Alicto’s calm voice added to the unreality of the situation. Lash’s anger faded and grogginess again took its place. “Why don’t we get on with the evaluation?” he asked.
“What makes you think all this isn’t part of the evaluation, Dr. Lash? I’m evaluating you as a complete person in real time, not as the faceless body that completed those tests this morning. But very well, back to the personality inventory. While your scales for falsehood and median response are good, your remedial skews abnormally high.”
Lash remained silent.
“As you know, that implies you are limiting disclosure of negative information about yourself: trying to make a good impression, or trying to minimize personal problems.”
Lash waited, cursing himself for completing the tests candidly.
“Some of your clinical scales are most unusual for an Eden candidate. For example, your social introversion scale is high, as is your individual control scale. Taken together, these indicate a loner personality; someone who has perhaps had bad experiences in relationships. Such a person would not be motivated to take such a complete—and expensive—step as coming to us.” He glanced up from the folder. “Understand, Dr. Lash, that I would not usually share such technical details with a candidate. But your being a fellow psychologist . . . well, it’s a unique opportunity.”
A unique opportunity to watch me squirm, Lash thought.
“Such items alone would be of concern to me as an Eden evaluator. But there are also elements of the test—may I be frank here?—that reveal distinct pathonomonic signs. Red flags, if you will.” Another turning of pages. “For example, your amorality and self-alienation scales are unusually high. Your depression scale, though not exactly high, is well above modal. Your vulnerability scale—that is, your degree of sensitiveness to surrounding events—is also high, despite your individual control scale: an anomaly I can’t immediately explain. This all seems like a dangerous cocktail, Dr. Lash. Something I would urge you to have looked at and, if necessary, treated in a clinical setting.”
Alicto closed the folder with an air of finality and turned to the laptop. “Just a few more questions, Dr. Lash. I promise you this won’t take long.”
Lash nodded. Weariness threatened to engulf him.
“How long have you been in private practice?”
“Almost three years.”
“And your specialty?”
“Family relationships. Marital relationships.”
“And your own marital status?”
“I’m single.”
“Widowed?”
“No. Divorced. As you know.”
“Just another control question for the lie detector. Your heartbeat is accelerating, Dr. Lash. I would advise you to breathe slowly. When were you divorced?”
“Three years ago.”
“What was that like for you?”
“I was married. Now I’m not.”
“And you left the FBI for private practice around the same time.” Alicto looked up from the screen. “It would seem that quite an interesting nexus of events took place three years ago: a divorce, a highly dramatic career change. Would you care to elaborate on why the divorce took place?”
Lash felt himself tense. Does he know about Wyre? Is he just baiting me? Aloud, he answered, “No.”
“Why is it so difficult for you to talk about?”
“I just don’t see the relevance.”
“No relevance? For a potential client?”
“I’m here about my future, not my past.”
“One is shaped by the other. But very well. Let’s stay in the past a little longer. Elaborate a little on what you did for the FBI, if you please.”
“I was with the Investigative Support unit out of Quantico. I examined murder scenes, drew up psychological autopsies of the victim and unsub—the perpetrator. I’d look for commonalities between them, look for cause, draw up a profile of the killer and coordinate with NCAVC.”
“How did you feel about doing that kind of work?”
“It was challenging.”
“And were you good at your job?”
“Yes.”
“Then why did you leave?”
It seemed an effort just to blink. “I grew tired of trying to figure out what had gone wrong with people after they were dead. I thought I could be more useful helping them when they were still alive.”
“Understandable. And, no doubt, you saw some terrible things.”
Lash nodded.
“But they didn’t affect you?”
“Of course they affected me.”
“What kind of a toll, exactly, did they take on you?”
“Toll?” Lash shrugged.
“So they didn’t disturb you in any pathological way. They ran off your back, so to speak. They didn’t affect your work or yourself.”
Lash nodded again.
“Could you answer aloud, please, Dr. Lash?”
“No, they did not.”
“I ask because I’ve read a few studies on agent burnout. Sometimes, when people see terrible things, they don’t address them as they should. Instead, they bury them, try to ignore them. And, in time, they come to live in a constant state of darkness. It’s not their fault: it’s the culture of the workplace. Showing pity, weakness, is frowned upon.”
Lash said nothing. Alicto glanced over at the laptop screen, made a notation on the folder. He paused, glancing over the sheets. Then he raised his head again.
“Was there any particular assignment in your prior job that precipitated your decision to leave? Some unusually unpleasant case, say? Some error or lapse of judgment on your part? Something, maybe, that spilled over into your private life?”
Despite the weariness, this question sent an electric twinge through Lash. So he does know, after all. He glanced quickly at Alicto, who was regarding him intently.
“No.”
“I’m sorry?”
“I said, no.”
“I see.” Alicto glanced at the screen again, made another notation. Then he leaned back from the laptop. “That concludes the interview, Dr. Lash,” he said, coming around the table and removing the cap and the finger clips. “Thank you for your patience.”
Lash stood up. The world rocked slightly and he steadied himself on the chair.
“Are you getting enough sleep?” Alicto asked. “Because I’ve observed you seem to be more than usually tired.”
“I’m fine.”
But Alicto was still looking at him closely, with what—now that the interview was concluded—seemed to be genuine concern. “You know, sleeplessness can be common in cases of—”
“I’m fine, thank you.”
Alicto nodded slowly. Then he turned away, raised his hand toward the door.
“What now?” Lash asked.
“You can put on your clothes. Vogel will see you out.”
Lash could hardly believe his luck. After what had gone before, he was sure the psychological interview would take hours. Most lie detector tests were protracted affairs, the same questions repeated over and over in slightly altered form. But this had taken just thirty minutes. “You mean, I’m done?”
“Yes, you’re done.” And the way Alicto said it made Lash hesitate.
“I’m very sorry,” said Alicto. “But in light of the results I’m going to have to recommend against your candidacy.”
Lash stared.
“There’s no point delaying the bad news. I hope you’ll understand. We have to always look at the big picture, what’s best for our clients as a whole, rather than the feelings of a single candidate. It’s difficult. We’ll provide you with some exit literature. Candidates who are declined often find reading it helps get over any feelings of rejection they might naturally have. I’m sure Vogel explained the initial fee is nonrefundable, but there will be no further charges. Take care, Dr. Lash—and bear in mind what I said about the red flags.”
And—for the first and last time—Alicto offered his hand.
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nbsp; FOURTEEN
A lthough it is three in the morning, the bedroom is bathed in merciless light. The two windows facing the deck of the pool house are rectangles of unrelieved black. The light seems so bright the entire room is reduced to a harsh geometry of right angles: the bed, the night table, the dresser. The light sucks color from the room: the wooden veneer of the dresser, the paisley comforter, the broken mirrors, are bleached to the color of bone. All that remains is the red covering the walls.
There is very little blood on the victim; remarkably little, under the circumstances. She lies naked on the carpet like a porcelain doll, alone beneath a circle of sodium vapor lights. Fingers and toes, carefully cut away at the first joint, are arranged like a halo around the head of the corpse.
There is a murmur of background voices, the low susurration of a crime scene being worked:
“Anal probe reads 83.9 degrees. Dead approximately six hours. Lack of rigor’s commensurate with this estimate.”
“Got any latents?”
“Latents is all we got.”
“Security system is central station, but the line was cut at the house foundation. Like with the Watkins girl.”
“Any entrance or egress yet?”
“The squad’s working it.”
Captain Harold Masterton, tall and heavily built, breaks away from a knot of Poughkeepsie police and walks across the room, carefully circling the bank of lights, hands in his pockets.
“Lash, you’re not looking so hot.”
“I’m fine.”
“So what do you know?”
“I’m still assessing. There are contradictory elements here, things that don’t make sense in the context.”
“Fuck the context. You’ve got enough support personnel crunching numbers back in Quantico to man a football team.”
“You’ve got the partial profile already.”
“The partial profile didn’t stop him from killing a second time.”
“I identify them. I don’t catch them. That’s your job.”
“Then give me enough to find him, for Christ’s sake. He’s written his damn autobiography twice now. He bled out two women just to get enough ink. There it is, right in front of our noses. He’s handing himself to you on a fucking plate. So when are you going to hand him to me? Or is he going to have to write it a third time?”
And Masterton gestured toward the wall, which was covered in neatly drawn block letters, crimson and recently dried, an endless litany of desperate words: I WANT TO BE CAUGHT. DONT LET ME KEEP CUTTING THEM. I DONT LIKE IT. THE SAINTS TELL ME TO CUT THEM BUT I DO NOT WANT TO BELIEVE . . .
Lash rose from his bed and went to the door, opened it, and walked toward the living room. The curtains of the picture window were thrown wide. Beyond, moonlight daubed the creamy breakers with a pale blue phosphorescence. The furniture was illuminated with the half-light of a Magritte painting. He sat down on the leather couch and hunched forward, arms resting on his knees, gaze still on the sea.
Earlier, as Vogel had directed him through a series of nondescript hallways and out a side door onto Fifty-fifth Street, he had been aware primarily of rage. He had walked in a red fog to his parking garage, conducting gel still drying on his scalp, throwing away the exit literature Vogel apologetically pressed into his hands. But as the evening wore on—as he’d eaten a light supper; checked his phone messages; conferred with Kline, the psychologist who was covering his practice—the anger ebbed, leaving an emptiness in its place. And when at last he could put off going to bed no longer, the emptiness began to give way to something else again.
And as he sat staring out at the sea, Dr. Alicto’s words came back yet again. You saw some terrible things. But they ran off your back. They didn’t affect your work or yourself.
Lash closed his eyes, unable to shake the lingering sense of disbelief. Going into Eden that morning, he had anticipated a great many things. But the one thing he had not anticipated was rejection. True, he’d gone through it simply as an exercise: the monochromatic Vogel; the annoying, faintly alarming Dr. Alicto—they had not known the real reason he was there. But that didn’t ease his failure. And now he’d come away from the process, not with clearer insight into the Wilners or the Thorpes, but with Dr. Alicto’s low, mellifluous voice buzzing in his head.
Sometimes, people don’t address the terrible things they see. They bury them in a deep place. And they come to live in a constant state of darkness . . .
During his years of analyzing and treating others, Lash had carefully abstained from directing that same searching light upon himself: from thinking about what drove him forward or held him back; about his motivations, good or bad. And yet now, here in the dark, those were the only thoughts coming into his head.
Was there any particular assignment in your prior job that precipitated your decision to leave? Some error or lapse of judgment on your part? Something that spilled over into your private life?
Lash stood up and made his way down the hall to his bathroom. He flicked on the light, opened the cupboard beneath the sink, and knelt down. There, under the extra bottles of shampoo and the blister-packs of razor blades, was a child’s shoe box. He reached for it, removed the cover. The little box was half full of small white tablets: Seconal, appropriated for him by a sympathetic fellow-agent years before, during a raid on a money launderer’s townhouse. When he’d moved to this house, he’d meant to flush them down the toilet. Somehow, he never had. And the sleeping pills had sat there, inhabiting the dark space beneath the sink, almost forgotten. They were three years old, but Lash was fairly certain they hadn’t expired. He grabbed a handful, held them in his palm, stared at them.
And then he dropped them back into the box and replaced it inside the cupboard. That would return him to the bad days, to the months just before—and just after—he left the Bureau. It was a place he did not ever want to revisit.
He rose and washed his hands, raising his face to the mirror as he did so.
Since he’d moved here, gone into private practice, sleep had returned. He could give up this case tomorrow, get back to his regular round of consultations. He could sleep well again.
And yet, somehow, he knew he could not do that. Because even now, as he looked in the mirror, he could see the ghostly outline of Lewis Thorpe, looking back at him through the wash of videotape: always, always, asking the same question . . .
. . . Why?
Lash dried his hands. Then he went back to his bedroom, lay down again, and waited—not for sleep, because sleep would not be coming—but simply for the morning.
FIFTEEN
T he next morning, when Lash stepped out of the elevator onto the thirty-second floor, Mauchly was waiting for him.
“This way, please,” he said. “What have you learned about the Wilner couple?”
Not one for small talk, thought Lash. “Over the weekend, I managed to speak to their doctor, Karen Wilner’s brother, John Wilner’s mother, and a college friend who’d spent a week with them last month. It’s the same story as the Thorpes. The couple was almost too happy, if such a thing is possible. The friend said the one disagreement she’d witnessed had been minor—about which movie they should see that night—and it dissolved into laughter within a minute.”
“No indications for suicide?”
“None.”
“Hmm.” Mauchly steered Lash through an open door and into a room where a worker in a white coat waited behind a counter. Mauchly reached for a stapled document on the counter, handed it to Lash. “Sign this, please.”
Lash leafed through the long document. “Don’t tell me this is another confidentiality agreement. I’ve signed more than one of these already.”
“That was when you were privy only to general knowledge. Things have changed. This document just spells out in greater detail the extent of the punitive damages, civil and criminal liabilities, and the like.”
Lash dropped the document onto the counter. “Not very reassuring.”
“You must understand, Mr. Lash. You are the first non-employee to be given access to the most sensitive details of our operation.”
Lash sighed, took the proffered pen, and signed his name in two places indicated by yellow flags. “I’d hate to see the kind of screening your employees have to go through.”
“It’s much more stringent than the CIA’s. But our pay scales and benefits are uniquely high.”
Lash handed the document to Mauchly, who passed it to the man behind the desk. “What wrist do you wear your watch on, Dr. Lash?”
“What? Oh, the left one.”
“Then would you please extend your right arm?”
Lash did so, and was surprised when the worker behind the desk slipped a silver band around his right wrist, tightening it with what looked like a miniature band wrench.
“What the hell?” Lash jerked his arm away.
“Strictly a security precaution.” Mauchly raised his own right wrist, displaying an identical bracelet. “It’s coded with your unique identifier. While you wear that, scanners can track your movements anywhere inside the building.”
Lash rotated the thing around his wrist. It was tight, but not uncomfortably so.
“Don’t worry, it will be cut off when your work here is complete.”
“Cut off?”
Mauchly, who so rarely smiled, smiled faintly now. “If it was easy to remove, what would be the point? We’ve tried to make it as unobjectionable as possible.”
Lash glanced again at the smooth, narrow bracelet. Although he disliked jewelry—he’d even refused to wear a ring during his marriage—he had to admit the discreet-looking silver band was vaguely attractive. Especially for a manacle.
“Shall we?” Mauchly said, ushering Lash back into the hall and leading him to a different bank of elevators.
“Where are we going?” Lash said as the elevator began to descend.
“Where you requested. Following the Thorpes and the Wilners. We’re going inside the Wall.”
SIXTEEN
F or a moment, Lash simply stared at Mauchly. The chairman’s words came back to him: You’re being given unprecedented access to Eden’s inner workings. You’ve requested—and been granted—a chance to do what nobody with your knowledge has done before.
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