Using it as leverage, she pulled me in close to her and began kissing my chest. The feeling turned me on even more than I already was, causing me to grab her by the hair.
She continued kissing along my chest, stopping to lick on my nipple, alternating her kisses with light nibbles. Before I knew what was happening, she had my belt undone and my zipper down.
Alexa tugged on my pants, trying to pull them down. She wasn’t making much progress, so I helped her by yanking them down myself and tossing them on the floor next to the bed.
When I looked up, I was able to follow her eyes as she was staring at my cock poking through my boxers. My erection was standing straight out, looking like it was trying to break through the barrier of my underwear. Alexa didn’t waste another second.
She slid her hand into my boxers and pulled them down past my knees, where I finished kicking them off onto the floor. With a hand firmly planted on my chest, she pushed me down onto the bed, where I sat, watching as she slid her panties off and unclasped her bra.
She had perfect tits. They were high and perky. My favorite thing about them was the way they jiggled slightly with each move she made.
As she approached me, I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her into me, taking one of her breasts into my mouth. I flicked my tongue over her hardened nipple while I listened to her moaning into my ear. I loved the sounds she made when I was pleasuring her.
She braced herself by placing both of her hands on my shoulder. Every flick of my tongue made her moan a little more. Every soft kiss on her skin was met with a sigh. Each touch I placed on her body made her whimper with pleasure.
I enjoyed the effect I was having on her. She had no idea how bad I’d wanted this. I had a feeling it was going to be good, but I had no clue just how good it was going to be.
My body felt like it was going to explode in anticipation. I couldn’t wait any longer. I moved my hands to her back and run them down until I reached her backside.
She had a fantastic ass. It was high and round, just the way I liked it. I continued kissing, licking, and nibbling on her nipples as I squeezed her ass and pulled her body towards me until she straddled me.
Alexa grabbed my shoulders for support as she raised her ass up and slid her pussy slowly down onto my cock. I tried to play it cool but I couldn’t. I let out a loud groan as the sensation of her slowly sliding down onto me became too much to handle.
I couldn’t believe how tight she was. Her pussy felt amazing wrapped around me like a glove. I wrapped my arms around her and pressed my head against her body, closing my eyes and enjoying the sensation of her moving up and down on me.
She started off by riding me slowly, almost as though she was trying to tease me. I could feel a frenzy starting to build deep inside my body.
As good as she felt on top of me, I wanted more. I wanted to take her harder and faster. I wanted to pound her hard and show her what it was like to be taken by a real man.
Reaching around her body, I lifted her up, turned my body, and tossed her onto the bed. I positioned myself at the side of the bed between her legs and watched as she opened them for me with no hesitation.
I grabbed her legs and entered her, starting off slowly, letting her feel every inch of me sliding into her body. As soon as I was pushed into her as deep as I would go, I leaned down and kissed her deeply.
Alexa wrapped her arms around my neck, moving her hands up and down over the muscles in my back as I pushed myself in and out of her. Her moans became louder and louder until they transformed into uncontrolled screams.
She was losing herself in me just like I was losing myself in her. We were getting lost in one another. This was precisely what I’d wanted since the day I met her. I wanted to show her that I was different. I wanted to make her feel things that no other man had ever been able to make her feel.
I started pumping into her harder and faster, her pussy squeezing my dick tightly. Her legs clamped down around my waist, and her grip on my neck tightened. She screamed loudly as the pleasure of another orgasm took over her.
The sound of her screams and the feeling of her cumming was too much for me to take. I pushed her down onto the bed and emptied myself into her. All of my weight was on her as my dick continued pumping. I came for what felt like forever until I made one last big thrust into her before allowing my body to relax.
I felt the beads of sweat on my forehead and tried to control my breathing, but I felt like I’d just had the best workout of my life. I slowly pulled myself out of her and moved over to her side.
Both of us were out of breath and completely unable to talk. Instead, we both laid together, each of us completely satisfied in ways that we’d never experienced before. I’d finally gotten what I’d been wanting more than anything in the world, and this was only the start of things to come. She was going to be mine from then until the end of time. I just knew it.
10
Nick
The weeks that followed our first time together were some of the best weeks I’d ever had in my life. I couldn’t remember a single time when I’d ever been happier.
Of course, with everything that’s gone down in my life, it wasn’t tough to say that, but I had a feeling that even if I’d had a perfect life up until that point, I still would have felt the same way.
Whenever I was with her, nothing else seemed to matter. Life felt perfect.
The two of us were spending nearly every day together. When I wasn’t working, I was at her place. Most of our time together was spent in bed, but I was more than okay with that.
We spent the holidays with Curtis and Kim, exchanging a few small gifts and having the first real holiday meal I’d ever had. It was by the far the best Christmas of my life.
As Alexa and I spent more and more time together, I was really able to get to know her well. The more I got to know her, the more I realized what a great person she was.
Not only was she gorgeous but she was also the kindest person I’d ever encountered. On top of that, she was a hell of a lot of fun. She was someone I could be completely silly with, and I loved that.
We were always making each other laugh. She was also so caring and generous. No matter what she was feeling or doing, she always made sure that I was happy and completely satisfied in every way.
Being with someone like her was strange. I’d never had the opportunity the be with someone that I wanted to treat so well and I sure as hell had never been with someone who treated me the way she was treating me.
Women in the past just wanted what they wanted, and that was the end of it. Sure, they all wanted different things but in the end, they were all the same. Not one woman I’d ever been with put me first.
When it came to wants and needs, mine were always an afterthought. Nobody had ever cared about what I thought. That’s why Alexa was different. She made me feel like I actually had value. She made me feel like I mattered.
I’d already had strong feelings for her to begin with. Even when I didn’t know her that well, I knew there was something about her that I wanted to know.
Now that I knew her on a much deeper and intimate level, I felt as though I couldn’t get enough of her. During the rare times we weren’t together, I wasn’t able to get her off my mind. I hated being away from her.
When Alexa and I weren’t together, I couldn’t turn my mind off and couldn’t help but let my insecurities get the better of me.
No matter how hard I tried to fight them off, the bad thoughts would always come back to cloud my mind. Did she really feel the same about me as I felt about her?
Neither of us had said I love you to the other. Was it too soon for that? Would that freak her out? I definitely felt it for her. Why hadn’t she said it to me? The only thing I could think of was that she didn’t feel the same way. When we weren’t together, was she with somebody else? Did she wake up one morning and realize she could do better than me?
That was the thing about her and I. Even though I was falling hard
for her and wanted her more than anything, I was smart enough to know that I didn’t actually deserve a girl like her.
She was way out of my league.
A woman like Alexa deserved the best out of life. She deserved to be with someone who had loads of money and could give her flowers and jewelry on a regular basis. She deserved someone who could take her on trips to lavish and luxurious places. She deserved someone who could give her anything and everything she could ever possibly want.
I knew that, when it came to most of those things, I wouldn’t be able to give her what she deserved. No matter how hard I worked, I was going to be stuck working construction for the rest of my life.
My criminal record would ensure that most of the better-paying jobs would stay out of reach for me. I had to put the thought of my criminal record coming to light out of my mind.
I hoped that Alexa would never come to find out about my record because if she did, I had serious doubts that she would love me enough to not care about the trouble I’d been into.
After I was able to buy my truck, I was saving most of my money to get a place of my own. Finally, the day came when I was able to move out of the room Curtis had been letting me stay in and into my own place.
The apartment wasn’t anything to write home about. It was a pretty small studio apartment on the wrong side of town, but it was mine.
It was cheap, and it included most of the utilities, so I didn’t have much to complain about. I didn’t plan on being there all that often anyway.
When I wasn’t at work, I was usually with Alexa so the apartment would be empty most of the time. Still, it was going to be nice to have a space of my own when we couldn’t be together.
Work had been particularly hard for about a week, and I was looking forward to getting off. I had plans for the evening.
I was going to swing by my place, take a hot shower, and meet Alexa for dinner. I’d found a button that said “If it doesn’t scan, it is NOT free” and I couldn’t wait to give it to her.
It was a great cashier pun, and I thought it would go great with the buttons she wore on her vest when she was on cashier duty. I hoped she’d like it.
Those were the kinds of gifts I was able to give her. It wasn’t expensive by any means. As the day went on, I started to develop a bit of a complex about it.
What was I going to do if she didn’t like what I got her?
What if she saw the small box it had come in and was hoping that it was something else. Maybe she expected it to be something nice like jewelry. Was she going to be disappointed? The last thing I wanted to do was disappoint her.
By the time I was clocking out at work, my mind was spiraling into madness. I wished I could turn my brain off when it came to over thinking but I couldn’t. It was something I couldn’t help.
When I got to the parking lot at her apartment, I debated whether or not I should give her the button. Eventually, I grabbed it out of the truck and made my way inside.
When I entered her apartment, I found Alexa sprawled out on the couch, enjoying one of the romance novels she liked to read. Before the door was even closed behind me, she’d already jumped off the sofa and ran over to me for a hug. She wrapped her arms around my waist and rested her chin on my chest, looking up at me with the biggest smile on her face.
“Hey you,” she said as she looked up at me.
She had an adoring look in her eyes. Whenever she looked at me like that, all the doubt and insecurity flew out the window.
That look made me realize how ridiculous I was forever questioning her feelings about me. I grabbed her by both sides of the face and gave her a soft kiss on the lips.
“Hi baby,” I whispered to her as I ran my hands through her hair.
I leaned in a little closer and gave her a kiss on her forehead. As always, she smelled fantastic. I loved standing there, inhaling her scent as I held her in her arms.
“Is everything okay?” she asked.
I was a bit surprised by the sudden concern in her voice and her face as she pulled back a bit to look up at me.
“Yeah, I’m good. It’s just been a rough week at work.”
I followed her into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of beer from the fridge while she jumped up on the counter and started telling me about her day at work.
I always thought it was cute how much she seemed to love her job. I wished I was able to be so enthusiastic about mine. Her eyes lit up when she talked about one of her co-workers or some of her regular customers.
Since she was already talking about her job, I figured it would be the perfect time to give her the gift I’d brought for her. I pulled the small red box out of my pocket and stood right in front of her, holding it out for her to grab.
“I saw this the other day, and I wanted you to have it,” I told her. She smiled as she took it out of my hand, apparently not expecting me to bring her a gift.
My stomach was twisting and turning itself into knots as she opened the box. I remember thinking how ridiculous it was to be getting myself so worked up over something as simple as a button.
“It’s not much really,” I continued. “I hope you like it.”
Alexa slid the top of the box off, and I studied her face, waiting to see what kind of a reaction my gift was going to induce.
She looked down and smiled as she read it before she started laughing out loud. The sound of her laughter was a welcome one. She grabbed my shoulder with one hand as she leaned in to give me a kiss. When she pulled away, she still had a smile on her face.
“Where in the world did you find this?” she asked. “I love it. I’m pretty sure it’s my new favorite button,” she told me as she grabbed her vest from the back of the chair next to us and pinned it to it. “Thank you so much. I can’t wait to wear it at work. You have no clue how many times a day someone makes that dumb joke to me. Maybe the button will make them think twice.” She gave me another hug and a kiss.
“You really like it that much?” I asked her.
“Yes, silly. I love it. You know how I am about my buttons. I love this one because it’s personal and thoughtful. Oh, and because it’s from you.”
Even though she seemed happy and thankful, I couldn’t help but feel stupid about the fact that I’d given it to her at all. Instead of making me happy that I’d given her a gift, I just felt like an idiot. Alexa had never done anything to act like a materialistic person, and I knew she wasn’t, but that wasn’t the point.
“I don’t know,” I started. “I guess I feel like I should have gotten you something better. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and if I buy you a gift, it should be better than a three-dollar button,” I exclaimed, taking a step back and looking down at the floor.
“Where is this coming from Nick?” Alexa asked, surprised at the way I was acting. I knew she didn’t care about the price. She seemed to actually like the button a lot. “I want you to stop thinking that way. I love the button a lot,” she said as she grabbed my shirt and pulled me back towards her. Her hands began to wander, running over my chest and causing my muscles to tense up under her touch. “It was very sweet,” she told me, running her hands up to my face, letting her fingers skip over my stubble.
“I don’t know, Alexa. I just can’t get over the feeling that I’m not good enough for you,” I blurted out. As surprised as she looked, I was even more surprised that I said what I’d been feeling out loud. Alexa’s eyes were wide, and the expression on her face made it seem like I’d just hurt her badly.
“What would make you say something like that to me?” she asked with her eyebrows furrowed at me, visibly upset by what I’d said.
“Well, it’s just that you’re so,” I began, not sure where I was actually going before I opened my mouth. The thing was, I never even meant to say what I said. Yeah, those were my thoughts but I sure as hell never intended to let her know about it. Now I was even more worried because she’d know how fucked up my way of thinking was. “You’re so perfect,” I
continued. “You’re so beautiful and sexy and just perfect while I’m pretty much a nobody. I have no clue what I even have to offer you.”
When I looked up at her, she had the saddest look in her eyes that I’d ever seen. I knew right then and there that I shouldn’t have said anything.
“Nick, I don’t ever want you to think that way. Believe me, I am far from perfect. As for you, don’t ever refer to yourself as a nobody. The time that we’ve spent together since we met has been nothing short of amazing. You’re one of the sweetest men I’ve ever met.”
Alexa pulled me in closer to her, getting rid of any space between the two of us. She wanted to make sure I understood what her feelings were.
“You’re so fun to be around,” she continued. “You’re so funny. You keep me laughing all the time. You are a gorgeous man. You make me happier than anyone has made me in a long time. I love the things you say to me. I love the things you do to me. I love the way you touch me.”
From out of nowhere, she grabbed my hand and put it between her legs. I took the hint and started rubbing her through the sweatpants she had on. She leaned into, giving me a soft kiss before moving her mouth to my ear.
“I love you, Nick,” she whispered.
Time seemed to stand still as I heard those words come out of her mouth. My mind raced, and I thought that my heart actually stopped until I realized that I could hear it pounding in my chest.
My chest tightened, and my stomach felt like it was twisted into knots. My head was spinning as I stared at her, unable to respond. I watched as Alexa inhaled, waiting for some kind of reply from me.
I could tell that she was getting nervous. I was sure she thought that she couldn’t take back what she said.
“You do?” Yeah, those were the two words I managed to choke out of my mouth. Alexa smiled a bit and nodded her head up and down. “I love you so much,” was my response to her as I began kissing her neck lightly, allowing the happiness of the moment and the joy in her words take over.
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