Roommates!
“I feel like the universe is conspiring against me a little bit,” I finally say.
“Oh, sweetie, don’t be like that,” my mom says. “Don’t think like that. This was just a glitch. An accident. I’m sure it will work out. I mean, how often do you have to see the other suite mates anyway? When we came back from Housing, no one was there at all. Maybe you’ll have different schedules? Different routines?”
She’s mumbling now but it’s making me feel better. She’s right. I have to believe that she’s right. Maybe there is some way to avoid him.
“My roommate, Juliet, seems nice.” I change the topic.
Both of my parents nod in agreement. Then my dad manages to stumble onto another topic that makes me uncomfortable.
“And what’s her major?” he asks.
Ah, the never-ending topic of majors. From what I’ve learned from my sisters, majors are an important topic of conversation in college. It’s almost like there’s nothing else. Your major puts you into some sort of classification. A particular phylum, order, or genus. According to my oldest sister, that is.
“Not sure.” I shrug.
“None of you are sure, are you? What is it with this generation, Sharon? Were we like this?”
“Yes; many people were. You? No, you weren’t like this.” She smiles. She’s making fun of him, but it all comes from love.
“No, I wasn’t.” My dad beams with pride as he says that. “I knew right away that I wanted to be a doctor. I can even remember my first semester’s course schedule. Can you believe that? All these years later? I took Biology, Chemistry 101, Physics 102, Calculus 1, and Western Civilization 1. The last one was some sort of inane requirement, of course.”
“Yes. Who could imagine that anything about Western Civilization would be useful to any human being alive?” I say sarcastically. I’m joking, but not really and my dad knows that.
“Ah, I see, we have a smartass here. Okay, then, smartass, what courses have you decided on?”
I sigh. Not because I don’t know. I’ve been pouring over the course catalog for the last month. I’ve got it practically memorized. The only conclusion that I’ve come to is that there are just too many fascinating courses to narrow them down to just four or five. Some of my favorites are The Writer’s Process, The Art of the Essay, Intro to Fiction Writing, and The Victorian Age in Literature. I can’t really come out and say that. Not if I want to have a full-blown argument on my hands.
“I don’t know; I still have to meet with my advisor,” I say, “but probably some required electives and an English class or two.”
English sounds more professional than writing. At least in my mind.
“English? Again, with this?” My dad rolls his eyes. “Honey, I know you like to read and write, but what are you going to do after graduation? Now, if you pursue pre-med then at least you’ll have some prospects.”
Now it’s my turn to roll my eyes. Pre-med. For some reason my father is obsessed with the notion of me studying pre-med. Perhaps it’s because he’s a doctor and my mom’s a doctor, but they both wanted to be doctors. Isn’t it unreasonable to try to convince someone to become a doctor when it’s practically the last thing that she wants to do with her life?
“I don’t want to talk about this, Dad.” I shake my head and concentrate on the tiny piece of salmon and feta cheese before me.
If I don’t pace myself, I’m going to be done with dinner in two bites. Oh, how I wish we went to some cheap, chain restaurant instead with unlimited breadsticks and other things to munch on. That way I would’ve at least had something to distract me from this interrogation.
“Oh, I know you don’t. But I feel like it’s necessary before you spend $50,000 a year at this fancy ivy-covered school on basket-weaving or reading books you can read for free at the library.”
“Eliot, please,” my mom says. The conversation is over. I’ve been waiting for this statement ever since the topic of majors came up and I welcome it with open arms. Everyone in my family knows that when Mom says, “Eliot, please,” it’s time for my dad to stop beating a dead horse.
5
When I was young, I thought nothing could hurt me. I thought I was invincible. My whole life was ahead of me and I had a lot of plans. Plans for high school. Plans for college. Plans to be with Hudson the rest of my life. He was my perfect match. My soul mate. Or so I thought.
Then I got older and realized that it was all crap. I was living a lie. Lost in my own delusion. Hudson was not my soul mate. He was just my boyfriend. Someone who had broken my heart. Now, I don’t know if I believe in the whole idea of a soul mate.
For all the reasons that I hate him, that’s the thing that makes me hate him most.
“Hey, hey.” I hear someone saying far in the distance. “Hey, excuse me.”
I turn away from the living room window and come face-to-face with a tall, blond, blue-eyed hottie.
“Are you my new roommate?” he asks. His eyes twinkle in the sunlight that streams in. I nod. He gives me a warm hug. Introduces himself as Dylan Waterhouse.
Dylan is from Connecticut. I’ve never been to Connecticut. Immediately, I think of the Gilmore Girls and an old romantic comedy with Julia Roberts called Mystic Pizza. I imagine Dylan growing up in one of those picturesque coastal towns where leaves turn gorgeous colors of red and gold every fall.
“No.” Dylan laughs when I tell him. “I grew up in Greenwich. It’s a bit different. No fishing for me. We spent our summers in the Hamptons and my dad has an apartment on Central Park.
“So, where are you from, gorgeous?” he asks, tilting his chin toward me. His arms hang loosely on his sides, but I can still see that he’s ripped. For a second, I don’t get it. Then, it hits me.
“Are you flirting with me?”
“Yeah, maybe. Why?”
I roll my eyes. I pretend that I’m annoyed, but too effectively. I hate to admit it, but I like the attention. Dylan is very cute and rich, apparently.
“Because we’re roommates, remember?” I say, pushing him aside slightly. My hand lands on his chest. His pecs are hard and warm. I linger there a little too long.
“Hey! You’re back!” Juliet walks out of our room. “Oh, and you met Dylan!”
I nod. There’s a knock at the door and a man who’s old enough to be Dylan’s father walks in, laden down with expensive looking suitcases. He’s got jet-black hair and serious eyes. He’s clearly out of breath.
“Oh, you must be Dylan’s father. Hi, it’s nice to meet you,” I say when the man puts down his bags. Dylan doesn’t make a move to help him. I wait for his dad to reprimand him, but he doesn’t.
“Oh, no, miss, I’m not Dylan’s father,” he says.
“You can just put the bags in there.” Dylan points to his room.
“He’s not your dad?” I whisper.
Dylan flashes a crooked smile. “No, he’s the chauffeur.”
“Your chauffeur dropped you off? Shit. I thought my parents were uninvolved,” Juliet pipes in.
She proceeds to go on a rant about how ridiculous her parents are for not even coming to the school. She’s from Staten Island and apparently taking a ferry over and then a cab all the way up to 116th Street is too much trouble.
“What’s the problem?” Juliet mimics her mom, giving her a raspy smoker’s voice. “You don’t think we’ve been to Upper West Side before?”
“Eh, your parents at least have the ferry as an excuse. My parents are separated and my dad’s been living in his Park Avenue apartment. Still didn’t bother to come by. He did act like him lending me his chauffeur was a big deal this morning.”
What I quickly learn is that in New York, there’s a big difference between old and new money. Juliet’s dad owns a chain of laundromats and a few apartment buildings. Her dad went to CUNY for a semester, but dropped out to start his business. Her mom is her dad’s fourth wife and way younger than him. Dylan’s parents met at Princeton. He’s rebelling
by not going to Princeton. His dad runs some sort of pharmaceutical contract company and he’s also a practicing attorney who graduated from Yale Law School.
I have no idea why both Juliet and Dylan give me a breakdown of their parents’ education and background immediately upon meeting me. Is this an East Coast thing? Probably, I decide. Back in LA, people are different. Education matters less than people you know.
“So, what do you think you’re going to major in?” I ask Dylan.
He laughs. I think he knows that I’m just following standard operating procedures of meeting someone new at college. What other way is there to evaluate the person from head to toe and make all sorts of inappropriate assumptions of who they are as human beings?
“Not sure yet. Leaning toward history, I think. I’m planning on going to law school after. So, history sounds good, I guess.”
“Hey, me, too!” Juliet says. “I just love Roman and Greek civilizations. They’re so fascinating, right?”
Dylan’s unimpressed. “I like twentieth century better.”
“Is that history or poli sci?” she asks.
We take a moment to consider the notion. I hate to admit it, but I agree. In school, we didn’t even reach the twentieth century. Instead, we kept learning about Columbus, the founding of America, and the 1800s.
My eyes wander over to the back and I see Hudson standing there. His hair is falling slightly into his face. He casually leans on the doorframe the way models do in magazines. Look at me, aren’t I hot? But not in that totally obvious way. I’m hot, but I don’t really know it. Except that I do. That’s what that look says. Even if the guy doesn’t say it out loud. Especially if he doesn’t.
Dylan and Juliet continue their banter, completely oblivious to us. I stare at him. He says nothing. I can’t believe that less than three weeks ago, I could just go over there and plant a big wet kiss on those luscious and utterly kissable lips. Now I can’t. It feels so arbitrary. It hasn’t been that long at all and just because our status has changed, suddenly we’re strangers with nothing to say to each other. No. We’re strangers with a million things to say to each other. A million things we can’t or don’t say.
“Oh, hey, Hudson! You’re back. Good,” Dylan says. “I was just wondering if any of you are hungry? I know this awesome pizza place down the street. They serve slices as big as regular-sized pizzas at other places. Their pizza’s delicious.”
“I’m starving,” Juliet says.
“Me, too,” Hudson says after a moment. I search his face trying to figure out what he thinks I should do but his expression is blank. Unreadable.
“No, I’m fine. I got a lot to do,” I finally say.
“Awe, c’mon, Alice. Please come.” Dylan puts his arm around my shoulder as if I’m his oldest friend. “Pretty please?”
“Yeah, c’mon,” Juliet says. “It’ll be fun.”
“I don’t know.” I stand my ground.
“This is our first official activity as suite mates and you have to be a part of it.” The tone in Dylan’s voice changes. He’s more serious now but still joking.
“Listen, if she doesn’t want to go, she doesn’t have to go,” Hudson says. It sounds like he’s taking my side, but something in the way that he says it irks me. He’s the one who dumped me. Why should I be the one staying home and not going out? Fuck him.
“Okay, I’ll go,” I say.
“Awesome!” Dylan jumps up in excitement. He wraps his arms around me and gives me a big kiss on my cheek.
Out of the corner of my eye, I see Hudson’s crestfallen face. All of a sudden, I feel as light as a feather.
6
Hudson goes to get the elevator and I stay behind and wait for Juliet and Dylan to get their wallets.
“How are you feeling? Are you okay?” she asks when she comes out. I shrug.
“What’s wrong?” Dylan asks. Juliet gives him the general idea.
“Hudson is your ex-boyfriend? Holy shit. That’s awkward.”
“Yep.” I nod. “As of two weeks ago. I tried to go change rooms, but there are no other rooms available apparently. So, I’m stuck here with him.”
“Hey, hey, hey. I take personal offense at that, girlie. Yes, it’s fuckin’ awkward as hell to live with your ex, but he’s not your only roommate. There’s also Juliet and I. We’re pretty awesome. I’m sure that you’ll be convinced of that by the end of dinner.”
My mouth salivates at the thought. Though I’ve already officially had dinner with my parents, I don’t count it as dinner. The portions were minuscule and the conversation was treacherous.
When we get to the pizza place, I quickly realize that Dylan was not in fact exaggerating about the size of those slices. They’re huge. Very thin with not too much cheese, but enormous nevertheless. I order one and it looks like a whole 20” pizza at home, only in slice form. Luckily, the plates and tables are equally large and we have room to spread out with our slices.
I avoid Hudson’s gaze practically the whole dinner and he does well in avoiding mine as well. Instead, we both concentrate on Dylan and Juliet, who have enough to talk about for all of us. Dylan talks about running track in high school and summering in the Hamptons. Juliet moans about her dad’s decision to buy a house on the Jersey Shore instead of the Hamptons.
“The Hamptons aren’t that great.” Dylan tries to comfort her.
“Oh, please, don’t give me that.” She waves her hand as if she’s insulted.
“What?” Dylan laughs, taking another big bite of pizza.
“I hate people who pretend the Hamptons aren’t that great even more than people who actually summer there! It’s like those girls who pretend that they don’t like diamonds. Am I right?” She turns to me.
I shrug. “Sorry, I’m the wrong person to ask. I’ve never been to the Hamptons and I don’t really like diamonds.”
Juliet looks at me as if I’m insane. “Oh, you’re impossible!”
“All in all, I think this has been a great first day, wouldn’t you say?” Juliet asks me as she gets undressed. I’m already lying in bed, reading on my phone.
“It could’ve been better.” I shrug. “But I do like you and Dylan.”
She laughs. “I don’t know about Hudson. He’s difficult to read. What’s he like?”
She catches me off-guard. I don’t know what to say.
“You know him really well, right? I was just wondering. He seems quiet.” She puts on a pair of blue pajama pants and a tank top then climbs into bed.
“I don’t really know. I don’t really know who he is anymore,” I say. I know she’s waiting for me to elaborate. So, I take a moment to consider the question.
“No, he’s not really quiet. Not at all. He’s loud and opinionated. He’s headstrong. I don’t know why he seems quiet. Well, no. I know; it’s because of me. He definitely didn’t expect to find me living here either.”
“So, what did happen between you two? Tell me everything.”
It would take a whole night to tell her everything.
“We were childhood friends. Best friends, really. For many years. Then in 11th grade, we finally started dating. There was this thing building up within us for a few years before that. We told each other everything. Hung out all the time. I had a crush on him forever. Then in 11th grade, he suddenly kissed me and everything fell into place.
“We dated for two years. It was hard. His family moved to San Francisco the year before our senior year because his dad got a really lucrative job at an education technology start up.”
“His parents made him move his senior year? That’s rough!”
“Yeah, it was. At first, he was going to stay with a friend, but that didn’t work out. But he’s got two little brothers; they’re in elementary school. So, it’s not just him that his parents had to consider.”
“So, what happened?”
“Well, we decided to continue our relationship. Long distance. He came down for Christmas and then for the whole summer. He sta
yed at a friend’s house.”
I stopped talking and looked at the ceiling. It was an old popcorn ceiling and it reminded me of the kind of ceilings they have in shady motels. I couldn’t go any further. I wasn’t ready but Juliet wanted to know more.
“So?” she asks. I look over at her. She’s lying on her stomach with her arms wrapped around one of the ten throw pillows she piled on her bed. She’s on the edge of her seat. I try to make this quick.
“To tell you the truth, I don’t really know, Juliet. I thought everything was fine. It seemed fine. Then he just came to me one day and said we had to talk. We talked and talked. For like six hours and the whole time we were talking, I had no idea we were breaking up. Not really. It just felt like I was helping him with something. Like he was feeling insecure or lost and I was there to support him. For a couple of hours, I seriously thought we were talking about his problems with his mother. But then at the end, he said that he thinks he needs space. Needs time to figure things out. Wants to be alone.”
“So how did you end up at the same school?”
“We’d wanted to go to New York forever. It was always our dream. We applied to both Columbia and NYU. When we both got into Columbia, we were both over the moon. There was no question about it, really. When the breakup happened, I didn’t think it was right for me to change my mind about it. I said to myself that it’s a huge city. Big campus. 30,000 students. There’s no way I’m going to run into him. Little did I know that I was actually going to be assigned to live with him.”
Suddenly, I start to laugh. Juliet joins me. The whole situation is so tragic it’s actually comical.
7
My parents left two days ago. The goodbye was a lot sadder than I’d anticipated. At least for my mom. My mom is a woman who rarely cries. She’s such a positive person that she actually participated in one of those gratitude challenges online last year where you spend every day of the month writing thank-you letters to various people in your life for all the things that you’re grateful for. My mom always looks at the bright side of things or at least tries to, but I could see that saying goodbye to me was really tough on her.
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