Egor would die.
I remembered the way he’d looked at me on the platform in the station, with his shoulders hunched over, wanting to ask me something and shout abuse at me all at the same time, to shout out loud the truth about the two Watches, the truth he’d seen too early. I remembered the way he’d turned and run for the train.
“They’ll protect you, won’t they? Your Watch?”
“They’ll try.”
Of course they’d try. They’d keep looking for the Maverick right to the end.
That was the answer!
I stopped walking and grabbed hold of my head. Light and Darkness, how could I be so stupid? So hopelessly naïve?
They wouldn’t spring the trap as long as the Maverick was still alive. Making me look like a psychopath out on the hunt, a poacher from the Light Side, wasn’t enough. They needed to kill the real Maverick as well.
The Dark Ones knew who he was—or at least Zabulon did. And more important than that, they could control him. They tossed his victims to him, members of their own kind they didn’t see as particularly useful. And for the Maverick, what was happening right now wasn’t just one more heroic incident—he was totally absorbed in the battle against Darkness. He had Dark Ones coming at him from every side: first the female shape-shifter, then the Dark Magician in the restaurant, and now the kid. He must be thinking the whole world had gone crazy, that the Apocalypse was just around the corner, that the powers of Darkness were taking over the world. I wouldn’t have liked to be in his shoes.
The female shape-shifter had been killed so they could lodge a protest with us and demonstrate who was under threat.
The Dark Magician had been killed to close off any last loopholes and allow them to bring a formal accusation and arrest me.
The kid had to be killed to get rid of the Maverick after he’d played out his part. So they could intervene at the last moment, catch him standing over the body and kill him when he resisted and tried to escape. He didn’t understand that we fought according to rules; he’d never surrender; he’d ignore instructions from some “Day Watch” agent he’d never even heard of.
Once the Maverick was dead I’d be left with no way out. I’d either have to agree to have my memory pulled inside out or depart into the Twilight. Either way Svetlana would blow her cool.
I shuddered.
It was cold. Really cold. I’d thought the winter was completely gone, but that had been wishful thinking.
I held up my hand and stopped the first car that came along. I looked into the driver’s eyes and said:
“Let’s go.”
The impulse was pretty strong; he didn’t even ask where I wanted to go.
The world was coming to an end.
Something had shifted and started to move; ancient shadows had sprung to life; the long-forgotten words of ancient tongues had sung out and a trembling had shaken the earth.
Darkness was dawning over the world.
Maxim was standing on the balcony and smoking as he listened to Lena’s grumbling. It had been going on for hours already, ever since the girl he’d rescued had gotten out of the car at the metro station. Maxim had heard more home truths about himself than he could ever have imagined.
The claim that he was a fool and a womanizer who was prepared to risk getting shot for the sake of a cute little face and a long pair of legs was one that Maxim could take calmly. The claim that he was a swine and a bastard who flirted with a jaded, ugly prostitute in his wife’s presence showed a bit more imagination. Especially since he’d spoken only a couple of words to his surprise passenger.
And now Lena had moved on to total nonsense, she was dredging up those unexpected business trips, the two occasions when he’d come home drunk—really drunk—speculating on how many mistresses he had, commenting on his incredible stupidity and spinelessness, and how they’d prevented him from making a career or giving his family even a half-decent life.
Maxim glanced over his shoulder.
Lena wasn’t even getting worked up, and that was strange. She was just sitting on the leather sofa in front of the massive Panasonic TV and talking, almost as if she meant everything she said.
Was this what she really thought?
That he had a harem of mistresses? That he’d saved that girl because she had a good figure, not because of those bullets that were whistling through the air? That they had a bad life, a poor life? When three years ago they’d bought a beautiful apartment, furnished it so stylishly, and gone to France for Christmas?
His wife’s voice sounded confident. It was full of accusation. And it was full of pain.
Maxim flicked his cigarette down off the balcony and looked out into the night.
The Darkness, the Darkness was advancing.
Back there in the restroom he’d killed a Dark Magician. One of the most repulsive manifestations of universal evil. A man who was a carrier of malice and fear. Who extracted energy from the people around him and subjugated other people’s souls, transforming white into black, love into hate. Maxim knew he was alone against the world, the way he always had been.
But nothing like this had ever happened before; he’d never run into the spawn of the devil two days in a row. Either they had all come crawling out of their foul, stinking burrows, or his vision was becoming keener.
Like right now.
As Maxim looked out from the tenth floor he didn’t see the scattered lights of a city by night. That was for other people. For the blind and the feeble. He saw a small, dense cloud of Darkness hanging above the ground. Not very high, maybe ten or twelve floors up.
Maxim was seeing yet another manifestation of the Darkness.
The usual way. The same way as ever. But why so often now? Why one after another? This was the third! The third time in twenty-four hours!
The darkness glimmered and swayed and shifted. The Darkness was alive.
And behind him Lena went on reciting his sins in a weary, miserable voice. She got up and walked across to the door of the balcony, as if she wanted to make sure Maxim was listening. Okay, that was fine. At least she wouldn’t wake the kids—if they were sleeping anyway. Somehow Maxim doubted it.
If only he really believed in God. Genuinely believed. But there was almost nothing left now of the weak faith that had once consoled Maxim after every act of purification. God could not exist in a world where Evil flourished.
But if only He did, or if there was any real faith left in Maxim’s soul, Maxim would have gone down on his knees right there, on the dusty, crumbly concrete and held his hands up toward the dark night sky, the sky where even the stars shone quietly and sadly. And he would have cried out: “Why me? Why me, Lord? This is too much; this is more than I can bear. Take this burden from me, I beg you, take it away! I’m not the one You need! I’m too weak.”
But what was the point of crying out? He hadn’t taken this burden on himself. It wasn’t for him to abandon it. Over there the black flame was glowing brighter and brighter. A new tentacle of the Darkness.
“I’m sorry, Lena,” he said, moving his wife to one side and stepping into the room. “I have to go out.”
She stopped speaking abruptly, and the eyes that had been full of irritation and resentment suddenly looked scared.
“I’ll be back.” He started walking toward the door quickly, hoping to avoid any questions.
“Maxim! Maxim, wait!”
The transition from abuse to entreaty was instantaneous. Lena dashed after him, grabbed him by the arm, and looked into his face—wretched, desperate.
“I’m sorry, forgive me; I was so frightened! I’m sorry for saying all those stupid things, Maxim!”
He looked at his wife—suddenly deflated, all her aggression spent. She’d give anything now to stop her depraved, lousy husband from leaving the apartment. Could Lena have seen something in his face—something that had frightened her even more than the gangland shoot-out they’d got mixed up in?
“I won’t let you go! I won�
�t let you go anywhere! Not at this time of night!”
“Nothing’s going to happen to me,” Maxim said gently. “Quiet, you’ll wake the kids. I’ll be back soon.”
“If you won’t think about yourself, then at least think about the children! Think about me!” said Lena, changing her tack. “What if they remembered the number of the car? What if they turn up here looking for that bitch? Then what will I do?”
“Nobody’s going to turn up here.” Somehow Maxim knew that was true. “And even if they do, it’s a strong door. And you know who to call. Lena, let me past.”
His wife froze in the middle of the doorway with her arms flung out wide and her head thrown back. Her eyes were screwed up as if she were expecting him to hit her.
Maxim kissed her gently on the cheek and moved her out of the way. Her expression was totally confused as she watched him go out into the hallway. She could hear terrible, noisy music coming from her daughter’s room. She wasn’t sleeping, she’d turned on her cassette deck to drown out their angry voices, Lena’s voice.
“Don’t!” his wife whispered imploringly.
He slipped on his jacket, checking quickly to make sure everything was in place in the inside pocket.
“You don’t think about us at all!” Lena told him in a choking voice, speaking purely out of inertia, no longer hoping for anything. The music was turned up in her daughter’s room.
“That’s not true,” Maxim said calmly. “It’s you who I am thinking about now. I’m taking care of you.”
He didn’t want to wait for the elevator. He’d already walked down one flight of steps when his wife’s final shout came. It was unexpected—she didn’t like to air their dirty laundry in public and she never quarrelled in the entrance.
“I wish you’d love us, not just take care of us.”
Maxim shrugged and started walking faster.
This was where I’d stood in the winter.
It was all just the same: the lonely alley, the noise of the cars on the road behind me, the pale light from the streetlamps. Only it had been much colder. And everything had seemed so simple and clear, I was like a fresh, young American cop going out on my first patrol.
Enforce the law. Hunt down Evil. Protect the innocent.
How wonderful it would be if everything could always be as clear and simple as it used to be when you were twelve years old, or twenty years old. If there really were only two colors in the world: black and white. But even the most honest and ingenuous cop, raised on the resounding ideals of the stars and stripes, has to understand sooner or later that there’s more than just Darkness and Light out on the streets. There are understandings, concessions, agreements. Informers, traps, provocations. Sooner or later the time comes when you have to betray your own side, plant bags of heroin in pockets, and beat people on the kidneys—carefully, so there are no marks.
And all for the sake of those simple rules.
Enforce the law. Hunt down Evil. Protect the innocent.
I’d had to come to terms with all this too.
I walked to the end of the narrow brick alley and scuffed a sheet of newsprint with my foot. This was where the unfortunate vampire had been reduced to ashes. He really had been unfortunate; the only thing he’d done wrong was to fall in love. Not with a girl-vampire, not with a human being, but with his victim, his food.
This was where I’d splashed the vodka out of the bottle and scalded the face of the woman who’d been handed over to feed the vampires by us, the Night Watch.
How fond the Dark Ones were of repeating the word “Freedom!” How often we explained to ourselves that freedom has its limits.
And that’s probably just the way it ought to be. For the Dark Ones and the Light Ones who simply live among ordinary people, possessing greater powers than they have, but with the same desires and ambitions, for those who choose life according to the rules instead of confrontation.
But once you got to the borderline, the invisible borderline where the watchmen stood between the Darkness and the Light . . . It was war. And war is always a crime. In every war there will always be a place not only for heroism and self-sacrifice, but for betrayal and backstabbing. It’s just not possible to wage war any other way. If you try, you’ve lost before you even begin.
And what was this all about, when you got right down to it? What was there worth fighting for? What gave me the right to fight when I was standing on the borderline, in the middle, between the Light and the Darkness? I had neighbors who were vampires! They’d never killed anyone—at least Kostya hadn’t. Other people, ordinary people, think they are decent folks. If you judged them by their deeds, they were a lot more honest than the boss or Olga.
Where was the boundary line? Where was the justification? Where was the forgiveness? I didn’t have the answers. I didn’t have anything to say, not even to myself. I drifted along, went with the flow, with the old convictions and dogmas. How could they fight all the time, those comrades of mine, the Night Watch field operatives? What explanations did they offer for their actions? I didn’t know that either. But their solutions wouldn’t be any help to me anyway. It was every man for himself here, just like the Dark Ones’ slogans said.
The worst thing was I could tell that if I failed to understand, if I couldn’t get a fix on that borderline, then I was doomed. And it wasn’t just me. Svetlana would die too. She’d get embroiled in a hopeless attempt to save her boss. The entire structure of the Moscow Watch would collapse.
If I didn’t get the one thing right.
I went on standing there for a while, with my hand propped against the dirty brick wall. Obsessing, chewing things over, trying to find an answer. There wasn’t one. That meant it was destiny.
I walked across the quiet little courtyard to the “house on stilts.” The Soviet skyscraper made me feel strangely despondent. There was no reason for it, but the feeling was very clear. I’d felt the same thing before, riding past abandoned villages and crumbling grain elevators in a train. A sense of wasted effort. A punch flung too hard, connecting with nothing but the air.
“Zabulon,” I said, “if you can hear me . . .”
Calm. The usual calm of a late evening in Moscow—car engines roaring, music playing somewhere behind the windows, empty streets.
“There’s no way you can have covered every single possibility,” I said, speaking to the empty air. “Just no way. There are always forks in the road. The future isn’t determined. You know that. And so do I.”
I set out across the road without looking right or left, taking no notice of the traffic. I was on a mission, right?
The sphere of exclusion.
A streetcar screeched to a halt on the rails. Cars braked and skirted around an empty space with me at its center. Nothing else existed for me now, only that building where we’d done battle on the roof months before, the darkness, those bright flashes of an energy that human eyes couldn’t see.
And that power, visible to so few, was on the increase.
I was right, this was the eye of the hurricane. This was the place they’d been leading me to all this time. Great. Now I’d arrived. So you didn’t forget that shameful little defeat after all, Zabulon? You haven’t forgotten the way you were slapped down in front of your minions.
Apart from all his exalted goals—and I understood that for him they were exalted—the Dark Magician cherished another burning desire. Once it had been a simple human weakness, but now it had been increased immeasurably by the Twilight.
The desire for revenge. To get even.
To play the battle out all over again.
This is a trait all you great magicians have, Light and Dark—you’re bored with ordinary battle, you want to win elegantly. To humiliate your opponent. You’re bored with simple victories; you’ve had plenty of those already. The great confrontation has developed into an endless game of chess. Gesar, the great Light Magician, was playing it when he assumed someone else’s appearance and took such delight in taunting Za
bulon.
But for me the confrontation still hadn’t turned into a game.
And maybe that was exactly where my chance lay.
I took the pistol out of its holster and clicked the safety catch off. I took a deep, deep breath as if I were about to dive into the water. It was time.
Maxim could sense that this time it would all be over quickly.
He wouldn’t spend all night lying in wait. He wouldn’t spend hours tracking down his prey. This time the flash of inspiration had been too bright. More than just a sense of an alien, hostile presence—a clear direction to the target.
He drove as far as the intersection of Galushkin Street and Yaroslavskaya Street and parked in the courtyard of a high-rise. He watched the black flame glimmering as it slowly moved about inside the building.
The Dark Magician was in there. Maxim could already feel him as a real person; he could almost see him. A man. His powers were weak. Not a werewolf or a vampire or an incubus. A straightforward Dark Magician. The level of his powers was so low, he wouldn’t cause any problems. The problem was something else.
Maxim could only hope and pray that this wouldn’t keep happening so often. The strain of killing creatures of Darkness day after day wasn’t just physical. There was also that absolutely terrible moment when the dagger pierced his enemy’s heart. The moment when everything started to shudder and sway, when colors and sounds faded away and everything started moving slowly. What would he do if he ever made a mistake? If he killed someone who wasn’t an enemy of the human race, but just an ordinary person? He didn’t know.
But there was nothing he could do about that, since he was the only one in the whole wide world who could tell the Dark Ones apart from ordinary people. Since he was the only one who’d been given a weapon—by God, by destiny, by chance.
Maxim took out his wooden dagger and looked at the toy with a heavy heart, feeling slightly confused. He wasn’t the one who’d whittled this dagger; he wasn’t the one who’d given it the highfalutin name of a “misericord.”
They were only twelve at the time, he and Petka, his best friend, in fact his only friend when he was a child and—why not admit it?—the only friend he’d ever had. They used to play at knights in battle—not for very long, mind you; they had plenty of other ways to amuse themselves when they were kids, without all these computer games and clubs. All the kids on the block had played the game for just one short summer, whittling swords and daggers, pretending to slice at each other with all their might, but really being careful. They had enough sense to realize that even a wooden sword could take someone’s eye out or draw blood. It was strange how he and Petka had always ended up on opposite sides. Maybe that was because Petka was a bit younger and Maxim felt slightly embarrassed about having him as a friend and the adoring way he gazed at Maxim and trailed around after him as if he were in love. It was just a moment in one of the battles when Maxim knocked Petka’s wooden sword out of his hands—his friend had hardly even tried to resist—and cried: “You’re my prisoner!”
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