“May I tell him who’s calling?”
“John Jordan.”
“One minute.”
“John?” Bobby said.
“Sorry to call so late.”
“It’s early around here,” he said. “What’s up?”
“I was calling to see . . . I’m having a hard time finding Pelton and Storr.”
“Good.”
“I was wondering if you could help me.”
“With what?”
“Finding them.”
“For what?”
He wasn’t making this easy.
“So I can talk to them.”
“Listen,” he said. “Let me tell you something. The last thing you need to do is go anywhere near them. Understand?”
“No, I don’t guess I do. I thought that was the whole idea.”
“Look, talking about the case, even talking to the family, is one thing, but these are real bad men. There’s no good outcome here. Best case . . . they tell you to go fuck yourself because you’re a kid with no authority or jurisdiction of any kind. Worst case . . . they hurt or kill you.”
“I’m not . . . I wasn’t just gonna . . .”
“Tell you what, you let us handle guys like Pelton and Storr. Last thing you need to be going up against are career criminals like them. You had some good ideas at the crime scene. Morgan was right about you. You got a knack for certain aspects of detection, but theory is one thing, law enforcement is another.”
I didn’t say anything.
“I ain’t tryin’ to hurt your feelin’s. I’m tryin’ to save your life. You know how many cases I’m working right now? You know how many involve violent death? These people don’t play. They will chew you up and spit you out. I got all these cases, but let me just tell you about one of them. This violent serial rapist motherfucker. He attacks this young girl, about your age, Brittany Ann. He beats her into submission and tries to rape her. When he can’t get it up, he rapes her with a hammer. A hammer. But he doesn’t kill her. That’s a relief, right? He tells her she can go. When she stands to leave, he throws her down on her face this time and rapes her in the ass with the same hammer. What would a civilian say or do to a man like that? I’d like to know.”
After hanging up the phone with Battle, I headed straight for the bottle of vodka I had hidden in the suitcase in my closet.
No orange or pineapple or cranberry juice. Just straight vodka from the bottle and keep it comin’.
I had been dismissed, belittled, treated like . . . what I was.
I was angry and frustrated, ready to burn something down––and mostly because he was right.
Who the hell was I? What could I do?
I drank myself to a point just shy of oblivion and then I passed out on top of my made bed fully clothed.
I slept. I dreamt.
Children. Sleeping. Dead.
They all looked so peaceful, so sweet in gentle, innocent repose, but they were all sleeping Shakespeare’s sleep of death.
To die, to sleep—
No more; and by a sleep, to say we end
The Heart-ache, and the thousand Natural shocks
That Flesh is heir to? ’Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep,
To sleep, perchance to Dream; Aye, there’s the rub,
For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come.
When I woke, I called Frank Morgan.
“Good morning, sunshine,” he said.
I mumbled some incoherent response.
“Up all night praying?”
“I had a thought.”
“Well, hold it. I checked the pattern cases’ victims on and off the list as best I could and there’s no indication any were drugged with that chloral hydrate stuff and none were raped after death.”
“So LaMarcus doesn’t fit in the ACM pattern,” I said. “We expected that. But what if he’s part of a different series? That’s what I dreamt last night. A series of similar victims––children all appearing to be asleep but really dead, killed by the same guy who killed and raped LaMarcus.”
“That’ll take a lot longer to find out and I’ll need to call in some favors for help searching the files, but I’ll see what I can do.”
“Thanks, Frank.”
We were quiet a beat, a beat in which I could feel the dull ache in my head more acutely.
“I talked to Anthony Williams,” I said.
“The victim’s biological father? What’d he have to say? How’d you find him?”
I told him.
“You got him to say that?”
“I was thinking, what if it started as him just trying to get his son back so he could make a man out of him? Would explain the use of the drug and him leaving him in the bushes for a while.”
“You’re thinkin’ the overdose was an accident?”
“Maybe. But it wouldn’t explain why he dragged him into his hideout in the bushes.”
“I don’t follow.”
“I mean that particular spot. How’d he know about it?”
“Maybe the kid told him. Maybe he watched for a while before he tried to snatch him. Maybe it was the only clearing back there.”
“Maybe,” I said, “but what none of it explains is the rape. It’s one thing to try to snatch your kid and accidentally kill him, panic and move the body, maybe even stage it to look like something other than what it was, but to rape him . . .”
“Yeah,” he said. “Would seem to rule out it being an accidental overdose or the dad being the doer . . .”
“Unless,” I said, “someone else came along, found him dead, and raped him.”
“Two crimes,” he said, his voice, rising, “two criminals. A killer and a rapist. Could be. Could very well be.”
27
After my morning classes, I drove down to Willie’s German Bakery in the shopping center at the corner of Flat Shoals and Wesley Chapel, grabbed a bag full of eclairs and M&M iced cookies, and drove over to Safe Haven.
The dull ache in my head felt just bad enough to be mildly annoying, but occasionally it throbbed, the pressure pounding with my heartbeat, the pain shooting down my spinal cord.
“Well, look who it is,” Ralph said. “Who could’ve predicted this? The man with too much time on his hands.”
“You sure you’re not happy to see me?” I said. “I brought you an eclair.”
“I wouldn’t say no to an eclair,” he said, “but listen to what I have to say first and see if you still wanna give it to me.”
“Okay.”
He stepped outside the fence and away from the gate to speak to me.
“These poor ladies have been through enough,” he said. “They don’t need you to keep dredging up the most horrific nightmare they ever lived through . . . giving them false hope, raising their expectations . . . all for nothin’. It’s never gonna be solved. Not ever. ’Specially by the likes of you. All you’re doin’ is wasting time and doin’ harm to two people I care about. And why? ’Cause you’re new in town and need somethin’ to do, need some attention from a sweet mama and a pretty girl? Well, the cost is too high. And I’m not gonna let you keep doin’ it. Understand?”
“I understand what you’re sayin’,” I said. “And I genuinely appreciate your concern. I do. Ida and Jordan deserve it. They do. But I’m not doin’ what you’re accusin’ me of. It has nothing to do with me not having enough to do or wanting attention, and I wouldn’t be doin’ it if I didn’t think I could help figure out who did it.”
“Never happen,” he said.
“And you think I’m wrong to even try?”
He nodded. “Because of what it’ll do to them. This ain’t no game or some movie or somethin’. This is people’s lives. Good people. This isn’t theory or book stuff. This is the real world where people are barely makin’ it and you can do damage they can’t come back from. And if you’re just tryin’ to sleep with Jordan, stop it. This ain’t the way to go about it and you don’t
need to anyway. She’s married and too old and too good for––”
“Who is?” Jordan asked as she walked up. “Who’s too old and too good for who?”
“Ma’am?” Ralph asked.
“Who is?”
“I . . . I was just . . .”
“I went by Willie’s,” I said, holding up the bags. “Trade you a little sugar for a little info.”
She turned her attention away from Ralph and onto me, smiling in the process.
“Sounds good. Ralph, we’ll talk about this later. Give you time to remember what you meant.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
She turned and began walking away. I followed, pausing long enough to open the bag and extend it toward Ralph.
“Eclair?” I offered.
“Seriously?”
I nodded.
He started to reach for one but stopped. “You gonna snatch the bag back when I––”
“NO,” I said. “Honest offer. Don’t make the lady wait. Grab one. Hell, grab two.”
He did.
“What was that about?” Jordan asked.
“Just him being protective over you and your mom.”
“I don’t understand.”
“He doesn’t approve of what I’m doing. Thinks I’m stirring things up. Wasting time. Raising false hopes. And he questions my motives. Particularly where you’re concerned.”
She smiled. “Sorry about that. I think he’s always had a bit of a crush. And he is very protective over Mom and me and the kids and everything Safe Haven. Feels like it’s his job to keep us all safe––and I guess it is . . . but he goes way beyond . . .”
“What’s his story?”
“Been our neighbor for as long as I can remember. Lives right over there.”
She turned and pointed behind us to the small red brick house on a hill beyond the many fences of Safe Haven.
“He was so helpful when LaMarcus went missing, calming us, searching the area, dealing with the police. After we found out LaMarcus was . . . gone . . . he helped me and Mom in every way imaginable. He was a cop at one time, but has worked security at South Dekalb mall for . . . well, since I can recall. That’s what he was doing when Mom decided to open Safe Haven and offered him the job. He knew how important it was to her to make the safest place possible for children and he took a pay cut to take the job.”
I opened the bag of cookies and offered it to her. We each took some and ate them as we looked out across the empty playground and Ralph kept looking at us.
“Damn you, Willie,” she said, shaking her fist in the air in mock outrage. “Why do these cookies have to be so good?”
I laughed and we ate some more.
“I talked to Mom,” she said. “Got some more info for you. Seems like that may be the best way for her. Just let me know what you need, and I’ll ask her when I know it’s an okay time and let her tell me in her own way and on her schedule.”
“Thank you,” I said. “So you don’t think I’m wasting time or stirring up things and raising false hopes?”
She shook her head. “The thing Ralph and so many others don’t understand is how much it stays stirred up. If you’re wasting anybody’s time it’s your own, but I don’t think you are and I appreciate everything you’re doin’. Just the fact that you’re interested, that you are––that someone is still doin’ somethin’ about it . . . not just filing it away as another unsolved murder of a black boy . . . It means more than you’ll ever know.”
I nodded, my heart filling, my spirits being buoyed again.
“I do hope Ralph was right about one thing at least,” she said.
“Oh yeah? What’s that?”
“I hope your motives in regards to me are not as pure as they appear.”
I smiled. “I wasn’t aware they appeared pure at all, but if they do . . . just remember . . . things aren’t often what they appear to be.”
“Thank you for saying so,” she said. “It’s sweet.”
We fell silent a moment, munching on the small cookies, enjoying each other’s company, taking in the magnificent mid-morning sun and the way the fall foliage basked beneath it.
“Mom said that LaMarcus worked very hard to keep his little hideout a secret. And he must’ve done a good job because I didn’t know about it. But as I said, I was a self-involved teenager. Mom knew and kept an eye on him when he was in it––but he didn’t know she knew about it. After the killings started, he wasn’t allowed in it because she didn’t want him out of her sight.”
“That was something I meant to ask you before," I said. “Why didn't y'all look in there first? When he first went missing, why not look in his hideout before y'all did anything else?”
“We did. I mean we thought someone did. I was just finding out about it. The whole thing was . . . everything was pandemonium. We were all just rushing around like crazy. I thought Mom checked it. She thought I did. It was . . . It never got checked. At least not in time.”
I nodded.
“Before that,” she continued, “he used to play in it a good bit. The only other person she knows for sure who knew about it and played in it with him was Carlton.”
“Carlton Fields, the neighbor boy who found . . . the . . . LaMarcus?”
She nodded.
“He not only knew where it was but played in it with LaMarcus?”
“Uh huh, but you can’t suspect him. He’s the sweetest boy in the world, a true innocent. He functions at a pretty low level, but he’s guileless.”
“I need to talk to him.”
“Well, it won’t be hard to do,” she said. “His mom’s back in school and is always looking for someone to keep him on Tuesday and Thursday nights.”
28
After leaving Safe Haven, I went back to EPI to find a phone.
Pam Palmer, the college’s registrar, was just leaving for lunch and said I was welcome to the use of hers and the privacy her office afforded.
I called Bobby Battle again. This time at the station.
“Last night’s conversation went so well,” I said, “figured I’d call you again.”
“Sorry if I was discouraging,” he said, “but I’m a straight shooter and I’m just lookin’ out for you. Shit we deal with is no joke.”
“I know,” I said, just to be saying something.
“Got a lot goin’ on,” he said. “What can I do for you.”
“Ralph Alderman,” I said.
“What about him?”
“Why’d he leave the force to become a mall cop?”
“He’s a fuckup. Always was. Didn’t fuck up quite bad enough to become captain but just bad enough so that he had to go.”
“What’d he do?”
“Wasn’t just one thing. It was a lot of shit over a long period of time. Take your pick. Some personal, some professional, some procedural, some just being a fat ass with an annoying personality.”
“Did you look at him for LaMarcus Williams?”
“No. Why?”
“Not even briefly to exclude him?”
“No,” he said. “Hell, he helped us. Functioned like one of the team. Why?”
“Just askin’. Tryin’ to be thorough.”
“Come on,” he said. “What’d he do to make you suspect him?”
“Nothin’. Just––”
“Probably should’ve looked at him,” he said. “Don’t bust my balls about it. I would if the investigation was now. I’ve learned a thing or two since then.”
“Can we look at him now?”
“We?”
I didn’t say anything, just waited.
“I’ll dig around and see what I can find out, but chances are he’s got nothin’ to do with it.”
“But if there’s even a slim chance . . .”
“I said I’d look into it. Take the win. Quit tightening the noose around my neck, and be grateful.”
“I am. Thanks. What about a current cop? Larry Moore?”
“You don’t think he had a
nything to do with it, do you? Larry’s got no class and a bad temper but he’s no child killer.”
“No, I don’t,” I said. “Just asking about him. He’s married to the victim’s sister.”
“Then more’s the pity for her,” he said. “Guy’s a major asshole. But he’s a decent enough cop. I think. He ain’t gonna break a sweat bringin’ in a bad guy, but he ain’t crooked or anything. Far as I can tell. Okay, fun chattin’ with you, but I’ve got to run.”
After I hung up with Battle, I walked into the empty chapel and prayed and meditated for a while, then downstairs to the janitor’s closet and the cleaning cart awaiting me there.
For the next few hours I vacuumed and dusted the classrooms, scrubbed and mopped the bathrooms, vodka pouring out of my pores, the pounding in my head increasing, as I thought about how and why LaMarcus Williams died and who might have done it, about Wayne Williams and if he was guilty or not, who would and would not make my list, were I to make one, about the nature of justice and the way of the world, about Jordan Moore and Ida Williams and the suffering only a mother can know, about my own mother and father and my home and––
“So why do the innocent suffer?”
I turned to see Jordan standing in the doorway.
“Hey. What’re you doing here? Is everything okay?”
She nodded toward the chalkboard in the front of the classroom. On it was written Why do the innocent suffer?
The class belonged to Pastor Jim Oborne, one of the most popular and academically rigorous of the EPI instructors. It was the single remaining remnant of an inspiring and invigorating lecture and discussion about the nature of suffering.
“I had a short break so I walked down to have you tell me why the innocent suffer, why the wicked are rewarded, why the good are punished.”
I laughed.
“Well, I came to see you, but I would like to know.”
“Wouldn’t we all,” I said.
“Seriously,” she said. “Tell me.”
“I don’t know,” I said. “There are a lot of theories, but . . .”
“None you buy?”
I shrugged. “Only one,” I said, “but the truth is asking why is mostly a waste of time. Knowing the why of suffering won’t change it, won’t change anything. Dealing with suffering, sitting with the suffering, alleviating suffering, when and where we can . . . that’s far more . . . useful.”
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