Here the system worked. Once he was arrested as a juvenile, counseling sessions indicated that his problem was simple: Parley missed his mother. A judge told Tammy she could leave Texas and take care of her son or lose custody of him. Tammy decided to be a mother and last I heard she and Parley were doing well.
Betty graduated from high school with honors and turned eighteen on July 2, 2007, and says she plans to return to the FLDS. Two days after her birthday, on the Fourth of July, Betty left our home after an anguished goodbye. She hugged all her siblings and told them she loved them. But when she came to me, she put her arms around me and sobbed and sobbed. She thanked me for all I had done for her and said she loved me. I told Betty I loved her, too, and would always welcome her home. My heart was breaking in ways I could not have imagined and was not able to explain. I knew this day might come, and when it did it was shattering in its devastation.
All of my children were terribly upset that Betty was leaving us. They all told her that they couldn’t understand why on the day that celebrates America winning its freedom she was relinquishing hers.
I sensed in Betty a deep conflict about returning to the FLDS. Her decision means she will no longer have access to us, and I think that will be awful for her. When she left, she promised to call, but none of us have been able to reach her by phone since her departure.
I wonder if Betty—stubborn, independent, and quite capable of thinking for herself—will be able to stay in the FLDS. One of the reasons I stayed as long as I did in the FLDS is that I had nothing to compare it to. I had no sense of what it meant to be free and have the power to make my own decisions about life. Betty has friends who love her, and she’s become a passionate defender of those she perceives as underdogs. This kind of outspokenness will never be permitted when she is back in the cult.
Nor do I think Betty can appreciate how the tide might turn against her. I’m sure she will be seen as contaminated by worldly ways and her worldly education. I have great fears about her return to a culture of abuse and degradation. I don’t think she will do well there. If she decides to leave, I will always welcome her back. Betty and I have had our struggles, but she’s my daughter and I will always love and protect her.
Arthur has his pilot’s license and is a full-time college student at Salt Lake Community College. He’s the first of Merril Jessop’s sons ever to go to college. His dream is to become a commercial airline pilot.
LuAnne has her green belt in karate and is just finishing her sophomore year in high school. She’s poised and beautiful and determined to go to college.
Patrick and Andrew are still passionate about karate and now have earned their brown belts. Arthur is a real role model to them. They both want to go to college. At a recent highly competitive karate tournament, both boys won medals.
Merrilee has finally decided there might be more to life than becoming a princess. She’s a Girl Scout and devoted to her karate lessons like the rest of her siblings. She dreams of becoming a veterinarian.
Harrison, who’s almost eight, still works with Lee and is on the verge of walking.
Bryson is starting kindergarten in the fall. He’s bright, with a happy and well-balanced personality. His teacher says he is always smiling at school and has great social skills. Bryson is very athletic and eager to play soccer. Bryson was a year old when we fled and the only child I’ve been able to parent one-on-one in a nonpolygamist environment.
I am never far from terrible reminders of the awful world we escaped. On April 7, 2007, eighteen-year-old Parley Dutson, one of the “lost boys” who was kicked out of the FLDS two years before, allegedly put a gun to the head of his fifteen-year-old girlfriend, Kara Hopkins, at a party, pulled the trigger, and then sexually assaulted her. He’s been charged with murder. Police say drugs were involved. Desperate people do desperate things. His cry for help was a gunshot blast. It shouldn’t have to come to that.
Two weeks later marked the fourth anniversary of my family’s escape on April 22, 2003. Brian had taken me out to dinner the night before. I never could have imagined when I fled in a panic with my children that four years later I’d be dining in a fine restaurant with the love of my life.
We celebrated as a family the next day—except for Betty, who said she had too much homework to do. We went to see a movie, Meet the Robertsons, and had dinner at a Chinese restaurant. It was the most ordinary of evenings. But not to me. My children and I now know what it means to be safe. Freedom is extraordinary, and love a miracle.
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Jessop, Carolyn, 1968–
Escape / Carolyn Jessop with Laura Palmer.—1st ed.
p. cm.
1. Jessop, Carolyn, 1968– 2. Mormon women—Utah—Biography. 3. Polygamy—Religious aspects—Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. 4. Marriage—Religious aspects—Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. 5. Mormon fundamentalism. I. Palmer, Laura. II. Title.
BX8695.J47A3 2007
289.3092—dc22
[B]
2007023172
eISBN: 978-0-7679-2847-2
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