by Ward, H. M.
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Suggested Ferro Reading Order
Each series can be read individually or you can follow the publication order below.
THE ARRANGEMENT 1
THE ARRANGEMENT 2
THE ARRANGEMENT 3
THE ARRANGEMENT 4
THE ARRANGEMENT 5
THE ARRANGEMENT 6
DAMAGED 1
DAMAGED 2
SECRET LIFE OF TRYSTAN SCOTT 1
SECRET LIFE OF TRYSTAN SCOTT 2
SECRET LIFE OF TRYSTAN SCOTT 3
SECRET LIFE OF TRYSTAN SCOTT 4
SECRET LIFE OF TRYSTAN SCOTT 5
THE ARRANGEMENT 7
THE ARRANGEMENT 8
THE ARRANGEMENT 9
THE ARRANGEMENT 10
THE ARRANGEMENT 11
SCANDALOUS 1
SCANDALOUS 2
STRIPPED 1
THE PROPOSITION 1
THE PROPOSITION 2
THE PROPOSITION 3
THE PROPOSITION 4
THE ARRANGEMENT 12
THE ARRANGEMENT 13
THE ARRANGEMENT 14
THE PROPOSITION 5
THE ARRANGEMENT 15
THE ARRANGEMENT 16
THE ARRANGEMENT 17
THE ARRANGEMENT 18
THE WEDDING CONTRACT
SECRETS & LIES 1
SECRETS & LIES 2
SECOND CHANCES
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 1
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 2
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 3
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 4
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 5
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 6
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 7
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 8
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 9
LIFE BEFORE DAMAGED 10
THE ARRANGEMENT 19
THE ARRANGEMENT 20
MANWHORE
BROKEN PROMISES
THE ARRANGEMENT 21
STRIPPED 2
SECRETS & LIES 3
SECRETS & LIES 4
SECRETS & LIES 5
SECRETS & LIES 6
THE ARRANGEMENT 22
SECRETS & LIES 7
A DAMAGED WEDDING
EASY 1
THE ARRANGEMENT 23
For Mike, the most awesome hubby ever, my blue-eyed, dark haired hero.
The Arrangement
Collection A (Vol. 1-3)
1
11:04pm, CAMPONE ESTATE
The gunshots echo in my mind as I stare out a window, perched on the top floor of the large estate house. Down below there’s a great pool with a glittering blue bottom. Warm lights illuminate the otherwise inky night, creating a soft cast of golden light from beneath the water. The surface ripples as crimson streamers seep from the two bodies floating face down in the water.
My heart lodges in my throat as a shiver rakes my spine. Time stops as I forget to breathe. It can’t be. No. No. No. Unblinking, I stare as denial ravages my mind. The truth is simple. I know them. I know him. Sean Ferro’s trim form, the sweep of his shoulders and his thick dark hair. The hardened stiffness of his stance, the remorse and grief he bore is now absent as he floats, listless. I’d recognize him anywhere. He doesn’t lift a hand, doesn’t pull his face from the water to assure me that he’s all right. No movement.
Reality twists in time with my heartbeat, skewing my surroundings until they vanish from my sight. There’s nothing at that moment. No mansion, no towering walls lined with bookcases. The scent of expensive rugs and feather filled furniture eludes me. The voices drifting through the room get sucked into the void that holds me firmly at its center. A single word echoes over and over again in my mind like a tiny prayer. No. No. No. No.
The man responsible cackles behind me, but it sounds like static in my ears. My body flushes hot before the center of my chest fills with razor sharp ice. The normal expansion of my ribs feels like nails in my lungs.
Thoughts flicker like candles caught in the initial sweep of a current. Bright bursts of memories vividly appear before being engulfed by darkness. Random thoughts rush at me and then nothing. The loudest of which is relentless. The inner-voice, the one that sounds like me, wildly wails inside my mind as my face remains poised, unaffected. My throat tightens around shards of regret and fury even though I manage to keep my face posed in a neutral expression.
All this time, I wanted to be like Sean. I wanted to feel nothing, to have the ability to be a cold, sadistic bastard if required.
Surviving justifies anything.
That was my mantra. It consumed me. I wanted to patch myself up and shut the world out, but as I tried to learn those tricks from Sean things took an unexpected turn—I fell in love with him. The monster everyone hates, everyone but me. It wasn’t supposed to happen.
The moment of denial fades and I accept the lifeless bodies swimming in blood, I don’t fall to the floor in a hopeless heap, unable to control my tears. No, instead an intense fury races through me, but it’s tempered by something that slithers through my mind—a single thought woven from the last cobwebs of my shattered soul. The delicate nature of it instantly turns to steel.
The effect is like slamming a door. Staring at Sean’s stiff body does something to me. It’s pivotal. I feel it happen. I change. The spider-web-thin cracks that have covered me for so long fracture. The freefall begins. I know I’m about to tumble beneath the surface of my mind, to whatever darkness lies beneath. There will be no coming back, no recovery.
Emotion drains from my body as if hastily dumped on the sidewalk. Fear vaporizes and gets swept away like a cloud of smoke. There’s nothing left of me. The voice in my head, the one that tells me to hope and to press on no matter what, is silent. She’s not screaming at me to run, to fight, or do anything.
There’s a void in her absence, an empty black chasm filled with icy darkness. Is this the nightmare I’ve had so many times? I dreamed of getting pulled under and drowning. The water was a noose around my neck, unrelenting, unforgiving. There was no way out, but when Sean was there, the dream faded.
Tonight it feels like that dream is a reality. No one can save me. I may still be among the living, but I’ve already perished. I’m below the surface and breathing water. That’s when the strangest thought occurs—I’m not afraid.
Surviving justifies anything, but the game has changed. I’ve fallen past the edge of the slippery slope, skidded down the sides, and just burst through the bottom. Only monsters live here and I’m about to become one of them.
2
6 MONTHS PRIOR, SEAN FERRO
When I glance at the manila folder in my hand and then back up at the girl by the grave, I assume there must be a mistake. There’s nothing threatening about this woman. She’s barely twenty, and she pulled up to the cemetery in a car that should have been crushed decades ago. She kneels by a gleaming headstone, face hidden by a wall of dark hair. The patch of dirt under her knees is still visible, but not much grows at this time of year.
A shriek of winter wind gusts, viciously tugging at my coat. Swallowing hard, I linger, watching her like a voyeur. I remain obscured by the massive headstone jutting from the frozen ground that lies between us, interrupting her line of sight. She has no idea I’m here. No clue that I've been trailing her for days.
This woman believes she’s lost everything, but she has no idea what’s about to happen to her. There’s no redemption for a person who burns the Ferro family.
3
Avery Stanz, 10:47pm, Deer Park Ave.
The night air is frigid. It doesn’t help that I’m stuck wearing this little black dress in my crap car. I shiver as I try to keep the engine running at a red light. My little battered car is from two decades ago and stalls if I don’t rev the engine while I have my foot on the brake. I’m driving with two feet, in a car that’s supposed to be an automatic. The heater doesn’t work. If I try to turn it on, I’ll get my face blasted with white smoke. It’s awesome, in an utter
ly humbling kind of way. At least the car is mine. It gets me where I need to go, most of the time.
The light flips to green and I botch it. I don’t gas the car enough and it shudders and stalls. I grumble and grab for the can of ether. The cars behind me blare their horns.
I ignore them. They can go around me. I grab the can on the seat next to me, kick open my door, and walk around to the hood. I shake the can and spray it into the engine intake. The car will start up as soon as I turn the key now, and I can drive away in shame.
The night air is crisp and filled with exhaust. This road is always busy. It doesn’t matter what time of day it is. Angry drivers move around me. Everyone is always in a hurry. It’s part of the New York frame of mind. I’m treated to a catcall as a car full of guys blows past me. I flip them the bird and hear their laughter echo as they fade from sight.
Tonight couldn’t possibly get any worse. I put the cap on the can of ether. Then it happens. My night takes a one-eighty straight into suckage.
As I drop the hood, it slams shut, and I look through the windshield. “Seriously?” I say at the guy who jumps in my seat. He’s wearing a once-blue fluffy coat and hasn’t shaved for weeks. He turns the key and my crappy car roars to life. He gasses it and takes off, swerving around me. I stand in the lane staring after him. What a moron. Who’d steal that piece of trash?
Still, it’s my car and I need it. After the night I had, I don’t want to run after him, but I have to. I need that car. I take off at a full run. My lungs start to burn as I suck in frozen air and exhaust. I run down the shoulder, avoiding trash that’s laying in the gutter. My attention is singularly focused on my car. I push my body harder and feel my muscles protest, but I don’t hold back. He’s getting away.
I manage to run a block when a guy on a motorcycle slows next to me. “That guy stole your car.” He sounds shocked.
I can’t see his face through the black helmet. It has a tinted visor that covers his face. “No shit, Sherlock,” I huff and keep running. My purse is in the car, my only pair of work-acceptable heels, my books—awh, fuck—my books. I paid over a grand for those. They’re worth more than the car. I run faster. My dress flares around my thighs as my Chucks help me sprint forward. My body doesn’t want to do it. The stitch in my side feels like it’s going to bust open.
The guy on the bike is annoying. He rolls next to me and flips up his face shield. I glance at him, wondering what he’s doing. Biker guy looks at me like I’m crazy. “Are you trying to catch him?”
“Yes,” pointing ahead, huffing. There are three lights on this stretch of road before the ramp to get on the parkway. If he hits a red light, the car will stall and I’ll get it back. My lungs are burning and it’s not like I have time to explain this. My car has already passed the first light. “If he stops, the car will stall.”
“You want me to help?” he glances at the car and then back at me.
I stop and nearly double over. Holy hell, I’m out of shape. I nod and throw my leg over the back of his bike, flashing the cars driving past us. I so don’t care. Wrapping my arms around his waist, I hold on tight and say, “Go.”
“I was going to call the cops, but this works, too.” He sounds amused. I hold onto his trim waist and plaster myself against his back. He’s wearing a leather jacket, and I can feel his toned body through the supple material. He pulls into traffic and zips through the lanes. The wind blasts my hair and plasters my eyelashes wide open. We bob and weave, getting closer and closer to my car. My heart is racing so fast that it’s going to explode.
I see my car. It’s passing the second light. Motorcycle man punches it, and the bike flies under the second intersection just as the light changes. I manage not to shriek. My skirt flies up to my hips, but I don’t let go of the biker’s waist to push the fabric back down.
We’re nearly there when the thief catches the third light. The car in front of him stops, forcing the carjacker to stop as well. As soon as he takes his foot off the gas, my car convulses and white smoke shoots out the tailpipe. The engine ceases. The driver’s side door is kicked open and the guy runs.
Motorcycle man pulls up next to my car. I slip off the back of the bike, my heart beating a mile a minute. I can’t afford to lose this stuff. I’m barely making it as it is. I look at my car. Everything is still there. I turn back to the guy on the bike as I smooth my skirt back into place.
Tucking my hair behind my ear, I say, “Thanks.” I must seem insane.
He flips his face shield up and says, “No problem. Does your car always do that?” A pair of blue eyes meet mine and the floor of my stomach gives way. Damn, he’s cute. No, not cute—he’s hot.
“Get jacked? No, not always.”
He smiles. There’s a dusting of stubble on his cheeks. I can barely see it because of the helmet. He raises an eyebrow at me and asks, “This has happened before, hasn’t it?”
More times than you’d think. Criminals are really stupid. “Let’s just say, this isn’t the first time I had to chase after the car. So far no one’s made it to the parkway. That damn light takes forever and I keep stalling out in the same spot. You’d think I’d figure it out by now, but…” But I’m mentally challenged and prefer to chase after car thieves. I stop talking and press my lips together. His eyes run over my dress and pause on my sneakers, before returning to my face. Great, he thinks I’m mental.
Turning to the car, I grab another can of ether from the backseat and walk around to the front. I dropped the last can somewhere behind me. I pop the hood and spray. I’m so cold that I’ve gone numb. As I walk back to my door, I shake my head saying, “Who steals a car that barely runs?”
“Do you need any help?” The guy holds my gaze for a moment and my stomach twists. He seems sincere, which kills me. A strange compulsion to spill my guts tries to overtake me, but I bash it back down.
Pressing my lips together, I shake my head, and swallow the lump in my throat. Today sucked. I’m totally alone. No one helps me, and yet this guy did. “No, I’m okay,” I lie as I slip into my car and yank the door shut. “Thanks for the ride.” I turn the engine over and smile at him. The window is down. It doesn’t go up.
“Anytime.” He nods at me, like he wants to say something else. All I can see of his face is his crystal blue eyes and a beautiful mouth. He’s sitting on a bike that cost more than my tuition. He’s loaded and I’ve got nothing. A pang of remorse shoots through me, but I need to go. The haves and the have-nots weren’t made to mingle. I already learned that lesson once. I don’t need to learn it again.
“Thanks,” I say before he can ask my name. “I’ll see you around.” I smile at him and drive away, holding back tears that are building behind my eyes.
It’s weird. There are so many shitty people in the world, and on the worst day of my life, I finally find a nice one and I’m driving away from him.
4
My dress swishes around my knees as I walk down the dorm hallway, toward my room. I’m holding my books under one arm and my heels in the other. My purse is over my shoulder. I have my keys in hand and shove one into the lock and twist. The knob turns and I push, walking forward. The door hits something and I walk into it, smacking my head and dropping everything. It’s late and I’m tired. I kick the door with my foot, knowing Amber (the worst roommate ever) blocked the door so I can’t get inside.
“Open the door!” I scream and kick it again, but she doesn’t open up. I pick my books up off the floor and slip them between the crack in the door. I grab my heels and purse and walk to Melony’s room. I knock on the door jam and peek in.
“Hey, how’d your night go?” Melony is leaning toward a mirror, putting on earrings that dangle. They sparkle like sunlight against her dark hair. Her skin is the color of caramel and so are her eyes. She looks like a supermodel. She’s wearing a dress that wraps around her narrow waist with a plunging neckline.
“Sucked,” I say, laying back on her bed and staring at the ceiling. “I got carjacked agai
n. I really thought thieves were smarter than that.”
She turns and looks at me. “Are you hurt?”
“Nah, some guy helped me. I got my car back and the idiot who took it didn’t steal anything. He ran when the car stalled. What a dumbass.” I press my fingers to my temples, trying to stop the headache that’s threatening to tear my brains apart.
“What else happened?” She asks, since having car issues is a normal part of my life. “You seem way out of sorts.”
I am way out of sorts. I’m quiet for a moment. I want to tell someone, but Mel has money and I have none. I work my ass off and I still can’t get ahead. I swallow hard and say it. “I can’t do it anymore, Mel. I can’t work and do school. If I don’t keep my GPA at a 3.5, I lose my scholarship, but if I don’t work—” I groan, covering my face with my arm.
“You can’t live. Yeah, I get it.” She says, putting away her makeup.
“I don’t know what to do. I have a huge test on Monday and I haven’t even cracked open the book yet. Then, when the car got jacked—damn—all that I could think was that I’m going to fail the test on Monday without my book. I ran down Deer Park Avenue like a lunatic, chasing a stolen textbook.”
The bed next to me dips and I realize Mel is sitting there. “You need a new job, honey.”
“I know, but it’s the same everywhere. Nobody pays enough. I work until I drop dead at night, and I’m still eating Ramen noodles. I can’t stand it anymore.”
She pats my arm, pulling it away from my face. Her golden eyes meet mine. “Listen, I have to check in at work, take care of some paperwork for tomorrow, and do a few things. My boss is going to be there. You should come and meet her.”
I look up at her, “What? And work at a hotel?”
Mel smiles at me funnily, and nods. “Yeah, I mean, why not? It’s a good job, it pays great, and the hours are perfect. I work way less than you and make way more.”
