any more.’
‘Because of the woman in the pub?’
‘Partly.’ And partly because I had realised we weren’t compatible; because spending
time with Paddy had made me realise we weren’t compatible. But I wasn’t going to explain
that to Paddy.
‘Do you not think you might have been able to forgive him, in time? If it was a stupid
mistake, and he could convince you he regretted it?’
Now I glanced at Paddy, because I wondered why he was persisting with this; what did
it matter to him whether I could forgive Rich or not? He hadn’t scrupled to share his poor
opinion of him. He was leaning forward in his seat, mug clutched between his hands, watching
me, a curious frown on his face.
‘Life’s too short to waste time on second chances,’ I said. I thought about all the things
I had to look forward to: leaving work, going on the Cotswolds dig, my birthday – and then
what? Finding a new career? There was so much lying ahead of me; I wasn’t going to take a
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step backward by getting involved with Rich again. ‘Isn’t that the point of a fortieth birthday?’
I added, trying to lighten the mood. ‘Isn’t it the perfect time to start again?’
‘You’re right.’ Paddy grinned, and the frown lifted. He leant forward, and clinked his
mug against mine. ‘Here’s to starting again.’
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CHAPTER 18
The last few weeks of the school year rushed by, and before I’d even come to terms with
leaving, I was driving away for the last time, with a pot plant and a garden centre voucher as
the only souvenirs of a thirteen-year career. Three days later, on a dank, drizzly Monday
morning that didn’t seem a particularly auspicious start to my glittering new future, I set off to
the dig in south Gloucestershire – my first step towards exploring whether this might be my
new career.
It wasn’t the first time I’d taken part in a dig in the Cotswolds. My dad had first brought
me to the area, on one of our weekend excursions while Mum and Faye were busy shopping.
On our way home after a walk, we’d stumbled upon the site of a Roman villa, and called in to
have a look. That accidental visit had changed my life. I’d hung on every word the tour guide
had uttered, fascinated by the details about how it had been discovered and the archaeological
work that was still going on, and marvelling at the intricate mosaics and the artefacts that were
housed in a small museum – artefacts that had survived over hundreds of years.
My interest had been hooked from that day on, and when one summer I’d been able to
spend a day volunteering there, I had known without a doubt that I wanted to carry on with this
for the rest of my life. I’d even taken Paddy back to that Roman villa on one of his visits to our
house, because it had been such a special place to me.
I’d avoided going back to the area until now, fearing what painful memories might be
waiting for me there, especially of Dad and of Paddy. But now, as the weather brightened and
I drove through honey-stoned villages and towns, and swathes of lush, rolling countryside,
instead of sadness, I was filled with an unexpected sense of contentment. I had loved the days
I had spent exploring this area with Dad; those memories would always be good and precious,
despite the tinge of loss. As for Paddy, we had been happy when we’d visited here, I was sure
of it; in the prime of our relationship, in those glorious months when the future still seemed
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ours for the taking, and I had believed that our love was strong enough to withstand anything.
So I let the memories in, let them play out in my mind, but it was only sadness I felt, not anger.
Seeing Paddy again, spending time with him, had done me good, and helped me gain some
perspective at last. We’d loved well and parted badly, but I couldn’t let the bad memories blind
me to the good ones. It had all been so long ago. We were different people now. As we’d agreed
that night of the cinema trip with Gran, it was time to start again.
The dig I was joining was taking place in a field a few miles south of Cirencester, and
I’d researched it extensively online. It was an amazing story. Several years ago, the owner of
the field had planned to build a garage block in the grounds of his manor house, and had
uncovered the remains of an ancient wall when preparing for the foundations. He had done the
right thing and called in a team of archaeologists. Their investigations and subsequent
excavations had confirmed this as the site of a Roman villa, one of the largest ever found in the
area. It was exactly the sort of excavation and the era that I’d loved the most at university. I
couldn’t wait to join in.
I had booked a room in a nearby village pub for the two weeks I was taking part in the
dig, and it was only a short drive on the Tuesday morning to our meeting place. We weren’t
due to start work until nine, but I set off straight after breakfast, desperate to begin, and I soon
found out that I wasn’t the only one. Even though I arrived half an hour early, there were
already a few people waiting by the Portakabin that was used as a finds office, including a
familiar face – my old university tutor, Christopher Porter. He spotted me as I walked towards
the group and met me halfway.
‘Eve Roberts!’ He put out his hand and shook mine with enthusiasm. ‘I saw your name
on the list and wondered if it could be the same one. How long has it been?’
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‘Nineteen years since graduation.’ I grimaced, hearing it out loud. Where had the time
gone? Back in my familiar uniform of old clothes and sturdy boots, I felt like an excited
undergraduate again, not a middle-aged woman. ‘Let’s not dwell on that. How are you?’
I was trying not to be too shocked by his appearance: his once dark hair was now pure
grey and he seemed a shrunken version of the dynamic man I remembered. A shadow lurked
in his eyes, a sign of sorrow that I recognised. Impulsively I reached out and squeezed his arm,
releasing him from answering the question.
‘It’s good to see you again,’ I said. ‘This dig looks amazing. Have you worked on it
before?’
‘Every year since it started. I’ve brought students down on field studies too. We both
loved the Romans, didn’t we? So what have you been up to, Eve? Still pursuing archaeology,
I hope?’
‘No, I haven’t been able to. My plans changed. I had family commitments …’ I stopped.
I didn’t want to go into the whole history of Faye and Caitlyn here. I neither wanted nor
deserved sympathy. And if this was a fresh start, I had to stop hiding behind my past. That was
the whole point of coming on the dig, wasn’t it: to discover more about the Romans’ past and
my future. Fortunately, Christopher was distracted by the arrival of more volunteers, and
wandered away with the promise of more conversation later.
The dig was divided into sections, and the volunteers were split into teams to work each
section. One team was assigned to digging further trenches, in order to follow the ext
ernal wall
of the villa to see how extensive it was; the current guess was that there must have been at least
twenty rooms on the ground floor. Another team was working in an area where bones had been
found in previous years: identifying the animals the bones came from gave an insight into the
diet of the people who had lived there.
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I wouldn’t have minded that job – I loved the small details about day-to-day life – but
I was placed with one of the teams who were exposing more of what promised to be an amazing
mosaic-tiled floor, which would probably have been at the centre of the villa. A section about
three metres square had been revealed so far, and almost all the tesserae – the small pieces of
stone that made up the mosaic – were still in place and had held their colours well;
predominantly white, black, yellow and brown, with some small patches of red and blue in
more ornate decorative sections. It looked as if the mosaic featured scenes from mythology,
and the level of detail was incredible. I couldn’t wait to uncover more of it, and see if we could
work out what stories were illustrated there.
My team consisted of a young couple in their mid-twenties, two male undergraduates
who were Christopher’s students, and Beverley, a single lady in her early fifties, who turned
out to have come over from California to take part in this and several other digs over the
summer. After brief introductions, one of the undergraduates volunteered to be in charge of
drawing the plan, showing the precise locations of everything we discovered, and the rest of us
entered the trench and set to work.
My trowel fitted in my hand as if it had never left. I knelt down in the trench, pads
protecting my knees, and started scraping gently at the earth that covered the next part of the
mosaic. The ground was hard and dry after a spell of warm weather and at first I worked
gingerly, making cautious scrapes as I found my way again. But my confidence grew with
every shift of the trowel, and soon my hands were moving over the soil as easily as they had
done over a computer keyboard only a few days before. Muscle memory kicked in: this was
what my hands had been trained for, not typing and filing and answering the phone.
I sat back and looked around at the various teams as they bent over their tasks with
eager enthusiasm; I listened to the rhythmic clinks of trowel against stone, and I knew beyond
doubt, before even half a day had passed, the answer I’d hoped attending this dig would
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provide. This was where I was supposed to be. This was what made me happy – what would
make me happy in the future.
I sat with Beverley during our first morning tea break, and we chatted more about our
backgrounds. She was an enthusiastic amateur, and although she had no formal qualifications
in archaeology, she had years of experience in taking parts in digs all over the world. The list
of sites she had worked on filled me with envy; it could have been a duplicate of the itinerary
that Paddy and I had planned. I both dreaded and longed to hear more about her experiences
over the next couple of weeks.
‘You must have a remarkably understanding family,’ I said, as she mentioned her plans
for the rest of the year, including four weeks in Romania in late September, where she hoped
to explore both the Roman and medieval history of the country, and fit in a visit to
Transylvania. ‘Don’t they mind you spending so much time away?’
‘Oh, I don’t have family,’ she said, smiling. ‘The folks died long ago. I never married,
never had children. I can do as I please. It’s the best way to be!’
They were lines I could have said myself; they certainly described the life I had now. I
could do as I pleased. So why was there a flicker of doubt in my mind about whether it really
was the best way to be? I was spared from thinking of a reply by Christopher wandering over
to join us.
‘How are you finding it, Eve? Has it all come flooding back?’ he asked.
‘Yes!’ I could hardly contain my smile. ‘I’m loving it. It’s like I’ve never been away.’
‘Hey, do you two know each other?’ Beverley said. She turned to me. ‘I thought this
was your first dig in years.’
‘It is. Christopher was one of my tutors at university, more years ago than either of us
would like to admit.’
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‘Eve was my star pupil,’ Christopher said, sitting down on the grass beside us. ‘She had
a great eye for looking past the chaos of a site in progress and seeing the scale of what it had
once been. And she was as happy working on the behind-the-scenes analysis as being on the
front line of an excavation. She made the most thorough, incisive notes of anyone I’ve ever
taught.’
‘Good for you,’ Beverley said, patting me on the shoulder. ‘It sounds like it’s a shame
you gave it up. You need to get back at it! Wouldn’t you welcome her back, if she’s so great?’
she asked Christopher.
‘Of course I would.’ I shrank with mortification at Beverley’s less than subtle approach,
but Christopher didn’t seem to mind. ‘We’re always looking for keen postgraduate students.
I’d love to see you back, Eve, if you’re interested.’
Interested? I could think of nothing I’d like more, and for a moment my head swam
with possibilities: of returning to university and working with Christopher again; of studying a
Master’s degree and perhaps going on to a PhD … I had the money to allow me some time out
from work, and what better way to spend it than by attaining qualifications that would allow
me to carry out more interesting work in future?
But then the possibilities sank, weighted down with reality. I couldn’t disappear off to
a university at the opposite end of the country from home. I had a house – Caitlyn’s home, if
she ever chose to come back. I had Gran – it was all very well to miss visiting her for one
weekend while I was on this dig, but not for weeks at a time. There weren’t any other
universities near enough to allow me to live in Inglebridge while I studied; the isolated location
I had once sought was now a disadvantage. It was a tempting dream to return to university, but
not an achievable one.
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‘Just say the word if I can help, Eve,’ Christopher said. ‘If I can’t tempt you with
academia, I have contacts with employers across the country. I’d be more than happy to give
you an introduction.’
I thought about Christopher’s offer frequently over the next few days. Perhaps it was
an off-the-cuff remark – no more than politeness – but it niggled at me. As we worked together
in the intense mid-summer heat, the various teams across the sections bonded together as one
unit in a way I remembered well and had missed more than I realised. There was something
special about a group of like-minded enthusiasts uniting in a common goal; success for one
was success for all. When the bones team unexpectedly discovered a Roman coin, we all
celebrated, poring over the tiny piece of metal with as much deli
ght as if it were part of the
Crown Jewels. And as the days went by, my conviction grew that this was what I needed to be
doing, one way or another. I didn’t know how I was going to take it forward and make it work,
I only knew that I had to do it.
My evenings were spent in my room in the village pub, doing what I had resisted for
years: researching developments in archaeology since I had studied it, and reading about
discoveries that had been made in the last two decades. Some I hadn’t been able to avoid, as
they had been significant enough to make the news, such as the investigation into whether there
were hidden chambers in Tutankhamen’s tomb. But equally interesting were the smaller
discoveries, often stumbled across by accident, such as the Watlington Hoard, a collection of
coins, jewellery and bars of silver found by a metal-detectorist and dating back to the time of
Alfred the Great. And it wasn’t only new discoveries that fascinated me; technology had
advanced so that old finds could be analysed in more detail than ever before.
I sat on my bed with my laptop on my knee, and pored over it all, feeling the past come
alive in more ways than one, and longing to find out more; trying to hold back thoughts of the
one person who could share my enthusiasm, and gladly tell me everything I wanted to know.
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*
By Friday, muscles that I’d forgotten existed were aching, my knees were sore despite the
cushioned pads, and my nose was pink even though I’d applied lavish amounts of sun cream.
I was loving every second of the dig. The whole team had arranged to go out to the nearest pub
for a drink in the evening, to celebrate a successful first week, and I had decided that I would
try to get Christopher on his own, to discover whether he really did know any employers who
would be willing to take on someone with more enthusiasm than experience. So it was
concerning that by the time we stopped for our mid-morning tea break, Christopher still hadn’t
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