CHAPTER IV
THE MESSAGE
It was nearly a month after Lucas Errol's operation that Bertie and hisbride came home from their honeymoon and began the congenial task ofsetting their house in order.
Dot was thoroughly in her element. The minutest details were to hermatters of vital importance.
"We must make it comfy," she said to Bertie, and Bertie fully agreed.
He had relinquished his study of the law, and had resumed his secretarialduties, well aware that Lucas could ill spare him. He was in fact Lucas'sright hand just then, and the burden that devolved upon him was no lightone. But he bore it with a cheerful spirit, for Lucas was makingprogress. Despite his utter helplessness, despite the inevitableconfinement to one room, despite the weariness and the irksomeness whichday by day were his portion, Lucas was very gradually gaining ground.Already he suffered less severely and slept more naturally.
His last words to Capper at parting had been, "Come again in the springand complete the cure. I shall be ready for you."
And Capper had smiled upon him with something approaching geniality andhad answered, "You'll do it, and so shall I. So long then!"
But the months that intervened were the chief stumbling-block, and Capperknew it. He knew that his patient would have to face difficulties anddrawbacks that might well dismay the bravest. He knew of the reactionthat must surely come when the vitality was low, and progress becameimperceptible, and the long imprisonment almost unendurable. He knew ofthe fever that would lurk in the quickening blood, of the torturing crampthat would draw the unused muscles, of the depression that was its mentalcounterpart, of the black despair that would hang like a paralysingweight upon soul and body, of the _ennui_, of the weariness of life, ofthe piteous weakness that nothing could alleviate.
He had to a certain extent warned Lucas what to expect; but the time forthese things had not yet arrived. He was hardly yet past the first stage,and his courage was buoyed up by high hopes as yet undashed. He had facedworse things without blenching, and he had not begun to feel the monotonythat Capper had dreaded as his worst enemy.
He took a keen interest in the doings of the young couple at the DowerHouse, and Dot's breezy presence was ever welcome.
As for Anne, she went to and fro between Baronmead and the Manor, ofwhich her husband's will had left her sole mistress, no longer leading ahermit's life, no longer clinging to her solitude, grave and quiet, butnot wholly unhappy. Those few words Capper had spoken on the day ofLucas's operation had made a marvellous difference to her outlook. Theyhad made it possible for her to break down the prison-walls thatsurrounded her. They had given her strength to leave the past behind her,all vain regrets and cruel disillusionments, to put away despair and riseabove depression. They had given her courage to go on.
Of Nap no word was ever spoken in her presence. He might have been dead,so completely had he dropped out of her life. In fact, he was scarcelyever mentioned by anyone, a fact which aroused in Dot a curiously keenindignation, but upon which a certain shyness kept her from commenting.She kept him faithfully in mind, praying for him as regularly as sheprayed for old Squinny, who still lingered on with exasperating tenacity,and continued to enjoy such help, spiritual or otherwise, as he couldextract from the parson's daughter.
That Bertie strongly disapproved of his brother she was aware, but sheheld no very high opinion of Bertie's judgment, though even he couldscarcely have forbidden her to pray for the black sheep of the family.She had not been brought up to rely upon anyone's judgment but her own,and, deeply as she loved him, she could not help regarding her husbandas headlong and inclined to prejudice. He was young, she reflected, anddoubtless these small defects would disappear as he grew older. True, hewas nearly four years her senior; but Dot did not regard years as in anydegree a measure of age. It was all a question of development, she wouldsay, and some people--women especially--developed much more quickly thanothers. She herself, for instance--At which stage of the argument Bertieinvariably said or did something rude, and the rest of her logic becamesomewhat confused. He was a dear boy and she couldn't possibly be crosswith him, but somehow he never seemed to realise when she was in earnest.Another of the deficiencies of youth!
Meanwhile she occupied herself in her new home with all the zest of theyoung housewife, returned calls with commendable punctuality, and settleddown once more to the many parochial duties which had been herever-increasing responsibility for almost as long as she could remember.
"You are not going to slave like this always," Bertie said to her oneevening, when she came in late through a November drizzle to find himwaiting for her.
"I must do what I've got to do," said Dot practically, suffering him toremove her wet coat.
"All very well," said Bertie, whose chin looked somewhat more square thanusual. "But I'm not going to have my wife wearing herself out over whatafter all is not her business."
"My dear boy!" Dot laughed aloud, twining her arm in his. "I think youforget, don't you, that I was the rector's daughter before I was yourwife? I must do these things. There is no one else to do them."
"Skittles!" said Bertie rudely.
"Yes, dear, but that's no argument. Let's go and have tea, and forgoodness' sake don't frown at me like that. It's positively appalling.Put your chin in and be good."
She passed her hand over her husband's face and laughed up at himmerrily. But Bertie remained grave.
"You're wet through and as cold as ice. Come to the fire and let's getoff your boots."
She went with him into the drawing-room, where tea awaited them.
"I'm not wet through," she declared, "and I'm not going to let you takeoff my boots. You may, if you are very anxious, give me some tea."
Bertie pulled up a chair to the fire and put her into it; then turnedaside and began to make the tea.
Dot lay back with her feet in the fender and watched him. She was lookingvery tired, and now that the smile had faded from her face this was themore apparent.
When he brought her her tea she reached up, caught his hand, and held itfor a moment against her cheek.
"One's own fireside is so much nicer than anyone else's," she said."We'll have a nice cosy talk presently. How is Luke to-day?"
"Not quite so flourishing. A brute of a dog howled in the night and wokehim up. He didn't get his proper sleep afterwards."
"Poor old Luke! What a shame!"
"Yes, it made a difference. He has been having neuralgia down his spinenearly all day. I believe he's worrying too. I'm going back after dinnerto see if I can do anything. I manage to read him to sleep sometimes,you know."
"Shall I come too?" said Dot.
"No." Bertie spoke with decision. "You had better go to bed yourself."
She made a face at him. "I shall do nothing of the sort. I shall sit upand do the Clothing Club accounts."
Bertie frowned abruptly. "Not to-night, Dot."
"Yes, to-night. They have got to be done, and I can think betterat night."
"You are not to do them to-night," Bertie said, with determination. "Iwill do them myself if they must be done."
"My dear boy, you! You would never understand my book-keeping. Justimagine the muddle you would make! No, I must get through them myself,and since I must spend the time somehow till you come home, why shouldn'tI do them to-night?"
"Because I forbid it," said Bertie unexpectedly.
He was standing on the rug, cup in hand. He looked straight down at herwith the words, meeting her surprised eyes with most unwonted sternness.
Dot raised her eyebrows as high as they would go, kept them so forseveral seconds, then very deliberately lowered them and began tostir her tea.
"You understand me, don't you?" he said.
She shook her head. "Not in the least. I don't think I have ever met youbefore, have I?"
He set his cup upon the mantelpiece and went suddenly down on his kneesby her side. "I haven't been taking proper care of you," he said. "ButI'm going to begin rig
ht now. Do you know when you came in just now yougave me an absolute shock?"
She laughed faintly, her eyes fixed upon her cup "I didn't know I waslooking such a fright."
"You can never look anything but sweet to me," he said. "But it's a factyou're not looking well. I'm sure you are doing too much."
"I'm not doing any more than usual," said Dot, still intent upon thedrain of tea in her cup.
"Well, it's too much for you anyway, and I'm going to put a stop to it."
"Do you know how to read your fortune in tea leaves?" said Dot.
"No," said Bertie. With a very gentle hand he deprived her of thisengrossing pastime. "I want you to attend to me for a minute," he said.
Dot snuggled against him with a very winning gesture. "I don't want to,Bertie, unless you can find something more interesting to talk about.Really, there is nothing wrong with me. Tell me about Luke. Why is heworrying?"
Bertie frowned. "He doesn't say so, but I believe he's bothered aboutNap. Heaven knows why he should be. He was supposed to go to Arizona, buthe didn't turn up there. As a matter of fact, if he never turned up againanywhere it would be about the best thing that could possibly happen."
"Oh, don't, Bertie!" Dot spoke sharply, almost involuntarily. There was aquick note of pain in her voice. "I don't like you to talk like that. Itisn't nice of you to be glad he's gone, and--it's downright horrid towant him to stay away for ever."
"Good heavens!" said Bertie.
He was plainly amazed, and she resented his amazement, feeling that insome fashion it placed her in a false position from which she waspowerless to extricate herself. The last thing she desired was to take upthe cudgels on Nap's behalf, nevertheless she prepared herself to do soas in duty bound. For Nap was a friend, and Dot's loyalty to her friendswas very stanch.
"I mean it," she said, sitting up and facing him. "I don't think it'sright of you, and it certainly isn't kind. He doesn't deserve to betreated as an outcast. He isn't such a bad sort after all. There is awhole lot of good in him, whatever people may say. You at least oughtto know him better. Anyhow, he is a friend of mine, and I won't hearhim abused."
Bertie's face changed while she was speaking, grew stern, grew almostimplacable.
"Look here," he said plainly, "if you want to know what Nap is, he's adamned blackguard, not fit for you to speak to. So, if you've noobjection, we'll shunt him for good and all!"
It was Dot's turn to look amazed. She opened her eyes to their widestextent. "What has he done?"
"Never mind!" said Bertie.
"But I do mind!" Swiftly indignation swamped her surprise. "Why should Ishunt him, as you call it, for no reason at all? I tell you frankly,Bertie, I simply won't!"
Her eyes were very bright as she ended. She sat bolt upright obviouslygirded for battle.
Bertie also looked on the verge of an explosion, but with a grim efforthe restrained himself. "I have told you he is unworthy of yourfriendship," he said. "Let that be enough."
"That's not enough," said Dot. "I think otherwise."
He bit his lip. "Well, if you must have it--so did Lady Carfax till shefound out her mistake."
"Lady Carfax!" Dot's face changed. "What about Lady Carfax?"
"She gave him her friendship," Bertie told her grimly, "and he rewardedher with about as foul a trick as any man could conceive. You heard thestory of the motor breaking down that day in the summer when he took herfor a ride? It was nothing but an infernal trick. He wanted to get herfor himself, and it wasn't his fault that he failed. It was inconsequence of that that Lucas sent him away."
"Oh!" said Dot. "He was in love with her then!"
"If you call it love," said Bertie. "He is always in love with someone."
Dot's eyes expressed enlightenment. She seemed to have forgotten theirdifference of opinion. "So that was why he was so cut up," she said. "Ofcourse--of course! I was a donkey not to think of it. What a mercy SirGiles is dead! Has anyone written to tell him?"
"No," said Bertie shortly.
"But why not? Surely he has a right to know? Lady Carfax herselfmight wish it."
"Lady Carfax would be thankful to forget his very existence," saidBertie, with conviction.
"My dear boy, how can you possibly tell? Are you one of those misguidedmale creatures who profess to understand women?"
"I know that Lady Carfax loathes the very thought of him," Bertiemaintained. "She is not a woman to forgive and forget very easily.Moreover, as I told you before, no one knows where he is."
"I see," said Dot thoughtfully. "But surely he has a club somewhere?"
"Yes, he belongs to the Phoenix Club, New York, if they haven't kickedhim out. But what of that? I'm not going to write to him. I don't wanthim back, Heaven knows." There was a fighting note in Bertie's voice. Hespoke as if prepared to resist to the uttermost any sudden attack uponhis resolution.
But Dot attempted none; she abandoned the argument quite suddenly, andnestled against his breast. "Darling, don't let's talk about it anymore! It's a subject upon which we can't agree. And I'm sorry I've beenso horrid to you. I know it isn't my fault that we haven'tquarrelled. Forgive me, dear, and keep on loving me. You do love me,don't you, Bertie?"
"Sweetheart!" he whispered, holding her closely.
She uttered a little muffled laugh. "That's my own boy! And I'm going tobe so good, you'll hardly know me. I won't go out in the rain, and Iwon't do the Clothing Club accounts, and I won't overwork. And--and--Iwon't be cross, even if I do look and feel hideous. I'm going to be aperfect saint, Bertie."
"Sweetheart!" he said again.
She turned her face up against his neck. "Shall I tell you why?" shesaid, clinging to him with hands that trembled. "It's because if I letmyself get cross-grained and ugly now, p'r'aps someone else--someday--will be cross-grained and ugly too. And I should never forgivemyself for that. I should always feel it was my fault. Fancy if it turnedout a shrew like me, Bertie! Wouldn't--wouldn't it be dreadful?"
She was half-laughing, half-crying, as she whispered the words. Bertie'sarms held her so closely that she almost gasped for breath.
"My precious girl!" he said. "My own precious wife! Is it so? You know, Iwondered."
She turned her lips quickly to his. There were tears on her cheeks thoughshe was laughing.
"How bright of you, Bertie! You--you always get there sooner or later,don't you? And you're not cross with me any more? You don't think me veryunreasonable about Nap?"
"Oh, damn Nap!" said Bertie, for the second time, with fervour.
"Poor Nap!" said Dot gently.
That evening, when Bertie was at Baronmead, she scribbled a singlesentence on a sheet of paper, thrust it into an envelope and directed itto the Phoenix Club, New York.
This done, she despatched a servant to the postoffice with it and satdown before the fire.
"I expect it was wrong of me," she said. "But somehow I can't helpfeeling he ought to know. Anyway"--Dot's English was becoming lightlypowdered with Americanisms, which possessed a very decided charm on herlips--"anyway, it's done, and I won't think any more about it. It's thevery last wrong thing I'll do for--ever so long." Her eyes grew soft asshe uttered this praiseworthy resolution. She gazed down into the firewith a little smile, and gave herself up to dreams.
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