by Baen Books
Jase asked, "Something bad?"
He realized he was tearing up. "That sniper this morning at the West side? Got Sammy Moritz."
"I'm sorry. Were you close?"
"No, it's just…" he took a deep breath, because this was scary. "Right after we secured this area and set up for the diplomats and provisional government, they shot some guy at the gate. Just dropped him from a distance and that was all. He got replaced by someone else. They got shot. Moritz was the fifth or sixth person in that duty slot."
"That's sick." Jase apparently hadn’t heard about this yet.
"Very. They're not targeting battlefighters or staff. Just people at random, or in this case, not random. It's been six people in about three months in that slot."
"Glad I'm not an MP. At least not that MP."
"It's creepy. I wonder which poor bastard gets it next." He didn't want to think like that, but he couldn’t help it. One field unit kept losing cooks. Convoys got disrupted. They needed live drivers because automated ones got waylaid or hijacked. The enemy was outnumbered, but technologically smart and vicious.
He always wondered if they'd come after Logistics some day.
Jase asked, "Can't they rotate around?"
"They do. But they seem to follow the slot, not the location."
"Sheesu."
"These fuckers have no sense of decency. We laughed, it was hilarious, when they abducted Huff, stripped him naked and made him walk back. But if you're a prole, you're likely to just wind up dead."
"Is that why the no fraternizing order?"
He nodded. "Absolutely. Outside the second line, nothing is safe."
"Almost makes me glad to be stuck in here."
"Almost. Would like to actually fight, though. Or support it. Something." He actually wasn’t sure about that, but he kept telling himself that.
"Yes, but logistics is what wins wars,” Jase said. “And my family's glad I'm safe,” he added.
"Hey, at least you're here, doing something." They crossed into the plaza that had been a park of sorts. Much of the greenery was chewed up from troops walking and playing. One of the trees had been used for climbing until the CO stopped it.
Jase nodded. "You’re right about that, and so was the Captain. These people really don't want us."
He said, "It's resistance to change. In twenty years, their kids will love life and wonder why anyone lived this way." They were told that, and he wanted to believe it.
"I hope so. The poor people must appreciate it."
"So I'm told. I see interviews."
Jase gave him a disgusted look. "Oh, come on, you don't think those are faked."
Jandro sighed. That hadn't come out right in English. "No, not at all. But everyone I've met locally has a couple of different things going. I've also read that civilians will tell occupying forces anything to keep them happy. And I can't imagine a lot of frustrated rich people are shooting at us."
"No, but maybe the people doing the shooting need money badly enough to do it for them. Or are held hostage some other way."
"Or maybe they're just afraid of us from propaganda. Hate isn't rational."
"Yeah. Okay."
Good. Jase didn't like the conspiracy nuts any more than he did. Sure, there were problems back home, but no one started a war just for a political edge. Paid bribes, manipulated language, made economic payoffs, but not start wars.
"So what looks good?" he said. There were ten or so little carts and knockdown kiosks offering food.
"Pizza's always good. Or I always like it. But it just doesn’t taste right here."
"They grow different grain breeds."
"That must be it. Don't they use real animals, too?"
"Yes, raised out in the open air and then killed."
"That's awful. It's so awful I want to try that, just to stare at people and tell them."
"Hah. It was really trippy the first time. I got used to it. It's just meat. You realize that's in the dining hall too, right?"
"I didn't." Jase looked at him with distrust.
"All food has to be locally sourced. There's just no effective way to bring in that much meat from outsystem, process it in orbit and land it. So we get it here."
"Why don't they tell everyone?"
"It's inspected and approved. There's some sort of BuAg exemption until we can build enough facilities here. So they don’t mention the source in case it disturbs people."
"I guess I can see colonies needing that, but once you get to cities," he waved around at the surroundings, "shouldn't you be building vatories?"
"Exactly. So you've already eaten dead stuff, and these people either don't have a choice, or actually like it."
"The chow hall meat is a bit stronger tasting than home, I guess. Wow. Suffering animals. One more way we're tougher than civilians."
"You can't really brag about it. Someone will call a counselor."
"I know. But part of it is knowing, and part of it is tossing it out there when someone wants to try to measure up."
He nodded. "There is that. I feel sorry for the grunts. You can't boast about being in combat. It's seen as some sort of moral and mental handicap. No wonder they all burn out."
"Six months is a long time. I've been here a week and it's getting old fast."
"So what are you eating?"
"How's the bratwurst?" Jase asked, and pointed at a cart under a broad tree that was warping the plascrete walkway.
"Spicy and greasy. Occasionally there are small bone chips from processing."
"How spicy?"
"Middling. Hot for Europe, medium for Tex."
"Let's do it."
"Looks like he's closing, too. Better run."
They jogged over to the cart, and looked over the menu. It was posted on a scrolling screen in English, Mandarin, Arabic and Russian. Next to the screen was a tag certifying inspection and authorization to be in the Gray Zone.
The cook looked up and nodded.
"You're just in time. What can I get you?"
Jandro said, "I'll take a cheddar brat."
The man nodded. "Got it."
Jase said, "The 'Meatlog.' That sounds suggestive."
"I had one before. It's good. Savory and salty as well as spicy."
"Sure. That's two hundred grams? I'll take two."
The cook, Gustin, per his nametag, flipped three sausages off the grill, said, "That's all I had left. You're in luck," and rolled them around to drain on the rack. Then he rolled each into a bun, and pointed to the condiments. "What would you like?"
Jase considered and pointed. "Lemme get the dark chili mustard, onions, relish and banana peppers."
The man didn't stint on the toppings. Each boat-shaped bun was overflowing.
They paid him in scrip he could exchange later. It was supposed to cut down on black marketing, but Jandro had heard of so many ways around it. He wasn't really interested in scamming stuff, but it wasn't hard.
He pointed to a bench under another tree. It was made of wooden timbers locally, not extruded.
"I was on Mtali for a while, too, when I was just out of training," he said.
Behind them, the man closed his cart, unfolded the seat and drove off. It was a fueled vehicle, not electric.
"Oh?" Jase asked.
"That was much worse than this place. Here they're opportunistic. There, they were crooked."
"How crooked?"
"We had to open every package, test every delivery, and no local help at all. They'd steal it in front of you, toss it over the fence to a buddy, and insist they never saw it."
"Hah. Lameo."
"Very. It was pathetic. These people are creative at least." And scary. He'd swap that for incompetently dishonest any time.
"The food looks good."
Jase squeezed and stuffed the bread around the contents, angled his face and got a bite. He chewed for a moment, and flared his eyebrows.
"Damn. If all dead animal tastes like this, I could be a convert.
"
"Hah. Just don’t say that around the cultural officers."
"Oh, hell no. But it's different from vat raised. Stronger tasting? Something. Good stuff."
The cheddar brat was good as always, and he tried not to think about dead pig. On the other hand, he'd seen pigs up close. They were pretty nasty creatures.
Jase took another bite and made it disappear.
"Is stuff like this why people stay in? Seeing all parts of the universe?"
"All parts we know about. It does cost a veinful to travel. We get to see the bombed out ruins. Chicks in New York and Beijing and Nairobi pay good money for that."
He munched the brat. Yes, once you got used to the ugly fact of a dead living being, rather than one raised in a vatory with no head, they were tasty. Did the animal's emotions and life flavor the meat? That was a bit creepy, and bit taboo.
He bit something hard. There was something in it, probably a bit of bone. He worked it around and pulled it out with his fingers. It was gray. He wiped it on the boards and kept chewing.
There was another.
“Damn, they need a better butcher. I’m getting bone bits.”
Jase took another bite and twitched, then pulled back with a confused look.
"What the…" He reached into the bun, grabbed something and pulled it out. It was a long, gray piece of polymer. It took a moment to recognize it, and then it was instantaneous.
It was a shredded dogtag, and it had been inside a sausage. That meant…
Jase screamed through the entire audio spectrum, then he vomited a meter, gushing and squealing and choking and trying for more.
A moment later it hit Jandro, and he puked and puked and kept puking. He realized he'd blacked out, and was leaning over the table. Then he heaved again. It felt as if he'd emptied his entire tract, and he hoped he had.
Someone nearby asked, "What's wrong, are you alright?"
"Water!" he demanded. "Ohdioswater!"
A bottle was placed in his hand. He cracked the seal, rinsed, spat, rinsed, spat, gargled, and kept going.
Everything blurred out as two people helped him walk to the clinic. There were MPs around, and camera drones. Someone handed him two pills and another bottle of water, and he tried to swallow them, but spat the water out. The pills went with it.
He didn’t want to swallow anything.
Someone waved an inhaler under his nose and he passed out.
He woke up in a bed, wrapped in a sheet, and a South Asian woman in casuals sat next to him. The lights were at half. He could tell he that was medicated.
"How are you doing, Alejandro?"
"I feel ill," he said. Very ill. He'd eaten…oh, god.
"I'm Doctor Ramjit from Emotional Health and Wellness. You're safe here."
"I know. I'm just…it was awful. Jase pulled out that tag…"
"What do you think it was?"
"A shredded dogtag."
"The investigators say they're not sure of that."
He sat up and shouted, "It was a maldito dogtag!" As she recoiled, he added, "Ma'am." If he wasn't careful, he'd wind up in some long term facility.
She reached out and offered a hand. He took it and clutched at it.
She said, "It may have been. If so, it may have been a prank."
"I hope so." Yes, that was entirely likely. Like stripping the General, or the doped sodajuice one time. The locals wanted to find ways to screw with the troops. He hoped that was it.
"Did they get the vendor?"
She hesitated a moment.
"No, and he's not responding to contact."
"I feel okay otherwise. How long am I here?"
"When you feel fit you can leave. We will do trace analysis on the regurgitate. We'll let you know what we find."
He wasn't sure they would. If they said it was clean, would he believe them?
"Can I get something for the stress?"
"Yes. I've prescribed some tranquilizer patches. You're welcome to come talk to us any time, or the chaplains. You're on quarters for tomorrow so you can de-stress."
"Thank you," he said.
He gave it a few minutes, decided he could walk, and signed out. He made his way back to the dorm, and slipped inside.
Jase's room was dark, but the door was open.
"Jase?"
"Yeah."
"How are you?"
"Sick."
The man didn't want to talk more than that.
He went to bed, and the tranquilizer did help him sleep. He woke up twice, hungry, but shook in terror at the thought of food.
He was still awake on and off, and a glance at the wall said it was 0500. The chow hall was open, and he was hungry. He'd slept in casuals, so he wore those down.
He walked into the dining hall, and walked right back out. They had sausage in there, and pans of other meat. He couldn't do it.
He went to the dispenser in the rec room and swiped his hand. He went to select a bag of vegetable chips, and his hand froze. They were local, too.
Perhaps he wasn't hungry yet.
Two hours later he was back in the clinic.
Doctor Ramjit saw him at once.
"Please tell me," he said. "I have to know what you found."
"The sausage contained human flesh," she said evenly.
He'd known it would be bad news, because he couldn't have trusted the good. He closed his eyes and felt dizzy, as if spinning.
"It was only a trace amount," she said. "Probably a piece of muscle tissue. The identag was deliberately placed to draw attention to it. It was intended to be morally horrifying, and it was."
It was intended to be morally horrifying. What she was didn't seem to grasp is what that implied. The troops knew what had happened, and everyone had been eating local food for months. There was no way to be sure how much of it was contaminated with their buddies, and there was no way to be sure how much wasn't.
It was worse than that.
That was the moment Jandro knew there was no line the rebels wouldn’t cross. They'd spent a year and a half escalating the moral outrage, humiliation and fear. The executions of the MPs, and this, had been a message.
We will hunt you down relentlessly, remorselessly, tirelessly. Regardless of your power and the damage you inflict, we will violate the sanctity of your mind. We will make you question reality and yourselves. And we will never stop.
He wanted to go home. There was nothing here but hatred, no one to be liberated, no one to be brought into line with modern thought. They were atavists and savages who could not be reasoned with.
The UN Forces alliance had come here to save them from rampant repression. He'd seen some of the poor in images from patrols. Out of the city only a few kilometers, some people lived in shacks without power or plumbing, because it was cheap. No one should be forced to make that "choice." There wasn't even a right to due process. That had to be paid for in cash, in an annual tax that they insisted on calling a "resident's fee," even though it is a tax. Fail to pay, and you had no status.
Yet, when the Forces arrived to help them, dirt poor and super rich alike homogenized into one people, intent only on fighting them.
"Whose tag was it?" he asked.
She blushed and stammered.
"I don't have that information."
"You do," he said. "It was a real person's tag, wasn't it?"
"It was," she nodded, looking queasy herself.
"Who?"
"Binyamin Al-Jabr. The first MP shot at the gate."
His head spun again.
"That's not for release," she said. "At all. But I'd rather you had the truth than a rumor."
It was orchestrated terror. They'd shot the man and taken his body. They'd shot everyone who replaced him in the last three months. The MPs were near rioting in terror. Then they'd chopped him, or parts of him, up and fed them to Jase and Jandro.
He really didn’t want to know what muscle they'd used. Nor how many batches they'd made.
"I can'
t eat," he said, and erupted in tears. His lips trembled as he mouthed, "I have to go home."
"I will arrange it," she said. "I've documented both emotional trauma and post event trauma. We'll get you home. We've got other people distressed as a result, though of course, none had the direct experience you and Senior Corporal Jardine did."
"I can't eat," he said again. "Please hurry."
Doctor Ramjit seemed compassionate, but someone in the chain didn’t believe him. A sergeant from Commisary took him over to the kitchen, to watch the food being prepared. It arrived in ground and cut form, and he watched a steak go from freezer to grill. He could smell it, too, dead meat. But the cooks were all contracted locally, brought in every morning and searched. A couple of them stared at him, then there were a couple of giggles.
“Didn’t you see that?”
“See what?” his escort asked.
“They’re laughing at me.”
“It’s fresh steak. Or you can choose a vegetarian option.” Though the man looked unsure himself. He kept glancing furtively at Jandro, and at the cooks.
“I…” He had no ability to trust them.
The smell caught him. Somewhere there was pork, and he remembered bratwurst, and there it was again. He ran from the kitchen.
They took him back to the clinic and dosed him again. He felt needles, and they said something he didn’t follow.
He almost limped, almost staggered back to the dorm, escorted by a medic. He carried a case of Earth-sourced field rations. He had that, and sealed bottles of expensive, imported spring water. That would have to suffice until he left.
Jase wasn't there. He was probably at the clinic, too. He might even be worse off, since he'd gotten the whole dogtag.
That set him reeling again, and he quickly brought up some landscape images from Iguaçu National Park.
Two hours later he stared at the open packets before him. He'd even placed them on a plate and microheated them, so they'd look more like real food.
He couldn't.
He knew it was perfectly safe, packaged on Earth, and was real food, but he couldn't.
Maybe in a day or two.
The door chimed and opened, and Sergeant Second Class Andreo Romero walked in quietly.
"Hey, Jandro."
"Hola."
"Jase is in the Emotional Health Ward. They reassigned me here."
