She did have one little flare up. She told Faye, "I'll go to the doctor's office."
"I'll ask him to come here."
"To bring me some more pills? Nonsense. I'll go in the morning."
2
Dr. Wilde was a good man and an honest man. He was accustomed to say of his profession that all he was sure of was that sulphur would cure the itch. He was not casual about his practice. Like so many country doctors, he was a combination doctor, priest, psychiatrist to his town. He knew most of the secrets, weaknesses, and the braveries of Salinas. He never learned to take death easily. Indeed the death of a patient always gave him a sense of failure and hopeless ignorance. He was not a bold man, and he used surgery only as a last and fearful resort. The drugstore was coming in to help the doctors, but Dr. Wilde was one of the few to maintain his own dispensary and to compound his own prescriptions. Many years of overwork and interrupted sleep had made him a little vague and preoccupied.
At eight-thirty on a Wednesday morning Kate walked up Main Street, climbed the stairs of the Monterey County Bank Building, and walked along the corridor until she found the door which said, "Dr. Wilde--Office Hours 11-2."
At nine-thirty Dr. Wilde put his buggy in the livery stable and wearily lifted out his black bag. He had been out in the Alisal presiding at the disintegration of old, old lady German. She had not been able to terminate her life neatly. There were codicils. Even now Dr. Wilde wondered whether the tough, dry, stringy life was completely gone out of her. She was ninety-seven and a death certificate meant nothing to her. Why, she had corrected the priest who prepared her. The mystery of death was on him. It often was. Yesterday, Allen Day, thirty-seven, six feet one inch, strong as a bull and valuable to four hundred acres and a large family, had meekly surrendered his life to pneumonia after a little exposure and three days of fever. Dr. Wilde knew it was a mystery. His eyelids felt grainy. He thought he would take a sponge bath and have a drink before his first office patients arrived with their stomach aches.
He climbed the stairs and put his worn key in the lock of his office door. The key would not turn. He set his bag on the floor and exerted pressure. The key refused to budge. He grabbed the doorknob and pulled outward and rattled the key. The door was opened from within. Kate stood in front of him.
"Oh, good morning. Lock was stuck. How did you get in?"
"It wasn't locked. I was early and came in to wait."
"Wasn't locked?" He turned the key the other way and saw that, sure enough, the little bar slipped out easily.
"I'm getting old, I guess," he said. "I'm forgetful." He sighed. "I don't know why I lock it anyway. You could get in with a piece of baling wire. And who'd want to get in anyway?" He seemed to see her for the first time. "I don't have office hours until eleven."
Kate said, "I needed some more of those pills and I couldn't come later."
"Pills? Oh, yes. You're the girl from down at Faye's."
"That's right."
"Feeling better?"
"Yes, the pills help."
"Well, they can't hurt," he said. "Did I leave the door to the dispensary open too?"
"What's a dispensary?"
"Over there--that door."
"I guess you must have."
"Getting old. How is Faye?"
"Well, I'm worried about her. She was real sick a while ago. Had cramps and went a little out of her head."
"She's had a stomach disorder before," Dr. Wilde said. "You can't live like that and eat at all hours and be very well. I can't anyway. We just call it stomach trouble. Comes from eating too much and staying up all night. Now--the pills. Do you remember what color?"
"There were three kinds, yellow, red, and green."
"Oh, yes. Yes, I remember."
While he poured pills into a round cardboard box she stood in the door.
"What a lot of medicines!"
Dr. Wilde said, "Yes--and the older I get, the fewer I use. I got some of those when I started to practice. Never used them. That's a beginner's stock. I was going to experiment--alchemy."
"What?"
"Nothing. Here you are. Tell Faye to get some sleep and eat some vegetables. I've been up all night. Let yourself out, will you?" He went wavering back into the surgery.
Kate glanced after him and then her eyes flicked over the lines of bottles and containers. She closed the dispensary door and looked around the outer office. One book in the case was out of line. She pushed it back until it was shoulder to shoulder with its brothers.
She picked up her big handbag from the leather sofa and left.
In her own room Kate took five small bottles and a strip of scribbled paper from her handbag. She put the whole works in the toe of a stocking, pushed the wad into a rubber overshoe, and stood it with its fellow in the back of her closet.
3
During the following months a gradual change came over Faye's house. The girls were sloppy and touchy. If they had been told to clean themselves and their rooms a deep resentment would have set in and the house would have reeked of ill temper. But it didn't work that way.
Kate said at table one evening that she had just happened to look in Ethel's room and it was so neat and pretty she couldn't help buying her a present. When Ethel unwrapped the package right at the table it was a big bottle of Hoyt's German, enough to keep her smelling sweet for a long time. Ethel was pleased, and she hoped Kate hadn't seen the dirty clothes under the bed. After supper she not only got the clothes out but brushed the floors and swept the cobwebs out of the corners.
Then Grace looked so pretty one afternoon that Kate couldn't help giving her the rhinestone butterfly pin she was wearing. And Grace had to rush up and put on a clean shirtwaist to set it off.
Alex in the kitchen, who, if he had believed what was usually said of him would have considered himself a murderer, found that he had a magic hand with biscuits. He discovered that cooking was something you couldn't learn. You had to feel it.
Cotton Eye learned that nobody hated him. His tub-thumping piano playing changed imperceptibly.
He told Kate, "It's funny what you remember when you think back."
"Like what?" she asked.
"Well, like this," and he played for her.
"That's lovely," she said. "What is it?"
"Well, I don't know. I think it's Chopin. If I could just see the music!"
He told her how he had lost his sight, and he had never told anyone else. It was a bad story. That Saturday night he took the chain off the piano strings and played something he had been remembering and practicing in the morning, something called "Moonlight," a piece by Beethoven, Cotton Eye thought.
Ethel said it sounded like moonlight and did he know the words.
"It don't have words," said Cotton Eye.
Oscar Trip, up from Gonzales for Saturday night, said, "Well, it ought to have. It's pretty."
One night there were presents for everyone because Faye's was the best house, the cleanest, and nicest in the whole county--and who was responsible for that? Why, the girls--who else? And did they ever taste seasoning like in that stew?
Alex retired into the kitchen and shyly wiped his eyes with the back of his wrist. He bet he could make a plum pudding would knock their eyes out.
Georgia was getting up at ten every morning and taking piano lessons from Cotton Eye and her nails were clean.
Coming back from eleven o'clock mass on a Sunday morning, Grace said to Trixie, "And I was about ready to get married and give up whoring. Can you imagine?"
"It's sure nice," said Trixie. "Jenny's girls came over for Faye's birthday cake and they couldn't believe their eyes. They don't talk about nothing else but how it is at Faye's. Jenny's sore."
"Did you see the score on the blackboard this morning?"
"Sure I did--eighty-seven tricks in one week. Let Jenny or the Nigger match that when there ain't no holidays!"
"No holidays, hell. Have you forgot it's Lent? They ain't turning a trick at Jenny's."
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br /> After her illness and her evil dreams Faye was quiet and depressed. Kate knew she was being watched, but there was no help for that. And she had made sure the rolled paper was still in the box and all the girls had seen it or heard about it.
One afternoon Faye looked up from her solitaire game as Kate knocked and entered the room.
"How do you feel, Mother?"
"Fine, just fine." Her eyes were secretive. Faye wasn't very clever. "You know, Kate, I'd like to go to Europe."
"Well, how wonderful! And you deserve it and you can afford it."
"I don't want to go alone. I want you to go with me."
Kate looked at her in astonishment. "Me? You want to take me?"
"Sure, why not?"
"Oh, you sweet dear! When can we go?"
"You want to?"
"I've always dreamed of it. When can we go? Let's go soon."
Faye's eyes lost their suspicion and her face relaxed. "Maybe next summer," she said. "We can plan it for next summer. Kate!"
"Yes, Mother."
"You--you don't turn any tricks any more, do you?"
"Why should I? You take such good care of me."
Faye slowly gathered up the cards, and tapped them square, and dropped them in the table drawer.
Kate pulled up a chair. "I want to ask your advice about something."
"What is it?"
"Well, you know I'm trying to help you."
"You're doing everything, darling."
"You know our biggest expense is food, and it gets bigger in the winter."
"Yes."
"Well, right now you can buy fruit and all kinds of vegetables for two bits a lug. And in the winter you know what we pay for canned peaches and canned string beans."
"You aren't planning to start preserving?"
"Well, why shouldn't we?"
"What will Alex say to that?"
"Mother, you can believe it or not, or you can ask him. Alex suggested it."
"No!"
"Well, he did. Cross my heart."
"Well, I'll be damned--Oh, I'm sorry, sweet. It slipped out."
The kitchen turned into a cannery and all the girls helped. Alex truly believed it was his idea. At the end of the season he had a silver watch with his name engraved on the back to prove it.
Ordinarily both Faye and Kate had their supper at the long table in the dining room, but on Sunday nights when Alex was off and the girls dined on thick sandwiches, Kate served supper for two in Faye's room. It was pleasant and a ladylike time. There was always some little delicacy, very special and good--foie gras or a tossed salad, pastry bought at Lang's Bakery just across Main Street. And instead of the white oilcloth and paper napkins of the dining room, Faye's table was covered with a white damask cloth and the napkins were linen. It had a party feeling too, candles and--something rare in Salinas--a bowl of flowers. Kate could make pretty floral arrangements using only the blossoms from weeds she picked in the fields.
"What a clever girl she is," Faye would say. "She can do anything and she can make do with anything. We're going to Europe. And did you know Kate speaks French? Well, she can. When you get her alone ask her to say something in French. She's teaching me. Know how you say bread in French?" Faye was having a wonderful time. Kate gave her excitement and perpetual planning.
4
On Saturday the fourteenth of October the first wild ducks went over Salinas. Faye saw them from her window, a great wedge flying south. When Kate came in before supper, as she always did, Faye told her about it. "I guess the winter's nearly here," she said. "We'll have to get Alex to set up the stoves."
"Ready for your tonic, Mother dear?"
"Yes, I am. You're making me lazy, waiting on me."
"I like to wait on you," said Kate. She took the bottle of Lydia Pinkham's Vegetable Compound from the drawer and held it up to the light. "Not much left," she said. "We'll have to get some more."
"Oh, I think I have three bottles left of the dozen in my closet."
Kate picked up the glass. "There's a fly in the glass," she said. "I'll just go and wash it out."
In the kitchen she rinsed the glass. From her pocket she took the eye-dropper. The end was closed with a little piece of potato, the way you plug the spout of a kerosene can. She carefully squeezed a few drops of clear liquid into the glass, a tincture of nux vomica.
Back in Faye's room she poured the three tablespoons of vegetable compound in the glass and stirred it.
Faye drank her tonic and licked her lips. "It tastes bitter," she said.
"Does it, dear? Let nie taste." Kate took a spoonful from the bottle and made a face. "So it does," she said. "I guess it's been standing around too long. I'm going to throw it out. Say, that is bitter. Let me get you a glass of water."
At supper Faye's face was flushed. She stopped eating and seemed to be listening.
"What's the matter?" Kate asked. "Mother, what's the matter?"
Faye seemed to tear her attention away. "Why, I don't know. I guess a little heart flutter. Just all of a sudden I felt afraid and my heart got to pounding."
"Don't you want me to help you to your room?"
"No, dear, I feel all right now."
Grace put down her fork. "Well, you got a real high flush, Faye."
Kate said, "I don't like it. I wish you'd see Dr. Wilde."
"No, it's all right now."
"You frightened me," said Kate. "Have you ever had it before?"
"Well, I'm a little short of breath sometimes. I guess I'm getting too stout."
Faye didn't feel very good that Saturday night and about ten o'clock Kate persuaded her to go to bed. Kate looked in several times until she was sure Faye was asleep.
The next day Faye felt all right. "I guess I'm just short-winded," she said.
"Well, we're going to have invalid food for my darling," said Kate. "I've made some chicken soup for you, and we'll have a string-bean salad--the way you like it, just oil and vinegar, and a cup of tea."
"Honest to God, Kate. I feel pretty good."
"It wouldn't hurt either of us to eat a little light. You frightened me last night. I had an aunt who died of heart trouble. And that leaves a memory, you know."
"I never had any trouble with my heart. Just a little short-winded when I climb the stairs."
In the kitchen Kate set the supper on two trays. She measured out the French dressing in a cup and poured it on the string-bean salad. On Faye's tray she put her favorite cup and set the soup forward on the stove to heat. Finally she took the eye-dropper from her pocket and squeezed two drops of croton oil on the string beans and stirred it in. She went to her room and swallowed the contents of a small bottle of Cascara Sagrada and hurried back to the kitchen. She poured the hot soup in the cups, filled the teapot with boiling water, and carried the trays to Faye's room.
"I didn't think I was hungry," Faye said. "But that soup smells good."
"I made a special salad dressing for you," said Kate. "It's an old recipe, rosemary and thyme. See if you like it."
"Why, it's delicious," said Faye. "Is there anything you can't do darling?"
Kate was stricken first. Her forehead beaded with perspiration and she doubled over, crying with pain. Her eyes were staring and the saliva ran from her mouth. Faye ran to the hallway, screaming for help. The girls and a few Sunday customers crowded into the room. Kate was writhing on the floor. Two of the regulars lifted her onto Faye's bed and tried to straighten her out, but she screamed and doubled up again. The sweat poured from her body and wet her clothes.
Faye was wiping Kate's forehead with a towel when the pain struck her.
It was an hour before Dr. Wilde could be found playing euchre with a friend. He was dragged down to the Line by two hysterical whores. Faye and Kate were weak from vomiting and diarrhea and the spasms continued at intervals.
Dr. Wilde said, "What did you eat?" And then he noticed the trays. "Are these string beans home canned?" he demanded.
"Sure," sai
d Grace. "We did them right here."
"Did any of you have them?"
"Well, no. You see--"
"Go out and break every jar," Dr. Wilde said. "Goddam the string beans!" And he unpacked his stomach pump.
On Tuesday he sat with the two pale weak women. Kate's bed had been moved into Faye's room. "I can tell you now," he said. "I didn't think you had a chance. You're pretty lucky. And let home-made string beans alone. Buy canned ones."
"What is it?" Kate asked.
"Botulism. We don't know much about it, but damn few ever get over it. I guess it's because you're young and she's tough." He asked Faye, "Are you still bleeding from the bowels?"
"Yes, a little."
"Well, here are some morphine pills. They'll bind you up. You've probably ruptured something. But they say you can't kill a whore. Now take it easy, both of you."
That was October 17.
Faye was never really well again. She would make a little gain and then go to pieces. She had a bad time on December 3, and it took even longer for her to gain her strength. February 12 the bleeding became violent and the strain seemed to have weakened Faye's heart. Dr. Wilde listened a long time through his stethoscope.
Kate was haggard and her slender body had shrunk to bones. The girls tried to spell her with Faye, but Kate would not leave.
Grace said, "God knows when's the last sleep she had. If Faye was to die I think it would kill that girl."
"She's just as like to blow her brains out," said Ethel.
Dr. Wilde took Kate into the day-darkened parlor and put his black bag on the chair. "I might as well tell you," he said. "Her heart just can't take the strain, I'm afraid. She's all torn up inside. That goddam botulism. Worse than a rattlesnake." He looked away from Kate's haggard face. "I thought it would be better to tell you so you can prepare yourself," he said lamely and put his hand on her bony shoulder. "Not many people have such loyalty. Give her a little warm milk if she can take it."
Kate carried a basin of warm water to the table beside the bed. When Trixie looked in, Kate was bathing Faye and using the fine linen napkins to do it. Then she brushed the lank blond hair and braided it.
Faye's skin had shrunk, clinging to jaw and skull, and her eyes were huge and vacant.
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