by Alexx Andria
“A lot of things used to be nicer in Detroit,” she commiserated. “Many places look like this now.”
Only a native would truly understand the pride and pain of living somewhere that’d fallen so hard that it couldn’t seem to rise.
Entire swaths of neighborhoods had been emptied, left behind because there was no more industry, no income to sustain them.
People had to eat.
Charlie was a smart girl. I knew her brain would put things together without me having to lead her to the answers.
“That neighborhood we went through, the one with all the fancy houses…did your mom live there?”
I grunted in answer, not fully trusting my voice.
“How’d she end up…”
“In the slums?” I finished for Charlie, to which she nodded. “She fell in love with the wrong person. Her family disowned her for shaming them.”
Charlie’s breath hitched at my admission. “That’s terrible. How could they do that to their own flesh and blood?”
“I guess things work differently when you have obscene amounts of money,” I answered. “They didn’t even come to her funeral.”
“God, that sucks. I’m sorry.”
Discomfort danced along my forearms. I wasn’t used to sharing so much. I didn’t know how to deal with the feeling that I was stripping myself far more bare than shedding my clothes ever had.
“You and your mom, you were close?”
“Yes.”
“How’d she die?”
“Doc said it was heart failure but she’d been pretty young for her ticker to go out like that. Sometimes I think she just couldn’t do it anymore.”
“What happened to your dad?”
“Died in a factory accident when I was ten.”
I grew up that day.
Became the man of the house.
Which meant, I had to find a way to make money.
That’s how I found The Underground.
Charlie’s expression softened as she processed my answers. God, I felt naked but not in a good way.
Maybe it would’ve been better to just suffer the close quarters of the motel room.
At least if we’d fallen to fucking, it would’ve taken my mind off what I was feeling right now.
“Why didn’t you leave after your brother died?” I asked, ready to take the spotlight off of me. “What kept you here?”
“Pride. Rage. Grief,” Charlie answered. “Tommy was my brother, the only family that meant anything to me. And suddenly, he was gone. If it’d been my chickenshit father who’d died in the ring, I might’ve shed a single tear, maybe not, but it wouldn’t have wrecked me. Losing Tommy…somedays I think I’ll never recover.”
I understood that pain.
I felt that way losing my mother.
Kids who grew up fast and hard in this life were taught to hold nothing sacred because bad luck was the only luck they had.
You couldn’t hurt if nothing mattered.
I guess you could say Charlie and I shared the misery of breaking that rule.
I wanted to tell her that the pain would eventually stop but I wasn’t willing to lie.
“Leaving would’ve taken you out of Davonte’s circles.”
“Yeah, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I kept trying to find ways to bring him down. I went to the cops and got no help. Couldn’t prove that Davonte had Tommy killed out of spite. It was my word against his and I had no money to grease the wheels.”
“Davonte has cops on the payroll,” I said, confirming her suspicion. “That’s how he’s able to operate his little kingdom without interference.”
“Why’d you stay?”
“I wanted to prove that I was something,” I said, my wind bitten cheeks heating with my admission. Hell, I never talked about this sort of shit for a reason but I somehow I felt safe sharing it with Charlie. “I wanted my mother’s sacrifice to mean something.”
“You thought you were going to make it out of The Underground?”
“Yeah.”
“That’s a pipe dream Davonte sells to so many kids. He lines his driveway with their bones. The only person getting rich and getting out of this hell is Davonte. That’s why he needs to be stopped.”
I couldn’t argue that fact but The Underground, for all its faults, had given me purpose when I’d been aimlessly searching for meaning.
“I started off as a courier for The Underground. It helped pay the bills for a kid who was too young to get a real job.”
“When did you drop out of school?” she asked.
I couldn’t deny school had seemed trivial but Ma had felt differently. “I didn’t drop out. I graduated high school by the skin of my teeth but I got my diploma.”
“You did?” She didn’t hide her surprise. “I just assumed…”
“Yeah, I know. A lot of kids employed by The Underground don’t graduate. Money in the hand is way more powerful than the dream of something that can’t pay the rent. I get it. But my mother didn’t feel the same. I did it for her.”
“So why’d you get into the cage?”
“Because she got sick. Making something of myself was the only way I was going to get her to the doctors she needed. I was big, strong, and I wasn’t stupid. I thought if anyone had a chance…it was going to be me.”
Charlie spared me the embarrassment of pointing out that I’d failed just as miserably as the others.
My currency had been my fists, my only value as a punching bag for those with more promise.
Fuck, Ma would’ve been crying in her grave if she’d seen what I’d turned into.
“I wanted more for Tommy, too,” she said softly. “I wanted us to leave this place and go to college together. But Davonte got his hooks into Tommy, blew smoke up his ass and promised a future he was never going to deliver. All because I wouldn’t sleep with him.”
“We’ve all got a sob story, sweetheart. No one gets out of this life without scars.”
I wasn’t trying to be a dick. I guess it just came naturally.
But Charlie snapped back with an immediate and hot retort.
“Fuck you. Don’t mock someone else’s pain. Just because you’ve given up and allowed your heart to turn to stone doesn’t mean everyone else has done the same. I honor Tommy’s memory by vowing to take Davonte down. How are you honoring your mother? By sucking Davonte’s dick? Playing by his rules? Taking whatever Davonte wants to dish out? If it weren’t for me, you’d still be Davonte’s lap dog, eating his scraps, so don’t you dare mock my grief. Don’t you fucking dare.”
That heat, that fire…I wanted to burn with it.
I hooked Charlie around the neck and drew her abruptly to me, our breaths mingling in the chill cab.
I held her hot gaze, pinning her with my own.
“I’m not mocking your pain,” I murmured, my stare dipping to the full pout of her lips. “I’m fucking drowning in it.”
And then I sealed my mouth to hers, taking what I desperately needed like my lungs needed air, our lips smashed to one another, fierce and all-consuming.
My tongue found hers, a wild thing seeking to destroy, to claim, and I encouraged whatever violence she could dish out.
I wanted her pain.
I wanted her heat.
I wanted to drink in the bittersweet agony of every tear she’d ever shed.
I wanted all that was Charlie.
And I realized, too late, that a motel room, a truck cab, they were one in the same.
Charlie was my weakness and I couldn’t fight what I wanted any longer.
Come what may, Charlie was mine tonight.
24
Charlie
I was sinking into a black pit of want and need.
Damon’s mouth was hunger incarnate. I could die, my life willingly given under the onslaught of his kiss.
The heat between us fogged the windows, the only barrier between the growing frost outside.
We were rabid, clawing beasts against ea
ch other.
I straddled Damon’s lap, the steering wheel digging into my back as the thick length of him pressed against the hot center of me.
His big, rough hands covered every inch of me.
I moaned against his mouth as his palms found my breasts, filling his hands with the plump flesh.
His touch seared my soul.
Goddamn, I swear we were going to melt the rubber on the tires at this rate.
I’d never known such wild, reckless abandon than what I felt as I shivered in Damon’s arms.
The stubble on his jaw burned the sensitive skin of my jawline but I begged for more as his lips traveled down the column of my neck.
Impatience roughened his voice as he demanded that I take off my shirt.
I didn’t resist.
When he ripped the shirt off, tossing it aside, I melted with anticipation as his gaze lit up with pure hunger.
I never realized how one person could see into the nooks and crannies of every private place in your soul until Damon looked at me the way he was looking at me now.
My bra followed.
Damon’s touch gentled as he found my nipples, hard and aching, tiny pebbled rose-colored points that pouted and begged for his lips.
He didn’t waste time in denying my silent plea.
The moment his lips closed over my nipple, I cried out, a shameful needy sound meshed with his low, guttural groans as he sucked and teased until I was grinding myself against the hard cock behind his zipper.
“I have to taste you first,” he said against my breast and I knew what he wanted. I slid from his lap and shimmied from my jeans, lying against the bench seat, my legs falling open in invitation.
The fire in Damon’s eyes scorched in the most tantalizing way, burning away any hope of refusing him.
Damon propped one leg over the top of the bench seat and the other on the floor as he buried his face between my folds, going deep into my musky center.
I wanted him between my thighs.
I wanted to feel his tongue tasting the very essence of me.
God, I wanted Damon so badly I was shaking with it.
His finger followed, probing as his tongue teased. I writhed, my nipples pebbled and cries slipped from my trembling lips as he drove me to that edge over and over.
“You have no idea how much I’ve wanted this,” he admitted, his voice a husky growl that sent ripples of painfully sweet awareness tripping through my body. “You smell like heaven, baby girl.”
I squeezed my eyes shut as my breath hitched in my chest, my thighs quivering.
I threaded my fingers through his thick hair, pulling spastically as my hips rose greedily.
“D-damon!” I cried, crashing as he sucked and worked my clitoris, that finger crooked inside me, pressing and rubbing against my G-spot unerringly. “Ohh, God….”
I couldn’t escape the crashing pleasure barreling down my nerve endings. I couldn’t stop the keening wail that escaped my lips as I came hard enough to knock me senseless for a long, pulsing moment.
Pleasure so sweet, it was almost painful, rocked my body. Sweat glistened on my skin from the steam between us, the heat chasing the cold.
Damon would be my first.
I would lose my virginity on the bench seat of a beat-up Ford to a man I’d only met by chance.
And I didn’t care.
God, I didn’t fucking care.
I consented with my moans, my hands desperate as I worked to free his cock from his pants.
I needed to feel him inside me.
I wanted Damon to be the one to break me apart.
Raw emotion clogged my throat as my hand curled around his warm length.
Silk and steel.
The perfect contradiction.
Time lost meaning.
The urgency of his touch blotted out all awareness of anything but our bodies yearning to join.
Normal, bizarre — whatever was happening, it simply was.
“I have to have you, Charlie,” his strained tone more arousing than anything I’d ever known. “My cock will split you in half, baby. I’m sorry if it hurts but I have to.”
I wasn’t a child.
My body was ready to accept whatever Damon had to offer.
I was slick with my own juices.
The scent of my own musk on his lips was a heady concoction of lust and desire.
God help me, I wanted to lick it from his mouth.
Damon guided his cock between my thighs, pushing between my wet folds.
I held my breath as he hovered above me, the sweat beading his brow belying the freezing temperatures outside.
“Jesus, Charlie,” he gritted out, his exclamation ending on a groan as he pushed hard and filled me completely. “Oh God…fuck me…”
I couldn’t breathe for a full moment. Damon filled me to the point of mindlessness.
I never imagined it could be like this.
I was suddenly a part of him.
An extension.
We were connected in mind and body through a link of pleasure.
I clutched at him, drawing him closer. “Fuck me, Damon,” I whispered. “Show me what I’ve been missing all these years…”
My plea set off a powder keg behind Damon’s eyes.
Rearing up, he placed one of my legs over his shoulder and drove into me. A pinch of pain caused me to cry out but I didn’t want him to stop.
I knew the pain would fade.
My body would adjust.
And I wanted Damon inside me so badly.
Feeling him move in and out…it was primal and dark.
And beautiful and terrible.
I felt as if I were relinquishing some part of me that I’d outgrown.
Damon’s huge body dwarfed my own but I felt safe beneath him.
I knew this man would slay dragons if they threatened me.
I felt it in the tremble of his hand when he caressed my jaw, the way his gaze quickened when he looked at me.
I didn’t want to question the why of it.
Not yet.
Plenty of questions would demand answers later.
For now…I just wanted to feel Damon all around me.
I would steal whatever pleasure from this moment that I could.
And I would feel no guilt.
25
Damon
My brain couldn’t stop jabbering.
I was inside Charlie.
I’d taken her virginity.
My cock drove into her soft pussy over and over, obliterating that V-card so only a hazy memory would remain.
I was drunk on the knowledge that I was her first.
I’d never been caught up in the virgin game but with Charlie everything was different.
Colors seemed brighter, tastes and smells more powerful.
Her skin was like velvet.
The taste of her pussy was like heaven.
I could die smiling with her musk beneath my nose.
“Charlie,” I murmured over and over, each drive deeper than the last.
Our hips kissed and smashed against one another with a frenetic rhythm.
I was nearly bending her small body in half to go as deep as my cock would let me.
She’d cried out once as I breached her folds but she was like a beast and wouldn’t let me stop.
Her fierce spirit called to mine.
Charlie was made of nails beneath that soft, womanly flesh and that was hotter than anything I’d ever known.
I found her swollen clit and pinched it, knowing it would drive her crazy.
I swallowed her cries greedily and she clung to me with just as much fervor.
I fucked her hard and well.
My climax threatened to explode quick and violent. I tried to slow down, pull back but the greedy little woman wouldn’t hear of it.
“More,” she demanded breathlessly, refusing to let me stop. “I need to feel you inside me.”
I shuddered at the words, my thoughts meldin
g into gibberish.
The pursuit of pleasure was in charge now.
My cock was steering the ship.
Her sweet, tight pussy was hot, wet and deep.
Her pussy swallowed my cock like a seasoned whore, making a mockery of her virginity.
I swelled with pride.
A wet pussy was a ready pussy.
And I’d readied that sweet cove pretty damn good.
And now my little red-haired fox was greedy for more.
I would happily give it to her.
My balls tightened and a groan followed as my body took control.
My thrusts became more erratic, reckless — intent on the final moment of explosion.
Pull out, Damon, I told myself, my hips working hard. Pull out!
But I didn’t.
I couldn’t bring myself to withdraw.
I wanted to fill her with my seed.
I wanted Charlie dripping with my semen.
“I’m sorry,” I gasped as I came like thunder rattling the sky, jet after jet filling my sweet Charlie with everything I was made of. Extreme pleasure blotted out my senses as I thrust like a robot on auto-pilot, mindless yet focused on a single thing.
“Yessss,” I cried from between clenched teeth, each spurt marking my territory in some primitive way that spoke to the beast in me. “Fuck yesssss!”
My cock pulsed as I finished and I could feel tiny spasms in her pussy, clenching at my cock, milking each drop from the shaft, drawing my essence deep inside.
And all I could do was breathe heavily, trying not to collapse on top of her.
If she realized the import of what’d happened, she wasn’t saying anything.
I’d cum inside her.
With no protection.
I might’ve just knocked her up.
And you know what, God forgive me but I didn’t care.
The caveman brain was still in control.
Even though my spent cock was softening, I couldn’t stop from thrusting against her a few more times, tiny, soft motions with my hips, trying to soak every illicit pleasure from this stolen moment.
She whimpered and I kissed her hard.
Charlie was all softness and feminine charm, yielding and giving at that moment.
I stirred, still half-inside her.
I could go again.
