motioned for James to follow, and the men stepped between two buildings. Having already given a candle at the livery stable, it seemed easier to do so again. James embraced him. Again Edward suggested secrecy. “Perhaps it’s best that you not tell anyone.”
“Sure,” agreed the bright-eyed James. “The element of surprise, right?”
How will I explain this to Bea? Edward wondered.
He returned to the house and said little. He wanted to tell her what he had done but couldn’t find the words.
“I’ll be in the shop.” He placed the candle basket on the table and walked out the door.
When Sarah dropped in for afternoon tea, Bea told her sister about the visitors and hint droppers. Sarah grew quiet. “Bea,” she said, stirring her drink, “if I had any other options, I wouldn’t trouble you. But I have none.”
Bea extended her hand across the table and covered her sister’s. “Sarah, what is it?”
“I married a dear man, Bea. He cares as much for me today as the day we married. But even after all these years and all our prayers, he still has no faith. His world consists of what he sees and touches.” She paused to dab a tear. “We’re living our autumn years, dear sister.”
Bea nodded. “We’re both living with unanswered prayers, are we not?”
Sarah squeezed Bea’s hand. “What am I doing, sharing concerns with you? You have enough troubles of your own.”
“Sarah,” Bea spoke firmly, “don’t worry about us. Something is on your mind. What is it?”
“I’m thinking of the candle, dear sister. Is there any way . . .”
Bea sighed. “Let me tell you what happened Saturday night.” She described the light and the touch of the angel. When she told about Edward’s stumble, the two sisters laughed until they cried. And as they filled the house with happiness, Bea made a decision. She stopped short of telling her sister the whole story. She didn’t mention that they didn’t know which candle the angel had blessed. Bea reached into the basket. “Here, Sarah. For you. For your husband’s faith.”
Sarah clutched the gift to her chest and beamed, her face awash with tears.
“Perhaps it’s best to tell no one for now,” Bea said.
“Of course.”
The two stood and embraced. As she watched her sister leave, Bea asked herself, How will I explain this to Edward?
She was asking herself the same question an hour later as Emily Barstow walked quickly away from the shop, a candle tucked under her shawl. She only wants the young reverend to notice her. How could I not give her hope?
Standing at the doorway to their home that evening, Edward and Bea could see the villagers walking toward the church.
“Should we go join them?” Bea asked.
“Let’s stay home. I need to tell you what I did today.” He told it all. Adam’s headaches, James’s request. “I gave candles to them both. Have I done a horrible thing?”
Bea said nothing. Edward thought she was angry. “What have I done?” he asked.
“Exactly what I did,” she confessed and then shared the details of Sarah and Emily. “People will be so angry, so hurt. All our friends will think we deceived them.”
“But we didn’t mean to mislead anyone, dear.”
“I know, but we did. What will they think when their prayers go unanswered? We should have kept all the candles.”
“And leave the special candle in the basket?”
“We can’t do that, either.”
“Bea, we did the only thing we could. We gave candles, hoping to give the right one.”
“So what do we do now? Give them all?”
Edward sighed. “Do we have a choice? How else can we be sure that someone will receive the Christmas Candle?”
“True.” She nodded, then smiled. “Edward, now we can
light a candle too.”
“I suppose we can,” he said.
Abigail knew little about Oxford, but she didn’t need to know much. The walk from the train station to the carriage house was brief and direct. The gray cloud cover and fog muffled the noonday sun. She was tempted to find a room and rest. But she knew better. Wait too long and she might lose her courage.
She made her way through the winding streets and boarded the covered cart. Left to her own means, she could never afford the passage in a carriage. But the courier who had delivered the letter had delivered money as well.
Other passengers dozed as the wagon bounced. She couldn’t. Her mind kept returning to the words of the letter . . . By now she knew them almost by heart.
CHAPTER 8
MONDAY
December 19, 1864
Early the next morning Reverend Richmond knocked on the Haddingtons’ door. Bea answered it. “Merry Christmas, Reverend. Won’t you come in?”
“Edward, I need to speak with you about this candle business,” he began. His tone was less than cordial. “People expect me to mention it in the Christmas Eve service.”
“Yes, they do.”
“To ask the recipient of the candle to stand.”
“That’s the tradition.”
“How can I? This is superstition. Have you seen the parishioners? They are counting on the candle to help them . . . to save them . . . to rescue them . . .”
“It’s not the candle that can save them, Reverend. It’s the Giver of it.”
“This is disastrous.”
Edward and Bea had never seen him so worked up.
“You should preach like this,” Edward offered.
“Edward,” Bea buffered.
“What do you mean?” The reverend frowned.
“With passion. Your preaching could use some. A little pulpit fire never burned a church, you know. Why, Reverend Pillington . . .”
“I weary of hearing about Reverend Pillington.”
The trio sat in embarrassed silence for a few moments. Edward finally spoke up. “What are you afraid of, Reverend? Afraid the prayers won’t be answered or afraid they will?”
The young rector started to speak, then stopped.
Edward continued in soft yet firm tones. “The mystery of God unsettles us all, Reverend. But isn’t mystery where God works? If he does only what we understand, is he God?”
He paused, inviting the rector to reply. He didn’t. Nor did he look away. Edward opted for bluntness. “Do you fear that God will dash the faith of the people, my son? Or do you fear that he will stretch yours?”
Reverend Richmond’s face softened for a moment. Then it hardened. “All this talk of angels and hope. Where will it lead us?”
“And your dismissal of miracles . . . Where will that lead us?”
The reverend started to object, but Bea placed a motherly hand on his and, for the first time, addressed him by his Christian name.
“David, something burdens you. What is it?”
The young minister said nothing.
Edward leaned forward. “The first day we met I asked you why Gladstone. You seem groomed for the cathedral, a city like Gloucester, not a country parish. You never answered that question. Perhaps this would be a good time to do so.”
Reverend Richmond pressed his two hands into a tent and leaned his lips into them. After several moments he lifted his eyes and began to speak.
“Four of us were at a pub. It was a year ago . . . a year this month. We were celebrating the coming holidays. The winter night was cold, the ale was good, and the fire was warm. So we drank. We drank until we, well, we became foolish, foolish and loud.
“Patrons told us to be quiet. The pub owner threatened to throw us out. I told him my father’s name and position and dared him to do so. He didn’t hesitate.
“Next thing I knew we were standing outside, bracing against the cold. The wind was bitter and I was too. The man had humiliated me in front of my friends. Embarrassment prompted me to do something I’ll regret for the rest of my life.
“I saw an empty delivery wagon in the street, still hitched to its team. I jumped on, grabbed the reins, and told my friends to go with me. They hesitated . . . so I prodded. ‘What are you, afraid?’ They finally climbed up.
“I was imagining a fast ride, a few laughs. We’d have the wagon back at the pub before anyone missed it.”
The reverend looked down.
“What happened?” Edward asked.
“Something horrible. I had no business handling a wagon. The wind was strong, I was drunk and inexperienced. I slapped the reins and off we went. I feigned being in control. My buddies knew better. They told me to slow down, go back. But no, I had my pride.
“A narrow bridge crosses the Thames a mile north of the pub. The road bends sharply just before the crossing. The turn demands care on a clear day with a good driver. A drunk one on a dark, icy night has no hope. I missed it entirely. When I knew what was happening, I pulled up, but it was too late. The horses, the wagon, we all plunged over the edge of a steep ravine and fell fifteen feet into the water.
“All of a sudden I was fighting to stay afloat. Three of us made it to the river’s edge. We looked frantically for George, our friend. We stomped up and down the bank, crying out his name, crying out to God.
“We had to abandon the search—we were freezing. We found a house and got help. They located his body the next morning.”
The trio sat in silence for a long time.
Bea was the first to speak. “I’m so sorry, son. You must be heartbroken.”
“More than you could imagine. I was so stupid, so childish. I got what I deserved. But my friend . . . he didn’t deserve to die. I suppose that’s why I see God in the fashion I do.”
He turned and looked straight at Bea, lower lip quivering. “God could have helped. He should have helped. I used to think he hears us when we pray. But I prayed that night. With all my heart . . . now, I don’t know anymore.”
“This is how you ended up in Gladstone?” Edward asked.
Richmond nodded. “We should have been expelled. My father intervened, however. But the don made it clear I would never know the likes of a preferred pulpit. I guess Gladstone is my penance.”
“Or,” Edward adjusted, “Gladstone is where you find forgiveness.”
Bea looked at her husband. “It’s all right that we tell him, don’t you think?”
“About Abigail?” he answered.
The clergyman looked at her. “Tell me what?”
“We didn’t tell you the whole story. The fact is, our granddaughter used to live with us . . . until a year ago. She ran away last January.
We think she is in London; a friend saw her there last spring.”
“Why did she leave?”
“She made a mistake she must have thought we couldn’t forgive,” Bea explained.
“We’ve tried to find her,” Edward added. “Believe me, we’ve tried.”
Bea walked across the room and lifted a candle from the basket. “I guess we all need Christmas miracles, don’t we, David?”
She handed the candle to the minister. “Take this, my son. You need some light.”
He smiled. “I don’t think I should . . .”
“Just take it.”
He placed the candle in his coat and stood to leave. As Edward opened the door, he made a request. “Follow the tradition in the Christmas Eve service. Who knows what might happen?”
Edward and Bea watched him walk away; then Edward closed the door.
“Bea,” Edward invited, “we have one more candle.”
She knew his thoughts and smiled. He set the candle in the holder; the two sat at the table and prayed. They prayed for forgiveness, faith, and a young girl in a large city.
CHAPTER 9
CHRISTMAS EVE
December 24, 1864 B
By the end of the week, the candle basket was empty. Thirty hopeful Gladstonians guarded their candl
es and secrets and looked for a miracle. A ten-year-old girl prayed for her arguing parents. The family of a sailor prayed for his safe arrival. A wife prayed for her husband to sober up. Reverend Richmond had never seen so many weekday visitors stopping to pray.
As the Christmas Eve service drew nigh, however, Edward and Bea expressed occasional bouts with doubt.
“What will people do to us when they realize we gave them common candles?” Bea asked.
“Do you think your uncle in Preston could give us a place to live?” Edward teased, only partly in jest.
“Credibility. Friends. Candle shop. We could lose it all,” Bea listed.
“Still, we have to attend the service, if for no other reason than to explain.”
“They won’t believe us,” Bea lamented.
Edward planned his words and mentally rehearsed them over and over. By Saturday night he was ready. They waited until the singing had begun before stepping out into the cold night and walking to the church for the Christmas Eve service. The streets were empty; everyone was in St. Mark’s.
“Well, dear husband, only God knows what awaits us.”
“At least one person will be happy to see us.”
The couple found space on the back pew and took a seat. Strands of garland draped between the windows, and a row of flames flickered in each sill. The children’s nativity play was in full swing. Emily Barstow had organized the cast and props. The locksmith played one of the wise men, as did Adam from the livery stable. A homemade doll rested in the manger, and a lamb kept bumping it over with her nose. Laughter and applause bounced off the church’s stone walls.
Reverend Richmond began his welcome. “We thank the ladies who cleaned the floors, our men who repaired the door. We appreciate the Haddingtons for the window candles.” Several heads swiveled and looked at the couple. Edward and Bea kept their eyes on Reverend Richmond.
