by Ella Miles
Sinful Truth
Sinful Truths Book 1
Ella Miles
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Contents
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Truth or Lies World
Prologue
1. Siren
2. Zeke
3. Siren
4. Zeke
5. Siren
6. Zeke
7. Siren
8. Zeke
9. Siren
10. Zeke
11. Siren
12. Zeke
13. Siren
14. Zeke
15. Siren
16. Zeke
17. Siren
18. Zeke
19. Siren
20. Zeke
21. Siren
22. Zeke
23. Siren
24. Zeke
25. Siren
26. Zeke
27. Siren
28. Zeke
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Truth or Lies World
TRUTH OR LIES SERIES:
Taken by Lies #1
Betrayed by Truths #2
Trapped by Lies #3
Stolen by Truths #4
Possessed by Lies #5
Consumed by Truths #6
SINFUL TRUTHS SERIES:
Sinful Truth #1
Twisted Vow #2
Reckless Fall #3
Tangled Promise #4
Fallen Love #5
Broken Anchor #6
Prologue
Zeke
I always knew I would die young.
I’ve known it since birth. From a young age, I would take the blame for Enzo, my closest friend later turned boss. He was always pushing the limits, stealing things he could’ve bought with a snap of his fingers. He was horrible at thievery, so he always got caught. But I took the blame. Most of my childhood was spent in detention—for every wallet, purse, and laptop Enzo stole just because he could. The man has more wealth than a small country, but it doesn’t stop him from showing his power, even from a young age. And I protected him at all costs.
Langston, my best friend and brother in every way that matters, got in trouble in different ways. He preferred to let his fists talk for him—something I understood quite well. We got in more fights than should have been allowed. We both should’ve been expelled from school, but because of our association with Enzo, no man, not even our principal, would do more than give us detention.
Both men I’ve protected my entire life. Enzo and Langston are both taller and stronger than any other man I’ve ever met. But neither man compares to me.
I’m not bragging; I’m humble to my core. But at six foot five, I tower over both of them. My muscles ripple from my body, and men cower at my feet with one glare—a look I’ve perfected over the years. Yet deep inside, my heart aches to be warm, gentle, anything but the beast I appear to be on the outside. But to anyone except Langston and Enzo, that’s what I am—a beast.
My straggly hair and scruffy face only add to that notion. My tattoo ridden body adds fire to my bad boy image. I almost never have to actually use my fists and body to protect my boss, Enzo Black, or rescue my dipshit friend, Langston, when he’s in trouble. My appearance more than does enough to scare the shit out of any foe.
But this time was different.
This time wasn’t about fighting to keep them safe; this time, I had to sacrifice everything to protect someone more worthy of my protection.
Enzo is my boss; I vowed to protect him with my life the day I took the job at eighteen. After growing up as practically brothers, I would have sacrificed my life for his for free. But this time he didn’t ask me to. He asked me to protect another—one more valuable to him than his own. A woman who rests so deeply in his heart that he will never be able to get her out. A woman whose love consumes him.
Kai Miller—a woman I myself love. No, I’m not in love with my best friend’s girl. Just in love with her strength, courage, and warrior attitude. I’m in love with the way she loves him.
I once thought I was in love like that. But after seeing it, seeing their love grow right in front of my eyes, I know I never have, nor ever will, experience a love like theirs.
Because this is where my story ends—saving the girl. I stepped in front of a bullet for her. The evidence is blood leaking from my chest as my heart pounds over and over and over—each time spilling more precious drops of blood until I’m bled dry.
You would think I would regret my decision to save a woman I didn’t love. That I should’ve reserved this moment for the woman that had captured my own heart instead of the woman destined to be Enzo’s equal in every way.
But I don’t regret it even now.
My only regret is not knowing if it was enough. Did I save Kai? Or did I fail? With my death, will she be safe or left vulnerable?
I will never know the answer. Unless perhaps in heaven, I can look down upon her and see that she survives stronger than ever.
Who am I kidding? If an afterlife exists, I won’t be going to heaven; my sins will take me straight to hell.
But then, I’m already in my own personal hell.
The bullet knocked me out, but I became conscious again when the storm pushed me over the railing of the yacht and into the water. The last thing I remember before going underwater was the splash of the salty ocean on my face—then nothing.
How I survived this long, I don’t know. But I survived long enough that the yacht my friends were on is no longer here. There is no wreckage for me to cling to. No lifesaver floating in the water. I am stuck in the middle of the fucking ocean in the middle of the fucking night—blackness surrounds me.
I should feel alone. But I’m not. I would prefer to be alone. I would prefer to die quietly and calmly by myself. Even though I did my best to protect those I cared about, I never wanted a martyr’s death. However, that is exactly what I’m going to get.
Every nudge of the waves reminds me that I’m not alone here in the ocean. That below me are hundreds of sea creatures all doing their best to survive. That sharks and other deadly creatures could be hiding, inching closer every second, being lured to me as my drops of blood seep into the ocean. Every second that passes is another second closer to death. But will I die alone, going quietly into the ocean from loss of blood, or will I die violently fighting a shark until the bitter end? Or will the waves finally overpower me, until I drown?
I tread water with my aching legs, my arms too painful and sore to move. My right arm clutches to my chest, trying to keep as much blood inside my body as possible.
The stars twinkle overhead, taunting me with their beauty and ability to stay alive for so long. My life was short, fleeting. I barely made a blimp on this world. But the stars, they shine forever in a thick layer of darkness draping over us all. They do not fear death; they welcome it. Because eve
n in death, the stars continue to shine for sometimes thousands of years later.
I know my death will be the same. What was taken granted before—the friendships, the brotherhood, will be turned into more. But I only hope it gives Enzo and Langston the strength to face our enemies. And I hope once they’re safe, they can move on.
I continue to tread water as each second passes by in what seems like an hour, so slowly I’m not sure I’m moving at all. I should be grateful; these are my last moments on this earth. Despite the pain I’m feeling in my body, the beauty of the night being stranded in the middle of the ocean doesn’t go unnoticed. The moon creeps up higher in the sky—a full moon that turns the dark skylight.
The moon will be the last thing I see before I close my eyes—before I die.
I can already feel myself fading—my will to live leaving my body as my legs tire beneath me. My breathing is slow and heavy; my lungs are filling with a little saltwater each time I try to breathe. I’m not able to fully keep my head above water any longer.
This is the end. The end of my story. And what a sad story it was.
No!
My story wasn’t sad; I did what I always thought I would do—give up my life to save another. One more worthy, one meant to change the world. And Kai Miller will change the motherfucking world.
My long hair falls over my eyes, but I don’t have the energy to brush it off my face so that I can stare up at the beautiful sky. And one of my last acts before sacrificing my life was giving a scrunchie to Kai to keep her hair back so she could fight without worrying about her hair in her face.
I smile, thinking of that moment. And how it felt to do something so simple and kind for a woman so amazing as Kai. I lived for moments like that. I just never got to have those moments with a woman I was in love with.
I close my eyes, deciding it’s better this way, that blackness sends me to my death instead of looking at the hair in my eyes. My throat makes a strangled sound as more water enters my chest. I’ve always loved the ocean, dying in it doesn’t seem like such a bad idea. I’d rather die here than be buried on some hillside with a tombstone that my friends feel compelled to visit and bring flowers and all that bullshit. This way, I’ll just be gone.
Maybe they’ll think of me the next time they are on the ocean, feel me in the wind that blows through their hair, but that’s it. They won’t feel obligated to me in any way other than just living their lives.
The pain starts, and the panic sets in as my lungs continue to fill more and more with saltwater instead of the oxygen they desperately desire.
I may let the ocean take me, but I don’t want to drown. I want my death to be easy and quick, as do all humans. So I remove my hand from my chest, letting the blood spill quicker from my wound. But I think the saltwater—the very thing that’s trying to kill me by drowning me—is also saving me. Because my blood should be flowing much faster from my chest. Instead, the water pressure is keeping the blood within my veins.
Dammit.
I kick harder, determined to die at least on my own terms. I try to get my chest above the water, I try floating on my back, but the waves fight harder, pushing me back under.
No, I will not let you win.
I force my legs to kick, my arms to paddle; I urge my body to float. Dammit, float!
But my heavy body doesn’t have the buoyancy to float. My arms are exhausted, barely doing more than a toddler would who has just learned to splash in a pool of water. My legs carry all my strength—but my strength floated away with Kai, and Enzo, and Langston. My strength is still on that yacht. My strength is gone.
The pain is the only thing keeping me alive. The agony triggers adrenaline—the need to survive deep in my body. But I don’t want to survive, not like this. I don’t want to spend hours more floating in this water waiting for death to come.
So much for quick and painless.
My death may not be painless, but it will at least be quick. I’m done suffering. And I know I have enough willpower left in my body to die on my own terms.
Drowning it is.
I take a couple more deep breaths, trying to get one or two moments of comfort, security, and warmth inside my body before I take the plunge, but when you’re dying, even that simple breath of oxygen isn’t comforting. It’s pain and pain and pain. It is all I feel. It is all I think about—the pain.
I’ve never been one to fear death, and I won’t let myself be scared right now. Even if I could feel fear, the pain wouldn’t let me—my body trembles as my muscles fatigue. My chest makes an awful wheezing sound with each anguished breath. My eyes burn as more saltwater enters them. And my heart—my heart pumps harder and more distressed with each thump, trying to decide between holding on and giving out as the pain possesses my body.
It’s time.
My body switches from trying to survive to just trying to get rid of the pain. I need to end; the suffering is too much. So I take one more big breath, and then I dive under the heavy waves and into the darkness.
Death should come quickly but not painlessly. I have to endure more torment in order for the pain to stop. But right now, with every nerve-ending in my body begging me to make it stop, it’s a trade-off I will gladly endure.
Deeper into the darkness, I descend.
Deeper.
Deeper.
Deeper.
I force myself to kick as hard as I can to get as deep as I can because I know that once my lungs start filling with water, my fight or flight response will kick in again, and I’ll try to save myself. And I can’t handle any more moments of pain.
With each kick deeper, I feel my lungs tightening, the pressure constricting around my body, intensifying the discomfort.
Just a little further, I think.
If I can get just a little deeper, I won’t be able to get to the surface fast enough when I start to panic. This is the end, being surrounded by nothing but water, darkness—alone.
But then I feel it, a jolt in my body, a reverse in direction. Instead of traveling deeper into the depths of the ocean, I’m making a break for the surface.
What the hell?
I have no idea what’s happening. Did my body spontaneously change directions? Or am I already dead, and an angel is grabbing me and taking me to heaven?
I don’t know, but I don’t have the strength to fight it. So I let whatever force is pulling me back toward the surface do its job.
Time moves fast again as I hit the surface. My mouth opens, gasping for air, getting just enough oxygen to keep me firmly on the side of living instead of dying.
I feel a hand over my face sweeping the wet mop of my hair clear from my eyes and mouth, making it easier to breathe. I don’t know how I’m staying afloat because I’m not kicking or treading water, I’m completely dead weight.
But once the hair is gone from my face, I hear a sigh relief.
I open my eyes and come face-to-face with my savior. And what a face it is. Striking brown eyes loom into mine, examining my face quickly and thoroughly to ensure that I am alive and not dead. Long dark hair frames her face parted perfectly down the middle, like a model coming out of the water instead of the sea monster I must look like. Her red lips pout, disappointed in something she sees in me. But all I can think is her lips are magical.
This can’t be real. I must be imagining some perfect woman in my last moments here on Earth. I’m not really here; I’m still deep within the heart of the ocean. But if my fantasies are going to try to give me one last moment of pleasure before I leave this earth, I’m not gonna fight them.
The woman grabs my arm harshly and jerks me toward her.
“Come on,” she says.
Come on? I’m not sure what she expects me to do, I have no energy to swim, there is no way I can save myself; I’m drowning in the middle of the ocean with no boat, island, or person to save me. But I let her pull me, assuming she’s a current dragging me deeper into the ocean, waiting until my lungs give out.
Sh
e pulls hard, and I feel my body moving, dragging behind her. I don’t know where we’re going or what she wants me to see before I die, but it seems urgent. Probably because she knows I only have seconds left to live. Maybe it’s something beautiful like a seahorse or whale or dolphin—something beautiful she wants me to see before I die. But all I can think is that there’s nothing more beautiful than her.
She swims harder now, more determined than before. But I’m not desperate or hurried, not in the final moments. I study everything about her. The way her arm darts into the water with beautifully tanned skin that shows just how much time she spends in the sun. I watch her toned legs kicking with the efficiency of a dolphin. I watch her ass bob up and down over the waves in bright red bikini bottoms.
If only she were real. If only I found a woman like her while I was still living.
But then Kai would be dead. There would’ve been no one there to save her if I had fallen in love with a woman like this. Because there’s no way I would’ve sacrificed myself to save a friend when I had a woman I loved who desperately needed me to live. Maybe that’s why I never found love. Because it would’ve made me a worse version of myself.
“Can you help me at all, you big oaf?” The woman says, throwing her head over her shoulder, shooting daggers with her eyes in my direction.
I smile. I don’t know why the woman is so angry at me, but I devour the look on her face.
